AN:
This chapter is short but so worth it.
Chapter Ten
Elizabeth and Jason stared at one another for what seemed like forever. Finally the moment was broken when Elizabeth looked away. "I can go." "No, no stay. I was finished," "Please don't Jason. I can't fight with you anymore." "Okay. I'm leaving but be careful."
Elizabeth waited until she was certain Jason was gone before breaking down. Tears began streaming down her face as she sat on the bench trying not to sob. "Oh Emily I need you so much. Everything is just so messed up. If you were here... to be honest I'm not sure how different things would be. Jason would still be pushing me, us away," Elizabeth brushed the tears angrily off her face. "I love him so much, but every time we come close to making it work... something happens. Some how everything blows up but I thought this time would be different. Then Micheal got shot and everything... I'm sure you know. I can't tell you how much I hated Jason sitting with Carly knowing his heart was breaking too. He didn't have anyone to lean on... still I hoped someday... I want to hate your brother. It would make things so much easier but I can't. I still love him so much. I told him I needed to move on. I'm sure you know that Jason took over for Sonny. He did it for Carly to protect her and her kids. God, how could he? Does Jake matter that little to him? How could he chose Carly over me and Jake? I... I just don't understand Em. Why Carly? She... she expects Jason to clean up her messes and put his life on hold and he does. Nothing ever comes before her."
Jason listened as Elizabeth rambled on about her regrets and fears. It broke his heart to hear how his friendship with Carly had effected Elizabeth. He had always been there when Carly needed him no matter what. It never occurred to him that it effected other people too.
"I regret lying about Jake. If I hadn't Jake would have his father. Now I don't know if Jake will ever know the man I fell in love with. How could I do that to my little boy? And Cam he keeps asking for Jason. I'm a horrible mother. As angry as I am with Jason I know this is my fault too. I've ruined all our lives."
Jason stood by helplessly as Elizabeth sobbed. He could feel her pain as if it were his own. He would give anything to simply pull her in to his arms. He remembered the night Elizabeth fled from the hospital and the only place she wanted to be was with him. Now she was begging him to let her go. How did things deteriorate so quickly?
The answer was both simple and complex at the same time. Jason had always prided himself on his loyalty but over the years it blinded him. Now he had lost his family. Jason knew there was no way he could ever watch Elizabeth with some one else. It was bad enough that his sons thought of Lucky Spencer as their father. Thankfully he had never had to witness it because Jason didn't know how he would react.
Something had to change, Jason couldn't take anymore pain. He couldn't take knowing that his children needed him, that Elizabeth was near her breaking point. Jason knew he had to be the one to make the first move. He had to show Elizabeth that she and the boys meant everything to him. And he knew exactly where to start.