Conflict and Resolution

by bjxmas

8.09 Citizen Fang thru 8.19 Taxi Driver tag – Dean and Sam at odds over his friendship and loyalty to a vampire. Dean trusted Benny. Sam did not. Mistrust, misunderstandings and lack of communication compounded by stubborn men with hurt feelings. Tension & turmoil between brothers. 100 word drabbles. Sam finally sees and understands...and comes to regret his actions.

10. Whittled Away to Nothing

Chapter Ten – Whittled Away to Nothing

How many times have I chased after him?

How many times have I said I was wrong…that I'm sorry?

It feels so familiar.

Brotherly care.

Sacrifice.

He demands.

I give in.

Another chunk carved out.

I am so tired of bending to his will.

Of hearing that I failed him.

He left me to rot in Purgatory!

Abandoned the hunt for a girl!

Here I am again.

Trying to explain…

And he shuts me down!

Fine.

I'm done.

I can't keep doing this.

Can't allow another piece to be whittled away.

Continually losing who I am.

What I believe in.

The End

bjxmas

July 2013

All standard disclaimers apply.

I absolutely love that Dean is such a caretaker for his family. Love his loyalty and how he puts others first…love it to a point. It's taken me a long time to say it, but enough is enough! It's taken Dean even longer to get to that breaking point, his entire life taken over by his role as protector, and being the guy that he is, he saw nothing wrong with that!

I want the care to be reciprocal, to see Sam step up and do instead of simply say. I know his intentions are good, but his follow-through at times is painfully lacking. And I really don't like it when he comes down on Dean, putting blame on his brother instead of shouldering his own. Neither is perfect, I know that, but it seems like it's always Dean who ends up apologizing and trying to fit into his brother's life.

Like Dean, I'm still angry over Sam not looking for his brother…and then almost seeming putout that Dean came back into his life. I really wish the writers had come up with some reasonable, relatable explanation, but instead Sam is left holding the bag, looking bad and for no good reason.

I'm thankful they've moved past it, glad that Dean again proclaimed his love and devotion to his brother in the S8 finale. Now, in S9 can we please get the same from Sam? Can we please have Sam back totally on the love and support bandwagon? It's in him, it's right there just beyond reach…waiting for some crisis to put Dean in danger so Sam can stand up, proud and strong, and prove his devotion. I can't wait. I will most certainly be cheering Sam when it happens.

Thanks for reading! Comments?

B.J.