Chapter Ten – Thanks For the Memories
Warning: This chapter might be confusing to some people…
James slowly opened his eyes. The room he was in was dark and cold. He sat up and looked around him, realising he was in fact alone; surrounded by a never ending darkness.
"Where the fuck are you?" James yelled as he stood to his feet.
"What have I said about your filthy language?" For the first time in for however long he'd been 'playing', the figure had dropped the technology that disguised his voice. Without the disguise, James could tell it was male, but it only rang with a sense of familiarity that he couldn't recognise. "You're in the final level now, congrats. All you've gotta do is enter the right memory involving only you and Kendall. The right memory will subconsciously be your favourite memory. You only have one chance to get it wrong. If you get your only two chances wrong, I'm going to restart the whole game. Get it right; you go straight to Kendall and go home a happy camper."
"What happened to your voice? Finally gonna reveal the asshole you are," James angrily smirked as he tried to feel around the dark room.
"Heh, when you find Kendall I will," the voice spoke. James knew he had heard the voice before, but he just couldn't put it to a face.
After a while of not hearing the anonymous man speak, James started to blindly guide himself around the room. He had his arms stretched out as he searched for something to grab onto. While he was walking he grunted in pain from the impact of the front of his body slamming into a wall. He shook his head but kept his hands and fingers sprawled on the wall. His palms and the underside of his fingers felt across the smooth surface while he walked sideways. While moving his hands they ran over a thin crevice. With an unseen look of confusion on his face, he moved his hands down until he found a circular, cool object.
James tightly shut his eyes as the sound of Kendall screaming entered his mind again. He shook his head once again to try and calm his eardrums down. Kendall's loud pants of James' name and the pleading screams for help continued though. Assuming the object his hand wrapped around was a doorknob and he was now pressing himself against a door, he twisted the knob then pushed forwards. It was a slight surprise to have an actual door open for him. When it opened he quickly jumped out, squinting at the light.
"That's it! Game over! Kendall's mine! Send us home!" James yelled out into the universe. Only the spoken command didn't work. "Universe! You're mine. Listen," James said angrily.
"It's all back in my command... Where it belongs... I also made it where you can no longer cheat, no matter what." James looked around, still not being able to see anyone. He was standing in a familiar, outstretched hallway. The hall was a lot longer than usual though. He realised it looked similar to a hallway in Kendall's house; specifically the one that had Kendall's bedroom door on it.
The hall had an infinite length that spread really far with an endless amount of doors all lined up one by one on each wall. James slowly walked down the hall, carefully analysing each door.
"If I open the wrong door... Oh god..." James didn't even want to think about what the outcome of that could be. The walls were that wonderful creamy brown colour, exactly like the walls in Kendall's house. Each door had the same brown wood and each shell wall light was in between. James walked to one door, chewing on his bottom lip as he examined it.
The brunet noticed there were a few cracks in the door he could look through; especially the gaps between the door and the hinges, or the door and its frame. He decided to peek through in hopes he could see something. By doing this, he wasn't actually opening the door.
"Bet he didn't think of that..." James whispered as he kneeled down and pressed his ear to the door. As his ear was pressed against the door, he tried his hardest to focus all of his concentration on what lurked behind it.
"Hey James. Uh- If you haven't checked the caller ID then it's Kendall if you have- then, uh, hi." There was a moment of silence from Kendall's voice before he spoke again through a phone on loud speaker in the room James looked into. "So I told you that I really needed to talk to you tonight. But you weren't home and your phone won't answer. Or you won't answer your phone. Either way I'll leave it here so if you hear it you hear it and if you don't you don't. Okay. Well. I. Um. I. I love you. There. I said it. Happy? Well. You wouldn't know. Anyway. I love you. A lot. I love your hair. Your eyes. Lips. Chin. Shoulders. Chest. Torso. Muscles. Arms. Legs. Every part of you. Even the parts I've only ever gotten a little peek at. I love you. I love James Diamond. I've loved you for such a long time now that it's just- I need to tell you. Yeah. I don't wanna take up to long so yeah. I really love you. Kay. Bye."
James could hear some shuffling then the recorded message ended. There was more shuffling that wasn't on the phone being heard from the other side of the door. James listened carefully then moved his head to try and peak in. He managed to see through the small crack, noticing he was looking into his own bedroom. He watched as the James on the other side lay down on his bed, facing the roof. He held his phone above his face while he blushed deeply. He looked deep in thought.
James wanted to open the door in order to get a better look, but he couldn't in case it wasn't the right memory. The James on the other side of the door typed into the phone then held it on his ear. James moved so he could hear better, deciding he would just listen to what he was going to say.
"Kendall, hi, uhmm... I got your message..." The other James said softly. He paused, as if listening to the other end before he started to speak. "Kendall you have no idea how much I really like you. I mean- we've been friends for years. Best friends. Always at each other's sides, always racing to help each other out. You're such a sweet person." James' voice started to slightly waver. "Ever since you told me that secret, I couldn't help but fall for you. I don't even know why. Maybe cause I felt like a chance was there. I know I'm a bit of a whore when it comes to women, but that's because I'm just not satisfied. Then all you have to do is touch me and I'm simply done."
The James who was listening in blushed as he stood up. He knew what that memory was. That was the memory where he and Kendall basically confessed to each other. He loved that memory, he loved it a lot. But he knew it wasn't his favourite. He couldn't have found it that quickly. James then cringed as the sound of wood splitting hit his ears.
When he looked down the hall, he noticed each door had a few small cracks in it. But the cracks were more than enough to look through. James shrugged then walked down the hall, looking at each door carefully. James walked to a random door then bent a little to look through a crack. He looked through to see a nervous James and Kendall sitting on Kendall's bed. James couldn't put a name on the situation at first. "Kendall, are you sure you're ready for this? I mean, we don't have too..." James' voice was shaking with uncertainty.
"Mhmm..." Kendall nodded shyly.
"Well, what do you want to do first?" James asked nervously.
"Uhm, whatever you want... I guess..." Kendall said with the same shyness as early.
The James watching them knew that Kendall wasn't shy to the point he couldn't speak properly. The only time James had seen Kendall being overly shy was the first time they… "This one," James said with certainty.
He stood up straight then twisted the doorknob. He took in a deep breath then opened the door, walking through and straight into the memory, feeling certain this was one of his favourites.
"I guess I'm gonna do whatever I want then..." James said as he scooted closer to Kendall. He rested his hand on Kendall's cheek, slowly snaked it down to the back of his neck. Once his hand was on the back of his neck, he noticed how nervous Kendall actually was. James smiled softly as Kendall closed his eyes. A deep blush exploded over Kendall's face as he sat with James.
James remembered that Jennifer and Katie were out for the weekend on family business Kendall didn't want to attend; which gave them the perfect opportunity to do this. James slowly massaged Kendall's neck as he smiled at him. "We're gonna have to get in the mood first..." James stated.
"You're gonna have to look at me..." Kendall shook his head then bowed it. "Watch this then..."
Kendall softly cussed when James slipped his hand away to stand up. James took in a deep breath then stood in front of Kendall. He was extremely nervous. He had very little experience in this area, but he knew what he was doing. He was shy and scared, all because of Kendall. He took away his emotions and turned him to jell-o. Kendall opened his eyes slowly then watched James. Once James had Kendall's attention, he slowly started to strip.
At first his hands shook, but he got a grip on what he was doing and took control. Kendall chewed on his bottom lip as more of James' beautiful skin was revealed. James kept his underwear on, and was thankful there was a heater. Otherwise the cold Minnesota weather would've surely frozen him. He stepped forwards then kneeled down. He kneeled between Kendall's legs then carefully pushed them open. Kendall blushed like crazy as he looked down to watch James.
"Just tell me if you want me to stop," James smiled sweetly as he started to remove Kendall's pants. Kendall's face could only grow darker with redness as he tried to watch James reveal him.
Once Kendall was left in his underwear and flannel shirt, James started on the task at hand. James ran his hands up Kendall's thighs then stated to massage Kendall's member from the outside of his underwear. Kendall's lips trembled as James continued these actions.
"J-James..." Kendall randomly stuttered as he closed his eyes. Both James and Kendall could feel the blond's penis rise to life. The feeling was arousing to James which made the brunet move uncomfortably as he tried to get a better angle of Kendall.
James started to kiss Kendall's upper legs. He trailed kisses up then stopped when he was facing Kendall's groin. He pressed a kiss to that before continuing up Kendall's body. James slipped his shaky hands up Kendall's shirt as he crawled between his legs even further. James carefully started to push Kendall back with his body. As he wrapped his arms around Kendall's scrawnier body he slowly began pressing his own body to it.
Both boys gasped at the feeling of their crotches touching together. Both of them were hard, and the feeling was immensely amazing. It was as if a large wave had hit the both of them. The wave of lust finally took them over. Their eyes grew darker and their blushes lightened. Their bodies started to heat up as the moment enveloped them along with lust.
James connected their lips as he fully pressed himself against Kendall. Kendall spread his legs and wrapped them around James' lower body as they romantically kissed. James widened his mouth along with Kendall's. He slipped his tongue into Kendall's mouth for the first time. The feeling started to explode in Kendall's mouth as James ran his tongue along his teeth, the inside of his cheeks and his tongue.
Kendall rutted his hips up against James' as James swirled their tongues together. A strong feeling of want and need achingly attached itself to James and Kendall's nether regions. James started to grind down on Kendall while he occasionally pulled away from Kendall's lips to breathe. Once they had caught their breaths Kendall would kiss James passionately again.
Each kiss was better than the last. It was as if through each kiss they were exploring different sections of each other's mouths; sections they didn't even know were there. James was the first one to moan, which only excited Kendall more. Kendall chuckled softly while pulling out of a kiss.
"That noise was so sexy... Do it again..." He whispered huskily. James smirked then started to push his body harder against Kendall's. The feeling made the both of them moan together. The sound of hearing each other moan the first time increased every pleasurable feeling that smashed into their bodies. Perspiration started to sparkle against their skin as they fell deeper into the mood.
As they kissed and moved their bodies together, the more the real world slipped away.
James sat up, leaving Kendall laying on his bed. He basically ripped the flannel button up shirt open so his hands could roam Kendall's flat chest. While his hands explored he started to grind down on Kendall. Kendall moaned loudly, throwing his head back at the feeling of James and the whole thing. They were too caught in their emotions to be nervous at this point.
"K-Kendall, h-how would you like to do- to do it," James said breathlessly as he slid his body back and forth over Kendall's. Kendall panted then looked up at James through dazed eyes.
"However you want..." Kendall said as he bit his bottom lip and closed his eyes. James held Kendall's hips then dragged them down the side of the bed a little. He was quick to remove both pairs of underwear. For a second he was mesmerised by Kendall's body. The way his body laid basically naked except for his favourite shirt on the bed; the way his face started to look flushed and pleasured.
James smiled then laughed softly. "I've never seen anything so perfect in my life..." He stated as he started to prepare them.
"Excuse me?" Kendall blushed as he moved his upper body up a little to look at James.
"You're the definition of perfection," James teased as he looked around. "Uhmm, this might sound stupid, but do you have any lotion?"
"Lotion?" Kendall was confused and slightly flustered with the seriousness. "There's some under the bed... Why?"
"I read somewhere that it makes it easier..." James said as he bent down and looked under the bed. The feeling was slightly painful to his member as his body kind of folded. Kendall sat up and watched as James searched under the bed.
"Why do I have to take it up the ass?" The question slightly shocked Kendall as he didn't think he would ever say that.
"We can try it with me taking it later on if you want..." James said as he looked under the bed. The idea of them doing it again made Kendall grin and burst with excitement.
Once he found the lotion he stood up and looked down at Kendall. That also happened to be the moment where Kendall had seen an aroused James naked for the first time. James' member had grown bigger in arousal as it stood up rather straight. Kendall's mouth slightly watered at the sight.
"You good down there?" James asked as he looked down at Kendall. Kendall sat in silence for a second, trying to not stare at the body part practically in front of his face. Kendall shook his head, not being able to help himself. He leaned forwards and pressed a kiss to it.
James' knees weakened but he stood in one place, moving closer to Kendall. Kendall had never seen anything like James' member before; all of this was new to the virgin. Kendall held James' hips as he started to run his tongue along James' member. James bit harshly into his bottom lip as Kendall moved his mouth over James' penis. James moaned lowly in the back of his throat as Kendall engulfed him.
The present James just stood in the corner, watching the memory carefully. He thought it was cute how inexperienced they actually looked compared to all of the things that they do now. He really did like this memory, but something didn't sit right with him. He walked to the door, deciding he would leave now before he watched him and Kendall have sex. In a way that was slightly creepy to him.
When James walked out and closed the memories door behind him, he realised nothing happened. He looked around, seeing he was in the same hallway as before. "Was that my favourite memory?" James' question was aimed for the figure.
"Nope. You've got one more chaaaannnnccceee~" The figure sang. James looked around again, still not seeing the figure. James grunted then started walking. He examined every door, not knowing which one would hold what he needed.
It was starting to frustrate him. He peeked through many doors and many memories, still not finding anything that seemed right.
"Y'know… You'll actually know it's the right memory when you hear it…" The oh-so-very-helpful voice spoke again. James groaned in annoyance and looked around him.
"You really piss me off," James stated as he started to further down the hall. He looked at one door that seemed to stand out against the rest. He looked to his left then over to his right, quickly checking out the other doors. He shrugged then bent down a little, looking into the crack that split through the door.
He looked in to see a cold Minnesota night. He saw a past James and Kendall sitting on a park swing-set. He knew the park instantly, just by looking at it. It was the park that was at the end of Kendall's street. If you walked straight through it you would walk right into James' street. James and Kendall tended to meet there basically every night to meet up with each other.
Past James rested his head on Kendall's shoulder while they looked up at the night sky.
"I'm so tired…" James complained.
"Whys that? We usually stay up this late anyway…" Kendall chuckled as he rested his head on top of James'.
"No you cutie… I'm tired from running here…" James answered.
"Why'd you run here?" Kendall asked.
"Cause mums having a party I'm supposed to be at. I snuck out for a bit." James said.
"Mums having a barbeque, I know what you mean. I didn't run though…" Kendall stated as he moved his hand to intertwine it with James'. James held his hand then sighed.
"Anyway, what's the time?" James asked as he closed his eyes to enjoy the moment he was sharing with Kendall. Kendall raised his wrist, looking at his watch then smiling. He pushed his swing away from James then started to kick himself back and forth. James watched as Kendall swung, which made him smile then join him.
"It's 11:58. We've got two more minutes…" Kendall laughed as he continued to swing.
"Awesome!" James cheered as he tried to push himself in sync with Kendall. The two boys continued to swing. Kendall kept checking his watch as they swung on the swings, enjoying the peacefulness the empty park produced.
Present James knew the memory. He loved it. It was truly one of his favourite memories with Kendall. But he decided to sit behind the cracked door to watch from a safe distance.
Back in the memory, people all around Minnesota had started their countdowns. They counted so loudly with excitement James and Kendall could hear them from where they sat. James and Kendall stopped their swinging until they were both in sync with each other. They pushed themselves back on 10.
"Ten!" They yelled as they pushed forwards. "Nine!" They yelled as they swung backwards. They started to count down as they swung back and forth. "Three! Two! One!" The sky was fast to light up in fireworks as cheers were heard everywhere.
"Happy New Year!" They cheered as they jumped off the swings and onto the sand. Once they landed in the sand, they broke into laughter then stood up together. James smiled at Kendall, watching the sky reflect colourfully in Kendall's bright green eyes. Everything about that moment looked perfect. In their relationship, at this point, Kendall had been taking it slow. He was scared about falling too deeply. Sure they held hands and would hug, but they had never kissed.
And tonight was the night Kendall was going to change that.
He nervously reached forwards and grabbed James' hands. He pulled the brunet forwards, bringing James closer to him. James blushed lightly as he watched Kendall carefully. Kendall held James' hands as he leaned up enough to press his lips to James'.
Having Kendall's lips against his for the first time was spectacular. The feeling was more than perfection. Their kiss was soft and sweet. James slowly moved his lips against Kendall's. Kendall shyly reflected the movements, allowing the kiss to sweep them both away.
James smiled at the memory. The lectures he got that night and onwards was worth it, because he had finally gotten a taste of Kendall's lips. He still remembers the tingly sensation he got from it. He still remembers how the taste stayed on his lips for weeks afterwards. He still remembers the addiction he got to Kendall for the months that turned to years. To say he had fallen deeply in love for Kendall would be a lie. To say that each fabric that sews together to create his existence was made solely for him to love Kendall would be slightly more accurate.
James smiled at the memories. He instantly felt warm and fuzzy. James stood up, wrapping his hands and fingers around the doorknob. He almost opened the door, but stopped himself. Something about that memory wasn't sitting right either.
He stepped back, deciding against opening the door. He pulled his phone out of his pocket, grinning at the amount of charge it had. To his surprise it had a lot more charge then he thought. He opened it up then started to look through his photos.
He continued to scroll through them, trying to go past all his photos of hockey, celebrities and Kendall. He went past one he had taken before he fell into this stupid world.
"What on earth are you doing?" Kendall smiled as he watched James carefully. James leaned his elbows on the table, perfectly structured arms holding up his phone as James moved into the camera part.
"Smile beautiful." James said in a soft, sweet yet sexy voice. The sensual voice made Kendall blush deeply while he tried smiling. He dropped his head, running his fingers up threw his dirty blonde strands as James continued to take multiple photos. The café they were sitting in was warm and inviting, the perfect definition of cordial."Again- what the heck are you doing?" Kendall chuckled."Capturing memories." James answered."Memories?" Kendall cocked his head cutely to the side which resulted in James' finger rapidly hitting his phone. He smiled behind the phone, chuckling under his breath."Memories. After waking up from such a dream, I realised the time we have together is precious. And I don't want to ever forget moments like this. Memories like this. I'd give up all my memories in a heartbeat just to keep the ones involving you." James said in a playful yet serious, a loving yet amazing voice."Woah- you're in a really cheesy mood today." The blonde pointed out."God! Stop ruining my beautiful moments." The brunette playfully whined.
James grinned at the random memory. The photos he took of Kendall really were adorable. The dark blush that covered his cute face. The way his nose and eyes crinkled up. It made James stupidly grin and blush himself as he looked through his phone more. He was hoping he could find a photo that would help him determine what memory of his was his favourite.
He scrolled through then stopped on a specific photo. He smiled, knowing that it was definitely the right one. He slipped his phone back into his pocket then marched down the hall. He looked at each door, searching for what he now knew he was looking for.
There were so many different memories. Some that he loved and wanted to stop to watch, some of them fucking, then some he would rather just forget about. He started to walk further down the hall, noticing that the further he walked down the younger he got. He was assuming that he was getting younger in each memory; that they were somehow all lined up in order. With this assumption, he knew how far down he had to go.
James then moved into a slow jog. He started to jog down the hall, ignoring the increasing volume of the noises behind each memory. He broke into a run, completely ignoring all the memories behind him. He quickly turned around to see what all the commotion behind him was. He looked back to see the hall start to cave in.
When he slowed his running, the crumbling hall would slow down. But when he picked up the pace, it would start to become more and more destroyed by the second. He decided to stop his running to quickly check in on a random memory to see where he was.
James bent down a little to look through the crack. He looked through to see his primary* school. He watched as a past James who was probably ten or eleven years old awkwardly walked around his school. He held an envelope in his hand while he walked. James watched his younger self carefully, trying to figure out what memory it actually was.
"What's that?" A young Carlos loudly asked past James. Little James blushed and hid it behind his back.
"None of your business…" James said stubbornly. Carlos cocked his head to the side in confusion then he must've decided he wanted to see the envelope. Carlos jumped forwards, yelling about how he was his best friend and wanted to know what he was hiding. James shoved Carlos away from him then started to run.
As little James ran he bumped into Kendall. Kendall yelped then fell to the ground along with James.
"What're you running from?" Kendall innocently asked.
"Carlos wanted to see my thing," James said as he sat up. Kendall pulled himself up to sit in front of James.
"You don't mean your thing thing do you?" Kendall asked for assurance. James blushed and laughed softly, shaking his head.
"My Valentine's day card…" James said softly. Kendall instantly blushed then looked at the brunet.
"You got it? I mean- uh, see ya!" Kendall awkwardly yelled as he ran away. James looked back at Kendall as he ran then back down to the envelope. He opened it up then smiled, not really knowing what he thought when it came to the cards contents. He did know that he loved it. James quickly hid it in his large backpack then continued on with the day.
"Awww… My first valentine..." James grinned, finding the memory adorable. It was one of those things he thought that he had forgotten about.
The hall started to crumble again, so James started to make a break for it. He started to run further down the hall. He started to get a better understanding of where he was, so he knew he must've been getting closer. He must have ran through around three years of memories, which made him awfully tired. If he didn't play hockey or have sex as much as he did, he wouldn't have been able to run as much as he did. James continued running, slowing down a little to catch his breath.
Once he could breathe a little again, he continued to run. It looked as if the hallway was starting to come to an end, so he ran even further. James ran until he reached the final door at the end of the hall. The one door that was pressed against the back wall. It had no cracks, no gaps. Nothing. It was just a door that stood out and felt as if it was drawing James too it. He had one chance now that he was at the end of the hall. One final chance to finally end this game once and for all.
If he wasn't right though, then it would all be a waste of his fucking time. He looked back, noting the entire hall had finally crushed into millions of pieces. He felt as if he already knew what was going to happen. But if it didn't all happen right, then starting the entire game all over again would be a real pain in the arse.
James took in a deep breath, ignoring the hall that had smashed to millions of pieces behind him. He tried to pretend the hall didn't exist anymore. He pretended that none of it was even there. He imagined that the door in front of him, that perfect door at the end of the hall, was the final door. That the door would be the final way out. His one door into victory.
James wrapped his hand around the door knob then took in a deep breath. He breathed carefully as he twisted the knob before pushing it open. The door opened, revealing the memory that laid behind it.
TBC
*Primary school = the equivalent to elementary school. I think… xD
~Whooo! Chapter 10! Had to make a Fall Out Boy reference though, I've been quoting heaps of songs lately. I've got 2 weeks off from school so expect faster and longer updates! *I'm so in the zone right now* - bebo~