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Chapter 10

Motoki sighed before turning around and walking up the next stairs wishing that Usagi would have come out of her place. He thought she was going to when the door opened but then the door closed.

"I better give her some time. I do have things to do at the moment and she isn't going anywhere." Motoki said, while going to his own floor and opening his door.

He walked into his kitchen and started to look around checking out his food making a mental list of things he wanted to get at the store for the party he was going to have later.

He wondered if he could get Usagi to show up later and smiled while thinking of the best way to get her to join him since he thought it was time to take the next step in getting to know her better, personal.

Usagi stood with her hands down her sides while her mind and heart fought. Fighting with herself on hugging and holding onto Mamoru knowing she wanted to pull him close and hold him just as tight as he was holding her but she couldn't do it, not yet.

Usagi knowing it was too soon just couldn't believe at that moment that he wanted her and only her.

"No!" Usagi said moving her head to the side and using her hands to once again push Mamoru back as hard as she could.

Mamoru stood in front of her and again looked surprised that she wasn't responding to him like she used to.

"I won't let you…I know you only want sex Mamoru I can feel your body." Usagi said as she backed up to the wall beside the bathroom while looking down at the front of his pants.

Mamoru glanced down then looked up seeing her eyes down on him.

"I…"

"I won't let you use me, hurt me again!" Usagi exclaimed holding her hands up in front of her like she was going to push him again if he got close.

"Usako….Please….Damn it….Yes I want sex with you but…Shit!" Mamoru said before turning away and running his fingers through his hair while trying to think of the right words to say to her.

"Leave please." Usagi whispered.

"Usako…" Mamoru whispered turning his head.

"Don't call me that."

"Usako….." Mamoru said again making Usagi's heart start to soften by the look in his eyes.

"You raped me." She suddenly said as her mind won that battle with the heart.

"No I didn't!" Mamoru exclaimed surprised and appalled she would say that.

"Yes you did."

"When!" Mamoru asked fully turning towards her.

"Ummm….."

"Oh please….. You wanted me every time except maybe right at first."

"See!"

"Tell me the truth if I would have told you what I wanted would you have stopped me?"

Usagi looked down blushing.

"And you didn't stop me that time or the second time or any time and there were lots of times." Mamoru said with a smile.

"I didn't know what you were doing to me." Usagi said looking back up.

"You learned fast." Mamoru mumbled with an eyebrow going up to match his grin as he noticed Usagi's face turning red.

"Damn it Mamoru! I only now learned what sex really is thanks to the books from the library!"

"I explained it to you the second day. I told you what sex was and what we were doing! I never lied to you over any of it or anything ever. You didn't listen!"

"Ha all you really told me that day was….was….was that sex was something that made you happy and would make me happy. You didn't tell me what the results would be!" Usagi exclaimed as she pointed to her belly.

Mamoru turned away from her while the room filled with silence until Usagi broke it.

"Fine I will never tell anyone that you took advantage of me and don't say you didn't.…I want you to leave. I can't deal with you again. You hurt me that one day. I finally accepted that you used me. I finally accepted that I am alone. I don't want you."

"You don't mean that." Mamoru mumbled walking to her hoping he could get her in his arms and hug her and calm her down.

Usagi looked at him with her eyes wide.

"Yes I do. I saw you with some girl last night and knew then that you didn't want me. I could tell by the way the guys were acting that you slept with her."

"No I didn't! Never with that girl! I haven't been with anyone but you since summer! Sure in the past I had a few girls but since you….no one else." Mamoru said making Usagi wonder if he was telling the truth by his voice.

"If you had cared for me you would have called me more and talked more than just a minute! You would have told me you loved me when we weren't only having sex! I was stupid to listen to you. I shouldn't have believed it. You only said it since you were in a good mood. I guess I did make you happy!"

Mamoru's eyes closed and his hands made fist. He couldn't believe she didn't want him. There were many girls who wanted him.

"So you would rather have Motoki?" Mamoru asked thinking Motoki had gotten into her heart.

"Motoki?... He's nice to me brings me food and compared to you it's not because he's wanting just sex."

Mamoru's head went back up after dipping when she mentioned sex.

"Trust me he wants sex. That man is the one who got me and the others interested in his games with different females. He may be acting like a saint around you right now but he's a devil!"

"Motoki's not like that."

"Damn it Usagi the man's twenty-five, Yes he is! I've known him for two years you've only just met him. Trust me I'm right. He has never settled for only one female ever! He has even told me that the reason he stays in this town is so he can get with the new college freshmen each year! It's one of his games!"

Usagi just stood there looking at Mamoru trying to figure out if he was lying. She knew she didn't know Motoki's age she had never asked and he never told. She thought about the other night when she had half listened to him and the four talking.

Mamoru noticed the surprise on her face and could tell she was thinking.

"He's twenty five Usako. Yes I'm almost five years older than you but he's ten."

Mamoru took a step closer.

"Leave." Usagi suddenly said knowing that if she let him touch her she wouldn't stop him and would let him stay. She needed time to clear her thoughts.

Mamoru stopped and narrowed his eyes upset thinking that she didn't believe him.

"Fine I'll leave but remember my words about the baby….."

"Fuck you Mamoru! Fuck you and your words….You have no control over me now. Maybe during the summer I would have done what you asked but not now! I've grown up more! I know you don't want me for me. No one wants me." Usagi said before running to the bathroom and locking the door after she had it closed.

Mamoru's blinked as the door was slammed. He turned and stomped to the front door and grabbed the doorknob and tried to open the door but found it was locked.

"Stupid girl I….." Mamoru mumbled thinking to himself that Usagi was acting like other girls.

His hand released the doorknob and hung to his side.

"But she isn't like them. Never like them." Mamoru mumbled as he turned and leaned on the door and slide down it. He knew that Usagi wasn't like the girls he knew and he knew she was changing because of him. He hung his head low resting it on his knees.

"I'm sorry Usako." He whispered feeling his eyes start to burn feeling lost for the first time in his life.

Usagi leaned on the door slowly sliding to the floor as the tears came again.

"I lost him." She whispered as her arms went around her body and she hugged herself.

She opened her eyes and turned her head after she heard the front door being closed.

"Oh Mamochan…" Usagi moaned crying as she drew her knees closer to her body.

Mamoru ran to his car and got in and looked to Usagi's apartment building.

"I'll show you!" Mamoru said as he started his car and driving away. His mind went blank on thoughts of the unborn baby at that moment.

Usagi stayed where she was, not moving, late into the night. She heard some knocks now and then with some laughter but refused to move regretting it later in the early morning when she finally did move and her body was stiff.

Usagi walked over to the front door and double checked that it was locked before she made her way to her bed. She crawled under the covers pulling them up over her head and lay in the bed trying to relax her body while remembering how the doctor told her not to get stressed out.

While Usagi rested that morning, Mamoru looked over at the dean's closed office door. He glanced at the note in his hand that had been waiting for him when he had shown up yesterday only to shove it into his pant pocket before he stood up than paced back and forth thinking of Usagi again.

He had stayed awake all night thinking of her and everything she had said about what he had done to her. He spent the most thinking of himself and his future. Hearing Usagi's voice again reminding him that he stole her own future Mamoru covered his ears.

His eyes closed tightly as a picture flashed of her stomach that wasn't flat any more.

He thought about the summer and stood still for one brief second wishing that he had never slept with Usagi.

"Who am I kidding I always knew I would." Mamoru mumbled as his eyes opened thinking of the past and the day he told Usagi what type of girl he wanted. He remembered how he stood out in the hallway and looked back in the room where Usagi had still been sitting, thinking and Mamoru had smiled.

"She listened to me word for word and started becoming that girl. I knew it back at Christmas." Mamoru said before he started pacing again wishing that the dean would show up for the meeting he had sat up with Mamoru.

His mind drifted, as he waited, to the other girls he had sex with knowing at that moment that during the act he had been imagining that it had been Usagi with him each time.

Mamoru had told himself last Christmas that he had to wait for Usagi but the guys, when he showed back up, kept hounding him to get laid and Mamoru finally caved in knowing that he would use which ever girl volunteered her service to him. It would keep his mind off of wanting and using Usagi, Mamoru had told himself that each time he was with another girl. And who was he not to admit he loved the feeling of having sex.

"I had said I would never use Usagi ever….but I did…." Mamoru mumbled thinking again of Usagi and a promise he had made years ago concerning her.

He sighed again before thinking of what Usagi had said the night before and how she thought he raped her. Mamoru still couldn't believe she would think that when he never once thought or dreamed that he was raping her.

Mamoru knew Usagi had been innocent but he never knew that her own mother hadn't had the sex talk with her. Sure he knew Usagi well in the past getting to know her even better during the summer but Mamoru didn't know that personal fact about Usagi not knowing anything about men and women and the act of love making. What mother didn't talk to her own daughter about the facts of life? Mamoru would have thought.

Even Mamoru hadn't been informed by his own parent's much about sex only finding out more from Motoki and the guys after he had gotten to college. Heaven forbid his parents talk about that when it had nothing to do with their careers. Mamoru was his mother's innocent angel after all who knew she wanted him married first before even thinking of sex.

Mamoru stopped pacing when he heard voices and saw the dean and a few other people walking towards him.

Usagi opened her eyes and uncovered her head wondering what time it was. Glancing to her alarm clock she noticed that it was around noon. She closed her eyes and thought about going back to sleep but the growling in her stomach got louder making her realize that was the reason she had woken up.

Getting up Usagi dragged her feet to the kitchen and looked around getting upset that there wasn't already something cooked for her to snack on. She made her way back to the bedroom and grabbed some clothes then dragged her tired body to the shower hoping it would wake her up enough to leave and get a hot meal some place near.

Mamoru paced his dorm room before he sat down on his bed and laughed not believing what had happened to him earlier. A year ago he would have been jumping up and down in joy and pleased with himself but not now he wasn't sure how to feel.

Mamoru had learned from the dean that he had been picked to go overseas to attend another school for two years, all expenses paid. He would be able to go home first then was expected to leave right after Christmas break was over. It was a great opportunity that he couldn't afford to pass.

Mamoru picked up the papers and looked at them in his hands before he threw them away watching them flutter to the floor.

"DAMN IT!" He yelled out before falling back onto his pillows looking up at the ceiling.

"I did the right thing I know I did. I can't let anything get in my way now." He mumbled before looking to the stuff that he knew he would have to pack. He would be taking everything with him.

Usagi walked down the sidewalk slowly stopping every now and then to touch her stomach.

"All right I know you're hungry I'm going to feed you hold on." She mumbled walking again thinking that the pains she was feeling was the baby telling her it was hungry.

She stopped outside of the café and looked in seeing Motoki talking to one of the wait staff.

"He's twenty five Usako…..Ten years older…." Usagi remembered Mamoru saying the night before.

Feeling another sharp pain Usagi knew she couldn't walk any father without eating so she walked in and took a seat and waited for a waitress.

Usagi looked to the woman who smiled at her.

"Hello Usagi how are you doing? You looked tired."

"I am but I'm hungry and that at the moment that is over ruling." Usagi answered looking to the waitress who knew her a little better than the others. The woman was always at work if Usagi showed up.

"Well what can I get you to eat sweetie?"

"Anything that doesn't take too long to cook." Usagi said which got a small laugh from the other woman who nodded her head in understanding.

"The cook's special is what I'll order for you. It's already cooked so take off your coat and stay awhile."

"Thank you oh can I ask you something."

"Sure."

Usagi glanced around seeing that Motoki wasn't near she looked back to the woman.

"Do you know how old Motoki is?"

"Sure do honey. He's twenty five years old going to be twenty six in a few weeks. I can't wait for his birthday party, he throws the best parties. He's a partying playboy, always will be I think which is fine with me." The woman said smiling and giving a wink with a look on her face that made Usagi wonder if she and Motoki had slept together.

"Oh….." Usagi said.

"I'll go get your food be right back."

Usagi nodded before watching the woman walk away. She looked around spotting Motoki near the back hallway talking to a woman while leaning forwarded now and then to whisper in her ear which made her giggle.

"He has never settled for only one female ever….It's a game to him…" Usagi thought she heard Mamoru say again. Usagi stood up and left the building after seeing where Motoki had one of his hands on the woman.

Motoki smiled once again at the girl in front of him. The same one he had gotten with the night before.

She promised she would call him later before she kissed him again. He watched her walk away before walking over to the cash register and watched the waitress who had been walking back with a glass of water that she was going to give to Usagi but noticed she had left.

The other woman left the building smiling after Motoki winked and wished she could have stayed a bit longer.

When she was gone, Motoki reached over and pinched the waitress' behind who smiled and winked while she passed him. Motoki waited but a second before he had her arm and was leading her to the empty office telling himself that he needed to get laid again and it wouldn't wait until that night.

Usagi closed her door and patted her stomach thankful that she had passed a food vendor and was able to get something to eat.

She thought about Motoki before thoughts of Mamoru started flashing with those thoughts over ruling. Her hormones were playing with her at that moment, siding with her heart and over ruling her mind. How could she deny her heart what it always wanted?

Usagi smiled as she took a step forward only to look down when she felt her foot start to slip. Seeing some blood under her and feeling it on her legs, Usagi started screaming.

Mamoru picked up his last bag and placed it in his car before he turned around and looked at the school building.

"One day I'll be back…I hope. But right now I can't let this opportunity pass. I would be a fool if I did…..Damn, It's going to be a long day." He said before getting in his car and driving away from the college that both his parents attended and wanted nothing more than their only son to graduate with honors from.

To be continued.

If I don't post before Christmas I will tell everyone Merry Christmas now and all that other Jazz! Take care and see you on the flip side! EvaC.