Castiel flew to his nest with his arms full of pears. His wing had healed where the harpy had scratched since the day Dean was attacked. But Dean wouldn't leave there nest for three days since his resurrection and Castiel was starting to get concerned. Castiel had made sure to stock the nest with fruits and vegetables he found so when Dean got hungry he would have the choice to eat. Problem was Dean hadn't eaten since he was resurrected. Castiel landed in the nest only to see Dean sleeping. Castiel didn't like when Dean slept now. The only difference from it looking like death was the humans moving chest.

Castiel put the pears down in the neat pile of fruits to the side of the round nest and walked over to the humans still body.

He crouched down and ran his hand through Dean's short hair and bent over and kissed the humans ear.

"Time to wake up love."

Deans eyes opened slowly, looking around before he turned his head in Castiel's direction.

Castiel took a moment to appreciate the humans sheer exotic beauty.

"What's wrong? You won't eat..." Castiel said looking at the pile of food in the corner.

"I'm not hungry." Dean mumbled sitting up and cracking his neck.

Castiel just furrowed his brow.

"Don't be a child Dean. Eat." Castiel said standing up and picking some leaves off a branch that was sticking into the nest.

"Cas... I died." Castiel heard Dean whisper from behind him.

Castiel just turned around raising an eyebrow.

"And?" He asked putting the leaves into the nest and turning them into soft mulch particles in his hand before spreading them on the nest floor.

"And. That's not something you get over quickly..." Dean said slowly.

Castiel just closed his eyes sighing before he opened them again putting his game face on.

"Dean..." Castiel said calmly.

Dean looked irritated.

"You said yourself that messing with life and death like that was dangerous, so why did you go and do it?" Dean asked standing up and stepping forward until they were face to face.

Castiel looked away, feeling his breathing pick up. The human was so right it actually hurt. Deans breath was on Castiel's temple and Casriel knew the human was staring. Waiting for an answer.

"I couldn't lose you..." Castiel mumbled.

It was one thing to heal the fatally injured. It was complete other to bring them back to life once they already passed into the next world.

Castiel glanced back up at the human. Dean just shook his head, his eyes angry.

"You don't mess with that shit Cas. Dammit, how many times did you tell me that every time I found a dead squirrel or something? You know it too." Dean said, his voice filled with anger.

Castiel flinched closing his eyes and shaking his head in denial.

"A squirrel is very different Dean then a..." Castiel shut his mouth, pressing it into a firm line. He caught himself. Barely.

Dean just rose an eyebrow.

"Then what Cas?" Dean asked curiously.

"Then you. You're my responsibility Dean." Castiel said quickly covering up his tracks. It wasn't very convincing but hopefully the human would take it and leave him alone. The last thing he wanted was to drop a bomb on Dean like that.

Dean just rolled his eyes.

"I'm not a baby anymore Cas..." Dean said in a exasperated voice.

"You'll always be my baby." Castiel mumbled looking down at his feet.

"That's not an excuse to bring me back." Dean said angrily.

Dean was just telling him what he already knew deep down. Castiel had repeated it again and again through Dean's child hood. Teaching the human the laws of life and death, the natural balance.

"Would you have rather me let you die?" Castiel asked looking up with tear filled eyes.

Dean furrowed his eyebrows at that.

"I did die Cas. I felt it. You pulled me back." Dean explained.

Castiel knew Dean knew that he was mortal, even if he had no clue he was human. Nothing born naturally was immortal, even if Castiel could live for thousands of years, he too would die eventually.

"Answer the question." Castiel choked out, tears running down his face.

Dean just stared.

When the human didn't respond Castiel's heart shattered in two. How could this human not want to live? Every other human on the planet would beg an angel to do what Castiel did to Dean. To share angel grace was the highest honor anyone could receive in the creators divine kingdom. It shredded Castiel to see someone he loves so much, not want to survive.

"How could you think that?" Castiel choked out, tears running down his face now non stop. This was the first time Castiel had cried in over an century. It felt so alien.

"No...I don't think that Cas." Dean said not meeting the angels eyes.

"Yes you do. Why else would you be complaining?" Castiel asked backing away.

"Because..." Dean looked away not meeting the angels eyes.

Suddenly the tears stopped as Castiel started to understand.

"You don't think you deserve to be saved?" Castiel stated. It wasn't a question.

Deans flinch was clearly visible.

Suddenly anger washed over Castiel. How could this perfect creature that he had nursed and taken care of have this much self hate? Humans were all the same.

"Cas I'm not even suppose to be here. It must feels wrong." Dean said quietly.

Castiel was going to say something but Dean cut him off.

"I'll never be as good as you Cas. I'll never have wings or-or make life or anything. And you know what Cas...I'm afraid okay?"

"OF WHAT?!" Castiel yelled at the human.

"What's dead should stay dead Cas. Your words." Dean said glaring.

"It was my choice Dean." Castiel said angrily.

"Yea? And what about my choice Cas? It's my life..."

"No Dean it's not." Castiel said getting in the humans face, not caring if Dean had a bigger build then he did and had two inches on him.

Castiel shook his head staring into Dean's emerald eyes.

"Not anymore." Castiel whispered.

Dean just stared at him with those gorgeous green eyes.

"You said you loved me. You said you trusted me..." Castiel said.

Dean just furrowed his brow.

"I do love you! And I trust you with everything I've got, but I didn't know you were going to do something so stupid!" Dean hissed out.

"Why? Why is you living so stupid?" Castiel asked full of rage. So much so the wind picked up.

"You told me that when someone or something was resurrected. That it disrupted the natural balance, and that the one who did the resurrecting would die to stabilize the natural order." Dean said with a thick voice.

The fire in Castiel died out like cold water had been dumped on it.

"I don't want you to die Cas. Not for me." Dean sobbed leaning his face in the crook of Castiel's neck as he just stood still.

So that was what this was all about...Dean thought he was going to die?

"Dean. I will never leave you. I promise." Castiel said taking Deans face gently in his hands and pressing kisses over the humans forehead.

"Don't say that. Don't you promise me that." Dean said, tears leaking out of his eyes and dropped to his knees, pulling Castiel with him.

Castiel just held him as the humans breathing escalated.

"Dean. I won't die. I'm an angel. The afterlife doesn't affect me like it does other creatures. When I die...which I will someday. I will be reborn and reborn until the end of time." Castiel said pressing their foreheads together.

Dean just looked at him with red rimmed eyes.

"And when I said that, I didn't mean me Dean. I am not disrupted by the natural order like other are. There are many other... evil creatures...other like myself that resurrect life by the dozens. But I was bore from holy lineage. It's my right to resurrect. I'm not going to die because I saw it fit to let someone live. To save you." Castiel said gently pressing his lips to the humans temple. He then moved his hand up to the humans arm where the handprint was and put his hand over it, letting his grace caress the humans soul. Dean relaxed instantly.

He sniffled before his breathing calmed and he gave a deep sigh of relief.

"That's better." Castiel praised gently smiling.

Suddenly Dean looked up at him for a moment before he lifted his face pressing gentle kisses around Castiels chin. Castiel let him, understanding what Dean needed. Castiel kissed the corner of the humans mouth and then Dean suddenly slammed their lips together, kissing him hard. Dean was suddenly on top of him in the nest kissing down Castiel's neck like a crazed animal scenting its prey.

Castiel gasped when Dean got down to his breast and licked and nipped around the delicate flesh before kissing down Castiel's soft flat belly. Castiel threw his head back and purred when Dean cuddled his face into his chest again and reached a hand out to grasp his downy feathers at the base of his left wing.

Castiel threaded his hand through the humans hair while he sat up and smashed their lips together.

Castiel made the mental link and Deans mind and found it was running in loops.

Love you, love you, love you.

"I know." Castiel gasped out as Dean straddled his hips burying his face into Castiel's chest.

Castiel buried his nose in Dean's hair smelling the forest and warmth and everything he loved in his human there.

Dean suddenly started shifting his hips in quick jerking motions. Castiel gasped when the tip of Dean slid inside him.

He grasped Deans shoulder stopping the human.

Castiel just panted as Dean studied him.

"Y-You really want this?" Castiel asked in a shaky voice.

Dean just purred into his neck. His mind replying for him.

Want you Cas. Wanna be inside you. Wanna make you feel nice. Wanna be connected to you.

Dean just nipped at Castiel throat causing the angel to pant more.

Dean was human, so he couldn't get pregnant right? And he wasn't in heat, so it was unlikely for him to get pregnant anyway. Dean wasn't even an alpha angel so he wouldn't have a knot or anything. I would be a painless process of love and enjoyment. Castiel had suffered so many dry heats. He had no clue what having intercourse even felt like. He was still a virgin.

It would be wrong. Very wrong to have sex with this human, the one he had raised. But he wanted Dean. More then he wanted anything else. He wanted to give Dean everything. And he mostly had, he would leave him his forest, and gave him his milk when he was young, his grace, and now Dean wanted to take his virginity too.

A greedy human indeed, but the the funny part was, that Castiel wanted to give him all of this and so much more. That's how far his love went for this one creature.

He knew that if he took this step, him and Dean will be mated for life. The idea just made his heart swell with fondness for the human though.

He wanted Dean to be his mate. but he wasn't even sure if the mating ritual would work since Dean was not of his species. Frankly, he really didn't care. He wanted to give Dean this. Give himself to the human.

"I've...I've never..." Castiel tried to explain but his brain wouldn't work.

"I know Cas. Me neither." Dean mumbled. His actions running on instinct.

Castiel just nodded. He already knew that.

"Go slow..." Castiel warned. Dean just smiled before he connected their lips and Castiel felt the tip of Dean at his entrance. He was always slick since he was an omega. Slicker during heats but slick none the less.

Dean bottomed out in one go, sliding inside him earning a gasp from Castiel.

Casriel glared at Dean who gave a sheepish apologetic smile.

"Slow. Dean. That wasn't..." Suddenly Castiel broke off with a moan as Dean started moving inside him.

"Oh...Oh..." Castiel moaned throwing his head back and closing his eyes as Dean quickened his pace. It was the most alien thing he had ever experienced. In a good way though.

"So tight." Dean breathed out of breath.

Castiel pushed back on Deans thrust when the human slowed. Suddenly he felt his insides feel warmed when Dean came inside of him. His hole clenched automatically, something omegas did to keep their partners seed inside of them.

Dean squeaked and tried to pull out but found he couldn't.

"Dean relax." Castiel grunted. Castiel pulled Dean flush against his chest, wrapping his arms around his back to keep him still.

"Cas, too tight, too hot." Dean panted weakly. Castiel just massaged his back as his hole clenched around Dean. Castiel should had known better then to join with a human. For all he knew, he could be hurting Dean. But every instinct inside him screamed to keep the human still. Castiel waited as Dean was milked from his orgasm. The human looked at him, his eyes half lidded and dilated. Castiel just joined into another soft kiss with the human.

When Castiel finally felt himself loosen around Dean, Dean pulled out and collapsed on top of him, the side of his face cuddling into Castiel's soft breast. Castiel brought his wings around wrapping over the human, cocooning them into a dark warm shell.

They fell asleep like that, with Dean laying on him and Castiel's lips to the humans temple..

Castiel awoke the next morning feeling more refreshed then he had in years. His heart was pumping with the urge to fly and feel the wind sail under his feathers.

Dean was still laying on him, the side of his head between Castiels breast.

He smiled and ran his hand up the back of Deans skull through the short soft hair, thus making the human stir.

Dean blinked a few times before looking up at the angel.

"Morning love." Castiel smiled reaching down and running his hand over the smooth skin between Dean's shoulder blades.

Dean just turned his face away to yawn and then snuggled his face back into Castiels warm chest.

Castiel felt sad that he would have to get up, but it was dawn and he had duties. When he tried to shift Dean, Dean just moaned.

"Cas, five more minutes I swear." Dean mumbled out without opening his eyes.

Castiel just sighed heavily.

"I would appreciate five more minutes Dean, but time doesn't stop for just anyone." Castiel said gently shifting Dean off of him and into the pile of mulch and soft grasses and feathers. Dean just curled in to himself and sighed going back to sleep. Castiel got up slowly and stood, stretching his wings to their full length. Suddenly Castiel's eyes widened when he saw how low his nest was on feathers.

He sat down on the edge and pulled his wing around, and started ripping feathers out with his hands. Dean was woken up when he heard the plucking sounds and cracked his eyes to watch.

Dean watched him with fascination, smiling widely when Castiel turned his neck, straining it, and started biting at the top where his hands couldn't reach. The fluffy, soft, downy feathers were thrown into the mulch grass pile where Dean laid and Dean smiled wider.

"What?" Castiel asked smiling too.

"Thank you." Dean said snuggling into the soft natural materials. Castiel didn't understand at first. The outer rim of the nest was made of weaved sticks and branches, so if Castiel didn't pluck his feathers every once in a while and replace the soft materials often, the materials would die and lose their softness, and then they would be laying on rough sticks. It was just necessary that he would pluck his feathers so they could be comfortable.

"You don't need to thank me for this Dean." Castiel said tilting his head.

"Yea I do. You've always been there and it's just...I treated you like crap yesterday." Dean said, his voice filled with shame.

Castiel tilted his head.

"Your reaction was expected Dean." Castiel said soothing out his dark black feathers now. There was a pregnant pause before the human spoke again.

"You're so beautiful." Dean said in an envious tone. Castiel looked up and saw Dean staring at his wings.

Castiel blushed deeply looking back down.

The last time he had been called beautiful was when he met that angel...Balthazar.

Castiel stood up looking at the food pile that was still untouched.

"Please eat Dean." Castiel said sincerely before he walked to the edge of the nest, spreading his wings ready to fly.

He looked back at Dean smiling, and Dean just smiled back.

When he jumped out of the nest into the air to take off, he suddenly heard high pitched screams and his head felt like it had been smacked into a rock, he felt his wings lock and suddenly he was tumbling towards the forest floor.