In advance: I´m very sorry.
ALSO: This will be a whole kinda smut but not smut chapter-
NOT FOR EYES UNDER 12 ok
He´s been staring at her for at least one minute now, and her eyes were tearing up slowly as she opened her mouth, nearly unable to speak any clear words.
" Octa-"
And just now, he seemed to cope with that, shaking his head, clenching his fists together. His pupils dilated quickly, and he stared at her.
He came closer to her, and for one second she believed that everything would be good, that he wasn´t angry at her; that he still was enough in love with Meridiana to be in love with Rachel Dare as well.
But then, he was close enough to whisper. Just whisper. That was enough he had to do, just whisper what he wanted to say.
" Everyone. Everyone, but you." He whispered, and she stared up at him, her eyes teared up and she couldn´t help but yelp silently when he continued talking, his mouth working so close to her ear. " Every. Single. Girl. But you, Rachel Dare. How dare you... No!"
At this point he had stopped whispering, taking a few steps back and shouted at her.
" No! You can´t be- I don´t allow you to be her! No, no, no, NO! You are not...You don´t deserve to be Meridiana. Every Single Goddam girl but you. Why does it have to be you? We were friends, Rachel, friends. Maybe not the best, but friends! How dare you do this to me. I don´t allow you to be the girl I´m in love with, you can´t be her! I hate you, I hate you!" He shouted, and she felt tears running down her cheek as she stood there in complete silence, because she knew she dserved his hate. She knew she deserved everyone he would say to her and everything he already said. She deserved everything he would ever say.
And so she embraced his next words.
Take my hand, I´ll teach you to dance
" I hate you! You ruined everything, Rachel Dare- I was in love with her... You can´t be Meridiana, no. No, That´s wrong. I... I hate you!" He shouted at her, and now other people were getting closer to them in the small hallway they stood, and he stared at her, coming closer to whisper again. " I hate you, I hate you. I hate you, Rachel Dare. I hate what you did, because you already knew how this would end. And now? Now the joke is on me- was that your plan all along? The joke is on me, I get it, because I was so rude to you when we first met, hm? The joke is on me, and it always will be, because as much as I hate you, as much as I hate every side of you- even the Meridiana side- I can´t stop thinking about what I would like to do right now. You disgust me, Rachel, Meridiana, whatever your name is right now. Yes, you disgust me- but my heart and mind work so seperate I just really want to pinch you against the next wall and kiss the hell out of you." Octavian whispered, and she looked up at him again, blue eyes and blonde hair he was.
Tears still where streaming down her face, and she couldn´t stop them, she couldn´t say anything besides:" Please...I can...explain..." she stuttered, and he shook his head, angry as he was, still.
I´ll spin you around, won´t let you fall down
Would you let me lead, you can step on my feet
Give it a trym it´ll be alrigth
" I don´t care if you can explain. I don´t care about anything you will ever say again. Just, stay away from me from now on, never talk to me again. Gods, Rachel, why did you do this? Why did you do this to me? Just because I was rude? I´m sorry. But...this... you knew that i was in love with Meridiana, that other side of you...and yet you never said a single word? Who does that, how evil are you deep down in your soul? Why. Did. You. Do. This. To. Me?" He whispered, then crooked his forehead. " And why do I still want to kiss you, after everything you´ve done? Why do I still want to hug you, kiss you, never let you go? Why don´t I slap you and walk away, hating you forever? I don´t know" His voice was barely a whisper now, and he pressed her against the wall she had been leaning on before.
" Why do I still have the urge to kiss you?" He whispered, and she wante to say something, but...couldn´t.
So, instead, she just stared up at him, their lips so close to each other, and fixated her eyes on his´.
And then he did.
Kissed her.
With his arm pressing her against the wall she was standing at, his hand holding hers in a iron grip, refusing to let go. She didn´t even want him to let go, she, being her and everything, would be totally fine with just standing here against this wall, being kissed angrily by Octavian for a long time. Because this, this right here and there made her so happy.
Of course, she knew that it wasn´t good and that she was probably the worst person ever to still enjoy this madness that was going on-
yes, she felt really, really bad for everything she did but this...
being kissed like this by Octavian... that was something else.
The room´s hush, hush
And the, he let go of her, all of sudden, his eyes full of hate and disgust, his lips still so close to hers that if she leaned up she could have easily kissed him again, but rigth now, she didn´t.
" Why?" He whispered to her " Why does it have to be me? Why didn´t you tell me who you were before?" He whispered, and she shook her head, over and over again, biting her lip, not one second looking away from his eyes.
" I wanted to have a bit of fun with you" She whispered back. " I... it never was a part of my plan that we become friends. I wanted to tease you and... this..." She gestured between the both of them as good as she could while being still pressed against a wall. " This was never a part of my plan- I never planned on liking you" She said, and all of sudden Octavian was three steps away from her.
His eyes got even duller if that was possible and he shook his head now, ruffling through his hair.
" But this is excactly what happened now, Rachel- Rachel Elizabeth Dare. Why? You were my best friend" He said, his voice getting louder again. " My own best friend, pulling this cheap as heck trick on me!" He shouted, then his breathing calmed again.
" No." Octavian said. " Just, no. I´m going now" He said, and then, he was away.
She stared as he vanished through the crowds, her body shaking and her throath hurting.
Had that really happened right now?
Still shaking she continued through the day.
And now´s our moment
Take it in feel it all and hold it.
She tried messaging him this evening, tried to explain everything, but he wasn´t online.
His Tumblr Bio had changed, as well, before there had been the ironic 'Tavidiana4ever' but now, there was only a small note at the end saying 'works with Meridiana' and a link leading to all of their pictures.
She even tried calling him, but he wouldn´t answer her.
And then, at midnight or something, a message came, saying: 'Why?'
She texted back before she knew what she was doing.
"I´m so sorry" She typed. Send.
She stared at her screen until another message came.
" I think I just will forget all of this" He texted, and she gulped, tears running down her cheeks again.
" But I won´t" She typed, sended it.
No answer came.
She wouldn´t forget this so easily.
Eyes on you, eyes on me.
We're doing this right.
Cause lovers dance when they're feeling in love.
Spotlight shining, it's all about us.
It's oh, oh, all,
About uh, uh, us.
And every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I've never felt but,
It's all about us.
Suddenly, I'm feeling brave.
Don't know what's got into me,
Why I feel this way.
Can we dance, real slow?
Can I hold you, can I hold you close?
The room's hush, hush,
And now's our moment.
Take it in feel it all and hold it.
Eyes on you, eyes on me.
We're doing this right.
Cause lovers dance when they're feeling in love.
Spotlight shining, it's all about us.
It's oh, oh, all,
About uh, uh, us.
And every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I've never felt but,
It's all about us.
Do you hear that love?
They're playing our song.
Do you think we're ready?
Oh I'm really feeling it.
Do you hear that love?
Do you hear that love?
Do you hear that love?
They're playing our song.
Do you think we're ready yet?
Love I'm really feeling it.
Do you hear that love?
Do you hear that love?
Do you hear that love?
They're playing our song.
Do you think we're ready yet?
Oh I'm really feeling it.
Do you hear that love?
Do you hear that love?
Lovers dance when they're feeling in love.
Spotlight shining, it's all about us.
It's all about us.
It's all, all, all, all.
Every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I've never felt,
But it's all about us.
Cause lovers dance when they're feeling in love.
Spotlight shining, it's all about us.
It's oh oh all about us
(Hey-ey hey)
And every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I've never felt but,
It's oh, oh,
It's all about us.
Ouch! I hurt myself writing this...
ALSO ROLE CREDITS *cinemasins voice*
Omg Hazy no go away
Shut up you´re like 12
*stares*
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*staring intensifies*
- Hazy and Jem :)