CHAPTER 10

A/N: AHH! I haven't updated this in forever….sorry guys =[ I got caught up in my summer vacation! Been hanging out with my friends a lot and recently I just got back from visiting my aunt in New York! As you can see I have been very busy, so sorry again! My writing is a bit rusty but hopefully this chapter will live up to everyone's expectations =]

"Jessi, what are you doing?" She looked back up at him with worried eyes. It looked as if she was caught doing something bad.

"I…just wanted to try something."

Kyle stared wide-eyed at Jessi after immediately catching her drift. After a few moments he realized that they were still in an intimate position and slowly eased his way out of it. He took a deep breath and saw disappointment in Jessi's eyes.

"Jessi…we can't, you know Nicole's house rules." Kyle could barely think of the words to say to her. So many thoughts ran through his head.

"So you're fine with us making out but not with us having sex? Oh yeah Kyle, that makes lots of sense." Sarcasm was dripping from Jessi's every word. Kyle sighed. Jessi…always the blunt one.

"Why all the sudden interest in sex and making out anyways?" Kyle was curious with this sudden change.

"Well I was watching that movie with Lori and Josh and it made me wonder why they make a big deal over it. I want to see what makes it so special…" Jessi just wants to get a sense of this teenage life. She felt like a lost little puppy around Lori, Josh, and everyone else most of the time.

Kyle wasn't really sure of what to say to Jessi. He wasn't really sure of why Josh and Declan think about it so much either.

"Jessi, from what I've heard, sex is special to most couples because it is an intimate bond between two people who love each other. When someone takes advantage of it and chooses to do it with someone they don't truly love, then I don't think it would be as special." Kyle really wasn't sure about where all of this was coming from. It seemed to just build up over the years after gaining more knowledge of society.

"But I do love you Kyle. Don't you get that?" Jessi wasn't afraid to tell Kyle how she felt, but she was afraid that Kyle didn't feel the same. Kyle just nodded. He couldn't say that he loved her back because he wasn't even sure of it. He was still so confused. Jessi realized he wasn't going to say anything so she continued on. "Let me guess…it's your precious Amanda. You love her not me."

"Why must you always compared yourself to her? This isn't a competition." Kyle could feel the tension between them rising and could feel Jessi's glare burning through him.

"Because I have always been second choice to you. Even now, no matter what I do, it seems like I can never win you over. You don't understand how badly I want you to love me too, to feel the same way about me that I feel about you." Kyle took a moment to take this in.

"I do have feelings for you Jessi; I am just having trouble figuring out how intense those feelings are. There are a lot of times where I think that I do love you." Jessi's heart stopped slightly at those last few words. She was just about to smile and give in to his sweetness when she finally registered fully that last sentence. He thinks…?

"Would it be such a bad thing if you did? You have never had trouble saying that you love Amanda but when it comes to me you question it." Kyle was speechless, he just confessed that he may love her and she just turned it against him.

"I need to think about this." Kyle gave Jessi an apologetic look and left her room before she could say anything. Jessi felt her heart break even more and suddenly felt the urge to cry. She curled up in her bed and just buried her face in her pillow.

Kyle was about to head to his room to go sit in his tub and think but then decided he would rather go for a run. As he strode out the door he started running. He wasn't sure of a destination; all he knew was that for the first time in his life he felt like running away from his problems. He wanted to what the right choice was; he was tired of hurting Jessi over and over again.

As he left Jessi's room, Kyle could hear muffled sobs behind her door. He hated leaving her like that; it created a huge ache in his heart. Remembering this triggered another memory, the time he held her tight as she cried in his arms after finding out that Cassidy was connected to Sarah's disappearance. As her tears began to soak his shirt, he looked down and saw her necklace starting to glow red. Then, Kyle looked down at his own and saw the same color glowing on his very own necklace. Kyle remembered thinking about how it only began to glow as they touched. Amanda's was red too though…

Before he knew it he was in the woods. Where everything began and where he always seemed to end up when things go wrong. He remembered when he ran away from the Tragers and when Jessi ran away. Kyle remembered when he found her, ready to jump and end it all. She is worth so much more than she would ever think. With that thought, every moment with her began to flash before his eyes. The first time they saw each other, the first time they met, every touch, every hug, every kiss.

Jessi was right. All this time, I have been busy questioning my feelings for her when always I had the answer in front of me. Amanda had also been right the day she decided to let me go, I did need Jessi as much as she needed me. Although I really did love Amanda, without me realizing it, my heart has always beat for Jessi. I do love her.

Kyle smiled as he finally made up his mind. His smiled quickly faded away as new thoughts entered his mind. But is it too late? I have already hurt her so many times, and after tonight, what if she doesn't believe me?

Kyle started to head back home, he needed to see Jessi. With every step he grew more anxious to see her, causing him to accelerate. When he finally reached home, he entered as quietly as possible not wanting to wake up the Tragers.

Finally he reached Jessi's door. Kyle took a deep breath and opened the door. When he saw Jessi, guilt rushed over him. She was already asleep, but tears stained her cheeks. Kyle walked over to her and brushed his hand over her cheek. Her face was soaked with tears and her nose was red. Gently, he wiped her tears away and tucked her hair behind her ears. Beautiful.

As he admired Jessi's beauty, her eyes then began to flutter open. It took a while for her vision to clear; her eyes were puffy and red from crying herself to sleep. At first, she thought she was seeing things when she opened her eyes and saw Kyle. To her surprise, he was really there, looking down at her.

"Kyle? What are you doing here?" Jessi's voice was raspy from just waking up.

"I came to see you." Kyle hoped Jessi would hear him out. She just looked away and fixed the pillow underneath her head.

"I just want to be alone right now."

"I need to talk to you."

"Can't it wait until later?"

"Jessi, please?" She sighed.

"Go ahead." She still kept no eye contact, she couldn't look at him. She felt as if she would start crying again if she did.

"I'm sorry about earlier…No, I'm sorry about everything. You were right; I shouldn't have questioned my feelings for you."

"Don't pity me. I'm fine."

"I'm not telling you this for pity, I'm telling you this because I love you." Jessi's head then snapped towards Kyle and her eyes were filled with surprise.

"What did you say?" She couldn't believe it, she wouldn't believe it. There was no way Kyle could have changed his mind so quickly.

"I love you."

"Please…don't…" She didn't want to be hurt again. She had lost enough tears for one night.

"I mean it. I know it took me a long time to realize it, but you have to believe me…"

"I don't know, Kyle." Kyle was trying to figure out how to have her believe him. Right then, the idea struck him. He had to prove it to her.

"Then let me prove it to you." He held out his hand for her but she just looked at his skeptically.

"How?" Kyle smiled at her.

"Just trust me." With that she grabbed his hand and Kyle helped her up. "Wait here I have to get something." He disappeared into his room and came back with a bandana and began to fold it rectangular.

"You're giving me a bandana? That's supposed to make me believe you?" She wondered what was going through Kyle's mind sometimes. Kyle ignored the question and walked behind her. She felt the bandana cover her eyes and Kyle tying a knot behind her head. "What are you doing?"

"Covering your eyes, I am going to take you somewhere and I want it to be a surprise."

"Then how am I supposed to see where I am going?"

"You ask too many questions." Before Jessi can protest, he wrapped her arms around his neck and kneeled down. "Jump on."

"A piggy back ride?" Jessi began to be amused with this. Despite her confusion of where this is going, she listened. Kyle quietly snuck them out of the Trager household and she felt the cold night air hit her skin. She tightened her grip against Kyle and brought herself closer to his warmth. They were both silent on their way to Kyle's surprise destination, they were both enjoying being with the other. Finally, Kyle put her down and Jessi reluctantly let go of him. Kyle undid her blindfold and she gained her sight back. When she saw where they were, she raised an eyebrow.

"My apartment. This is your big surprise?" Kyle just grabbed Jessi's hand and pulled her closer to him.

"It was the only place I could think of, where we could be alone." He smiled at her but she still didn't understand what they were doing there.

"What for?" She looked at him confused.

"For this." He found her hands and placed them around his neck and slipped his arms around her lower back. He leaned forward and kissed her softly at first. As the seconds past, the kiss deepened and Jessi melted in his arms. He started moving forward, forcing her to step back. She then was stopped when she ran into something behind her. Kyle picked her up slightly and gently placed her on her back upon the soft surface as his body followed above her. Jessi pulled back from the kiss and saw that they were on her bed, finally catching on to Kyle's plan.

"Why now?" She asked curiously

"Because it is an intimate bond between two people who love each other." He gave her his innocent, sweet smile and she couldn't help but smile back.

"Are you sure about this?" Jessi asked, making sure.

"Only if you are." With that, she pulled him to her and met her lips with his as she began undoing the buttons on his shirt…

A/N: Sorry no details! Gotta keep it clean since it is not rated mature. haha I hope you guys enjoyed it =] again, I'm sorry it took so long to put up! Oh yeah, please leave reviews. ^_^ I enjoy hearing about what you guys think, good or bad.