Ch. 10: Confrontations
This chapter is dedicated to b.a.b.i.b.l.u.b.l.i.s.s my new Austrialian friend because she always makes me want to update whenever she updates!

Meredith was looking into the eyes of the man who she had loved 7 years ago and now all the memories were flooding back. From the first night in the bar, to the Parkinson's patient, to Addison showing up; the memory of Derek Shepherd was flooding her mind. She could see that he had changed, but not much. His hair was a starting to get a gray tint to it and he looked very tired, but his eyes were still that deep loving blue and had the sparkle in it that caught her eye. But the worse part was that he was giving her, her look. The look which had seduced her in Joe's bar. His 'McDreamy' look and all that was missing was his smile. But his eyes said it all. No matter how much she wanted to, she couldn't break the gaze. Everyone in the room disappeared and it was just her and Derek.

Suddenly, George did a small, fake cough that broke the trance. It felt like she had been staring at him for hours, but it must have only been 5 seconds. Tearing her eyes away from his, she looked around the room.

Addison was watching them, wondering what was going on, Maddie was about to jump out of bed to tackle her father, and George was trying to avoid everyone's gazes.

"I-I should go and let you guys have some time alone," Meredith said, smiling at Addison before turning and walking out the room, as she heard Derek call 'Dr!' but she didn't hear the rest.

Walking down the hall, she didn't know where she was going. She was expecting tears and anger and frustration, but none of that came to mind. It was like she was emotionless. She had always imagined the moment of her running into Derek. She had decided that she was either going to stand her ground and yell, or yell and cry, or just cry and run. But she didn't do either. She just ran. Which was what she was supposed to do, since Derek was there to see Maddie, not her. Derek had come in the room to see his daughter who, last he heard, was hanging on to life. He didn't even know that Meredith was in Seattle when he arrived in that room. But for some reason, she mind kept on telling her that he was there for her. Which he wasn't!

Weaving around the hospital, she found her self in the Nursery. How she got there, she didn't know. She just remembered all the times as an intern that her and George had snuck down here to look at the babies and remember how the world could seem so innocent. Leaning up against the window, there were only about 3 babies in there. But then again, it was like 10 o'clock at night. No mother would be giving birth this late at night. Well, no sane mother. Meredith let a small smile creep on her face as she saw the babies squirm in their blankets; mad that they had to leave the comfort of their mother's womb and enter this stupid, messed up world. She heard someone come up behind, her bust she didn't turn around. She didn't care. She was just trying very hard to get the image of Derek Shepherd out of her mind, and trying to tell her self that she wasn't in love with him anymore.

"You're not authorized to be down here. You're a surgoen!" snapped the voice.

Turning around, Meredith came face to face with Isobel Stevens-Karev.

Meredith just stood there, not knowing what to say.

"Why are you still standing here? I'll call the chief on you," Izzie snapped.

Confused, Meredith finally figured out how to talk.

"Izzie…"

"No, you don't get to say my name. My name is not 'Izzie' to you anymore. It's Dr. Karev. The moment you left without notice, you lost the right to call me 'Izzie'!"

Meredith shook her head.

"Iz…"

"What did I just say? Now I don't care if I'm not Cristina, but I will call the Chief and tell him that you were down here without having a patient down here."
Meredith nodded as she walked past Izzie who was giving her the stare of death. Once Meredith rounded the corner, Izzie rolled her eyes, and entered the nursery again, feeling no regret for what she did to Meredith.

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Derek, Addison, and George exited Maddie's room as she fell asleep. Derek, trying not to look at George or Addison, tried to escape without a single word being uttered, but that didn't happen.

"Who was that?" asked Addison, with her hands on her hips.

Turning around, Derek looked at Addison with no expression.

"Maddie's doctor," he answered calmly as he tried to walk away again.

"Derek don't be a smart ass with me. Just…not now," Addison pleaded.

Derek just stood there, giving her a blank look.

"Derek, why aren't you talking to me? I saw the way you looked at that doctor, now I'll ask one more time…who is she?" demanded Addison again.

Derek ran his fingers through his hair and sighed.

"Addison, she's no one. Just…just I thought she was someone else. Please, can we not talk about it? I'll meet you at home okay?" he said, kissing her lightly on the cheek.

"I'm not going home. I'm staying here with Maddie and you would too if you knew what was good for you!"

Derek sighed.

"Okay, I'm…I'm just going to go get some coffee. You want some?"

Addison shook her head as Derek walked away.

Both Addison and George watched him walk away. Once he turned the corner, Addison turned to George.

"Do you know who she is?" she asked George more nicely than she did Derek.

George blinked a couple of times at Addison.

"Never mind," She said, shaking her head, and walking back into her daughter's room, leaving George, torn and confused standing in the middle of the hallway, cursing to himself for letting this happen.

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Derek stood at the coffee cart, not wanting to buy coffee. He just stood there just in case Addison had followed him, just to make sure he was really going to the coffee. His mind was the farthest away from coffee as it could get. The only thing running through his mind was not the fact that his daughter was awake, but on her doctor in which his love for her had flooded back the moment he laid eyes on her. Don't get him wrong, he was over-come with happiness that his daughter was alive and healthy, but he just couldn't get the idea of Meredith Grey his daughter's doctor.

"Shit!"

He heard a small voice from behind him and he turned around. There, stood Meredith Grey cursing to her self, walking away. It took all his energy to keep him from running over to her and kissing her, but he did let him self run over to her.

"Meredith?" he asked, standing behind her. He could see Meredith's body go cold as she stood dead in her tracks, trying not to turn around.

"Mer, I know it's you," he said softly.

Meredith slowly turned around, and he saw that her eyes were red and puffy.

"Mer-"

"Dr. Shepherd," Meredith addressed.

Derek cringed when he heard her address him by his profession title.

"Dr. Shepherd? Meredith…since when am I…Dr. Shepherd?"

Meredith rolled her eyes.

"Derek…I've played this moment over and over in my head numerous times. But…now is not the place to be talking about this. Shouldn't you be with your daughter anyway?"

"She's sleeping. Mer…"

"No Derek, not here, not now, not ever!"

Meredith turned and walked away. It took all her angry not to yell at him, punch in the face, but most of all, to kiss him. She started to walk away, when he grabbed her arm, and pulled her into an on-call room, locking the door.

"There now you can't escape," he said, guarding the door.

Meredith crossed her arms and stood opposite of him. Finally, after looking into his eyes for a few seconds, she relaxed and turned sat down on the bed. Seeing her crumble, he walked over and sat opposite of her. The room was quiet before she spoke up.

"I'm not going to yell. I promised myself that I wasn't going to yell at you. Yelling wouldn't do any good," she said.

Derek nodded, not saying anything. The two of them sat there again, waiting for one to talk. Finally, not taking it, Derek asked the first question.

"Mer, wh-why?"

Meredith gave him a confused look.

"Why what?" she snapped.

Derek shook his head.

"Why…why did you leave?"

Meredith scoffed before she got up and started to pace the room.

"Why did I leave? Why do you think I left? Derek, the way for me to find out that you have a wife is not by having her show up AND INTRODUCE HER SELF TO ME! Shit…I'm sorry. No yelling,"

"Mer-"

"NO! No. You don't get to call me 'Mer' of give me that look. No. You lost the right to do that after you had me fall in love with you! Damn it Derek I loved you! When I met you, I thought I had found the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with! If you would just told me when we met that night in the bar, none of this would be happening! But no, you had to have me fall in love you before she shows up and tells me that you're married. So Derek, that's why I left. I couldn't stand looking at you everyday for the rest of my career. That would be suicide! Not to mention, having your wife walk around here making me life living hell. So, the way I see it, I had no choice but to leave!"

By this time, tears were streaming down Meredith's face. She fell back into the uncomfortable bed, her head in her hands sobbing uncontrollably.

"Meredith…"breathed Derek, walking over to her and trying to comfort her, but her body went cold once she felt his touch.

"J-just g-go," she sobbed.

Sighing, Derek got up, and walked to the door. But instead of opening it, he turned back around and looked at her.

"I don't blame you," he said quietly, walking back to the spot where he sat before.

Meredith lifted her head,

"What?" she whispered angrily and confused.

Derek sighed.

"I don't blame you. I mean, if you showed up with a husband, I'm sure I would have ran. But, Mer-edith. You have to understand my part of the story. I'm not just the kind of guy to run away and sleep with girls, fall in love with them, and then hurt them by having my wife show up. You've known me long enough to know I'm not that guy,"

Meredith looked away, shaking her head. After no response from her, he continued.

"I was married to Addison for 11 years when I showed up in Seattle. Married her right out of Medical school and we did our internship together. We were…relatively happy. We even tried to have kids. I also had a best friend named Mark Sloan. Same thing pretty much. Met in medical school and became instant friends. He was even my best man in our wedding. All three of us were inseparable. But Mark…Mark could be a nuisance. He's what we called a man-whore. Slept with every girl he laid eyes one, except Addison of course. Well, that was until one night I come home. For the past couple of months, Addison and I had been distant. I don't know why. We owned our own practice, so we worked a lot. But one night, it was rainy and cold. All the lights were off in the house and it was an eerie quiet. I thought Addison was already asleep, so I let my self in quietly and made some coffee before going to bed. That was when I noticed something wrong. There was a jacket on the chair. A jacket that wasn't mine. Then there was a sock in the middle of the hallway. I followed the trail of clothes up to my room. I opened my bedroom door to see my wife ontop of my best friend, moaning his name the way she used to moan mine,"

Derek took a deep breath and continued.

"Let's just say after that I couldn't' look at either one of them the same. So, I grabbed all my clothes, a suitcase and left. The next thing I knew, I was in Seattle, signing a deal with my old mentor. Then two days later…I met you. I thought you were just going to be some girl who I'd never see again. I wasn't trying to use you, please don't think that. But, when I saw you the next day, I couldn't get you out of my mind. You weren't revenge. You weren't a flink. You were like coming up for fresh air. It's like I was drowning and you saved me."

The room was quiet again. Meredith's sobs had subsided.

"Derek…I'm so sorry…but…that's not good enough. I'm sorry,"

And with that, Meredith got up, and walked out. Wiping a tear from her eye, before taking one last look at Derek with his head and his hands, before shutting the door and walking away, leaving Derek alone in the darkness just like she had 7 years ago.

A/N: I know..it's shorter than the last chapter...but it was orginalyl shorter. Then i went back and added the whole Derek spilling his guts stuff...so. :D. Ummm...not much to say really. I'll add more Mer confronting izzie and cristina next chapter. Um...ya. lol. I'm kinda brain dead right now. So i hope you guys like this chapter:D.
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