January 25th, 1649 - To My Dear Hester and Pearl
...I'm not at all completely sure what to write today. There is a curious melancholy in the air and I feel as though something's going to happen. I'm feeling...like this may be my final sermon; the final speech. My health is declining even faster and I feel as though I may not make it to see the shores of England again or to begin my new life with Hester and Pearl. God must have imparted me with this knowledge. In this case, I have made up my mind and have fully and completely determined in my heart to confess everything in front of the masses tomorrow after my sermon. Who knows? They may in fact be my final words. So in the case that these events do happen, I'm praying that Hester is able to find this journal. I hate that I won't be able to be with her as I hoped.
To you Hester, I just want you to know that I love you as much as such a pitiful soul as myself is capable. I am truly sorry for not standing with you and bearing my half of the burden these past 7 years. I leave all of my earthly possessions with you and am looking forward to the day that we stand, hand in hand, on Judgment Day. You have my very best wishes.
To my lovely Pearl, I am terribly sorry that I haven't been there for you these past 7 years. You're so beautiful; the spitting image of your mother. While it was my intention to take up my fatherly duties, I'm afraid that the Lord has other plans in his will. Please promise me that even though you don't have an earthly father, that you'll rely on your Heavenly Father. He can provide for you more that I could have. Take care of your mother for me and see to it that she doesn't take on more than she can bear, and try to make her burden lighter since she's bore it all so far.
I pray that both of your futures are bright and that God may forgive me of my sins on the other side. May the Lord be with you both.