A/N: Just to be clear: there will be a lot of writing in italic. One of them will be where the news from the TV, and the other will be Kamiko's thoughts. The one with the TV will be in '' '' and the thoughts won't be, just to make it clear.

I do not own Death Note.

Chapter 10. Panic

Light's father had a heart attack. But it was just a regular attack, not Kira, and he survived. Of course, why would Light kill his own father? The moment I heard the news it was obvious. That didn't stop him from worrying though.

I was at Light's side all the time he was at the hospital. Ryuzaki also came with him to visit the chief. He actually looked concerned. Well, at least he cares. He and Light argued a bit, because Light didn't thought it was a good idea to tell his father that his son is a suspect and that's probably what over-done it. The chief also confirmed that Ryuzaki is indeed L. Light acted surprised at that and I just chuckled. It was amusing to see this. When I looked at the chief I knew that he had more time to live, we won't die now, well, not from naturally. But there are other ways to shorten one's lifespan. And that's exactly what Light's been doing.

Light said he wants to join the Task Force and he put on a little act of how he had promised his father to catch Kira if anything would happen to him. I couldn't help myself and chuckle at this. It was so cheesy that Ryuzaki might have bought it. I saw that in his eyes. Doubt, of whenever Light is actually Kira or not. That scene actually clouded his mind.

''Nice.'' I giggled. Light pretended he didn't hear that.

Then the father stated that Kira is pure evil. But recently he began thinking in a different way. He now thinks that what is truly evil is the power to kill someone. And that whoever gained that power is cursed.

I actually froze at this. Cursed? I've never even thought about it that way. Neither did Light, I saw. But if you really think about it... Well, I only kill rarely and just to keep me alive. That was my purpose. But Light's situation is different, so in a way... I guess his father's right. And I'm actually the one who cursed him.

Visiting hours were over, so we all had to go out. When we were outside, Light tried to convince Ryuzaki that he was not Kira, that he could lock him up and see if the killings would stop, anything to be cleared of being suspected as Kira. I rolled my eyes at him. He's a good actor, I give him that. Ryuzaki said there's no need for that. If Light isn't Kira, than the truth will be revealed soon enough.

When Ryuzaki got into his car Light said that even though he wanted to join the investigation, he couldn't do it now, not with his father in this state. Ryuzaki understood and the car drove off.

Light was silent for a couple of moments, but then, without looking at me, he said ''You know, I've never considered myself being cursed. That thought never crossed my mind. I've actually never been happier since I picked up the notebook. With it I'll create a perfect world.'' There it goes again.

''Of you're asking my opinion on this, I have nothing to say. But many people tried to create an utopia and all of them failed. It's not really possible, even with the Death Note.'' I said. This was the first time I've doubted his plans out load to him. He looked at me with wide eyes.

''You're saying I can't do it?''

''I'm saying people don't change. They will never accept what you are doing, well, not all of them at least. Yes, you have supporters, a lot of them, but you will always have enemies, no matter what. No matter how many you kill, there will always be more.'' I stated. ''Even if you kill L, the chances that you'll face an enemy like him once again is high.''

Light eyes me weirdly. That thought actually just occurred to me, that L could have a replacement. It was hard to believe, but not impossible. But Light refused to believe.

…

''She's been gone for five months, chances are she's probably dead by now.''

''In that case, I find it odd that the body wasn't found yet. It may provide us with some much needed physical evidence.'' Ryuzaki stated about the disappearance of Naomi Misora. I forgot to ask Light about that.

''Ryuzaki.'' Watari suddenly came into the room we were currently in. ''Something is going on on Sakura TV.''

Ryuzaki immediately turned the TV on and changed it to Sakura TV. There were two reporters.

''...in other words we are all Kira's hostages. Aside from that we have a professional obligation to share this message with you. I assure you that this is not a hoax and that Sakura TV is not doing this for the purpose of sensationalism.''

''Kira's hostages? What is this?''

''Four days ago, our program director here, at Sakura TV, received four tapes. After a thorough examination, there can be no doubt that they are from Kira.''

What's... happening here? It couldn't be Light's doing, could it? No, he would have told me that.

''The first tape received contained a prediction the deaths of two suspected criminals. And as predicted, at the exact time as Kira said, both men died of heart attacks.''

If what they're saying is true, it's definitely someone with a Death Note.

''Kira has instructed us to air the second tape today at exactly 5.59 pm. We intend of to comply with his demands. This tape should prove his powers by predicting yet another death. Beyond that, it contains a message to the whole world from Kira.''

''This has to be another fake, don't you think?!'' Matsuda said nervously.

''I doubt it. Even Sakura TV wouldn't hit that low.''

''And now, the video.''

The screen went white with the writing 'Kira' on it. Then a computerized voice was heard, saying that he was Kira. He then said to change the channel to Taiyou TV and stated the the news anchor will die of heart failure at exactly 6.00 pm. Ryuzaki demanded to change it. And the man died, just as predicted. There were gasps and they changed the channel back to Sakura TV. 'Kira' stated that this was punishment for always in cynical terms against him.

This is not Light. This is another person with a Death note. Light would have never killed those who just oppose him, even for this reason.

''Bring another... no, two more TVs, Watari.'' Ryuzaki demanded.

''But, of course, this is not enough to prove my identity, so I'll make another sacrifice. It will be another commentator on the same network who opposes my actions.''

''Ry...Ryuzaki?''

''Channel 24!'' He said. On one of the other TVs we just saw how that man died.

''Kira is directly manipulating the mind of the public... We need to stop this broadcast! We can't let him finish!'' Ryuzaki shouted. He was nervous and even scared a bit, I could see that.

Unfortunately, all the telephone lines were off and there was no way of contacting Sakura TV.

''Dammit!'' Ukita yelled and ran to the door. ''I'll stop the broadcast myself!''

''Ukita!'' Matsuda shouted, but he was already out. This is not good. Chances are that this other Kira could have traded the Eyes. And if that's the case... I guess I'll find out soon enough.

''I do not intend on killing innocent people. I hate evil and love justice. The police doesn't have to be my enemies, they can be my allies.'' 'Kira' continued. I glanced at Ryuzaki and saw him bitting his thumbnail almost to blood and his eyes were filled with rage. We hated Kira to the bottom of his heart and he couldn't hide it now.

'Kira' continued about how he wants to create a perfect world without crime and how if no one will oppose him, the innocent won't die. Even if we won't agree with him, if we don't get in his way, we will be spared. He said how he will create an utopia with only good people.

Matsuda, Aizawa and Takashi all tried calling again Sakura TV and I just stood there, frozen. I knew it's worthless.

Suddenly on the third TV something was shown. It was probably some news agency that were filming the entrance of Sakura TV and they just announced that someone had just collapsed in front of the main entrance. It was Ukita.

This Kira had in fact had the shinigami eyes. It makes him stronger than Light. And more dangerous to the Task Force.

''Ukita... Dammit! Kira did this!'' Aizawa yelled and went to the door. I immediately grabbed his arm and said ''Stop!''

''Mister Aizawa! Where are you going?'' Ryuzaki asked and I could hear him trying to keep his voice steady.

''Where do you think?! I have to go there!'' Aizawa tried to get out of my grip. ''Let go!''

''You have a death wish or something?!'' I yelled at him. I am a supporter of Kira, but the real one, not this impostor. And I won't let any more lives be sacrificed to him.

''Please, think about this rationally. If this really is Kira, you'll meet the same fate.'' Ryuzaki stated.

''You said Kira can't kill without a name. So how could this happen?!'' He finally got out of my grip and took a step closer to Ryuzaki.

''Our aliases and fake IDs are useless.'' Matsuda said with a defeated tone. ''How can we know Kira doesn't have all our names yet?''

''Because we would be dead my now.'' I turned to him. ''It would have been a lot easier for Kira to kill us off before he made a move, don't you think?''

''We thought that Kira would need a face and a name to kill, but from what we've just seen, I say it's not entirely impossible he only needs a face.'' Ryuzaki's face was covered in his hair and shadow, so I couldn't see his expression. ''At this point it's only safe to say that Kira is somewhere near the TV station or inside in, in a place where he can watch anyone who enters the building.''

''If Kira's in the area, isn't that why we should go there?!'' Aizawa demanded.

''For all we know, Kira could only have placed surveillance cameras in the area. If rush down there unprepared, the chances are we will all die.''

Aizawa suddenly gripped Ryuzaki's shoulder and yelled ''Wasn't you who said we have to risk our lives to catch Kira?!''

I moved closer, ready for anything.

''I meant what I said.'' Ryuzaki said, his voice weakening a bit. ''But risking my life to catch Kira and doing something that I know will cause me my life are two entirely different things.''

I saw that Ryuzaki was trembling, hard. How didn't I notice that before? His voice was really weak now and even Aizawa saw that. Ryuzaki is trying his best to stay calm, but his panicking. He can't control himself any more. He understands that Ukita's death was completely pointless, well, not completely, we do now know this 'Kira' can kill with only a face, but still. And I bet he blames himself for it. There he is again. I don't know him.

I came closer and carefully took off Aizawa's grip of Ryuzaki's shoulder. That was not the time.

''Please control yourself.'' Ryuzaki said. ''We've lost Ukita. I understand you want to go there, but if something was to happen to you as well...''

I saw on all of the member's faces the same expression. They were shocked to see Ryuzaki like this. I wanted to comfort him, but I had no idea how. Saying 'it will be okay' is just stupid, it won't be okay, and everyone knows that. And I had no words to say to him. I really wanted though. Why?

A/N: All right, I'll leave it here and finish next time. Didn't want to make it too long, I suppose.

If you haven't read my other story "White Flower" I strongly recommend it. It won't be long before I cross these two into one and you have to know what going on there. I'm still thinking of how should I do it, should I leave one of the stories there and continue writing in only one? And if yes, in which one should I proceed the story?

Please tell me what you think! I really appreciate all of the reviews.