Chapter 10: Vulnerable
Next day at school was a hell for Sasuke. Sakura had been used to their distance anymore but it wasnt the same way for him.
She had started being slightly better emotionally since they had stopped talking and he could notice in a hint of bitterness.
He found Sakura sitting at the yard, with Ino and Hinata, each on each of her side, chatting like usual.
Naruto was walking towards Hinata for his usual morning hugs and so Sakura and Ino were left alone.
Kiba was talking on the phone, with his father for some football game on Sunday and he found himself bored and awkward.
He spared Sakura some secret death glares.
Karin saw him from afar and walked over to him in her cheery tone, almost shouting.
''Sasuke-kun!!!Morning!!!Cant wait for the prom, tonight!!''she said as she waved her hand at him and once reached, she placed her hand on his shoulder, making him flinch.
Unlike Sakura, he hated whenever this girl touched him.
He couldnt tell why, but even when he felt his hatred raising for the pink haired idiot, he couldnt stop that nice feeling he got whenever they brushed against each other, accidentally.
''Hn.''Sasuke nodded at Karin out of mood.
But then an idea came to his mind to tease Sakura more. Maybe they hadnt been talking for a long time, but this still didnt have to mean she had grown him to like him less.
After everything he had put her through she still forgave him, by the looks of it, she wasnt hating against him or anything, so he thought the crush was still on and moving.
He gave another secret fast glare over at Sakura.
She seemed to notice him this time and she gave him a glare back.
No, more, like she stared at him, from the minute Karin had gone by his side.
Was that jealousy in her eyes? He smirked as he pulled Karin closer to him and pecked her on the lips.
Karin flinched. She liked Sasuke but she was never used to public demonstrations like this from his part.
Besides, he had told her many times he didnt like her and he only used her to make out.
And Karin being the slut she was, she just went with it. That is how she worked with every guy, anyway so why take it to heart?
So that is why now she found this weird.
She looked over at the pink haired girl.
She felt rage raising inside her. So that idiot Sasuke was using her to get the girl jealous?
It was obvious, I mean when he kissed her, he had his glare on that girl, Karin noticed.
And he always seemed to do such stuff when she was near by.
She remembered how many times they had made out at the toilets, he wouldnt even touch her when they were alone but when that girl was in front , he'd touch her like hungry starving.
She chose to ignore it for the time being. She had no problem with him filling his hormones with her, but using her for some other girl was a huge hit to her girly pride.
She was way prettier than that pink haired mess. All guys wanted her for what she was.
And she would take no less.
She kissed him back, calming down and entangled her fingers in his soft spiky dark hair.
Sakura couldnt watch this without a hint of hurt inside her. She had probably seen it many times but she could never get used to it.
At least, it hurt less each time.
She wanted to walk over that red haired bitch and punch her hands away from Sasuke.
She was too absorbed on that sight to even pay any attention at the staring at her Ino next to her.
''Sakura, stop staring like that. They will think you are a pervert…or jealous!''Ino said, in a childish tone.
Sakura snapped out of her thoughts and looked at Ino.
''Jealous? Who? Me? You must be kidding me!I could care less about Sasuke Uchiha. I am long over him.''she lied but not out of pride. She just felt bad if ever Ino learnt what he had done to her and how she still liked him. It was humiliating.
Ino gave her a mocking look.
''Then this leaves us to the pervert bit!''she said, giggling.
Sakura gave her a funny glare and rested her head on her friend's shoulder, in a rather melancolical mood.
''Ah, Ino…'' if only you knew, she continued the thought inside her.
Ino gave her a curious look.
She stroke her hair.
''Hmm?What is it?''she asked.
Sakura snapped out and got up. She wouldnt let Sasuke bother her anymore.
He only took pleasure in hurting her. She knew this. Why did she let him?
She got up and took Ino's hand in hers.
Hinata came back just in time to part with the girls.
''Come, girls, lets go somewhere else…Many annoying people around here.''she said motioning with her head at Sasuke and the girls giggled as they all walked over inside the building.
Sasuke's POV:
That red haired mop was still half blocking his vision on his target with her massive deer head.
She annoyed the hell out of him, but if he could use her for Sakura, then so the better.
He could pretend he didnt want to puke whenever she touched him, if this meant he could hurt the Haruno heir more.
''Mmm, you smell nice today…Always, you smell so nice, baby…''Karin said in a rather pretended sexy voice in his ear that made him shiver in disgust.
She brushed her lips against the pale skin on his neck.
And it was right then, that he saw Sakura and her friends walking away of the bench and inside the school.
He mentally stunned. What the fuck? Why wasnt the pink toy not staring still at him in jealousy and hurt as she was some moments before?
Why was she going away? Was she ignoring him?
He watched her, with Karin pecking his neck, as the 3 girls walked inside the building.
He narrowed his eyes in frustration and pushed Karin away.
''Enough. I'll see you at the prom tonight.''he said, trying to hold back the disgust expression that crept up to his face, when he saw that lust look on hers, as he pulled her away.
She gave him a confused offended look. Wow,that guy was really moody. He was the one that had dragged her onto him some moments ago.
''As you wish, Sasuke.''she said rolling her eyes in frustration and walked away.
Sasuke sighed relieved that he had got rid of her for the time being.
Naruto and Kiba walked up to him.
''Hey, dobe, so whats up with you and that Karin girl? It must be more than just a prom date.''Naruto said, poking him in the arm.
Sasuke gave him an annoyed look.
''Hn. No. It is only a prom date.''he said coldly and Naruto changed the subject.
''Well, if that is the case, knowing you I am afraid you could as well not show up at the prom and let her hang like that. Hahahah.'' The orange haired guy said as Kiba joined in.
''Well, thats what you gor girlfriends for, dude. See you and Hinata, me and Amy…it is just fun to be around them. That is why we are with them. But I couldnt ever picture Sasuke being tender with a lady.''Kiba said in his philosophical mood again.
Sasuke spared him a dead cold look.
''I could care less for girlfriends.''Sasuke said looking over at the two guys.
Naruto raised his shoulders in boredom.
''Each on their own.''he said teasingly and followed the two guys as they rushed in the building, by the bell's ring.
Sakura's POV
By the middle of the day, at gymnastics, Sakura noticed Sasuke sitting by his own on a bench.
Normally and usually she would just walk by him, pretending he didnt exist. As he did with her.
But this time it was different.
He seemed so sad, so depressed, so down, to the edge of tears that it shocked all of her inside walls and it woke up her maternal insticts.
Damn her love for him, no matter how hard she tried to fool herself, she couldnt remain untouched by him some times.
He was leaning forwards, with his elbows on his knees, looking in front of him and downwards, his eyes seemed blank but wet.
And he seemed to not notice anything and anyone around him. He was that absorbed.
She trembled at what she intended to do, but she couldnt hold back.
She wanted to ask him what was wrong. She had never seein him like that before.
She slowly and quietly walked to the bench, towards him and sat down next to him.
Only then did he snap out from his own world and turned to look at her, like she was some ghost.
He seemed hard to try to regain his cool but the sadness still remained on his face, like a persistent stain you cant seem to wash off.
Sasuke's POV
And just when I had started taking my mind off things, occupying with ruining Sakura's day and by scolding the dobe, in the gymnastics hour, memories of the last night's episode came into my mind again.
My mom holding the bottle, drunk, in tears and cursing my father's murderer.
I wonder if dad knew about my revenge, would he be proud of me? I know I am.
But then why do I still feel sad whenever I remember that episode?
I feel like I miss him…a lot. I dont know why, I seemed to have got used to his absence all this time but today, it just is so hard to cope by.
And having that pink haired idiot ignoring me as if I dont effect her anymore, really gets to me. I dont know why this happens. But I swear I hate her.
Suddenly, I felt a shadow coming closer to me and I didnt manage to snap out of my dark sad thoughts till I heard someone sitting next to me on the cold stone bench.
I turned to look unwillingly. Why cant I have my own alone moments when I need them the most? It is not like anyone could comfort me. Who could? I am not supposed to talk about my past, to anyone. It only makes it that harder to deal with it, at times.
End of POVs.
Sad Onyx eyes met worried emerald ones.
He flinched. Her.
What was she doing there with him? Wasnt she supposed to ignore him? It was easier when she did ignore him, even if he didnt like it for some reason.
He looked at her like she was being rude, invading his personal space uninvited.
She looked at him, in hesitation. Her eyes concerned.
''Sasuke…are you ok?''she asked, scolding closer to him shyly.
He looked at her but he didnt talk. It was so messed up.
Looking for comfort to his sworn enemy.
But somehow, at that time, he couldnt manage to brush off his emotions.
He gave her a sad look.
''Yeah…''he said, trying to sound cold.
''Are you sure? Cause you seem really down…''Sakura said, her voice trembling.
thought.
She reached her hand to stroke his cheek slowly.
God, it had been so much time since she last had touched him. And she felt him so vulnerable there, needing someone to comfort him. Needing her?
Suddenly, his left hand moved fast and caught her wrist tightly in it, preventing her delicate fingers from ever reaching his saddened face.
She looked at him, in shock. In fear. Of being pushed away. Again. Once more. For no reason.
But, instead, he calmed slightly down and he just held her hand tightly in his, resting it on his lap.
His mind couldnt work. All of his thoughts gathered to the last depression episode of his mom.
To His father. His death. His scattered family.
His loneliness.
He looked at her, tears welling up his eyes. One last hint of pride pushed them back.
''I said I am okay…''he said, hardly controlled anger in his broken voice.
Only when did he speak this last phrase , did he realize how sad, how broken his voice sounded.
He shivered at the thought of his vulnerability, of his weakness in front of his enemy.
Would she take advantage of it to make him feel worse? He couldnt know.
But his heart was too heavy with sorrow to motivate himself to walk away from that bench.
Away from that girl that was the reason he suffered.
Sakura shivered at the sound of his voice.
It was so sad…so broken.
''But…but you dont sound like it.''she said, her own voice trembling in sadness now.
It was the first time she saw him like that. And it was a shock that scared her.
Boy, did she love him so much to hurt with his hurt, cry with his pain, share his sadness. And he had no clue. He never wanted to know, actually.
Sasuke looked at her defeated. He barely fought his weakness anymore.
He was helpless, for an instance. And out of all sudden, his enemy could see under his usually cold mask. Uncovered by his fake usual apathy, he looked at her in hesitation.
He felt vulnerable.
She was there and he needed someone to help him carry his heavy burden in his moment of weakness. And he let go off his hatred for a while. He allowed himself to forget who was sitting next to him. Just for this once. Cause his burden had got heavy, and he felt kneeling under its suffocating weight.
He sighed.
He simply let go off her hand, and moved closer to her, placing his head on her shoulder, leaning slightly down.
And there, as they sat alone on that bench she had sat the first day she went to school, at the yard, he releashed his bitter tears on her pale skin, soaking her neck with his silent pain.
Sakura looked at him shocked, as his spiked hair caressed her face. Soft. As she had imagined them, every time she pictured herself playing with them, entangled in her pale fingers.
She felt something wet running down her skin.
She almost shivered. He was crying, she flinched in the realization.
The ice berg of Sasuke Uchiha, was now crying in her arms.
'Ít is ok.''she said simply, wrapping her arms around him and pressing him softly on her.
She rubbed his back, softly, slowly, reassuringly. It was funny how he was the one to have hurt her badly, yet she was the one comforting him now. It was tragically funny. Bitterly ironic. Yet, the same in a weid way pleasurable. For her. Maybe for both? A wall she could never see through.
He didnt move. His sobs would make his body shiver from time to time, in her arms.
She wanted to ask him what was wrong, her worry bigger than her patience.
But she figured all he needed right now was just to be hold and let it out.
It was the first time she had seen him expressing his feelings.
And she felt nice she was the one he had let to comfort him. But in the same time, it hurt her a lot to seem him like that.
She couldnt brush off the sadness in his glare. It was unbelievable.
After about 5 minutes of him crying and her comforting him silently, he slowly pulled away and wipped away his tears. They had stopped falling now.
He gave her an embarrassed awkward look which made him only look cute and he got up, slowly, and walked away coldly, without even turning back to say bye or look at her.
Sakura watched him as he walked away and entered the building, and she felt her heart losing a beat when she realized what had just been done.
What the fuck? He first cried on her like he had lost the world, and now he was walking away turning back to his ignoring mood like nothing had happened?
She felt tears welling up her eyes.
It is your fault for trying to comfort him in the first place, stupid. Inner Sakura thought.
What did you expect, you know he is a jerk like that. Inner Sakura.
But…but he seemed so sad. normal Sakura thought.
Even jerks can be sad, you know. So he was a sad jerk. So what? Inner Sakura said in sarcasm.
I wonder what he was sad for. Normal Sakura thought as she got up from the bench and headed back to the building.
The hour ended fast and then next classed followed.
In the music class, Sakura's teacher had asked her if she had found out which song to sing.
Sakura lied she had, even though till today she hadnt made to find it yet. But she was too embarassed to admit it. Plus, she would get a good preaching and a lower grade if she did.
She only said she wanted to keep it a surprise and the teacher smiled satisfied, believing her.
Then next hours were maths and painting and finally the school day was over.
Everyone rushed out of the school, excited about tonight's prom.
Ino was so happy and excited she wouldnt even shut up about her date with Shikamaru.
It was a first chance for her to finally show her dancing skills to Kiba, impressing him and everyone else.
Sakura listened to her bored, while Hinata was busy talking with Naruto about their date tonight at the prom.
Then Hinata came over and Sakura said to the girls that she had seen Sasuke being very sad today. Then the black haired girl added how Naruto had told her in their talk that yesterday it was Sasuke's father's death anniversary day and Sakura froze.
So that is why he was so sad. He must have loved his father a lot. Yet, it was a shock to her. She didnt know before that his father was dead. Hinata said she didnt know it either, until Naturo had told her by chance. They would say everything between them.
Eventually, the girls reached the bus and got on it.
Sakura waved bye at them after Hinata told her that Neji would meet her at the prom tonight.
Sakura walked in her house, using the elevator, floor 8. Always.
She got out and got in the apartment. Her mom wasnt there.
She closed the door behind her, sighing.
She walked upstairs and let her bag fall on the floor, as she got undressed to have a bath.
No razors this time, she promised bitterly to herself.
As she let the hot water ran on her, cleansing her skin, her mind hovered over Sasuke's sad memory again. She now felt sorry for him. So his life wasnt as nice as she imagined it to be.
His father was dead? She wondered how he had died and how old Sasuke was when this had happened.
Then a thought flashed in her head.
Of course, her proof of love. That was her chance.
Tonight at the prom, she would sing her song for him. And devote it to him.
To show him she cared and that he wasnt alone. To show him she loved him.
She felt like he needed it right now.
And her good heart, let her push back her pride once again.
Ain't love grande?
She finished of the bathroom with that thought and lied on her bed, smiling happily. Tonight, she would finally give him the so wanted proof.
In the mean time, Sasuke had got home, cursing himself for how he had let his pain show in front of that stupid girl.
Now she d think he was weak. That he didnt despise her anymore. But he was the reason he was so sad. She and her asshole of a father.
But even though he was most of the time in good self control, there were times in his life when strong supressed feelings took over him completely for a small amount of time.
And that was what had happened today, at the gymnastics hour at school.
That is how he met Naruto. In a day like that, he had broken down and the orange haired guy was the only one to walk by him and comfort him, even if he replied coldly at first to it.
So it wasnt really out of character for him to do this. But it happened very rarely. And why dis she have to just run on him at that exact moment of weakness? He felt pissed. She was always trying to meddle in his life.
And why had it felt so damn good when she had hold him like that, when he was crying in her arms?
He hated himself for his weakness. He hated her for being there to see this.
He hated himself for having given in to her when she did.
And now, he set his mind firmly on revenge. Again.
Sakura started getting anxious over the song. She didnt know which one to choose for him.
Which one expressed her feelings for him?...
She went on her pc and started looking at songs on youtube. It was really hard to choose, given their complicated situation.
She kept searching like that, till after two hours of intense search, she found one that she felt expressed her , even partially. But it still was a nice romantic song. That could move him. Hopefully. Possibly.
Gladly, she was good at singing, so she didnt have to do much practice on it for the prom.
She had taken music classes at her previous school and she was very good at singing, as her teacher had told her.
After that, she noticed that she had only 4 hours to get ready for the prom.
Damn , and she didnt even have a good dress to put on.
Last time Ino had bought her her party clothes but now she couldnt turn to her again for that.
It wasnt in her to use people, to use her friends, unlike some others.
She searched her wardrobe but could find nothing good.
She gave up searching after she had made a mess out of her clothes.
Then she heard the door opening downstairs. Her mom had got home with a new date.
Sakura sighed, how great.
She walked downstairs. Now it would be the ideal time to ask some money from her to buy clothes for the prom.
She ran to her and her mom gave her a surprised look as the idiot of a man was waiting behind her, and gave a kind look at Sakura.
Despite all of her previous dates, he seemed quite decent and nice.
''Mom, you are back!!Uhm, listen the prom is tonight and I was wondering if you could give me money to buy something good to wear.''she said and her mom gave her a frustrated look.
''Why dont you just put something from your wardrobe?'' she asked sighing, as she motioned to the guy behind her to follow her at the living room.
The guy turned on the tv and sat on the couch, like he was in his own house.
Sakura gave him a frustrated look.
Her mother turned to look ath him, then back at Sakura.
''I just…I dont have anything good for a prom, in there.''Sakura said, sighing.
''Sakura, stop being so demanding.''she said.
''Claris, come on, losen up a bit on her. She is a teen, hmmm? Come on girly, I will give you money. How much do you need, lassy?''he asked getting up and getting his wallet out of his pockets.
Sakura looked at him, surprised. Wow, none had done that for her before from all the guys her mother dated.
''Oh..uhm thanks but its no ne…''Sakura said but her mother interrupted her.
''Oh, Joe, come on really, do you really think I wouldnt give her the money she needs?Pfft…''her mother said giggling trying to make a good impression on her boyfriend.
''Here, let me fix this.''she said getting out her wallet and handing Sakura 60 box.
''Here, take this. Ánd be a good girl.''she said as she tapped Sakura on the head and turned to look at Joe, smiling embarassed.
Sakura gasped mentally. Wow, this was a fun way to get what she wanted from her mom without any fights.
''Thanks, mom. I will!!!''she said, glancing over at the guy and mouthed him a thanks.
He nodded back, smiling.
If it wasnt for him, her mother wouldnt have given her thought in gratitude and joy.
She walked out of the house, grabbing her cell phone and keys with her.
She called a taxi and went to the mall in the center.
After one hour of searching and trying on dresses, she found a nice long silver one with strass, that had a V shape on the torso, made out of glittering pigments.
It was beautiful.
She had seen better than that, but it was the only one that fitted her body line so perfectly.
She took it and walked over to the cashier's. She paid for it and walked out of the mall, happy as ever. Her best clothe she had bought in a long time.
And all thanks to that joe guy. She called a taxi and went back home.
She rushed in the house and put off her clothes, and put on the new dress.
She brushed her hair, and caught them upwards, leaving little curles hanging on each side.
She put on some long lined earings she had and her favorite silver bracelets.
Also, she put a silver simple but nice necklace her mother had given her some time ago on her birhday. It had a little silver heart hanging from it.
She started applying make up on her.
She used a bright, silver-yellow eye shadow for her eye lids. She put on mascara, lip stick and a little of rouge on her pale cheeks.
She didnt want to apply lots of make up, she liked it better natural.
And with that, she walked down her house, when Ino texted her.
Shikamaru would pick Ino up with his dad's car,Hinata would go there with Neji.
So Ino offered to give Sakura a drive to the prom.
Sakura went down her house, and show the car stopping to wait for her.
She rushed over as Ino greeted her from the window, grinning at her and mouthing ''wow'' .
Sakura got in. Shikamaru greeted her smiling bored and muttering something about ''Troublesome…''and the car took off for the prom.
Coming next on chapter 11: Bleeding Love
She was a fool if she thought she would move him with a stupid love song.
He was there for a reason tonight. To hurt her.
Please, review!!!Guh I sound like a beggar, you mean mean people!!!Xd
Thanks for reading!!! :3
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