Gunni 11- She will come back…. Eventually;)
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Ok, I found this video and OMFG, I thought a LOT of you would like it, let me know!! It's just brilliant in my opinion!:D
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The whole Robbo thing will be explained here, I know I left a lot of ye confused about the Robbo maybe being out!
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She's gone, she's really gone. I feel numb, why did I let her go two whole months of this I wont survive. I need her, she's the one who always protects me when I feel like this, but now she's gone. I love her…
Charlie walked into her bedroom and shut the door, collapsing behind it she slid down until she was sitting clutching her knees to her chest. Then it started. Her chest was heaving for air and tears cascading down the apple of her cheeks. After what seemed like an eternity and she felt her tears had dried up she manoeuvred herself into their bed and covered her entire body with the duvet. She closed her eyes and inhaled deeply letting the smell penetrate every inch of her lungs. Savouring the scent their mingled bodies produced, and the slight aroma of their love making still present, bringing her back to the few hours previous where she lay writhing beneath Joey. She turned onto her back and slightly pulled the duvet down where she placed her chin over it. Staring up at the white ceiling, and all the memories they shared here she gently shut her eyes to try and prevent the tears escape the barriers of her eyelashes..
The first night we sat here, and Joey cried. Confessing everything to me.
**********Charlie was sitting in her car it had been a tough day at work looking to those abuse cases. She opened the top two buttons of her shirt and lay her head back against the head rest, massaging her right temple with the tips of her right fingers, willing herself from going down memory lane. She opened her eyes and in her rear mirror she could see a Joey approaching with a look of heartache about her. Charlie sat up straight trying to get a better view as Joey walked passed the car. Something within her ached at the sight of Joey, and her heart leapt. She couldn't explain it but she was opening her car door and walking up to the girl that she had gotten to know pretty well in the last few weeks. There was something guarded abut her though, but Charlie felt an immense sense to protect her. Joey jumped in fright hearing someone approach her she turned on her heels to be greeted by a gentle face.
"Hey are you ok? I was sitting in my car back there when I seen you walk passed." She reached out and out hand on Joey's upper arm.
"You're in cop mode?"
"Its debatable" she smiled "But I'm off duty anyhow, do you want to come back to my house for a bit? Its getting dark Charlie offered. "You shouldn't be out here alone" Joey smiled greatful for the kindness "Are you sure? I don't really fancy going home just yet" Joey admitted.
After watching television for a while and the small talk had done its course Charlie turned to Joey "Look do you want to stay tonight? It's as easy as any" she smiled softly at her. "And I do have the most amazing bed ever".
Joey blushed thinking of what else would be amazing "Charlie, are you sure? I can just as easy sleep on the couch"
"Are you kidding, there's plenty of room for two in my lovely bed" she laughed, then her facial expression softened "Plus, I think we need to chat don't you?" Charlie rested her hand on Joey's thigh before standing up.
We lay there, on our sides both perched on our elbows facing each other. I waited in silence for her to start what had been inevitable considering the days events. Her face is so clear I can see the agony in her eyes, the pain in her face as she relived those childhood years..
"Charlie I'm so frightened, I'm never going to be able to escape it, I've tried to run from it for twenty odd years" she confessed, unaware of the tears spilling down her face. "But I'm tired of running Charlie, I can't do it anymore, I give up" she dropped her head in defeat. Being on the left side of the bed Charlie used her right hand placed in gently under Joeys chin guiding her head up again, to look her in the face.
"Joey, you don't have to run, I'm here for you there's no need to anymore" Charlie didn't want to pressure Joey, if she was going to confess it had to be of her own free will.
Joey took s deep breath and sighed "When I was a child" she began, pausing to think how she'd phrase it encourage on by Charlie's hand settled on her waist above where the blanket began covering them.
"There was this boy next door, a good few years older then me, he was horrible. I don't remember when it started or even when it finished and to be honest I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing." Once she had started she knew she wouldn't be able stop. Looking at Charlie's gentle face she also knew she couldn't stop.
"He used to babysit me, my Dad was an alcoholic, my Mum didn't give a shit about us. This guy, Robert, Robbo I think he calls himself now, used to take care of me from time to time, he'd always find an excuse to come over anyhow when he was desperate enough" she added lowering her voice.
I can't believe she's telling me this, I want to hold her, and never let her go, I need to protect her. Need or want it doesn't matter right now.
"Well he used to do things to me Charlie and at the time I didn't know it was wrong. He never explained why he was doing or what he was doing, all I know is that it used hurt so bad. But I guess I should consider myself lucky, however bad things were he never actually raped me." She smiled lightly at Charlie.
"Joey, oh god, I can't believe it, I always suspected something, but never this." She didn't realise she was crying until Joey used her left hand to wipe the tears from her face. She leant across and pulled Joey into the crook of her arm. Where Joeys face almost lay in line with Charlie's breasts. She held her tight rocking her back and forth allowing Joey to wail freely until Joey stopped shuddering.
"Have you ever told anyone Joey, he has to be in Jail right?" Charlie asked with great concern.
"You're the first person I've told Charlie, and I want it to stay that way, your being my friend tonight Charlie, not a cop, he's disappeared anyway, I haven't seen him in years."
"Ok, it'll be alright, I'm never going to leave you" She didn't want to press the issue any further. It had been a big enough step for Joey to tell her everything in the first place.
She's never going to leave me… I love her. I really do, I'm convinced girls aren't her thing though…
Charlie was drawn back into the present by the sound of her phone; work. Well at least it'll take my mind off of things she told herself, dragging her heavy body out of bed she got ready to begin the next two months of her life without Joey…
A/N- WATCH THAT VIDEO LOL:D