Okay I know a lot of you are upset with me right now. All I am going to say is stay with me at least till the end of this chapter please. There will be a longer AN at the end for those of you who read.

After their talk April decided to see if she could get some rest until her next check up, which she assumed wouldn't be until later that night due to an incoming trauma that had come into the E.R. Jackson was paged as well, even though he had told Bailey he was taking the day off, so she knew that it had to be serious.

All she wanted to do was rest, but the universe had other plans for her apparently. She had been just about to fall asleep when Arizona had walked into her room in the ICU.

"Hey, I'm sorry if you were asleep. I just wanted to come by and check on you before I went to pick up Sofia."

"Oh no its okay. Why aren't you in the pit? Jackson was supposed to be off today and he was paged, so I figured all of you would be down there"

"No pediatric cases this time luckily. Plus I doubt Bailey wants to be around me right now since I told her I was leaving yesterday."

April sat right up in the bed after hearing this. Leaving? She had no idea that her best friend was leaving the hospital.

"Wait leaving? What are you talking about? What did I miss yesterday?"

"Oh um I assumed that Jackson had told you. I decided to go to New York. Sofia needs both of her parents, so I talked to Callie and we agreed that I would bring Sofia up there and I would move with her. It's what's best for Sofia right now."

"Wow. That's huge. You are so selfless Arizona. Dropping everything to move across the country for your daughter."

"Well as parents that's what we do. We put our children and their needs first. This is what Sofia needs, so yeah for now I will go to New York. She needs both of her parents together in the same city. It's what she is used to and the past year has been rough on her with going back and forth between the both of us. I know that she moved back here to be with me, but it was just because she missed me and now she misses Callie. Why put her through that when I can solve the problem and just have us both in the same place for her?"

"God. I wish I could do that for Harriet. I mean I know that she is still little and doesn't understand whats going on, but if I could have a chance for Jackson and I to be together than that's what I should do right?"

"Wait. Hold on. What are you talking about April? You and Jackson are in the same place. Harriet isn't missing out on anything with you two. She has both of you in the same place just like she needs right now."

"I know that we are both here. In Seattle, but what if we could actually be together? Like as in a couple together and she could grow up with both her parents in the same home? Isn't that whats best for her?"

"I mean of course that's the dream situation April, but it's not just that simple. You know that as well as I do. I am moving to New York for Sofia, that doesn't mean that Callie and I are getting back together. Being together in a dysfunctional relationship is not whats best for our daughters, you know that April. Even if that's what we want it doesn't mean that it's what's best. Where is this coming from?"

"Jackson. Before he was paged to the ER we were talking. We decided that I would stay with him for at least the next week while I recover so that I wasn't alone at home trying to push myself harder than was necessary and when he told Maggie they agreed to end their relationship. He told me that they ended their relationship because he told her that after what I went through yesterday he realized that he still had feelings for me. He wants to try to get back together Arizona. It's what I've been praying for since I returned home from Jordan. My husband actually wants to be with me again after everything I put him through."

"Ex. Ex husband April. And after everything you put him through? That's bullshit. What about what he has put you through? He's the one who wasn't honest with you when you were in Jordan. He is the one who chose to put the distance between you two, not you. You asked him to go with you to Jordan. Remember that?"

"Of course I do! But that was after I had already left him for a tour and didn't ask him to go with me. That was after I put distance between us. He was responding to the hurt that I had already caused him" April defended.

"Okay. Yes I admit that you screwed up, but don't act like he was innocent. He didn't fight you on the choice you made. He didn't fight for your marriage. He could have easily gone with you when you asked him to or he could have asked you to stay with him and actually been honest with you about why he was asking you to stay. But he didn't. He didn't do it then and he didn't do it when you came back and tried to save your marriage. Instead he took advantage of the situation and used you. Wait. Before you interrupt me let me finish." She said holding her hand up to stop April from interrupting her to defend Jackson once again.

"He used you April. He manipulated the situation when you came back to get exactly what he needed without considering your feelings in the matter. He agreed to counselling even when he wasn't committed to doing the work it took to get through your problems. That's on him. He used you to get the comfort he needed through sex without giving you the emotional comfort that you needed from him. And just when you had thought that the two of you were actually working through your issues and he was starting to come around he pulled the rug out from underneath you and served you with divorce papers. While you were at work humiliating you in front of all of your coworkers and friends. Did you forget that part? He accuses you of running, but so does he. He just doesn't do it physically. He does it emotionally."

"I mean I guess you are right. I know that we have our issues that need to be worked out and I didn't give him a final answer on the getting together part, but I can't help but to feel like if I don't give this a chance now then we will never get another chance. Why should I let that slip by? Why should I let Harriet miss out on that if I have the option to give her both parents together and happy?"

"Okay let me ask you this. How long are you going to be happy for? A month? Six months? Five years? How long is it going to take for him to go right back to how he was? Questioning your commitment to the relationship because of a choice you made years ago after losing your son? What argument is going to cause him to decided that he can't handle the emotions of the situation again? Or what is going to make him question your compatibility as a couple because you have different ideas on certain things? Is it going to be when you have to decide which school to send Harriet to? When you want her to go to a Christian private school so that she can get educated on God and schooling, but he wants her to go to an expensive private school where they don't talk about God? Or is it going to be when she is asked by the Avery foundation to sit in on board meetings when she is thirteen so that she can learn about the family business, but you want her to spend the summer in Moline on the farm with your parents so that she learns about hard work? What is it going to be that causes the next big fight that he just wants to throw his hands up and be done with everything like he always does?"

"I..I...I don't know."

"Exactly. You don't know because he has proven that he doesn't deal with conflict well. Look at the past year April. When you went to Montana you guys slept together and when you got back he didn't even want to have a conversation about it. And then when everyone hated you because you stepped up and took the Chief of General job during the shit with Minnick he didn't have your back. Instead he criticized you and made you feel like crap and called you a traitor because that's what caused him the least amount of conflict. April you have to think about all of this before you just decided to jump back into things with him. I am not trying to sabotage your relationship, I am just trying to protect you right now. I don't want you going into this blinded by the hope you have. Which I applaud. After everything you went through you deserve to have hope for your future. Just don't be rash about making decisions about Jackson."

She could tell that Arizona was sincere in what she was saying. She also knew that she was right. She couldn't make a decision off of Jackson's big declarations. She had done that to many times and then been burned by them in the end. She had trusted him when he said he wanted to get married after their pregnancy scare and then after it was a false alarm and she expressed how relieved she was he decided that it was a sign they weren't meant to be. She had never meant for him to take it as her thinking the relationship was bad for them, she was just relieved that they didn't have to deal with the pressures of parenthood at that moment. He hadn't even tried to fight her on that and he quickly found a new relationship with Stephanie. Then when he had stood up at her wedding in front of everyone and declared his love for her, she had fallen hard for that one. But quickly she realized that the decision to elope was rushed and not thought through properly when they had fought about their difference of opinions on how to raise a child.

Of course that one went to the back burner when she announce that she was indeed pregnant and they weren't fighting about their hypothetical child but an actual child. The joy of finding out they were pregnant had made them forget why they were fighting in the first place, but all of those reasons had come back up when they found out about Samuel's condition.

Everything that Arizona was saying to her made complete since. She was right. It was not okay for her to just brush past all of their problems because she wanted the happily ever after she had always dreamed about. Their problems were real and they weren't going anywhere.

Then there was also the issue of Jackson's faith. Obviously he hadn't made a decision on how he felt about God and after everything she had been through over the past year with her own faith didn't allow for her to be in a relationship with a man who didn't fully understand her commitment to her faith. He had come a long way since they had first gotten together, but he still wasn't fully there and although she would pray about that and for him there was no guarantee that he would ever fully except God.

"You are absolutely right Arizona. God what was I thinking? You are right. There is no way that a relationship between us would work right now. We still have way to many issues to work out before we could even consider getting back together." She said before flopping back on her pillows in frustration.

"It's not that I want to be right. I hope one day that you and Jackson can work through your issues and be that amazing couple that you once were. Even better than you were back then, but I just don't want you to go into this without thinking it through fully. You over think everything, except Jackson. You just don't think when it comes to him and sometimes that's okay but right now you need to be focusing on what's best for you and Harriet. Not what's best for Jackson. He may want that right now and he may even want it in the future too, but wanting something is only half the battle. You have to be willing to do the work it takes to get what you want. I am not saying give up entirely on ever getting back together with him. I am just saying make him work for it. Make him do the work that he was never willing to do before."

"I know. Thank you for talking sense in to me. I really needed a voice of reason because you were absolutely right I was going off my feelings rather than thinking rationally about it."

"I'm glad I could help. Let me know if there is anything else I can do." She said getting up to say goodbye to her friend.

"Actually I was wondering if I could come and stay with you for a few days. Not the whole week, but I just don't think I should be going to stay with Jackson right this second. It would be to easy for him to talk me into trying again. I need to make sure I take some time to get my thoughts together before I go to his place. I know you will be getting ready to move so I am assuming you will be home for the next few days right?"

"Yeah tomorrow is actually my last day here, so of course you can come and stay with me. It would be nice to be able to spend some time with you before I leave for New York. Plus Sofia would love it. She is going to miss you when we leave."

"Oh Arizona! Thank you so much! That would be great. Now I just have to figure out how to break the news to Jackson." She said giving her friend a hug.

"Yeah I can give advice, but you are on your own on that one. Pretty boy doesn't like to be denied." Arizona said as she walked out of the room.

A/N

Okay so don't hate me to much. April is still a woman and we all do stupid things when it comes to the men that we love. She had a momentary lapse of judgement so of course she just needed a girlfriend to help get her mind on track. As much as I love happy Japril and would love to see that here in this story Jackson still has a lot of work to do before April will let him back in.