All My Love

Chapter 10

"Jake?" I exclaimed, almost dropping the comforter when I saw his face. God, it was so refreshing to see it. "W-What are- How are you?"

"Uhm, I'll only be here for a second so if I could come in?" Jake asked in a rather distant voice.

"Y-Yeah, of course," I said stepping aside. This is so weird. Why was Jake acting so formal? Maybe he's not even here for me. What if he's going to tell Charlie about how I'm a freaking slut. Or how I totally crushed my chance with him. Oh, what have I done?

Jake entered and looked down at me. He had some sort of glint in his eye, but he turned away too quick for me to see exactly what it was. He headed up the stairs and I knew I was supposed to follow since you could hear Charlie moving towards the living room where the television was.

We entered the room to which I stay and I prayed to whoever was listening that he wouldn't pick up on the recent smell.

"So... what died in here?"

So much for that.

Me. "N-Nothing. I just need a new mattress is all," I answered lamely before sitting upon it. Unfortunately he did not join me and just stared down at me, those soulful eyes reading me like an open book. Which means he knows how hott I think he looks in those leather pants and white T-shirt. He's obviously been working out and I would certainly not mind being held in his buff arms.

"Bella," Jacob said in the same voice that immediately snapped my vision and thoughts away from his arms but to his voice.

"Yes?" I asked in anticipation that was cutting at me from the utter guilt of looking at him.

"I've been thinking about our... date." My breath caught as he said those words and it certainly was not as bad as what was about to come next. "Obviously, I-I'm not good enough for you. You cannot help but to look for other people and I get it-"

"Jacob," I pleaded softly, hoping he would stop.

"Wait!" his voice echoed as I remained silent. "I get how you are still hung up on Edward. H-He seems like a complete ass, but if he or Seth make you happy than so be it. I know this might not mean much from me, but I think you are a real great girl Bella. A-And I hope I can move on as quickly as you have. S-So I guess this is me saying goodbye."

A tear fell across my cheek as he turned to go.

"Jake," I called in a hoarse voice. He kept walking and I did not get up to stop him. Not even when I heard his car roar to life. I just said the same syllable over and over again.

"Jake."

That boy. That man. That moron. That hunk. That person. That is. That my. That everything.

I rolled onto my bed and muttered his name over and over again. I could not believe in a few days I'm back to where I've started, and all because one boy who is driving me crazy. I hope he is happy now. He has broken my heart and with good reason: I broke his first...

Jacob's P.O.V.

I'm driving over to Embry's house because it's his night to host the get together and I need to get wasted badly. Just seeing Bella again made my heart split even more as I said the words that I needed to. Her saying my name like that certainly was not making it easier on me.

I mean, she still likes that Edward guy, so why should I care about what she thinks of me? Why shouldn't I drink and maybe raise a little hell since she sort of looks down upon it? Why should I let a girl stop me from doing things I like?

Because you love her, the voice in my head reasoned.

I shook my head. Love? Did people my age even know the real meaning of love? Of course not, it's just another excuse to get someone to stick with you. Love... what a pathetic emotion.

I speed as I enter La Push and attempt to race with the wind. I almost catch it, but slam on the breaks when I reach Embry's house.

I get out of the car and slam the door shut before walking up to the front door and knocking three times. A moment later an irritated Embry opened the door.

"Mom's sitting in tonight; go to Seth's again. I will be there soon," Embry explained before turning away to talk to whomever yelled his name a little while ago.

I jumped in my car and drove all the way down to Seth's home where I was immediately greeted by Sam and Quil, who had apparently just arrived as well. We walked inside chatting away before sitting down on the stained sofa in the living room. I grabbed a few beers from the mini-fridge as Quil turned on ESPN and Sam yelled to Seth to hurry up with the chips.

I opened a beer and drained it immediately. The taste barely touched my mouth and I went for my next one.

"Yo, Jake, your liver can only take so much in three minutes," Quil joked before handing me another one after I finished my second. I took it gratefully and only drank half of it in the first gulp. I needed to get her out of my head and fast.

It was then Leah came down the stairs in jean shorts that ended right at her butt, accenting her lean legs and tiny torso. The white camisole immediately caught my attention as her breasts were about to flow over. She slipped her recently dyed, blonde hair over her shoulder before saying with a sexy smile, "Hey Jake."

I finished the rest of my beer before realizing I knew how and it involved a certain faux-blonde.

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(A/N: Yes, I am evil and totally screwed up poor old Bella and Jake :/. Well, at least we can lay some of Leah's dramatics into the story now ;) We'll see it all unfold in the next chapter when someone makes a surprising appearance :))

(Anther A/N: I do realize this one is a bit shorter and I do dearly apologize, but I'm working on the next one that, I will assure you, to be twice and maybe even three times as long; we will just all have to wait and see.)