PLEASE READ DISCLAIMER
This chapter is MATURE. I have changed the rating to MATURE. It does include a SEX scene. I almost cut it out… but you know sexual tension for so long is never good for anyone. So if you are UNDER 18 years old or easily offend then skip this chapter.
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Usagi lay on the floor having lost again. Her breathing deep like she had been suffocated and she was taking in any and all of the precious air.
"You keep choking every time! You need to focus, have to be quick and not freeze up. Fear is what will get you." Seyia yelled at her.
"Seyia, I… I…" Usagi went on.
"Serena, these guys… well I don't know why some young girl from Tokyo is on their most wanted list." Usagi flinched. She still couldn't tell him the whole story. "But, we keep moving and what if I am not around? Just one time you could be taken. You need to be able to defend yourself. At least to buy you enough time to get away." Seyia explained exasperated.
"Stand up. Now, I am going to come at you from behind…" he said sternly.
"I am a very fast runner." She stated to amuse him.
"Sere, I AM going to come at you from behind. I am warning you so think and then act quickly." Seyia said clearly not amused.
"Okay, okay…"
"Ready?" He asked her but he didn't even give her a second he grabbed her and again she froze. She was on the floor. Tears pricked her eyes… she would never be enough.
Usagi sat up in bed breathing hard. Her hands went to her neck where she had felt the hands try and grab her. The area that Diamond had violated over and over in her nightmares.
She threw a pillow. She was so much weaker than she let on.
Her head fell back on to the bed and she sighed. All of the girls could defend themselves. What had Zoisite said to Amy… something along of the line of making her stronger. He sent her back over and over again to toughen her up.
And Jadeite with only jumping in to help Rei last minute when he knew she needed him.
Her friends were equals with their partners. She couldn't even match Mamoru or Seyia. They just protected her. Seyia had tried to make her worthy… she just couldn't do it. And Mamoru was the big guy… the head of the Rose Clan and she was supposed to be his… his what? Mistress that stayed inside all day? Had she made a partial decision last night when she couldn't leave his side?
And now, she was ready to cry… pathetic. So freaking pathetic. She stared up at the ceiling in her room.
She thought of herself next to Seyia. They were a lot alike. Simple, nothing fancy. A happy couple. A police officer and a teacher. Lived a simple life. She could see them having kids, making them dinner in their small house in Portland. The kids playing in the backyard. Simple… like her. Normal.
But Mamoru's words rang in her ears. "You were not born to be normal."
She pictured her self next to Mamoru. He was strong and self-assured. He could fight and defend those he loved. He was well dressed and the most handsome man she had ever laid eyes on. He was feared and respected. Tokyo was practically under his stood next to him. Small mousey girl in a t-shirt and jeans. She was always being protected. A easy target. She looked pathetic next to Mamoru. The Rose Clan would expect more out of Mamoru's choice. She would be his Achilles heel. What if they did get together? Would they have kids? Live in this huge house? She would never be an equal with him. She would be a laughing stock next to him. What could she offer?
She was smart. She could devise plans and take action. But when anyone tried to get too close her… and she couldn't run… she choked. She was pathetic.
Running was her thing…. She had been doing that for so long.
Running since she was five… running down that dingy alley after her parents were killed. She thought with Mamoru she could stop running. Then she ended up running from him. With Seyia she thought she could stop running and they ran together for while… but that had to end too. She ran from Seyia as well. She thought she was brave and could face her challenges back in Tokyo and sure enough, she ran again.
She had to get some air. She needed out of this house.
She pulled on some jeans, a t-shirt and jacket. She slid in to a pair on vans. She crept to the door hoping to find her guards gone.
"Yes, Miss?" They asked. "Can we get you something?" The very moment she poked her head out of the door.
This was enough. She'd had enough. If she wanted to be able to take care of herself she needed to start now. She needed to start with him…
"I am just walking to Mamoru's room. I am quite sure you can see his door from here. So, leave me alone." She said with anger marching toward her goal.
She banged on it hard, "CHIBA OPEN UP!" She demanded.
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Mamoru was almost in pure bliss. He and Usagi had a moment together tonight. It was amazing seeing her act more assured. She even goaded him a bit and opened up to him. She was curious… curious to try and see this side of him. It was reassuring and wonderful to hold her again knowing he would never lose her.
He looked at his computer, ready to work a bit more before going to sleep. If he could sleep through all of his thoughts of her.
BANG BANG BANG
"CHIBA OPEN UP!" her voice demanded, echoing through the halls.
Kami sama she was going to wake the whole house.
"OPEN UP NOW!" She banged again. What could she want? Mamoru was just in jeans. He threw on a button up shirt not having time to button it and threw open the door.
He saw his angel standing there but she was dressed like she was going somewhere.
She was furious and then she blushed a tad looking at his nude chest.
She stormed in to his room and slammed the door.
"Where do you think you are going?" He asked her getting ready to hold her back from taking a step out of this house alone.
"Apparently no where." She snapped. "I can't even walk from my room to your room with out giving a blood sample and peeing in a cup."
He laughed at her.
"Not funny, baka." She said. "Get dressed." And she threw a jacket at him that was hanging on the back of a chair.
"Huh?" He said now dumbfounded. They had an amazing night and they finally opened communication grounds and now she wanted to leave.
"Are you deaf, Chiba. Get dressed. It appears that I can't even breathe oxygen outside of the house with out you attached to me. So get fucking dressed." She snarled at him. Mamoru was sure he had never seen her this mad. Not even when they ran out of chocolate milkshakes one day at the Crown.
She walked out the door.
He buttoned up his shirt and threw on the jacket. He stepped in to his shoes and walked next to her where she waited rather impatient.
"You see. His majesty Mamoru sama is here now, so I am sure I don't need a hall pass." She said to the two lackeys that guarded her door. They looked confused and Mamoru gave them a look that said it was okay. She started walking quickly and he followed.
"Usako? Where… what are you doing?" He asked. She took him down the maze of hallways and stairs and back toward the main living room. She pressed the panel on the wall that led to the circular staircase that took them to the garage.
She was determined.
She went to open the door that led out to the garage but it was locked. She growled in frustration. She glared at him and he took out a card and pressed it to the lock. It opened. He smirked at her. She ignored him.
The lights in the vast garage turned on at their entry, shining on the collection of cars.
She smirked.
"Which ones are yours?" She asked him not looking at him but at the cars.
He went and stood next to her. He wanted to ask a ton of questions but he was now curious. She had him completely intrigued and her demanding tone was… well turning him on.
He walked over to one of many boxes and swiped the card again. The box opened with a click to revel the keys to his cars.
She frowned for a second walking over to see her selection and then picked a key. He couldn't see which one but she pressed the unlock on the fob and his favorite red Ferrari made a familiar, Click, Beep Beep, noise as it unlocked.
His mouth dropped and she walked toward it quickly. She got in to the driver seat before he could register what was happening and she started the car not even stalling it once. The garage door opened.
She rolled down the window and looked at his now astonished face.
"Come on, Key Card. I am sure I can't exit this prison without my warden." She beckoned to him with a smile.
"Usagi, this is not funny. Get out of the car, now." He growled at her. If she drove off how would he stop her.
She revved the engine
"I am NOT playing, Chiba. Get in now. I am sure you don't want me to try and leave without you. I may hurt myself trying to escape." She said sarcastically.
He walked to the driver side first and she pulled up a little, laughing. He tried to grab the door again and she moved up a bit more. A smirk on her face.
"I don't have all day. Get in or I leave without you." She told him flatly.
He let out a huff and walked around the car to get in to the passenger seat.
Once the door was closed she peeled out.
"Buckle up." She smiled to him shifting in to second.
"Holy shit, Usa. What are you doing? He asked her, his eyes large. He reached for his seatbelt.
"Use your little clicker thingy and open the gate." She told him firmly shifting in to third gear. She knew he had it on him.
He could not believe that she could drive this car. How the hell was he in this position? She had taken a page out of his own book and kidnapped him.
As they approached the gate it opened. She dropped in to second making the turn toward the highway, sped in to third and then forth. Once she got on the highway she was already in sixth gear and she sighed in relief.
"Usagi, so I don't kill you when you stop this car… what the fuck are you doing?" He growled at her trying to contain his surprise. She looked… hot behind the wheel. He had always seen her as beautiful and pretty. Hot was a word he never associated with Usagi.
"Firstly, this is a trust exercise. You followed me when I asked. It was a little more hesitant than I would have hoped for but I am sure your curiosity got the best of you." She weaved in and out of a few cars. He wasn't sure if he should look or not. She was going to actually be the death of him.
"Secondly, I wanted to show you something that I could do. Something I am sure you didn't think I could. I am sure this was on your long list of things that Usagi can't do, you wont't let her do, and never teach her to do."
"That's… not…" He couldn't say it wasn't true. It was true. The list was long. She hit the gas and shifted in to seventh gear,laughing as the odometer reached 150.
Mamoru was trying to relax as much as he could. There was no 'Oh shit handle' in this car.
"So what's the real point here, Usako?" He questioned her wanting to close his eyes.
"I was hungry." She smirked. She got off on the exit to Rompangi and flew down the street. She stopped a few miles down the road, right in front of a noodle street food cart. This was a very familiar part of town for Mamoru.
People stopped at gawked at the Ferrari and the blond that stepped out. She looked down through the window.
"Mamoru. Coming? I didn't bring any money." She smiled at him. He had to smile back at her. Holy shit she was hot.
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"Are you freaking out?" She asked him after they sat down with their noodles. She started slurping right away.
"About how we have no protection right now?" He asked her taking a bite. She nodded.
"No, about how that as my first time driving a real car. It was always arcade games until now." She said with a wink.
"You what?" He stuttered.
She laughed and said, "Yes, about having no protection."
He slurped up his noodles and smiled at her wide smile. "You have me."
"And you had people follow us?" She gave him a look. He shrugged. "Anything to protect you, Usa." She let out a breath.
"This is why I wanted to take you out of the house to talk. I know anything I asked you would have to go to a vote with the Nee-san and the Sempai Kohai." She frowned as she said the words.
"That is how its done Usako." He stated now looking at her intently. She shifted her gaze.
"Yes, but…" She sighed. She looked at him right in the eye.
"Look. I want you to teach me how to defend myself." She said simply. This is not what she really wanted to say… or not all of it but it was a big part.
"No." He didn't even think about it. He just said it. She nodded.
"Then I will ask Seyia to start training me again." She said with a shrug.
"What!" He yelled. Some of the nightlife eating looked at him. Usagi didn't realize it was because they knew who he was and him shouting was never a good thing.
"He trained me… or tried to train me for years and I was just too weak to do so… or maybe I didn't try enough. But I have to learn how. I know that you sure as hell didn't think I could drive that car but I did. I… Well I couldn't drive like that with Seyia but I could with you. You are the only one who can teach me to defend myself." She said determined.
"You have us. You don't need to do that, Usako. I don't think I could bare to see you have another bruise on your face." He said simply not wanting to ever relive their re-union. The shock of her on the floor. The moment she reveled herself with a bleeding lip. It was a memory he wished he could erase.
"You put it there, what's so different now?" She said anger seething.
"I didn't know it was you!" He growled out.
"Does that matter?" She asked him.
"Yes, I can't appear to be weak when people talk back to me." He stated looking at her with an intent gaze.
Usagi knew she was right. She would be too weak next to him. To stand by him. Could't he see that he said exactly what she was thinking. HE couldn't appear weak. Then why should she be any different.
Her shoulders slumped. She pushed away her food. "Then, we can't be together, Mamoru. Ever."
She got up and threw the keys at him. She put her hands in her pockets and walked away heading quickly down the sidewalk.
"Shit!" Mamoru said, quickly getting up to follow her.
"Usako! Stop." She just kept walking. She could run in these shoes for sure but she wouldn't.
He grabbed at her hand and she threw him off and kept going.
"I am not going to run away from you Mamoru, but I will walk away from you." She said sternly telling herself not to cry.
He grabbed her arm now this time.
"Stop, baby, stop." She stopped but didn't turn toward him.
"This isn't going to work this time, Mamoru." She said simply.
He couldn't figure out why she was saying these things. Why she had dragged him out here so late. Why she had pulled such a stunt and then it hit him.
"Oh, Usako. It's not like that at all. We are… how many time do I have to tell you we are soul mates. Two parts to one whole." How could she feel like she wasn't good enough for him?
He wrapped his arms around her. She sniffled.
"We will never be equal, Mamo chan. It's not like before where you can keep me in the dark. You lock me in the house. I can't go anywhere alone. If I didn't have a bathroom in my room at YOUR house I am sure I would have to clock out and clock in. I can't even ask a private question with you without bringing it to a vote!" She said holding in her tears.
"We are equal." He turned her to him. "I can't lose you again. I would rather die first."
"So you want me to die everyday knowing that I am your weak, pathetic … I don't even know what we are!" She pulled out of his arms. She held back her feelings of weakness.
"I can make it work until this thing is over and then I am done. I won't be caged. Don't follow me, your guards can." She started walking away again. She just needed some time alone.
He picked her up and flung her over his shoulder. This was not what she had in mind.
She didn't notice when he threw his keys to someone near by, and he stalked down the street.
"Chiba, you idiot. Let me down! She hit him on the back.
"Shut up. Usagi!" He growled at her. He had never spoken to her that way before.
He walked in to a nearby building nodding to the guard at the door. He pressed the button to the elevator ignoring her cries.
"Where are you taking me, Chiba baka. To another cage!" She yelled.
The elevator opened in to his Tokyo apartment's foyer. He turned on the lights and stormed in to the living room and set her down on the couch. She crossed her arms and looked at him with daggers.
He moved away from her and toward the wall of windows that looked over Tokyo. He was taking deep breaths to try and calm himself down. It didn't work.
"Why! Why! We finally start to move forward you take us back! Why do you keep doing this to me, Usa!" He yelled at the city.
She could see his reflection in the windows. He looked distraught. He ran his hands through his hair and turned back to look at her.
"I am not trying to!" She accused. "I am trying to move us forward! It's you that is taking us back!"
"Me!" He laughed. "It's you that is trying to hold us back! All I do is love you and you keep trying to leave me! I am a powerful man and I am brought down to nothing with your words! I am nothing without you!"
"Well at least Seyia was always up for us being on the same page! He quit his job to be on my level here!" She yelled at his grasp for power again.
He stalked toward her. "You want to bring him up now!" He growled.
"I will not be a little prize you get to come home to while you lock me in a tower! Do you think that it didn't hurt when I realized that all of my friends are equal matches with their lovers? Zoisite was willing to keep sending Amy back, to get hurt, so she would be stronger! Kunzite gave Minako time to cool off after her dramatic accusations. Jadeite didn't cry over a scratch on Rei's arm!"
"You want me to always be kept locked away! How would I ever prove myself the way that the Nee-san do! Do you know what it's like to consistently run away and never be able to stop to defend yourself! I look at them and all I do is compare how pathetic I am and that woman…" She looked crazed now. "The WOMEN you have been with… I can't even imagine." She stopped to look at him. She wasn't even worthy then to be claimed by him. He never even tried. "You know what, fuck you Mamoru. I'm just done."
Mamoru knew that she was right but this wasn't done. This wasn't ever done.
He grabbed her as she tried to leave. "You want us to be equal, Usako!" He snarled at her. And then he crashed his mouth on to hers. The fury she was feeling right now she gave back to him.
All of the walls he put up around them were down and all of the feelings he never acted on before were being thrown to the wind.
He picked her up grabbing her behind never taking his mouth off hers.
She pulled away to gasp for air and he used the moment to slide her jacket off her. His hands clasped around her waist as he desperately kissed her again.
He moved them toward the bedroom and was shocked as Usagi started pushing his jacket off him.
He laid her down on the bed and she fully removed it, starting on his shirt. Her desire for him was filled with the need to be his equivalent. He pulled her up taking off her shirt.
He had never seen her like this before. He almost had never wanted to, keeping her a porcelain doll on a shelf. He kissed her again and she had finished removing his shirt. running her hands over his chest.
He got on top of her kissing down her neck not stopping when he came to her lace bra.
She moaned and he couldn't stop now. She smelled and tasted amazing. His hands moved down her taunt stomach and he found her jeans where he unbuttoned them. He moved from her breast kissing down toward her hips where he stopped to removed her shoes. He came back up and kissed her navel and removed her jeans. He had to stop. He was panting. He looked down at his amazing angel. She was the most magnificent thing he had ever seen.
There was no fear in her eyes. Only lust and need.
"Mamo-chan?" She asked him now worried why he was stopping. He couldn't let her worry. She was good enough for him, more than good. Better than him in every way. A bright light that countered his darkness. He came down and ravaged her mouth again and she didn't hold anything back from the kiss. He felt her hands slide down his sides toward his jeans. Her hands came together at his hips and she started to undo his jean button. He was in pure ecstasy when she gave them a pull and her legs came up so she could push them off with her feet.
He rolled them over so she was on top and pulled her up to sit on his lap. She was straddling him and he went to remove her bra. He could feel her full breasts on his chest and he needed her. He had never been so turned on in his life. He moved to massage them and she moaned again. "Mamoru." She gasped in his ear and he pinched her nipples.
"Usako." He moaned in to her hair knowing that if she didn't stop him now he was going to take her. He grabbed her face and looked her in the eye.
"I will have you if you don't stop me, now. Once I do, you are mine. Mine and only mine. Do you understand?" She nodded.
His hand moved down to rub her tender spot making her groan. She was very wet.
"Last chance to stop me, baby." He said again but now she grabbed his face and kissed him so passionately he could only take it as a yes.
He laid her down and kissed down her stomach toward her panties. He slowly pulled them off only turning her on more. He then took off his boxers so Usagi could get a full view of him standing. She gasped at his beauty. he was an Adonis and he was about to be all hers.
He spread her legs taking in her full beauty and he slowly placed his fingers in her, moving them slowly. He watched as she went ridged with pleasure and her head went back.
He could feel her building but he stopped and slowly climbed on to her.
"Mamochan, please." She looked at him desperately.
He kissed her again and moved in to position on top of her.
"Baby, look at me." He told her. Her big blue orbs looked at him. Desire flooded her eyes when she looked in to his midnight blue eyes
He thrust in to her quickly getting it over with. She closed her eyes in pain and a tear came down her face. He kissed it away.
"That's it, my love." He began to move in her very slowly and then it became more and more steady. She felt amazing. She was amazing. He groaned he was already going to cum. He had never cum so quickly in his life but she was starting to go ridged and he knew she was close also.
"Come for me, baby." He whispered in her ear. She moaned, breathing hard. He was also breathing hard as he moved in and out of her. He was trying not to release until she did but she just felt so amazing.
He couldn't hold back and he exploded in to her as she came undone at the same time. Her orgasm pulsated on and on and he finally collapsed on top of her. She held him trying to catch her breath.
He began kissing her face. Every inch of it. He grabbed her around the waist and slowly pulled out of her. She winced.
Usagi laid in the bed with her head on his shoulder. She was trying to wrap her head around what just took place. An amazing experience. One that she knew would have not been the same with anyone else. She was glad she waited. She was glad she was back with him.
She knew by taking this step with him that she had moved their chance of equality closer.
She closed her eyes. She was tired. So tired.
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She opened her eyes slowly. She looked around. She didn't know where she was but the room had an amazing pink and orange tint to it. The sun was rising over Tokyo.A realization that she only had a few hours sleep.
She slowly sat up, blushing when she realized she was nude. A soft snore came from the devilishly handsome man next to her. His ebony hair was a mess and fell in to his sleeping eyes. Usagi took in his form truly appreciating how manly he was.
She kissed his brow.
Her brain was now in full motion and she couldn't stop her thoughts. He had made love to her.
What if she wasn't good? What if now that he had her like that… he didn't want her the same way?
She got up and walked across the room to the attached bathroom. She looked at herself in the mirror. She didn't have the body of Minako or the legs of Raye. She didn't have the chest of Ami or the long swan neck like Lita. But she looked happy. In the mirror for the first time in forever she really looked happy.
She turned on the shower and stepped in.
She let the water run over her as she replayed last night in her head. He had told her that if she had sex with him that she belonged to him. That she was his alone. She had agreed.
But what about her… Was he only hers? Would he sleep with others when he became bored with her? She thought about the red head. He was sleeping with her for information. Would he have to do that again?
She put her head against the shower wall and knocked it twice. She was sure he hesitated at one point last night. 'Ugh!' she said.
She felt strong arms envelope her and she was slowly pulled back in to the falling warm water now against Mamoru's warm chest.
"Usako?" He said some worry in his voice.
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He had woken up with a feeling of loneliness. He was having another night's amazing sleep and yet something had disturbed him.
The sun was rising over the city and he sat up looking out at the spectacular view. He was in his downtown apartment. He hadn't been here since Usagi came back in to his life. 'Usagi'.
He turned to see her in the bed but she was gone. Panic came over him and he quickly threw off the covers and started to head for the door but then he heard the shower on.
He let out a sigh of relief. She hadn't tried to leave. Not that she could have… he took that back. He could't under estimate her.
He quietly opened the bathroom door and headed in toward the large shower at the far end of the bathroom.
He could see her through the glass. She looked amazing. She was amazing. His eyes roamed over her body… his body. She had willingly and almost demanded him last night. No shyness to her at all.
She wanted Mamoru to look at her for what she was now. A woman. A woman who wanted to be stronger for him. So she could be with him. He remembered he words of insecurity that she had told him last night. She wasn't the girl he sheltered for so many years. She was stronger than he wanted to give her credit for. At that very moment he noticed that laid her head against the shower wall and knocked it there.
He needed to know what was on her mind. Was she regretting her decision last night? He headed toward her and slowly opened the shower door. He was being drawn to her and he slowly wrapped his arms around her pulling her close. She didn't resist.
He breathed her in. This was so much more than he had been hoping to have with her so early.
"Usako?" He asked her wondering what was on her mind.
She didn't seem at all embarrassed to be standing here with him, nude in the shower.
"Hum." She said now relaxing in to him. She turned to face him and looked up in to his eyes.
She was searching them for something. He brought one hand up and pushed a stray hair out of her face.
Then she smirked at him. "Happy to see me, Mamoru?"
He smiled at her. "In more ways than one, my love."
She had so many things she wanted to ask him but when he looked at her like that… well the questions could wait.
She pulled his head down to her and she kissed him. It didn't take him but a second to pick her up and push her against the shower wall. Usagi was going to take pleasure from round two and then she would get her questions answered.
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