(A/N): Awwwhh!!!!! I love all of you!!!! You guys are the best reviewers ever. EVER =) I hope you enjoy chapter nine. You know the drill- REVIEW IF YOU LOVE ME! (or if the curiosity of chapter ten is eating your insides. I need 5 more before I put it up.) Please and Thankyou. I have a tiny feeling that this chapter is going to be a tinsy bit longer than most. Lots of big things. ALRIGHT, ALRIGHT, I will say no more than that. Go ahead, read on.

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BPOV

Jasper's eyebrows shot up on his head.

"Me? Bella.... I... I don't know what to say. I'm touched, really, that you would trust me with something that important to you. But don't you think Edward should help you with that? Or maybe Carlisle? Both of them would be more than willing to help. I mean, its not that I don't want to help you, of course I do, I just think that Edward would be minutely hurt that you would pick me over him. Not that he would ever say that." Jasper was rambling.

"Jasper, you have been through it most recently. You still struggle with it, right? You would be perfect for it. And if I get out of control, you can always manipulate my feelings and relax me, and make me feel calmer. Please?" I pleaded. I would much rather Jasper. I dont want Edward to see me when I'm like that, crazed and slightly insane. Jasper sighed when he saw the agonized look that must have been plain on my face.

"It's not that I am unwilling to help you, Bella. I would do anything for you. You are like a sister to me. But I really think you should talk to Edward about it. Then come talk to me. As soon as I'm sure that Edward is fine with it, I would be more than happy to help." I could feel my lips slip into a pout. Jasper chuckled. We both heard tires rapidly crunching over gravel, which meant that Edward was speeding up the drive.

I stood up and put on my best 'nothing-is-the-matter-with-me-why-do-you-ask?' look. I turned to Jasper.

"Blocked?" I asked, reffering to his thoughts.

"Doesn't matter, little miss shield. Everyone's thoughts are blocked." Jasper reminded me with a smile. I smiled back. I'm liking this little gift of mine, I thought happily.

Just as we were turning to go inside the house Edward's silver Volvo raced up the drive and into the garage. He was parked and out of the car in record time, bounding up the stairs that we were at the top of. I was in his arms in seconds.

"Love, do you have something you would like to share with the class?" Edward muttered in my ear.

"Ugh! Alice! She never gives anyone any privacy. Damn her and her super psychic abilities!!!" I growled. He chuckled and let me go, keeping only my hand.

"Can we talk about this later?" I asked. Edward sighed, and nodded. I smiled triumphantly. Edward opened the door and motioned for Jasper to walk in. Jasper lead, and Edward and I followed, hand in hand. Edward dropped my hand and went to walk towards the glass box. He spoke softly into the speaker.

"Hello, my little angel. I missed you while I was gone." Renesmee just stared at her daddy like gold was falling out of his mouth as he was speaking; in total awe. I snickered.

"I think she's stunned someone so amazing is talking to her." I laughed into my palm. Edward rolled his eyes.

"So would you like to start show and tell, or would you like me to go first?" Edward asked sarcastically.

"Ummm.... pass?" I tried. Edward shook his head.

"No way, missy." Uh-oh. Missy has always been my name when I'm in trouble.

"I would like to know just why Alice called frantically to ask whether you were home alone or not. She's had me worried sick." Edward said, tapping his foot lightly on the floor. I sighed.

"Edward, I didnt kill anyone. I swear. But if dont stop tapping your foot I might change that reputation." I said, smiling. His foot stopped tapping immediatly and mummbled "Sorry."

I grinned widely.

"No problem." He sighed and sat down on the couch. I followed suit. The grin fell from my I began explaining what I had to do with Renesmee.

I knew it was silly to make a huge deal about it, but every other parent in the world can simply grab the toy that their child just dropped, but me. I dont want it to be that hard. I want to be able to feed her and hold her and take her places and be a mom without making a huge effort not to kill her. It seems silly, I know. But when I imagined being a mother I never thought it would be this hard. I imagined me giving her baths, feeding her and getting food all in her hair when she wont eat her vegitables, dressing her up for play dates with the other baby boys. I wanted all of that. But instead, everyone in the family except for me is being a mom. And that was my job. And I will be able to get all of that. I just need Jasper, time, and lots of animal blood.

----- Three days after the 'incident'.

"Bella, are you ready to go?" Jasper called from the front door. I was in Edward's room, (well, our room now) staring at myself in the mirror. I was doing some self evaluations.

Edward had absolutely no problem with Jasper helping me become a vegiterian. He actually said that Jasper would be the best around a new born, because of his unique power. So that had settled that. But I wasn't sure if I was ready. I mean, of course I wanted to be a good vampire. I wanted nothing more. But... I just don't know.

"Love, Jasper is ready." Edward said quietly from the open bathroom door. I stood there for another second and took a deep breath.

"Coming, Jazz." I called. I gave Edward a peck on the lips and dashed down stairs. I stood at the door, infront of Jasper.

"Let's go." I said, suddenly very nervous. I felt a wave of calm come over me, and gave Jasper a knowing look. He smiled, and we walked out the door. Jasper lead me into the forest.

"Okay. So, class, here we have a bag of human blood. It is slightly smaller so you wont be filled with just two bags, and we might actually make progress." Jasper spoke and made a hand gesture towards a small hospital bag full of dark red blood. I could smell nothing.

"And to the left, class, we have a bag full of animal blood. I am going to open each of them, starting with the human blood. And then, you are going to resist the blood, Bella. Then I will open the animal blood. This is what you may drink. Now, I am assuming that you haven't fed today?" Jasper asked, eyebrows raised. I shook my head.

"Nope." I said. He nodded.

"Good." And then he picked up the bag full of human blood. The bag read AB POSITIVE. I shivered at the fact that someone out there had once had this blood in them. And now it was gone, for me.

Rip!

Jasper tore open the bag with his teeth and then stared at me with a consintrated look on his face. I suddenly felt very very relaxed, and calm, other than nervous and anxious. But that didnt stop the scent of pure blood from reaching me. I held my breath and didn't dare open my mouth. I shut my eyes and pictured that Jasper was holding my daughter, other than a bag of blood.

"Bella, breathe." Jasper said. "It will test your strength, and make you stronger after a while of this." I shook my head no vigorously and squeezed my eyes even tighter shut then they already were. My lips were sealed shut, and I didn't dare breathe through my nose.

"Bella, dont worry, you wont hurt me." he said gently. I counted in my head.

One.... two.... THREE! I screamed in my head and opened my eyes, still holding my breath.

"Breathe." he ordered. I opened my mouth and took a huge gulp of air. It burned like someone was shoving a branding iron down my throat.

"Another, please." Jasper instructed. I did as I was told, and it was just as painful. I couldnt take it anymore, and I lunged at the bag, drinking it all in three point five seconds. Once I was done I felt totally guilty. I looked up at Jasper, who already had another blood bag.

"I'm sorry, Jasper. I should have had more control." I said, getting up off the forest floor and dusting my self off.

"No problem, Bella. No one get's it right away. Like you said, I still struggle with it, and I'm one hundred and sixty five years old." Jasper comforted me, grinning. A wave of self-loving suddenly came over me. I looked at Jasper and rolled my eyes. He just stood there, grinning.

"Anything I can do to help, Bella." Jasper laughed.

After three tries of the human blood, I finally was able to restist by holding onto one of the huge oaks. Not that it could stop me or anything, I just didnt want to break the tree. But when Jasper opened the animal blood bag, a horibble smell filled my nostrils. I wrinkled my nose.

"Eww, Jazz. Animal's stink." I groaned, never letting go of the tree. Jasper just laughed.

"It's because they are vegitereans. The meat eaters smell better." he promised me.

"Do you have any of the meat eaters?" I asked hopefully. He shook his head, no.

"But we could go past the border, into Canada. They have plenty of mountain lions." Jasper said after a moment of thinking. I sighed.

"I can't illegally cross the border everytime I want a decent meal. No, I'll stick with the stupid smelly veggie eaters." I mumbled. Jasper walked over to me with the blood bag in his hand. I reached for it, but just as my hand was almost around it he pulled it away farther.

"Wait a minute, there. Can you resist this?" he asked. I stood there and took a deep breath. The smell was a little mouthwatering, and more than a little painful, but only because it was blood. Other than that, it smelled like rotting compost material. I nodded my head, yes.

"See? We are making progress." Jasper said, a little proud of himself and his stellar teaching skills. I rolled my eyes.

"Or maybe we haven't made any progress. This blood smells gross, Jasper. That's why I can resist. Because it isn't appealing." I reminded him, my signature 'duh' look on my face. Jasper's face fell a little bit.

"Why do you have to bust bubbles?" Jasper asked jokingly, as he handed me the bag. I drank it, and it kind of made me more satisfied than the human blood. Maybe it was subconcious, maybe it had something in it. Whatever it was, it wasn't nearly as good as AB positive, but it made me feel better about myself. Like an ego boost. I told Jasper this, to which he chuckled and said,

"Would you like another ego boost?" I laughed along with him, as he grabbed another blood bag. This time, he opened both human and animal bood bags simultaneously. The scent mixed together was both mouth watering and nose wrinkiling. But I was able to ignore the human blood and go for the animal bag. It still took a large amount of strength, but I was proud of myself. After one more try of this, I was too full to try any more. Edward had been hiding a few yards away in a tree. He thought I hadn't seen him, and I didnt at first, but I smelled him ad heard him running. I grinned widely at Jasper as we picked up the empty bags, and winked, letting him know to follow my lead.

"Jasper, you know I am really glad that you helped me today. I'm so happy that you came to my rescue. I would never want Edward to help me. To bossy." I said, my back to his tree. Jasper smiled.

"Me too, Bella. And I completely agree. He can be really controlling." Jasper continued with the antagonizment.

"Agreed." I said. Suddenly I heard feet hit the forest floor. Edward had dropped down from his not-so-hiding place. He was next to me in seconds, growling quietly in my ear.

"Edward, you know what they say about eavesdroppers. They never hear what they want to." I teased. He made a trail of kisses from my jaw, down my neck and along the line of my collar bone. He made this circuit three times before he kissed my lips enthusiastically. His right hand knotted in my hair while his left hand was on my lower back. I pressed myself as close to him as was possible. Jasper made a gagging sound.

"Get a room." he laughed. Edward chuckled against my lips and turned to face his brother.

"I'm just showing her that I can lose control." he said simply. Jasper rolled his eyes, a smile playing around the edges of his lips. I laughed.

"If this is what I get for talking about you behind your back, then I should have learned to gossip about you a long time ago." I grinned. Edward smiled back, and took my hand.

"Let's go home." he whispered. I turned and looked at Jasper, who was picking up all the left over blood bags.

"I think I'll help Jazz get the rest of those." I said, never letting go of Edward's hand, and dragging him along with me to go get three of the nine left overs. Edward let go of my hand, and picked up three as well. Jasper had the others in his hand.

Throughout the run home, I had a small smile on my face. Some of it was remembering the joke we played on Edward, some of it was knowing that I finally did something right with my feeding habits. But most of it was for the new friendship I had grown with Jasper.

I'd always thought of Jasper as just someone in the background, someone who's main reason for being here was Alice. But now, I really am glad that it was him instead of Edward. If it had been Edward, I still wouldn't know what Jasper is really like. He's fun, kind, and encouraging. He is like a big brother to me, but without all the annoying-ness that comes along with a sibling. He's better than a sibling. He's..... he's..... He's a friend.

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(A/N) Everyone all together now- AAAAWWWW!!!!!! Haha, anyways, there's the long awaited chapter nine. Hope you enjoyed!!! Review!!!