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A/N: So, I'm getting the vibe that I need to speed this up, so this chapter may be a little longer, but I'm trying to get to where I feel you guys want to be. Sorry, I get lost in the details. Review and let me know!
Oh and SMUT WARNING.
Still SPOV:
After about 45 minutes the guys come down to the apartment. I'm sure they were waiting for Max to be able to come back. Ranger spots my coke and gives me a smirk as he says: "Those things are going to kill you babe." Poor choice of words Ranger, poor choice of words.
The guys aren't sure what to do, as Hailey and I are still sitting on the floor. Tank mutters a "Shit" as they all sit down. The guys are all looking from me to Hailey, except Max, he is only looking at Hailey. Finally, Ranger looks at me and raises his one damn eye brow.
"Now might be a good time for you guys to use that blank face that I normally hate." I start. I get questioning looks, but all the guys school their features, not that I'm sure it matters, Hailey still hasn't looked at them.
"So, um, Hailey and I were talking and…." I take a deep breath "….and she sort of meant to run in front of the bus."
All of their eyes were on Hailey. While their faces might have been blank, they couldn't hide the worry and stress in their eyes. I also saw more than one of them clench their fist. Max was the first one to speak: "Hailey, is this true?" When Hailey nodded her head yes, Max continued: "Can you tell me why?" To this, Hailey shook her head no.
"Can I tell him?" I ask. Hailey shrugs her shoulders. I can tell she wants to be anywhere but here. "Maybe we should step outside to talk about this." I tell them. Ranger nods, and stands but takes out his phone and calls Woody to come down. When Woody arrives, he talks to him quietly before motioning for the rest of us to follow him out and up to five.
Once we are in Ranger's conference room, I tell them about how the guys leaving the room, every time Hailey walks in makes her think she isn't wanted here. I also tell them about some of her fears that she mentioned.
"Ranger, you've dealt with guys with PTSD for years, you know they need to feel accepted. Why did you order the guys to stay away from her?" asks Max.
"I wasn't thinking PTSD, I was thinking I didn't want her to feel threatened in a secure building with lots of large men. I'll change the order to our PTSD protocol, with some revisions."
"I have to put her on a 48 hour suicide watch, I assume you are going to handle that here?" Max asks.
"Yes." Growls Lester.
Max nods. "Maybe put some of your men who have dealt with PTSD on her detail, and the ones who did the training at Hope Now. They have a good program, you might want to think about using some of their techniques as well. Call me if you need anything, otherwise I'll come check on Hailey tomorrow. She can call me anytime if she wants as well."
After Max left, Ranger sent me up to seven. He said he'd be late tonight. I know the guys have a lot to work out. Ranger looked like he was in need of some stress relief though, maybe I can have a surprise waiting on him…..in the form of me and this little piece of lingerie I've been saving.
LPOV:
What. The. Fuck. How am I screwing this up so much that not only did Hailey run, but she actually wants to end her life? Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I have visions of breaking everything around me, including some skulls.
We agree to go through my apartment in waves, looking for and locking up anything that she can use to harm herself. Bobby and I take the first wave. When we walk in, Hailey has moved to the arm chair. She watches as we lock up the knives and cleaners in the kitchen and then move to the bedroom and bathroom.
Once we are done, Ranger and Tank go through, looking for things we missed. Finally, I asked Cal and Ram to go through. They've both had bouts of PTSD and depression and have even been on suicide watch themselves.
After Tank and Ranger make their sweep through, the four of us head down to gym. We are all on edge. Ranger clears out the few guys in the gym at this hour and cuts the cameras. We beat the shit out of each other, then drank a case of beer while we talked about life. We haven't had time for many nights like this since we started Rangeman.
By the end of the night, we were still on edge, but it is bearable again. Bobby offers to go back to my apartment with me, but I decline. Woody is still there and Hailey will probably be in bed by now. Tomorrow is a new day right?
RangerPOV: **SMUT starts here, just skip this entire POV if you're not a fan**
After leaving the gym, I head up to seven. I'm sure babe is already in bed asleep. I plan on taking a hot shower and hopefully climbing in bed to hold her naked form. I need my woman, I need to be inside my woman, but I won't wake her. Holding her is enough.
I walk through the door and put my keys in the dish by the door.
"Ranger?" Steph call from the bedroom. She waited up for me, I'm a lucky man I walk in the bedroom and realize just how lucky I am.
Steph is laying in our bed wearing a red skimpy lace corset, thongs and heels. She was holding on the head board with her hands above her head and her ankles crossed. She looks so seductive yet innocent. Damn, I love this woman. I hear a low growl come from deep within me. No words are needed between us as I strip and move over top of her. I look deep in her eyes and trace the top of the corset over her chest before I untie the lace and rip them out in one pull. My mouth covers one of her newly visible pink nipples while I work to completely remove the offending piece of clothing. When I bite down on her nipple, she arches her back off the bed begging for more. I'm not sure how gentle I can be right now, but it looks like my woman is looking for gentle anyway.
When I rip her scrappy little thongs off and trail my finger over her sensitive clit, she reaches for me. I immediately stop and place her hands back over her head and order her to keep them there. She nods and bites her lip. Damn that lip, I want to bite to it, so I do. I am rewarded with a moan from my woman.
I head back down to the promise land and am amazed at how wet she is. I am running out of patience, I need to be inside her, to feel her, to show her how much I need, want and love her. I flip her over and move her onto her knees, making sure she continues to hold on to the head board. I nip her neck and enter her in one motion, making her clench around me. "Mine!" I growl out before I begin muttering in Spanish. This is my woman and I can't lose her. Ever. Finally I bring her to her release and then I follow after her. I hold her close and tell her how much I need and lover her before we both drift off to sleep.
**END OF SMUT**
LPOV:
When I get back up to my apartment, I'm surprised to see Hailey is still sitting in the arm chair.
"Oh my God, what happened to you?" Hailey asks jumping up out of the chair. She comes over to the door and takes my hand and starts pulling me towards the kitchen. She fixes an ice pack and then hops up on the counter to start applying it to my eye. Tank has a mean left hook. "Are you ok?" she asks, obviously concerned. All I can do is nod. I'm speechless. Is this the same woman that I left a few hours ago? The same woman who tried to run in front of a bus just hours ago? I hear the door close quietly, Woody leaving I assume. I can't take my eyes off of her, and she is yet to take her eyes off of me. "What happened?" Hailey asks, taking stock of my other visible bruises.
"It's nothing. I was just sparring with the guys." She is still sitting on the counter and I'm holding on to the counter on either side of her.
"These bruises aren't nothing." She grumbles. "You're hurt."
I reach up and run my thumb over her fading bruise on her chin. It has faded a lot, but it is still there. She still at my touch and her gaze meets mine. The next thing I know, I'm leaning in and gently kissing her lips. "I'm sorry." I say pulling back. She looks sad, almost hurt. "Sunshine, I want to kiss you, every second of every day. But I don't want to push you, I'm not sure what to do here." I confess. Hailey looks at me for just a beat before she leans in and finds my lips again. It isn't a lustful kiss, but it is full of emotion and need from both of us.
When we finally break apart, I rest my forehead on hers. "Tell me what to do."
"I can't tell you what to do, I don't know what to do. I'd tell you to trust me, but I don't think that's an option after today." She says with a half-smile. This is my sunshine. This is proof that she is still in there.
"Can I pick you up?" I ask?
"Yes. You don't have to ask. I like it when you hold me. Does that mean I'm completely screwed up? Am I supposed to not want to be touched by anyone?"
I growl with pride that she wants me to hold her as I pick her up and move us to the couch. We spend the next hour talking and me trying to put her fears to rest and gain her trust. I notice she is starting to yawn a lot and getting quiet. She must be completely drained from today. "Sunshine, you are falling asleep on me, go to bed."
"Come with me?" she asks. Like I would say no.
After we are in bed, I kiss her head and say: "Anything you want, anything you need, I'm yours. I love you. Remember that, no matter what. I will go anywhere and do anything for you. I am yours."