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Chapter 10
I tried to wipe away the tears falling out from eyes, but they kept falling. I needed to keep my mind off him, as best as I could. I didn't want to hurt him, I couldn't trust myself to love him that way. I wanted him to understand what I had done, but I don't think that will ever happen. I needed to protect him from me, because I was his biggest threat. I had already hurt him, for rejecting his love. Just loving him would have made it worse. I did the right thing, yet why is my heart in pain?! Love is a crazy thing... It could either make you the happiest in your life, or make you the most miserable. In the real world, love is not perfect like in Disney movies, you watch as a kid. It doesn't work like that. The perfect world of love is in the box, but the horrible truth is outside the box. I've been living inside of the box and now, I have just surfaced to a world I no longer know. It's horrible how life can find ways to bring you down. There are better ways to die, but you must find a way to live. Out of hope, faith and love, Love ruled over, very easily. Without love, you were a lifeless being... The world we live in is cruel, taking things away with a blink of an eye. Losing your parents... Your boyfriend cheating on you... Unrequited Love... Fear in loving someone... This world, whatever it's purpose, is not a fairytale or fantasyland. It's real, no matter what you do, travel back in time or try to ignore that fact that it happened, it happened... Each person needs a distraction of the real life... For kids it's Disney movies and fairytale books. But as for us teens you start learning a life outside those happy endings, outside, into a world of fear. Full of death, heartbreak, love, emptiness and sorrow... It's unfortunate for those children who experience misfortune at such a young age, and that will affect them for the rest of their lives. What I don't understand is that, how can other people learn to live on without a sign of struggle? Do they try to numb the pain with alcohol, smoking, and drugs? It that the right thing to do? Or is it the most easiest way? The down side of those things, it numbs the pain, but once the numbness is gone, you do it again and again... Then you become the person you dreaded seeing, a weak hopeless person... Pathetic isn't it? I hated seeing people, any person, whether it was a small child, a teen or an adult, do those things. When I see them, it makes me think that they weren't strong enough... that they couldn't find help... That their heart couldn't take it anymore. They take the easier way, thinking it's the better way... but is it?
(Author note : This is my opinion.. I feel strong about it. I hate when people smoke, I don't hate the person per se but more the fact that they were smoking or doing drugs for that matter. I've never really experienced these events ever in my life, but this what my opinion of what the world can be like in the eyes of other people. I'm only 14... I know it's shocking... I believe that smoking, drugs, alcohol are not the answer for sadness... you need someone to help you. Oh yeah, one more thing, I'm sorry if this chapter is depressing, I wrote this part in the morning, and the previous night, I watched a movie called The Brave One, so I guess it triggered this! Sorry! Love you all...)
As much as I wanted to numb the pain, I didn't want to become that person. No matter, if it felt good knowing that your pain disappeared. I needed help, a friend, a shoulder to lean on. And right now, I could only think of one person. I had to get up from my fall, and start walking, not fearing the world around me.
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I arrived at school, quickly went to the washroom, and washed my face. I looked at the mirror. I still looked like I cried... It will just have to do. I needed to talk to him, Xavier, for right now I think he's the only one, I can go to right now. I walked through the halls, hearing my steps echoing. I turned around the corner and entered the stage. Everyone turned around to see who was at the door. I heard little whispers hear and there but I didn't care.
"Korinna, what are you doing here? I heard you were sick..." Mr. Spisson asked. "I'm... I'm all better now." Lies Lies and more Lies... "Since you weren't here, I just started with the other characters of the play. I'll give you and Xavier a break..." He replied. Good, he wasn't angry with me. Xavier started walking up to me. "Kory, are you okay?" "Yeah, I'm fine, why?" "Oh nothing, let's go..."
We started walking outside, to the bleachers, our usual spot now. "Xavier, I need to talk to you..." "Alright, shoot." "I have a problem... and I... this is going to be hard for me to say but..." "It's okay, take your time..." "I... I love Richard...and I..." "And you can't do the play, let me guess." He said in a sad tone. "No, it's not that... It's just him and I are best friends... I didn't want to become boyfriend and girlfriend with him..." "But why? You love him, yet you don't want to be boyfriend and girlfriend?" "It's complicated..." "Then, tell me, I have a lot of time." "I'd rather be best friends then nothing at all... If we were dating, if we broke up it would hurt us both, and then we could no longer be friends because it would be weird you know? You can never be friends with you ex-boyfriend... It just doesn't work out that way... But I told him no and I think I hurt him and now I'm hurting in here... that's why I look so miserable... because I've been crying because I can't find a way to stop loving him..." I was crying now, and Xavier pulled me into his arms holding me. "Kory, the only way to stop loving someone is to fall in love with someone else. And no matter how much you love Richard, you can't stop loving him in just a second. It takes time..." "Why do you know everything?" I chuckled at my statement.
"Come on, let's get you back home..." "No, I don't want to go back home... Richard lives right next to me..." "Then where are you going?" "Drop me off at Rachael's..." I said. I needed to tell Rachael and Terra too... they had the right to know...
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With a blink of an eye, I had destroyed the room. My anger took over, and I couldn't do anything... I loved her... no matter what... But she couldn't get herself to love me... I feel so stupid! Why did I sleep with her, knowing that she might feel uncomfortable?! Damn it all! If I didn't sleep with her, maybe things would have been better. What she said was true... If we were dating and we broke up, it would hurt us both and I know that she and I couldn't take that.
But I love her... I wanted to be with her always, no matter how long... I wanted to that special person to her. But it sounds selfish to want more, for I was already her best friend... Why did love have to be so damn complicated? You love someone, yet they can't go through with it? Even if what she said was true, I couldn't accept it... well, my heart couldn't accept it. She didn't want to hurt me and I didn't want to hurt her, but what if we loved each other so much, that even if we fought we would make up... I knew she loved me and she knows that I loved her more... I wish she could accept the fact that even if we fought we could still keep it together... It would be impossible for me to hurt her, because I love her more than myself...
I cleaned the room as best as I can, even though I practically destroyed it. I went to my bedroom and collapsed on my bed, drifting off to sleep.
I was in a dark alley, running away...
But from what?
As I ran, I splashed the puddles and could smell the smoke of cigarettes.
I could hear screams that seemed too familiar to me.
It was my mother's
She screams as my father drops to the ground dead.
I yell as my mother is shot.
I turned to see the killer his face blurred from my memory.
He runs out of bullets as I faint at the sight of death.
He chuckles as I fall to the ground,
I can see him looking for cash in my parents wallets
Then my vision blurs as I fall asleep.
I could see my breath in the cold air,
I was sweating...
I was downtown in Jump City at night.
Wearing a black trench coat walking in through the alleyways.
I could hear screaming as I chased the sound through the streets
The voice got louder and louder
Ringing in my ears...
As I turned into a corner, I saw a woman
With crimson red flowing hair
I yelled as I heard a gunshot
She fell, her hair flowing gracefully in the air
Chuckles were heard
As another gunshot was pulled
It was me... shooting
Tears flowing down my face
More gunshots, more blood
More dead corpses fall to the ground
I stopped looking down at my hands,
Looking down at the bloodshed
Anger has consumed me once again but now killing people
I heard someone cry and I walked over beside her
A little boy with jet black hair crying over
The woman that I loved
I comforted him, feeling a connection
When he looked up at me
I saw myself in him
I woke up, gasping for air. It was pitch black... must have been really late. I massaged my temple and got out of bed. I looked through the curtains to see if she was asleep. She wasn't there... Where was she? I need to know...
I took my cellphone and dialed her house. No answer. "Damn!" I then dialed her cell phone. No answer. Must have turned it off. "Kory, don't ignore me." I called her cell phone again and again but with the same answer... "Damn it, Kory. Pick up!"
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"Damn it, Richard! Why the hell are you calling me?!" I screamed with anger. "Kory, just pick up the phone! It's getting on my nerves..." Rachael said in frustration. "Kory, it might be important..." Terra replied. "I'll answer it, but I'm taking a walk..." I said massaging my temple. "But Kory, it's not safe at night..." I ignored their comment, as I thought of what Richard would tell me.
He's making it harder for both of us...
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"Pick up!" I started dressing up, with some dark faded jeans, a navy blue tee with a black hooded sweater. I went downstairs and slipped on my shoes. I didn't know where I was going but I had a feeling. I kept dialing her phone, hoping that she would pick up and that she would be okay. That stupid dream I had, keeps haunting me...
I was at the park walking, passing the Oak tree. Kory wasn't there... of course she isn't! I started walking on the trail of the park, when I heard a scream. My heart started beating faster and faster as I ran toward the scream. Just like my dream... I came up to the dark tunnel and heard her scream. "Fuck!" I shouted as I saw Kory pinned to the wall by some dude. "Let go of me, you bastard!" she shouted, struggling. It started raining and it was dark. "Let her go!" I charged at him with immense speed. There were two other guys with him. One of them charged at me, getting ready to punch. He misses me as I dodge his attack. The other runs up and tries to kick me, but I take his leg and twist it, making him turn in the air. The first guy charges me again while, I dodge him, taking him by the shirt, throwing him towards the wall, making him hit his head against the concrete. He falls unconscience as the other guy tries to wake him up. I grab the guy harassing Kory, by the collar, "What the fuck is your problem?!" raising him up on the wall. "Please... please don't hurt me..." the guy said scared. "Get your ass out of here now!" I let go of him as he runs away into the night.
Kory was on the ground kneeling, her hands on her face.
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I look up and see a man with a black hood on. "Don't come any closer!" I shout thinking he was another thug. "I'm not going hurt you." The stranger said coming closer to me. "Get away from me!" I said sniffling, I was so scared... "Kory, it's okay... it's me..." The stranger took his hood off and it was Richard. I got up and ran to him. I hugged him tight.
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I started massaging her head, as she cried into my chest. I sighed as I was just in time. I held her tighter to my chest, knowing that I might not be able to do this again, for she was avoiding me. I knew it... She had every right to. She wasn't ready, and I had to accept that. "Kory, it's okay... I'm here..." "I... was... so ...so scared, Richard," "Shhhhh... it's alright it's over, you're safe now. There's no need to cry." She broke our embrace and wiped her tears with her sleeve. She slapped me right in the face. "What was that for?!" I asked her. "That's for calling me!" "Hey! I wanted to check if you were okay! Besides, I saved your life. For all we know you could have got raped or something!" "Well it's your fault I even went here! If you hadn't called me I wouldn't have came here! And why are you checking if I was okay? You're not my bodyguard or my boyfriend for that matter!" I hesistated... that's right I'm not her boyfriend... "Yes, I'm not your boyfriend! But I care you about you! Always have and always will! I had a dream of you getting hurt so I called you to check if you were okay! Is there something wrong with that, huh?! And didn't you say that I was your guardian angel?! Fine! You don't' want me to be fine! Bye! Good luck getting home!" I stormed off without even waiting for any response. If she didn't want me to be there than fine...
I felt someone grab my arm. "Richard, stop..." I didn't even look at her. "What do you want now?! Do you want me to move all the way across the world so that I have no access to you?!" I could hear her sniffle. Crap... I made her cry... How stupid can I get.
"You bastard!" she shouted as she hit me in the chest. "I'm sorry okay! I overreacted! And no, I don't want you to move! I'm just mad and scared okay! I thought I was going get raped or even die! You don't have to get so mad! You idiot!" She said as she hesistated in between words, breathing hard. "You're not the only one, who was scared..." I said in a serious tone. She looked up at me curiously. "Really..." "You have no idea..." I sighed as I looked away from her, starting feel embarrassed. "I know that you don't want to be more than just friends, but can you please try not to get in trouble, it makes it harder for me." I whispered. "Richard, I know that you're hurting, but you know you're not alone. It's frustrating, knowing how much I love you... but I can't..." "I know I get it, you can't love me... you know what? It's okay... maybe you were right, maybe this is just a fling. We both need time and we'll get over each other... I know what you mean about getting frustrated. I feel the same way about you, I love you so much but I don't want to... Don't worry about me, I'll get over you..." I let go of her, breaking our embrace. "Rich—" I didn't care what she was going to say, I cut her off. "I'm going home..." I said running back home, trying to avoid the rain.
The freezing rain hit me hard, making me realize how much I loved her. How much I regretted what I said to her. I hated this, how much I love her. I don't want to love her, but no matter how much I try, it won't go away. I lied to her... I knew that this wasn't a fling, I just wanted her to think that I was over her, when I'm not. She needs her space, and I think I need space from her too.
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Without thinking I ran in the rain after him. I wanted to talk to him as if nothing different happened to us, that we never confessed that we loved each other, it would have been better that way. "Richard!" I cried. He turned around, he was soaked. "Richard, you're so wet, we have to get you inside somewhere!" "It's okay, Here have my jacket." He tossed me his jacket. "No, I can't accept this..." I yelled. "I wouldn't forgive myself if anything were to happen to you! Just put if over your head, you're getting wetter by the second!" I ran next to him, and we started running back home. We reached his house ringing the doorbell. He was shivering, his hands shaking. "Richard, you're getting sick..." "Kory, don't worry about me..." "How can I not worry about you?" The door opened and a surprised Alfred moved aside to let us in. I quickly took off my shoes, running upstairs to get some towels. I ran back downstairs and started drying Richard off. I placed the towel around and helped him upstairs. As we got to his bedroom, I told him to sit down on his bed. "Richard, if you don't listen, you'll get sick..." He didn't answer. With his clothes all wet, wasn't going to help him at all. So I took the bottom of his shirt and took it off. He looked at me confused. "Don't look at me like that... Your shirt is wet and if you keep it on, you'll get pneumonia." He was freezing cold and right now the best thing I could do was keep him warm.I took off my wet shirt, wrapping another warm blanket around his back and hugged him. I could feel him shivering, as I embraced him.
He wrapped his arms around my back, as I felt shivers down my spine. I moved myself back, enough to see his face. "How are you feeling?" I asked him. "Still cold..." He looked away from me. "Richard, please look at me..." I looked at me with his cerulean eyes, the eyes that made me want to stare at them forever. "You lied to me..." I said sighing. "How did I lie to you?" "You said that you'll get over me, that you were okay with it, but when you look at me, it's the total opposite. Your heart is hurting, that is certain. But now I don't know what to do or say that will help it go away." "I know what you could do but I know you wouldn't do it." I knew exactly what he was talking about... But that was the only thing that could ruin us, but the one thing that will mend his heart. I had to stop being selfish... only thinking of my own heart, I had to take to account his heart as well...Then I did the unthinkable...
I turned his face toward mine, and kissed him. At first, I could telll he was confused, but eventually he gave in. His lips were always warm even if he was running in the rain. My heart started filling in the dark holes that pained me so much before. I couldn't get out of this one. He started kissing down my neck, as I was totally losing it. "Richard stop that..." "Sorry..." he stopped. I kissed his forehead. "Does this mean that we are—" I cut him off, placing a finger on his lips. I stood up, wrapped myself in a blanket, "I'll think about it..." I said smirking. "Oh, that's no fun..." he said standing up wrapping his arms around my waist. "Kory, what changed your mind?" he said whispering softly in my ear. I turned around wrapping my arms around his neck. With my right hand I slowly massaged his chest, where his heart was. "This... this heart of yours, changed my mind..." I said sincerely. He placed his hand on top of mine, massaging my hand. I drew more closer, as he kissed my forehead. "Take care of my heart will you?" I whispered fearing my actions. "You know I will..." he said in a serious tone.
I broke our embrace and started searching his closet for a dry shirt. "Where are you going?" he asked me confused. "I'm sleeping over at Rachael's tonight, I need some time away from you for a littlw while." He walked up behind me, his warm breath on my neck. "As long as you come back." He says softly kissing my neck. "Richard, please don't do that." "Why not?" he whispers, as he continues to kiss my neck. "Richard, just stop..." "And if I don't?" I felt so warm, his kisses. If I didn't stop him, I would have gone out of control. "Stop, it makes me go crazy, when you do that... just stop... I got to go... and don't worry I'll come back..." I turned around and kissed him on the lips softly. "You have no idea what you do to me..." he whispers as the hairs on the back of neck stand up. "You don't mind if I borrow a shirt?" I asked, slipping it on. "As long as it smells like you." He chuckles. "Haha, very funny. I didn't know you were obsessed with me..." "And you're not obsessed with me? Oh, that hurts!" he says holding his heart, teasing me.
I turn the knob to go outside, but he takes my hand. Spinning me around into his chest, leaving us only inches away from a kiss. He takes his hand and caresses my cheek softly, as he leaves kisses on my cheek. I stopped him, kissing him on his warm lips. I broke apart quickly and went outside the door. I ran down the stairs, slipping on my wet shoes. I wet next door to my house picking up clothes, pjs and sleepover stuff. And left to Rachael's house.
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All three of us, Terra, Rachael and I laid down on Rach's bed. Just plain talking. Talking about almost everything. They were happy that I was with Richard finally, as they put it. Garfield is still ignoring Terra and she can't take it anymore. "I love him, but my heart's not ready... I just wish I never loved that guy in the first place..." I could hear her sniffling as the tears fell on the side of her face. She turns to me, "Kory, you know you're lucky that you have Richard... I envy you." "Terra, don't envy me, for if we break up it will be a mess...and then you'll pity me. And you have no idea... if I told you, you wouldn't be jealous of me..." Rachael spoke up, "What do you mean? I don't get it." "Never mind, guys. It's nothing really..." "Kory, you better tell us, or Rachael is going to blow off steam, you know Rach... please tell us..." Terra said pleading with her cute blue eyes. "I can't... I mean it's not that I promised someone that I couldn't say it's just hard to say. And if I do tell you, please don't tell anyone..." "Pinky Swear!" Rachael said in her monotone voice, looking eager. "I sl— I don't know guys, I can' say it." "You slept with him didn't you?" Rachael said giving me a smirk."You what! Kory, how could you do that!" Terra shouted. I stood up from the bed, massaging my temple. "Guys, could you keep it down... I mean it's not the best thing that has ever happened to me you know!" "Kory, don't worry, I was just joking around... I slept with someone...and it was an accident... I thought I love the guy, but now I regret it..." I saw Terra blush as another secret surfaced.
"So what? I'm the only virgin in the world?!" Rachael said making me and Terra laugh. "Rach, you're lucky! For all we know I could be pregnant right now!" I whispered. Then I realized what I said. Me pregnant? Crap... I going to kick his ass... its not even going to be funny... "That's right... that must be scary..." Terra said shocked. I fell silent. I laid down on her bed once again. "Rach, how did you know Kory was pregnant?" Terra asked curious. "If I told you, you would never believe it..." she said softly. "Oh yeah, how about being able to control the weather, levitating rocks and parts of the earth and preventing flowers to die?" Terra revealed as she covered her mouth. I think she was swearing under her breath. I laughed at her, "Show me!". She stood up and went a dead plant pf Rachael's. She held out her hand, as I saw something onher hand glow green, the flower raised up, as if he awoke from eternal sleep. "Oh yeah?" Rachael said. Rachael had a dark aura around her and she was levitating. "Azarath Metrion Zinthos!" she chanted as she lifted both me and Terra. "So, not only can Rachael move things, she can read minds!" I said as I was flying around the room. "I can only read the weak minded..." Rachael says, laughing. "Hey!" I chuckled. She put us back on the bed. "So... do you have something special about you Kory?" Terra asked. "Actually, I haven't tried them out yet." I said, remembering what my mom and dad said in their will.
I had special powers, the ability of flight, shooting lasers from my eyes and creating firebolts from my hands. I tried it out when I was only 4 years old, but I had sort of an enchantment placed on me, so that I wouldn't be able to use it until I was 17. I could use it when ever I want and I could use the spell to prevent me from using my powers when they are not needed. But since I haven't used them in a long time, I'm a little rusty with it. Mom and dad said that I would've had super strength but something went wrong during my birth. But, I'm okay with that...
I closed my eyes and concentrated. Before I knew it, I could lift myself off the ground. My hands glowed a green, like a green fire that couldn't burn me. So you have powers too, Kory? "Rachael, you can talk in people's minds too?" I thought in my head. Yup... but when people concentrate too much, I can't enter their minds. You're Tameranian right? "Yes...I remember that word now..." I thought. I concentrated once more, and my powers stopped leaving me to fall.
"I'm from Azarath." Rachael said in her monotone voice. "That explains it..." I replied. "Umm... I 'm kind of confused now..." Terra said, scratching her head. "Never mind." I said. I heard a cellphone ring. "That's not mine!" I said. "It's mine..." Terra said looking surprised. She stared at it, then puts her hand on her mouth. Her eyes watered, as a small tear slid down her face. "It's Gar, he's at the hospital..." She fell to her knees. I ran to her side, trying to get her up. I looked at the text message, Gar's at the hospital, come now, Vic. Shit! I picked up my phone and called Richard, the phone rang three times and he picked up. "Richard, come to Rach's house, it's an emergency!" I hung up. Rachael's mom wasn't at home at the moment, and we didn't have a car.
Richard came and we helped Terra in the back of the car. I sat in the front, massaging my temple. I could hear Terra whispering to herself, crying, as Rachael comforted her. Kory, tell Richard to speed up... Terra can't wait any longer... I placed ahand on Richard's shoulder and whipered, "Speed up, Terra's losing it..." He nodded as he pressed harder on the gas.
We helped her out of the car, and ran to the office desk. "We're looking for Logan, Garfield Logan, please." I asked the nurse. "Room 327." She said. Richard had already got an elevator. We went to the third floor and searched for his room. We couldn't enter since, the doctor was checking on him. We went to the waiting room and found Victor sitting in a chair, distraught. "Cy, what happened?" Rachael asked him, placing her hand on his shoulder. He placed hishand on top of hers and said, "Gar, was in an accident, this little kid was walking and almost got hit, but Gar jumped in front of him, pushing him away. Terra started whimpering now, pacing around, taking a bunch of tissues. All we could do was wait... and wait...
I couldn't sit down either, I went to the washroom numerous times and went to get some food, but the wait for any news was taking forever. Richard looked at me concerned as he stood up and wrapped his arms around me. "It's going to be okay, it's okay..." he whispers in my ear. He kisses me head softly, "I'm scared for her...". I thought of Terra, what she was feeling... I imagined losing Richard, how unbearable and how wrecked I would have been. I took a walk with him, to help me pass the time. "I just imagined myself in her position..." I told him. "And..." he said. "I would have died, if anything were to... were to happen to you." I tuned away from him as I could feel the tears fill my eyes. He held my face in his hands, as he wiped my tears with his thumbs. "I feel the same way about you..." he says as his forehead touches mine. I headed to the washroom, as I felt a little dizzy. I felt sick, cold, weak as my stomach started hurting. I could feel a fever, as a I touched my forehead. I wanted to throw up, but it wasn't coming out. I was sweating, breathing hard. I washed my face with water, looking at the mirror.
As I exited the washroom, Richard noticed something about me. He felt my forehead, then stared at me concerned. "Kory, you have a fever..." he said silently. I looked away from him and continued walking back. "Kory, stop... you're sick, let's get a nurse." I turned around, as I could feel myself get hotter by the second. I ran up to me, and scooped me up bridal style. "Richard..." I whispered. "Kory, it's okay... everything's going to be okay. I fell silent and I closed my eyes, drifting off.
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I woke up on a hospital bed, with Richard sitting beside me, his hands in his face. I closed my eyes for a moment, thinking that this was a dream, I fell sleepy again... I heard the nurse call Richard out of the room, for inspection. I overheard the nurse talking to the doctor, about me being a little faint and that I was going to be okay. I awoke, with the doctor sitting beside me. He told me everything, and he asked me if he could to anything for me. I just said, "Just tell them, I'm okay, thanks Doctor." I said sighing. He exited the room, while laid down quietly, waiting for them to slowly come in. The door opened, and Richard came in. He pulled a chair next to me, taking my hand and kissing it. "I'm glad you're okay..." he said in a serious tone. "Richard, come here..." I said patting the space on the bed. He climbed onto the bed, as I laid my head on his chest. "How long was I out?" I asked. "An hour or so... you left me waiting longer than I expected." "How is he?" I asked anxious. "He's doing okay, broke one of his legs, but I think he'll be fine. I think he and Terra had a little talk..." "That's good..." "How about you? How are you doing?" "Fine thank you, my prince." I smiled. "You haven't me called me that in a long time...I miss it..." I looked up at him, as he gave me a little kiss on the lips. I tried getting up, feeling more heavy than before. "I wouldn't do that if I were you." "I want to see Gar..." I said pouting my lips. "Maybe he can come to you...Hold on..." He took the telephone above my bed and dialed a number, passing it to me. "Hello?" I said into the phone. "Kory?" "Gar?" "How are you, Kory? I heard you fainted in the hospital..." His voice seemed weak and it saddened me. "I'm fine, but I'm worried about you..." "Don't be..." "So how are you and Terra?" "We're okay, I guess... she looks like a disaster... oh, don't tell her that I said that..." I chuckled, "She was worried about you... she loves you know, she's having a hard time getting over the other guy, take an easy on her, okay?" "Yeah, thanks, Kory. I got to go..." He hung up.
A few moments later, I heard a knock on my door. Terra opened it and Gar was on a wheel chair, with a broken arm, leg and neck. Rachael and Victor came in too. "Kory, are you okay?" Rachael said running to my side. "I'm fine...really, just a little tired." "The doctor said you could go home tonight, but I think you should stay here, I mean we could always sleepover another day..." Rachael said. "No, I'm not staying here..." I protested. "I need to stay here with Gar." Terra said feeling sorry that she was bailing us. "It's okay..." I slowly got up and walked to the washroom and changing into my regular clothes. I got out and requested, "How about Richard and Victor sleepover with us Rach?". "Why not? Cy, what do you think?" "Hell ya!" he shouted. I laughed as Richard wrapped his arms around my waist, "How about you, Richard?" I asked him. "Whatever you say..." he whispers in my ear. "He's in." I said to Rachael and Victor as they looked at me funny. We said out goodbyes to Terra and Gar as Rachael went with Victor and Me with Richard.
In Richard's car, I had turned the radio on. One of my favourite songs came up and I turned up the volume.
You, do you remember me?,
Like, I remember you?
Do you spend your life, going back in your mind to that time?,
Cause I, I walk the streets alone,
I hate being on my own, and everyone can see that,
I really fell, and I'm going through hell.
Thinking about you with somebody else.
Somebody wants you,
Somebody needs you.
Somebody dreams about you every single night.
Somebody cant breathe, without you it's lonely.
Somebody hopes that one day you will see, that somebody's me.
That somebody's me. yeaa...
"I love this song..." I said softly. He looks at me and gives me a smile. But as I listened to it more, I relaised it's meaning...
How, how did we go wrong?
It was so good, and now it's gone,
And I pray at night, that our path's soon will cross.
What we had, isn't lost.
Cause you are always right here in my thoughts..
Somebody wants you,
Somebody needs you.
Somebody dreams about you every single night.
Somebody can't breathe, without you it's lonely.
Somebody hopes that someday you will see,
That somebody's me. Oh yeah...
You will always be in my life, even if im not in your life.
Cause you're in my memory...
You, when you remember me?...
And before you set me free, oh listen please...
I imagined me and Richard, passing though the halls of school without saying a word. Right after we broke up... Not talking to each other. I couldn't help but feel sad as the song kept reminding me why I chose not to love him. And here I am, in love with Richard... It's scary knowing that eventually you'll break up with the perfect guy and then your heart is left with holes, losing yourself to sorrow. This song was true...
Somebody wants you,
Somebody needs you.
Somebody dreams about you every single night.
Somebody cant breathe, without you it's lonely.
Somebody hopes that someday you will see, that somebody's me.
That somebody's me.
Somebody's me...
That somebody's me...
That somebody's me...
Oh yeah...
As it ended, I turned off the radio, before I could hear another depressing song that I could relate to.
We stopped at Richard's house, so that he could pick up some clothes, pillows and blankets and stuff. We told Rachael and Victor that we would meet them at her house. As we got to her house I remembered my feelings at the hospital, feeling sick. Then remembering, the song on the radio. How unbearable our break up would have been. Rachael seemed to look at me suspiciously. Kory, are you okay? "I'm fine, Rach, just fine." I thought. I changed into my nightgown and I fell on Rachael's bed, wondering...
What if Richard wasn't the one... Before I could think any further, Richard knocked. "Come in..." I said. He came in and wondered what I was doing.He sat down next to me. "Kory, you've been out of it ever since you got into the car. Are you sure you're okay?" "Yeah, I'm fine." "Liar..." he said in a childish voice. "Is that obvious?" "What do you think?" He laid down next to me, taking my hand and kissing it softly. "Richard... what if I'm not the one for you?" "Hmmm... I don't know..." "What do you mean you don't know?" "I mean that, you'll always me the one for me, no matter what... why are you thinking about this anyway, are you regretting anything?" "No... not at all... Richard don't think that..." he stood up, sitting on Rachael's bed. I stood up and placed a hand on his back. "Richard... I'm sorry... I didn't mean it that way..." I placed my chin on his shoulder. I kissed the side of his face. He got off of her bed and stood up. I went in front of him, placing my hand on his chest. "Richard, don't run away from me..." I whispered. "Do you regret... loving me?" he whispers sadly. "No I don't... I was just... never mind."
"You have to tell me, or else I wouldn't get it off my my mind..." "I was thinking of what will happen to both of us if we ever separate..." "You know I would never do that to you...I promised that I would never break your heart, that I would take care of it..." "I know that, but you never know, what I break up with you? I would hurt you and then you would hate me for eternity..." "That's true I would hate you, but love yu at the same time... that's how much I love you. I love you so much that if we broke up, I would hate you but end up still loving you..." "Kiss me..." I asked him. As he pulled me closer to him, kissing my lips slow but building passionately. I wrapped by arms around his neck, as his grip around my waist tightened. I met his tongue, breathing hard, never letting go of each other. He started kissing my neck, as I let out a little moan. I put my finger to his lips, stopping him.
"Too much for you?" he asked smirking. "Way too much..." I said smiling and chuckling at his statement. If you keep this up, I might tie you up, so that you don't kiss me. "And you think that's going to happen? Look at me, I'm way stronger than you."He said showing off his biceps. "Save it for a girlfriend who cares..." I said turning around to the door. He pinned me against the door, caressing my cheek. "Richard, stop, please." I pleaded. "Just one little kiss..." he breaks the gap between us, as I broke apart. "You said one little kiss and let's go.
We were going to sleep in the living room, Vic sleeping on one couch, with Rach sleeping on the other. "So, me and Richard are sleeping on the airbed?" "Yes." Rachael said. "I don't think that's a id—" Richard covered my mouth. "What did you say?" Victor asked. "Oh nothing..." Richard replied.
We started talking about random stuff, like our future ambitions, how we met, horrible experiences, funny experiences and it felt good getting to know everyone. We were like alittle gang, Rachael, the quiet and emotionless person, well that's what she appears on the outside. She gave good advice and she was full of emotion if you knew her well enough. Then there was Terra, the girly, sporty and talkative of the group. She also was a great advice giver and she had cared for each of us. Garfield, the funny goofball, who was always clueless. Making everyone laugh and doing the most dumbest things. But we founf a affectionate side of him, the side that loved Terra deeply. Victor, the terminator, well not really but he was pretty big. Our protector, the muscle of the group, strong, wise and brave. I don't know a lot about him, but from what Rachael says, he seems like a pretty awesome guy. Richard, my boyfriend and bestfriend... He use to be a quiet guy, who hides himself from the world, but now he's opened up. The most caring person I know and not to mention the hottest person I know... hahaha that sounds funny. But I loved him. Finally there was me... well I guess I don't need to explain myself. But all six of us, we felt like family... ONE BIG FAMILY... my extended extended family...
We started watching a movie, and of course Richard was distracting me from the movie and Cyborg had fallen asleep because of too much romance, while Rachael and fallen asleep from reading her book for an hour and a half. Richard would find the most weirdest ways to catch my attention, and unfortunately I gave in. I turned of the t.v., making the room pitch black and I couldn't see anything. I felt his arms wrap around my waist. I could feel him breathing on me, which meant that he was really close. "Richard, what are you doing?" I asked him. He didn't answer. I turned around trying to fall asleep, as he kissed my neck softly. I turned around to face him, "Richard, what do you want?" I asked him very irritated. "just you..." he said whispering. He started kissing my neck again, making me moan softly. "Richard, not here..." I mumbled. I laid down in his chest, drifting off to sleep.
I awoke on Richard's chest the next morning with Rachael and Victor watching us. "You know you took look good together..." Victor said chuckling. "They're too corny for their own good..." Rachael said sipping her green tea. I got up, waking up Richard. I stretched out my arms and yawned. "So we going to visit Gar again today?" I asked. "The hospital's not open for visitors today." Victor said sighing. "Bruce is having a charity ball today, so all of you could come." Richard suggested. "Charity ball... sounds good to me..." I replied. "I'm up for it..." Victor said. Now, it was left for Rachael to answer. She sipped her tea loudly in the silence, "Chartiy Ball aren't my thing." She replied. "Oh come on... it's going to be fun. We get to dance, eat and just hangout." I told her. "But I have nothing to wear." She replied, sipping her tea continuously. "And that's why girls have malls..." I suggested. "Do you guys want to go to the mall?" I asked the two guys. "Arcade, why not?" Richard replied. "I'm so going to kick your ass at the arcade." Victor shouted. "They're in... how about you, Rach?" "Fine. No Frills..." she sighed.
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As we got to the mall, the boys separated from us, while Rachale and I looked for a dress.
She didn't want revealing or sexy and didn't want really bright colours. Maybe a violet, navy blue, or black. We looked though the stores, but unfortunately, they were either too sexy, too bright coloured or had frills. This wasn't going to be an easy search. Then we took a break and had some bubble tea. "Maybe we should strat looking for your dress, Kory. It's useless for me. I'm way too picky when it comes to clothes." She said sighing at defeat. "Don't worry we'll find it...Didn't you want to dye your hair violet?" I asked. Moments later, Rachael was getting her hair dyed violet.
"So, you want it like violet tint in your hair, right?" The hair stylist said. "Yeah, do you think it'll look okay with me?" Rachael asked. "I think it would look great with you. Oh, I'm Jenn by the way." Jenn had medium hair with short layers, up to the middle of her neck, with a pink or magenta tint to it. "I'm Rachael and this is my friend, Kory." Rachael said introducing ourselves. "You look familiar." I said. "I think I go to your school. I am the make-up and styling crew for play." She said, starting to wash Rachael's hair. "Oh yeah, that's right." I said smiling. "You're Belle aren't you?" she asked me. "Yeah..." "Congrats... Barbara didn't fit it at all. We just need to dye your hair brown." "Kory, you never told me you were Belle." Rachael said shocked. "I didn't want anyone to know. Especially Richard..." "You are so busted, Kory. If Richard finds out..." I sighed as another problem came into play... "Sorry, for butting in but, so you're telling her that you have a boyfriend who doesn't know that you're in the play and that you're suppose to kiss Xavier?"Jenn asked, surprised. "Yes, pretty much. But I accepted to the play before I even got together with him." "You're in a big mess." Jenn said starting to put the hair dye.
I thought as I waited, Richard will kill me if he sees me in the play. Unless he doesn't know, like that going to happen. It was hopeless. "Kory... earth to Kory..." "Oh what, Rachael?" "I'm done..." I called Jenn over to assist us and then she started drying her hair. "You know what would look good on you?" Jenn asked Rachael. "What?" "Bangs...What do you think Kory." "Rach, I think she has a point, only if you want." I said to her. "Why not..." she said her regular monotone voice. After everything was done, Rachael turned out to be probably the most gorgeous people I know. I knew she liked it because when she looked in the mirror, she smiled. We thank and payed Jenn, half-price since we were now her friends.
Now, we had to find the dresses. "How about this one?" I said picking up a dark coloured dress, as I continued, "It's a navy blue, strapless, the top is like a corset and it sort of a mermaid kind of shape." "It looks okay..." "Rachael, what's wrong with it?!" "It's strapless... remember no revealing dresses." "It's not revealing! Besides you have long hair...Just try it on!" "Fine," she she grabbed it from me. I started searching for my own gown as I saw it. It was an emrald green dress, off shoulder, slimming down the thighs and slightly waves out at the ends, it was surprisingly low on the back with laces that showed a little skin. I went into the changeroom next Rachael. "You ready?" I asked her. "Yeah, I don't think it looks nice though." She replied. "On the count of three we get out of the changeroom, One... Two... Three!" I opened the door and we gazed at the mirror.
"Rachael, I'm so buying that for you... You're gonna blow there socks off!" "Look at you, not too sexy but enough to get Richard looking at you all night..." "Oh, shut up! Victor is going to dump that Karen's ass!" Rachael was gorgeous, she may have fair skin, but it fit the dress perfectly. She looked mysteriously sexy, and that look fit her perfectly.
So we purchased the dresses and started looking for accessories and what not. Then we went to the arcade. I stopped in front of the arcade entrance. "Kory, are you okay?" Rachael asked me. "Hot guy..." he was mesmerizing. "Kory,who are you— wow looks like someone got a haircut." It was Richard, his bangs were gone, his hair was cut short, very spiky. He was the most hottest guy, I've seen and will ever see.
I couldn't move from my spot, that was my Richard? I still couldn't believe it. Rachael and I entered the arcade. Rachael sat down at a table sipping the rest of her bubble tea, as I went to meet Richard. He was playing a gun game with this guy with red (orange) hair. I came up from behind him and covered his eyes, "Guess who?" "Kory, you can't fool me." He turned around and kissing me on the forehead. He turned around and finished the game, winning, even though I distracted him. "Kory, this here, is Roy." I shook his hand. "Nice to meet you." "Wow, Richard, you got a pretty girlfriend right here..." He said goofing off. Victor came over with another guy with longer red hair. "This is Wally." "Nice to meet you too." Victor looked around and asked, "Where's Rachael?" "She 's over there, in the booth, sipping her new favourite drink bubble tea." "Lies! That's so not Rachael! She's too hot to be Rachael..." Victor shouted as the other guys looked at her. "Suit yourselves..." I walked up to her and whispered, "They can't believe it's you, Victor said that you were too hot to be Rachael..." She choked on the tapioca and started laughing.
The guys came over, and started talking to the girl "who can't be Rachael". "What's your name, cutie?" Roy asked. "I'm Rachael and don't you have a girlfriend, Roy? I could gladly tell her that you were cheating." "Victor, I can't believe you couldn't recognize your best friend!" Richard said bursting into laughter. "Kory, let's leaves these jerks and go home." She said in her regular monotone voice. Victor and Richard followed as we returned to Rachael's house.