Alex's pov

"I hope he goes to the deepest pits of hell!" I screamed as I paced back and forth in front of the chimney.

I had just come back from my first occlumency lesson. It was the most –well no not the most- but it went badly. Especially when snape is the damned teacher! I think he got a kick out if it though.

"You don't really mean that" said Frankie calmly. He sat on the couch and watched me pace back and forth. It made me want to hurl something at the wall –the wall not Frankie.

"How would you know?" I bellowed but he remained perfectly calm.

"What did he do?"

"hah" I said in a high pitched town "well he only told us to rid ourselves from emotion and thought, while he attempted to penetrate our minds, that's all the instruction he gave and then he did this thing with his wand were he was able to see all of our memories as we saw them being replayed in our heads"

He grimaced probably imagining what I must have seen in those memories.

"What ticks me off the most is that he didn't tell us how to do it or anything"

"Alex I think that is because it's basically all mental, I don't think he can give much instruction on that"

Okay I see what he means.

"okay well maybe so, still its not…nice… having to see all those memories all over again then I don't know how many times I fell to the ground due to the memories" exactly how and what caused me to fall I do not know but I knew that suddenly I was on my knees.

My knees hurt right now, I had a massive headache and to top it all of with my horrendous lessons I now had to attend to a detention with snape for my next evaluation. Two detentions to go to how lovely anyone wanna go for three?

"To top it all off I ended up with a damned detention"

"What did you do" his tone indicated that he was not surprised. I'm that predictable huh?

"Well excuse me if I can't stand to be insulted" I said sarcastically "but as always his lovely comments threw me off the edge and I couldn't help but talk back. Now harry and I both have detention"

"Just as Sirius and I thought" he said

"Sirius was here?"

"Yes he left not long ago, and we talked about how you would probably come announcing that you and harry got a detention"

"Oh that's nice" I said not meaning it, he knew that.

There was silence

"Thanks for hearing me out" I said feeling a little bad about my rant. It wasn't nice to scram at him.

"I would have heard you all the way up my room anyway" he joked but we both knew it was true

I glanced at the clock, it read 7:30, I sighed

"We having classes today?" I asked

"Of course were having classes, you're not getting off so easily"

I looked at the fireplace, no longer pacing

"I'll go easy on you" he said "do you think a pill or something might make the pain go away?"

"It's worth a try" I said.

It was 10:30 when we finished working. A record time for me, I really was an easy learner…

I followed cedric through the woods. Every now and then he turned and beckoned me with his hand to hurry up, and I did. But no matter how much I hurried up to catch up with him I could never reach him. He disappeared through some bushes and I quickly followed him only to find myself in an empty meadow.

It was perfectly round the trees bordering it, nothing else could be seen beyond the trees nothing but darkness. Yet it seemed as if someone watched from beyond those trees. The day was grey but some bits of sun rays escaped the clouds. Casting a grayish light on the meadow. It was all green and gray. The grass was long and gently swayed to the rhythm of the wind. The meadow should have been comforting but it couldn't be because I was desperately searching for the one that led me here.

"Cedric?" I called out. My voice echoed throughout the meadow. The meadow however was empty.

I was alone

But how is it that there was a response then?

"Change" said a voice that I knew only to well. Cedric's voice rung throughout the entire meadow.

"Cedric?" I called louder. Still there was no one there. And even then I couldn't shake of the feeling that someone was watching.

"Its coming" his voice echoed throughout the meadow again then it slowly began to fade

No don't go…

I woke with a start, gasping in my haste I fell from the bed bringing the sheets down on me.

If the bed is so damn big then how is it that I sleep at the very edge of it?

Cursing I got up and sat on the edge of the bed. I looked around the room half expecting someone to be there, I didn't know why though, it was empty though. The silence cutting through me like a knife, as if it knew I was all alone now. I couldn't bear it, so much silence began to scare me, I took out my iPod from its dock and put on the headphones I laid down on the bed pulling up the covers all the way up to my chin. The blaring noise of the music lulling me to sleep.

What did that mean "change is coming?"…

January passed by painfully slow; I didn't know what I was waiting for though. Highlights of the month had been that there had been a massive break out from Azkaban. It was in the daily prophet and naturally it was suspected that Sirius was behind it all. No good idiots it's not that hard accept that voldemort is back. Seriously what is wrong with these people? Bloody mental freak's that's what they are. In other news Hagrid is now on probation. I swear to god that I don't have nails anymore. I've chewed them all off in my nervousness. We are all nervous. That is to say harry Ron Hermione and I, I guess Ginny too. Our lessons with snape really hadn't progressed. We still couldn't close our minds. And my scar seemed to hurt a lot more since my lessons with snape. Harry said it was the same with him.

In school someone wouldn't give up on making me talk. Edward and I had continued talking to each other. Well he did most of the talk, my answers tended to be boring short and to the point. It was a miracle that he still talked to me. It was a nice distraction sometimes though.

It was now the first day of February now to be exact.

I parked in front of Edward's car. It was the first empty parking I saw. It wasn't until I stepped out of my Volvo that I realized that he was leaning against his silver Audi. His siblings were talking amongst themselves in his car.

I was beginning to leave when a voice made me turn around.

"No good morning, Alex?" said Edward I turned around to face him he smiled at me. Before we started talking I don't recall him ever smiling. Who knows what was wrong with him. I have to admit he had an alluring smile. Still there were moments in which I could detect traces of sadness and pain, and I knew that no matter how much he pretended he was not okay.

"Good morning Alex?" I said uncertainly. He chuckled, just as his siblings stepped out of the car.

"Hi Alex" said the small one

"Alice right?" I asked she smiled and nodded, "hi Alice" I said

"This is jasper" she said taking the arm of the tall blonde guy.

"Hey jasper" I said, he smiled and nodded in acknowledgement

"I'm Emmett" said the other one, the big one.

"Howdy Emmett" I said

"This is Rosalie" he said putting an arm around the blonde girls shoulder.

"hello Rosalie" I said she smiled at me and greeted me in return.

They were all truly mesmerizing. The most beautiful people I ha ever seen, Edward included. They were dazzling you could say, and it wouldn't be considered an exaggeration.

"Well I'm off to class… see you all around" I turned and headed to the school just as it began to rain.

When lunch came I walked into the cafeteria and went to my usual place. No one tried to talk to me anymore. None except Edward in biology. I was a couple of feet away from my usual table when I saw that somebody was already there. Edward was sitting there a tray of food in front of him. He looked at it, lost in thought. I walked towards the table and stood right across from him. He slowly looked up sensing my presence.

"Did you get table confused?" I asked he shook his head.

"No I didn't see your name on it" he told me politely. I sat down and took out a notebook and pencil. His eyes never left me it was a bit irritating. I scribbled my name on top of the table.

"happy?" I said

"would you really make me go away?" he asked innocently, he was good.

"no but I will go away if you keep looking at me for so long" I said. I don't think I really meant it though.

"I'm sorry for using my eyes then" he sounded like he meant it, though he was being sarcastic.

I looked down and began writing in my notebook

"What are you always writing down in there anyway" he said a hint of frustration in his voice.

Without looking up I tore off a page from my notebook and handed it to him. He read what I had written fairly quickly. It surprised me considering I had a very ugly and complicated handwriting.

"So you write songs?" He asked, still looking at what I had written. I particularly liked that work.

"Sure if that's what you want to call it" I said looking up at him.

"Do you play an instrument?" he said

"Guitar"

"That's nice"

"You?" I asked

"Piano" well that's something you don't hear everyday.

"Cool"

"I could teach you sometime if you wanted to" he offered

I shrugged and went back to my writing.

"You can keep it if you want" I informed him. It was all in my mind anyway.

"Thanks…aren't you going to eat?" he asked

"Are you?" i asked. He smiled flashing his white teeth at me. He had a really alluring smile. No words to describe him, can't argue with that.

Still…

He shook his head

"Neither am I" I answered his question. I looked down at my notebook again and kept writing while he picked his food with long pale fingers. There was no need for us to talk, we were both deep in our thoughts.

The bell rung and we both stood up at the same time.

"I'll se you in class" he said I nodded and we left the room together but parted different ways once we were in the hall. History was boring as ever, why do we need to know where every single one of the fifty states is located. I don't even know half the damn states, it's mental.

Edward was about to walk into the biology classroom when I arrived as well.

"Hey" he said

"Hey yourself" we walked into the classroom and took our seats at the very back.

"So how's it going?" he began.

"Why do you talk to me?" I asked abruptly it was a thought that had been going around in my head for sometime now

He gave me a quizzical look.

"Well-"he began "I don't know you always seem so lonely an-"

"I don't need your pity" I said irritated. I looked away from him.

"I'm not doing it out of pity" he said his voice sounding amused. I still didn't look at him.

"You're a good company" he said, seriously who is he trying to kid?

I slowly turned my head towards him

"Elaborate" I said it almost sounded like and order. He smiled hearing my tone.

"Well it's complicated…your good company, easy to talk to and be around"

"Could this have anything to do with the fact that I barely talk at all?"

"I really don't know" he said truthfully

I looked at him and huffed, frustrated by the short answer.

"Any reason for asking?" he asked

"Just wondering why anyone would even try to put up with me" I said grudgingly

"Why wouldn't they?" he challenged

"Everyone's got their reasons"

"Example "

" get of my jock" I huffed and he laughed at my choice of words.

I turned to pay attention to the teacher…

"Frankie?" I said going into the kitchen

"Yup?"

"Do you mind if I take a flight in the forest?"

"Will you come back?" he joked but I knew that underneath the joke the question was real.

"Yeah…I just feel like going for a ride in the air" my feet were itching to be in the air.

He gave me a doubtful look

Does he really think I would leave? Or go do something stupid?

After a long moment he sighed and looked away from the dinner he was preparing on the stove and he looked at me.

"All right just don't come back too late"

"I won't runaway" I assured him feeling worse than usual, did people really loose so much trust in me?

"I know…where would you go?" he joked. He had a point…

I ran to my room and found my firebolt in my closet. Then I dashed out of the house and towards the forest. As soon as I reached the edge of it I was off into the air.

Sadly I didn't get the feeling I expected to hear.

I expected to forget all my worries, all my emotions but the feeling of adrenaline. I just expected to forget everything going on in my life. But only now was I really beginning to understand just how hard it was to forget pain.

I didn't stop though. I was afraid that the pain would only get worse if I stopped.

I couldn't depend on my memories anymore. If I kept going any longer soon I wouldn't be able to tell reality apart form memories.

And I couldn't get lost in those memories just yet. I still had unfinished business in this place I couldn't mess this up…

After sometime I thought it was safe to stop. I left my broom on the ground and looked around. Though the forest all seemed the same I was pretty sure I could find my way back.

I sunk to the ground leaning my back against a tree trunk. I hugged my knees to my chest and took deep breaths.

Very little time passed when I heard something running. I looked up, the sound was distant. It was probably an animal or something, I was very deep in the woods so it wasn't surprising that I would come a cross any animals.

What was odd was that I had barely heard it running when I heard a light thud as if something fell and at the same time the running stopped.

I stood up and headed to where the sound had come from I walked through a bush that was blocking the way ripping my jeans in the process, yet I barely made any noise.

I never would forget what I saw…

A doe was on the ground unmoving. Hovering over it was a man, though I couldn't see his face i recognized that bronze hair, and his pale hands gripping the doe. They were pale, paler than a corpse.

Vampire…

As all of these things processed in my mind he looked up and smelled the air. Slowly sensing danger I pulled out my wand from the pockets on the back of my jeans. He noticed the movement and his eyes wet from that soft gold to a hungry black.

"Protego" it was barely more than whisper but it did the job.

At the same time that I muttered the incantation he charged towards me. His movement was too fast for me to follow one moment he was crouching over the doe, the next he crashed into the invisible barrier. The force of the crash throwing him back. A deafening crack interrupting the calm quiet of the forest.

He was up before I could even blink and I was rooted to the spot but I couldn't bring myself to be scared. I wasn't scared…

He growled in my direction, they were loud and animalistic growls.

Is this the real Edward?

He began pacing rather quickly from side to side looking as if he got madder by the minute. Every time he turned around to pace to the other side he would…claw or something similar, at the invisible barrier.

"Edward?" I said slowly and carefully. Would he answer me?

My question was quickly answered.

He stopped and turned his ravenous eyes in my direction. Murder written all over them.

He panted as if he had just runned a long way and then he immediately stopped breathing. He had stopped pacing. His expression went from hungry to pain then it seemed as if he had been hit by realization, lastly it turned horrified.

"Alex" he choked out. He still tried not to breathe, though it was obvious it was turning difficult. He still looked dangerous but he seemed to be a bit more in control of himself seeming more human than a few minutes ago.

Immediately I looked at his hard cold eyes. So many emotions displayed in those eyes how was that possible?

How is it possible that I could recognize all of them?

There was pain, curiosity, denial, horror, fear, confusion…a very slight trace of…joy?

"Go away" he growled. Would he kill me if I the barrier is put down? Would it hurt to die this way? Does it matter if it hurts?

No it doesn't…

Before I could actually do any move to remove the barrier, Edwards's loud roar brought me back to my senses.

Not today Alex

"I'm sorry" I murmured

And I was sorry. Sorry for whatever I had just caused. Sorry for complicating his life just now.

I turned away, but in the moment I saw him turn I saw him drop to the ground and begin shaking. As much as I wanted to turn around and help him I knew that now wasn't the time to look back…

Vampire…it was someone like him that made me into what I was. Being a half vampire never affected me much though, my life didn't change, I didn't change.

Why couldn't I remember the attack…

I lay on my bedroom floor with my cheek against the floor. It was nice and cool and calming even if my cheek was now numb. I barely paid attention to that

Never I had I paid so much attention to Edward Cullen as I am now. Before, even though he seemed too different to be human, I had seen him as just another ignorant human. Things had changed; I think all I had really needed was some kind of proof that he really was not muggle, or human for that matter. Now I could help but notice that one similarity between us. We were both hiding what we really were. He always was an interesting person never did express the interest though, I am too guarded around people now, I don't trust myself anymore. Now he just seemed even more interesting.

Shit

He knows

What the heck will I do about that? Talk to him?

Yes

"Alex?" Frankie called

Shit

Do I tell him?

No

"Come in" I mumbled loud enough for him to hear, though maybe my words hadn't been understandable.

I heard the door open and I heard his footsteps then his feet came into view right in front of me. I looked at them for a long time

"Yes?" I finally said not looking away from hi shoes.

"What are you doing down there?" he said then he kneeled on the floor I looked up at him.

"Not much…how may I help you?"

"Are you all right? You seemed kinda odd when you came back from the forest". He glanced at my torn jeans "did you fall?" he said trying to keep from laughing

"nah I just decided to do some tree climbing, it was fun… I thought I was odd"

"Well odder than usual" he amended.

"Oh well I'm fine" the tone of our voices made it sound like we were talking about the weather or something.

"Sure" he scoffed not believing me but accepting the answer. He ruffled my hair then got up and left the room. Everything went quiet

"Sure" I repeated I after a while mocking him.

Would Edward be at school tomorrow? I'm telling you his family was absent a lot.

I couldn't sleep that night though I do believe I might have dozed off now and then.

"did you sleep last night melody?" said Frankie while we had breakfast I had a really bad stomachache and was barely eating, maybe one or two cornflakes in the least.

"yes, no, maybe, etc." I said he just stared at me. "maybe" I added for his benefit. He sighed and I joined him.

"look I tried but…I have a lot on my mind"

He looked at me with no expression whatsoever on his face.

"No joke" I added

"Just get some sleep today" he said getting up

"What do you think school is for?" I muttered and he turned towards me

"Kidding" I said raising my hands as if I was being arrested.

He kissed the top of my head then left I heard him leave after a few moments.

I went outside to the backyard and walked around, my stomachache diasappearing as soon as i left the kitchen. I would have stayed longer but, one, it began to rain, which wouldn't have mattered had it not been for the fact that, two, I had to go to school.

I got into my Volvo and drove to the school the rain coming down harder. Music blasted from the speakers of the car I didn't want there to be silence because that would just get me thinking to much and I would crash. I just kept my mind on the lyrics and the road it was that simple.

Yet I couldn't help but notice just how green this town was. You'd think I would have noticed all of this earlier.

I parked my car next to an old Altima. I decided I would wait till biology to talk to him. And when exactly did I decide this? When I was driving my car. So my method of the loud music did not work for shit.

I half expected him to tell me that he didn't remember such event happening and that in time I would figure out I had just imagined it. But I knew luck wasn't my friend so I tried to not raise my spirits.

The classes were so slow It made me really mad. I forgot time wasn't my friend either.

Lunch came but there wasn't anything unusual about it. It was just like any other day. The Cullen's never did glance my way but when I looked away I could feel the stares.

I walked to biology in a rush but his chair was empty. I took my seat but got up almost instantly.

My scar began burning suddenly. I clapped my hand to my forehead. It was burning. I couldn't be in the classroom right now it isn't safe I don't know what I could do if I stayed….

I got my bag flung it across my shoulder and ran towards the door I ignored my teachers questions of where I was going. I still held my hand to my forehead. And I dashed to the exit, but I knocked into something solid and cold they took my shoulders to keep me from falling backwards. I looked up and saw Edward with a worried expression.

The pain was building up

"Sorry, excuse me" I said gritting my teeth in pain.

"Alex where are you going?" he said worried.

"Move" I said anger taking over me. Voldemort was angry. I shoved him both my hands and he moved away to let me pass. I walked as fast as I could down the hall. As soon as I turned at a corner I broke into a run.

I reached my car in minutes. I got in but I didn't turn on the engine, the pain was blinding me I rested my head against the steering wheel. And bit my sweater sleeve to keep from screaming out.

Everything was going dark and I was slipping away. Somewhere far in the distance I heard someone call my name and the dark took over the world as the pain slowly became less...

well there you have it

i thought it was time for them to reaveal themselves to each other

im already writing edwards pov in the situation and i am almost doen writing it i just need to type it after that.

please review

-airali