NOTE- Hi! This chapter didn´t want to come out, I just finished it and revised it to the best of my abilities, also WARNING: Mentions of suicide, molestation, child prostitutuon, etc.

Also I dont know if anyone has noticed or not but I am using an Unreliable narrator format type of thingy or whatever, so the perception a character may have of some events can be totally different from the other.

Everything was fine in Hikaru´s little world, at least thats what it seemed like to him. Outside of a few of Hide´s visits here an there nothing was too awful for Hikaru to deal with.

The talk with his uncle went well and he managed to make sure that those men were banned permanently from the nest, apparently they had not paid Saeki for her service, nor did they make an appointment through the correct Chanels. Saeki will have to work for free for a few weeks because of this oversight,but since the Nest provides boarding and food to those in need of it she doesn't need to. This was probably Riku´s fault but Hikaru already did his part, the inner politics of the Nest were better left to the girls.

Some good news is that today was pay day and he got a little extra from Hide. Hikaru is still a little disturbed for taking the money of that pervert but he needs to eat, and if Hide can do whatever he wants with him then taking his money is something that is okay in Hikaru´s screwed moral code.

One thing that has been bothering him a lot lately are the dreams of Shindou´s life, he wishes they would stop. The only think they are good for is giving his foolish self some kind of hope that his life is going to get better, which is a cruel lie. Hikaru has learned to live in the present and not to look into the future because that only leads to the episodes of numbness and helplessness when all he wants is to take his mothers pills to see is they can get him out of the house. But he can't keep thinking about that, Hikaru needs to work so he and his mother can eat, they depend on his uncle for housing as he owns the department complex, Hikaru and his mother manage it in exchange of a roof over their heads. Of course it is him that does most of the work, but they have a mail box so the tenants may leave any complains or repair petitions, which Hikaru has to do himself.

At least they know not to leave their rent there and give it directly to him, one of his many tenants is a dealer, who provides Mitsuko with her "medicine", thanks to that he gets a 50% discount and Hikaru covers the other half with his own money. Matsuo may have a soft spot for his mother, but he isn't one to suffer fools and losing money, so yeah there goes half of his salary.

After he finished fixing one of his tenant´s shower, a nice lady that gives him cookies and propositions him sex every week, (he is almost sure the woman breaks things on purpose; but hey, free food.) Hikaru had to go buy groceries since the fridge was empty, at least it was clean. Thank goodness Mitsuko cleans when she is not that high.

It was late and the sky had already gone dark when he got out of the store, he was looking forward to going home and crashing on his bed and wake up late the next day since it was his day off, say what you want about Matsuo but he was a fair boss. Good wages, awful hours but fair none the less. If only the work wasn't so awful and unpredictable, for all he knows a gun "accident" can occur any minute and Hikaru will be called in since he is the only underground health specialist working for Matsuo, maybe he should try and become a doctor after all it isn't like he hasn't performed impromptu operations since he was old enough to know what cardiac arrest and epinephrine mean.

While he was musing on his life Hikaru notices a figure leaning on the railing toward the traffic below, there was no one with them and this person seemed to lean further forward every moment that passed; for some reason this made Hikaru pause, this…this wasn't any of his business if someone was foolish enough to decide to die for the hell of it then Hikaru didn´t care one bit, thats right he should just keep walking and quickly go home. Hikaru´s life was awful enough already he didn't need to add a suicide victim´s crushed school to the list, should be easy enough right?… right.

So then why can you tell him is he running toward that person instead of away from them? Maybe is because he really doesn't need to be more traumatized than he already is, or maybe he sympathizes with the person, but just as the person finally seemed to decide that enough was enough and actively decided to start climbing the railing and throw themselves to their death is when Hikaru understood his feelings, he was angry. How dare this person try to take their life in front of him?! How dare they try to end it all?! How dare they?! When Hikaru tries so hard to survive every day and this person just dares to try and throw away all the hard work it takes to stay alive by simply dying!? YES! He knows its not his business that they may have some awful things going on but Hikaru is practically counting the days to being raped and is molested on an almost daily basis, he is being overworked at the age of 10 by his own flesh and blood and can't seem to stop hoping for a future no matter how hopeless the situation he has been born in thanks to someone else memories being inserted into him. So until this person tells him to his face that they have it worse than him, that their life is so awful the only way to win over at least once is to die then he won't let them kill themselves. Because if he lets this person die, then that would mean that his live is just as worthless, that everything he has done and endured is for nothing and that he is also better off death.

Death isn't an option because if you are death they win and thats it, you cants fight anymore, and in the end you are nothing. Hikaru wants to live, thats all he wants because thats all he can hope for at the moment, and so with a war cry he launches himself at the foolish individual that thought they could just kill themselves in front of Hikaru and he tackles them the floor and they both go down. Hikaru´s fury is maxed at the moment but just as he is about to shout at the idiot in front of him, the woods leave him as he looks at the unfamiliar face of this individual. Long blonde hair, beautiful foreign features that have an androgynous air to them, but more than anything the eyes are what freeze Hikaru in his place. He knows those eyes, he is dreamed of them, the face is wrong but there is no doubt who this eyes belong to…

But it can't be…right?

...this is can only be…

Suddenly he can speak again but its shaky and in a timid, almost pleading tone Hikaru wasn't aware he could muster he finally voices his question with just one hopeful word.

"…Sai?"

Does anyone know/suspect who/what this characteris going to be to Hikaru?