Watching Over Me
Watching Over Me
A/N: Yeah! I am soooooo hyper!! TAITO'S ARE SOOOOO CUTE! I hate the Taiora's which bash Matt. I love Yama and Tai and Davis and Ken!
Reviews: I shall give myself more credit. I sucked, but I didn't suck THAT bad. Yes, even though I dislike some pairings, I will always respect them. Some I love so much though. Like Taito, Daiken, and Daikeru just to name a few. Yamachi's are cute too. Tai is adorable when he's self conscious. It's oblivious who my favorite is. And yeah, I LOVE TAI AND AGUMON. MOST KICK ASS TEAM EVER! I have so many favorites on youtube of things about them. This one is my Favorite. :goes starry eyed: Thank you all! Tell me if I should post the epilogue right away, because I got it all done. :)
Disclaimer: I do own digimon. Or Teen Titans. Or anything. This sucks!
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I heard my parents talking about me today. I didn't think they could stand each other enough to actually talk civilly. They said it's been a month. Wow. I didn't know
that. Everyday just kinda blurs into the next. Day and night don't really matter anymore. I know Teeks is worried about me. He doesn't have to be. It's not like I'm
depressed or anything. I mean I won't kill myself. I almost did. Well maybe not kill but cut. I couldn't bring myself too. When I was holding the blade above my wrist,
I almost felt Tai glaring at me. Tai. Taichi Kamiya. A name that can tug heartstrings in anyone (A/N: I know. :drools:). Or at least me. Everyone told me I was the
beautiful one. Have they looked at him? I mean how can you say that when he's the one with the gorgeous build, soft chocately brown hair, carmel skin, and heart
warming eyes. Me being beautiful. That's a laugh. I know some people liked me. I mean I've seen the fangirls. But Tai is just so much better than me. He has not
only the looks but the outgoing personality.Or should I say had. How did I deserve him? He was too good for me. I told him that once. Big mistake. I thought he was
going to kill me. He tackled me, and straddled me at the hips. Then he leaned in, enough to get me blushing and said "Don't ever say that again. Don't even think it.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful inside and out. And don't you ever forget it". Then he leaned in like he was going to kiss me. His lips were so close, I was sure he
could feel my heart thudding in my chest. And then he jumped up. I could have killed him. He was mocking me. He just grabbed my hand and pulled me to the movie
theater. Just my luck. I finally found someone who loved me for me. Not the me that people think they know. The me, with all my personality quirks and attitude
problems. He loved me. I know he did. I gave him something I had never given anyone before. My trust. I shouldn't have. I made a big mistake trusting him. I trusted
him completely, and totally. Maybe if I didn't it wouldn't hurt this much. But every time I put up a wall, he would knock right through it. I had forged a very carefully
and delicate layer of ice, shielding me from the world. No one broke through it. That is until I met Taichi Kamiya. All those years of work, and he breaks through it like
it was easy. God, why did he have to go? He made me believe. Damn him, he made me believe. He made me vulnerable. When I was in his arms, everything was
perfect. Nothing could change that. But now what? He's gone, and I'm here torn up inside. I gave him my heart, and he tore it in half. He was the first person I
opened up too. I told him everything. Everything. He knew me better, than I knew me. He made me feel useful. He made me feel like I was loved. On the exterior I'm
cool, calm and collected. But on the inside I'm torn up. It's like something's broken in me deep inside. Now, I'm back to the old Yamato. The one who pretended not
to care, but on the inside was dying. That's the only way to describe it. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't function without him. I depended on him to goddamn much.
He promised me he wouldn't leave me, and now he did. I can't even cry. How cold am I? The person I gave my heart to is dead, and I can't even cry. I've stayed up
late into the night trying. I tried to force the tears out, but they would not come. What's wrong with me? It's like I'm a mere shell of what I used to be. Why did I
have to do it? Why did I have let my guard down? I can't do this. I can't go on without him. How can I go on living like my parents say, when I can barely hang on to
my sanity? I never would have let him get this close if I knew it would hurt this much. It's like someone's ripping me open with a chainsaw from the inside out. Teeks
is talking to me again. I wonder why. All he does is talk. I don't respond or anything. I want to. I want to tell him to stop wasting his time, but I can't. It's like I can't
find my voice. Just like I couldn't find my voice when Tai was dying. I wanted to yell out to him how much I loved him. How I didn't mean it. I wanted to run over and
kiss him, just one more time before he died. We had gotten into a fight earlier that day. It was dumb really. He wanted to come out. He kept bugging me about that.
I kept telling him it was because it was of my band. But it wasn't. I was scared. I didn't want people calling me names, talking about me behind my back. He said I
was ashamed. I said he was an idiot. That really hurt him. We were yelling things back and forth, but we both knew it had no real meaning. But when I said that, I
saw a flash of something rarely seen in Tai Kamiya's eyes. Hurt. It was only there for a second, but it was there. I guess people telling him he was 'thick' so long
finally got to him. He just turned around and walked away. I got so mad. How dare he walk away from me? I wanted to say sorry, but I couldn't. I just blurted out
the first thing in my head. That was real smart. I told him I hated him. Hated him. How far from the truth could that be? I didn't even see what he looked like because
I took off running. We avoided each other the rest of the day. But when he got hit. Oh god. It was like it was my fault. It was like God wanted to spite me. I said I
hated him, so obviously I wanted him to die. I'm such an idiot. I want him back. I need him. He was my better half, and now. Now, I'm just a shell. A broken, dusty,
old shell.
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A/N: I HATED THAT CHAPTER! Some of the chapters I didn't mind, but this chapter was horrible. So corny! Oh god, how do you stand me? Only posted this so fast because I had already written most of it, just had to tweak it a bit. So anyways, do you want me to post the epilogue soon because I have it all written and ready to go. Tell me. Pretty please with a cherrymon on top.