Hello girls and guys.

Now I know what some of you may be thinking.

Who does he think he is, taking so long to update this story?

I apologize for my lack of updating lately, but im here now.

So, im just going to say that, I hope you continue to read and review, cause the story is going to

take a twist from this chapter on.

I hope you can forgive me, so as an apologize, Im going to update this and "My Big Mistake"

Be sure to look at My Big Mistake, because sometime this week, im posting second chapter.

All the drama thats been going on in my life has given me alot to write about.

I hope you like it.

See you in the reviews.- N.

I do not own Big Time Rush.

CONFSESSIONS

Last time on Logan's Diary: Logan confessed his love for James to Kendall "Kendall, I am in love with James."

Kendall took the notice very good. He even said he would help Logan telling James, wich Logan didnt like much "I dont know Kendall, what if he hates me?

-What if he likes you back? You'll never know if you dont ask Logie."

Wich lead Kendall on doing a movie night, where all the people invited leave, leaving James and Logan alone for Logie to tell him everything.

The night was going well, until James did something weird "Next thing I know James had one arm wrapped around my waist, he leaned closer to me and..."

What will James do? Thats what you missed.

James' POV.

Logan had been acting a little strange all week.

For example, I asked him to take a quick sniff at me in the store, and he acted like I was proposing or something.

Also, when I took him out for dinner, he zoned out on me the whole time..

And righ now, we were watching a movie, it was Kendall's idea, I invited Rachel but she could´nt make it.

Carlos chose Paranormal Activity, I knew it was just so he and Kendall could be all protective with their girls. But I didnt have a girl, so I just watched the movie in silence.

Neither did Logan, but the Jennifers were there for him.

Untile they left that is, Carlos and Steph soon left too, so did Kendall and Jo, leaving me with a shaking Logan.

"Are you scared?" I asked alredy knowing the answer, "Y-Yes, alot." I couldnt help but to think he looked cute, covered in a blanket, huggin a pillow and hidding his face, wait, WHAT? Did I just say Logan looks cute?. Um, James what is wrong with you? You're straight, you cannot think like that. But still, I couldtn help to feel all protective with the guy I saw as my little brother.

So I ran my arm around his waist and pulled him closer, earning a loud gasp from Logan, I leaned closer, and kissed the top of his head,

"Are you alright?"I said, he mhm´d, back, I could feel him getting warmmer. "Logan do you want me to take the movie off so we can watch something else?"

"No, I mean, if you dont want to, its okay.. a crash was heard in the movie and Logan buried his face in my chest and wrapped his arms around me. "I'm turnning it off"

I searched for the remote and as soon as I found it, turnned the TV off.

"You can come out now, the monster is gone."

He unwrapped himself and took his face off me, I could feel little wet spots on my shirt. "Logie, were you crying?" I grabbed him by the chin and made him look me in the eye. His eyes were red and puffy. "Aww, Logie, I'm sorry." I hugged him tight. "I'm such a cry baby." He said wiping away some tears. "No you're not, you just scare easy, nothing wrong with that." "That makes me a coward." Said Logan "Hush Logan, you are perfect, just the way you are, okay?" He stared at me, with a smile on his face, his eyes showed that he was hiding something. "Sure, umm, I'm going to take a shower." He said getting up. "Actually, Logan, umm, can we talk first?" I made him sit down.

"Uh, sure- he crossed his legs and stared at me- what's up?" "You tell me, I mean, it seems like you avoid me, like you dont like to hang out with me anymore." I said looking sadly at the floor. "It's not that Jamie- he grabbed my hand- I promisse, I love hanging out with you, trust me, it's just no that, it's something else." He was bitting on his lip.

"Logie, c'mon, you know you can tell me anything, you are bitting your lip right now, wich means, you want to say something, but there's something in your head stopping you from doing it." I know Logan too much for him to fool me. "Well there is something, I need to tell you but, you have to promisse me something." He said, taking both my hands now. "What is it?" I said, looking him directly in the eye.

"That you will still be my friend when you know the truth." Why would I unfriend Logan? Was this secret so bad it would ruin our friendship?

"Logan, you know I would never stop being your friend, even if you wanted me to." "Just promisse me it." He demanded, something Logan almost never did.

"Okay fine, I promisse, now what is it?" Loga played with his fingers and kept bitting his lip.

"Okay, the thing is... that I've realised something... something about me, and it may shock you, but... I need you to know." Logan was struggling to find the right words to say, normal on him when he got nervous.

"I will be fine Logie." I reasured him holding his hand, earning a smile.

"James, I, the thing is... I think, I'm pretty sure" He was again, shaking and starting to sweat.

"Logie say it" " I'm gay James" He blurted out.

I imediately froze.

I sat there, holding his head, wide eyed.

How could this be? One of my best friends, gay?

But it was my Logan, and he was there, sitting, waiting for a reply, in fear that I might hate him.

"L-Logan, I, um. I was finally thinking straight again- uff, wow Logie, so, you, like boys instead of girls, that's completely fine, hey, you dont have to worry about getting a girl preggers." I said trying to lighten up the mood.

It worked he sighed and smiled at me.

"Are you okay with me being who I am?" He asked shyly.

"Couldnt be better, hey Logie, maybe I could help you get a boyfriend." I winked at him.

"Haha, no thanks- I swear I saw him look down, almost as if he was dissapointed of something- So are we alright?"

"Yes, but Logan?"

"Yes?"

"Who else knows? You know, so I dont open my mouth around other people." I said a little uncomfortable.

"Oh, Carlos, Kendall, the Jennifers and I think Jo." So I was the last one in the band to know.

"Kay, come here you silly guy, how could I hate such a cute guy?" I hugged him.

Maybe this wasent right, maybe he will get the wrong idea,

One thing is for sure thoug, Logan was happier, and so was I.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Big Time Time Skip~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Logan got in his and Carlos' bedroom to take a shower, yes we had bedroom showers.

I saw that he left his phone on the coffee table and decided to take it to him.

Logan was alredy in the shower, so I just put the phone on Logan's bed side table.

I saw a picture of the four of us on Logan's desk, when I tried to grab it, it fell and went under Logan's bed.

I bent down and what I found instead was a green notebook.

"What the?..." It had "LOGAN'S DIARY" on the cover.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~CONTINUE

I hope you liked this chapter.

As you can see, I changed the style a bit.

Its the first time I use quotes because some of you suggested it, so yeah.

Please tell me what you think about this chapter.

Oh and, if you liked the preview thing, I may be doing it in future chapters as well.

Hope you read, like and review. Xoxo N.