I had a really bad night, so I'm really sorry if there's mistakes but I hope you like it.
I own nothing!
Alice
That Monday Maria and I were forced to apologize and stay away from each other because the principal somehow found out about the almost fight. I still had a feeling she wasn't done. I had never wanted to be a fighter until I met her and she called my baby a "soon to be slut with HIV" at that bonfire. If Emmett hadn't been holding me, I'm sure I would have dragged her in the fire then thrown her in the water to make sure she didn't burn.
I'd been talking to Jacob a lot since then too; he was actually pretty nice too. He would give me discounts on diapers or food for Lainey. He even asked me to go out with him to the movies this Friday; I accepted not wanting to be rude. It was nothing but a friendly thing.
Jasper and I were getting closer and closer by each day. I could feel the feelings I was getting for him, and they weren't friendly. He came over almost every day so I could help him study and as pay he taught me some stuff on the guitar. He called me a natural at it but I still thought I sucked. Lainey had also warmed up to him and enjoyed whenever he came over.
Rosalie and Bella were also becoming my really close friends. They enjoyed being around Cynthia because they all loved shopping, she was now added to the shopping trip we planned to go on over Christmas break, or after we get back from Mississippi.
Apparently my mom and sister have been sending emails back and forth. I wasn't mad; I just wish she would have told me instead of me having to find out on accident.
Anyways, mom was sending plane tickets up to us so we could come down and spend Christmas with her and dad who is coming home. I agreed to it, I didn't expect there to not be arguments or anything but I promised Cynthia I would try to get along with mom.
"So what are you doing Friday?" Jasper asked in art class a week later.
"I'm going to the movies with Jacob." I said sketching a line in the middle of my paper.
"You mean Jacob Black from La Push?"
"Yup." I said popping the "p".
"Are ya'll like dating?" He said with caution in his voice.
I chuckled, "Definitely not, I just met him."
He sighed and nodded.
We were quiet for the rest of the period and on the way to the parking lot.
"Alice!" Rosalie yelled my name. "Sleepover at my house Friday night with Bella, can you come?"
I waited until I was in front of her instead of yelling across the parking lot.
"Sure, I'll talk to Cynthia about it and I'm going to the movies with Jacob, so it'd be after."
"She can come too; I know my mom loves her." Rosalie said.
"Did you say Jacob, as in Jacob Black?"
I nodded. "Yeah at like seven so I shouldn't be too late."
"Since when were you two dating?" Rosalie asked folding her arms.
"We're not." I said confused. "Why does everyone think because we're going to the movies that we're dating?"
"That's normally the reason you go." Bella laughed.
"Does he know you two are only going as friends?" Rosalie asked.
I shrugged, "Probably."
"Or probably not, make sure you wear something that doesn't give off that it's a 'date' date."
And that was exactly what I did. Just jeans, a yellow jacket with a white cami under it and UGG boots.
"You look great." He said as I got in the car.
"Thanks," I said.
I texted Cynthia one more time to make sure she dropped Lainey off at Rose's house then put my phone away, whether or not this was a real date it was rude to text during a movie.
Jacob bought my ticket for the movie Avatar. It was interesting but I found myself wanting to leave because it was two long.
"Do you want to leave?" Jacob said almost reading my mind.
I nodded and we both got up and left.
"That was pretty cool." He said.
I shrugged, "Yeah it was."
"So… what do you want to do now?"
I looked at the time on my phone, it was only eight now.
"Doesn't matter," I said.
"How about ice cream?" he said pointing to the little ice cream cart in front of us.
I nodded.
He bought us both ice cream and we sat down on a bench.
"So what's it like?" he asked.
"What's what like?'
"Being a mom and having HIV?"
I sighed. "Actually, I feel pride to myself because I kept her and had faith that I could take care of her. Having HIV doesn't really affect me anymore, sure it's hard making sure I took my medicine and having checkups to make sure I'm okay but I'm okay with it now."
"That's cool; I really admire you for that."
"Thanks."
"And I think Maria is wrong for calling you out like that. She knows she has done some pretty bad stuff and it's all to cover it up."
I smiled, "Yeah, thanks."
"I had a good time tonight Alice." He said setting his hand on mine.
I slipped my hand out carefully. "Yeah, me too but Jacob, you do know this was just a friendly thing and nothing more than that right."
He looked down embarrassed but nodded, liar. I felt bad because I knew he really didn't.
"Let's go." I said with fake enthusiasm.
We were both silent on the way to Rosalie's house but not awkward silence. I told him the directions and we ended up in front of a tall white house that had Rosalie and Jasper's car in the drive way along with two other cars I assumed was their parents.
"Thanks for tonight." I said kissing Jacob's cheek and getting out.
"Sure sure," He said with a smile. "See you later."
I watched as he drove off then turned back to the house.
"Have fun?" Someone said making me jump. "Sorry." Jasper quickly apologized.
"Shit, Jazz, you scared me." I said covering it with a small chuckle.
"Sorry." He said. "Did you have fun?"
I only nodded. Would have been better with you, I thought.
"Where you off to?" I changed the subject noticing that he was about to get into his car and keys in hand.
"Edward's house, he and Emmett are playing video games, so I'm going to head over there but I'm coming back because me and my dad are heading out somewhere in the morning."
"Sounds fun," I said and he nodded. "Well have fun."
Inside the house I could hear Lainey crying, I couldn't help but to laugh at Rosalie and Bella who were trying to calm her down.
"Knock knock," I said opening the door.
Lainey immediately stopped crying and crawled out of Rosalie's arms to me.
"How the heck do you do that?" Bella asked tiredly.
"It's a mama thing," I said squatting down to pick her. "She just wants mama." I kissed Lainey's forehead and walked over to the bed. "How was she?"
"Fine and amazing until after she ate," Rosalie sighed. "Then she whined."
"Yeah she must not have had her nap earlier today." I said patting Lainey's back.
It didn't take long for her to fall asleep. I sat her in the guest room that was connected to the bathroom that was connected with Rosalie's room.
"So…" Bella asked sitting Indian style with her hands in her lap and Rosalie doing the same thing but on her bed. They both had extremely huge grins on their faces.
"So what?" I said sitting in Rosalie's fluffy chair.
"How was the movies or did you even watch it?" Rose asked.
"We didn't watch it, we left for ice cream."
"So was it like a real date or still friendly?" Bella asked.
"Still friendly."
"Good." Rosalie said falling back on her bed.
Bella got up and fell back next to her and I did the same.
"Was that a 'good' good or a 'bad' good?" I asked staring up at the ceiling with the pictures of Channing Tatum, Cam Gigandet, Taylor Lautner and Robert Pattinson on it.
"A good one if you like my brother too." She sighed. "Do you?"
I shrugged, "I don't know, maybe."
"Maybe?" Bella said and they both sat up on their sides then stared at me until I answered.
"I don't know." I said covering my face.
"You do." They both giggled.
"That isn't a problem is it?" I said directly to Rosalie.
She shook her head, "Nope. I actually like you so it wouldn't be a problem if ya'll two dated. Plus I would like to see him not moping around whenever we go out because he's the fifth wheel."
So what if I did like Jasper and what if we did start "dating" dating. He's a really goes person and he doesn't judge that I have Lainey or HIV. It's not like we were going to do anything that would affect him that way.
"Wait, too?" I asked suddenly remembering her words.
She only nodded, "He likes you too."
"How would you know that?" I asked which was probably stupid. She lived with him, of course she knew.
"My mom said he looks at you like you're the only person in the universe and the day he came home after being at your house for so long he wouldn't tell us anything, he only keeps secrets for people he really likes."
"I personally think you two would be cute together." Bella said excitedly and Rosalie nodded in agreement.
We stayed up talking and I ended up retelling the story of how I became who I am today. They were a little shocked but didn't judge me. We all learned a lot about each other.
Bella was first to fall asleep then Rosalie. As I was ready to I heard Lainey cry and I got up. It was almost two, nothing new for my six month old baby to be awake right now. I walked downstairs into the dark; everything was turned off except the kitchen light because I asked Anna to do. I put the bottle I had grabbed in the microwave. I rocked her while feeding her until he fell back asleep.
"How cute," I jumped at Jaspers husky, whispering voice again. "Sorry."
"It's okay." I whispered back.
I smiled and said goodnight then walked upstairs to put Lainey down.
I noticed Jasper's figure in the doorway and realized what I was wearing, a cami and really short pink shorts with a hoodie only half way zipped up.
I patted Lainey's back one more time then walked out.
"Are you tired?" Jasper asked.
I yawned but shook my head "no". He laughed then grabbed my hand. We walked down the dark hallway that I guessed was the pathway to his room.
"This is my room," he said opening the door to the room the same size as Rosalie's but instead it was dark blue. "Excuse the mess."
He still held my hand as we walked through the mess of CDs and clothes on the floor. We finally made our way to his patio. The wind blew and I zipped my jacket up all the way.
"Hold on." Jasper slipped back into his room and came back out with a blanket "Thanks," I said as he put it over my shoulders. "It's really pretty out here." I said looking up at the stars.
"I come out here to think a lot and when I want to take a walk I go through that path and sit in an old abandoned car that's out there."
"When I want to take a walk I go to the park." I sighed and sat down. He sat down next to me, in silence…
"You believe in love at first sight?" He asked moments later then leaned all the way back and put his arms around his head so he was staring directly at the stars.
I yawned and did the same. "I don't know really, I think that you can build love around one person you look at though. What about you?"
I felt him shrug, "Yeah kind of."
"That's good too."
We fell silent again and that's how it was until I could hear the soft breathing and snores coming from Jasper. I smiled and watched the lines relax making him look like he was five.
"Goodnight Jasper." I said getting up and putting the blanket all the way over making sure he wouldn't get cold then slipped out.
"Night Alice." I heard him call.
Walking in the hallway, opening and closing the door of Rosalie's bedroom and sliding into the bed next to sleeping Rose and Bella made me realize one thing. Maybe I was falling for Jasper.
Yeah, review? (:
suggest or ask questions...
thank (:
love, me.