Well I'm back. My show is over so hopefully some updates are going to come around. Well this chapter is based on the son "On/Off" by Snow Patrol. Btw, Don't own the Donnellys or this song.

I couldn't believe what I was seeing
Faces all screwed up like what I'd done
I didn't mean to hurt you so much
I knew it would hurt you but not like this
We all make a mess from time to time, dear
But it'll take me a lifetime to get this cleared
Somebody muttered something under their breath
But I let on like I was a little deaf
Nobody's perfect, that's what I say
No one has hurt me so much you say
I'm sorry
Running away seemed like the easy thing to do because I wanted time
To put a smile back on your face
For once nothing's missing and I feel fine
I was afraid to tell you some things
But some things all find a way to get told
Hearing it from the lips of somebody else
Must have knocked the wind out of your sweet chest

Maureen sat down waiting patiently for the next story to be told to her. She found her waiting days and nights just to her a story about a bunch of criminals. But she doesn't seem them as criminals. She sees them as friends like Joey does. She even sees Joey as a friend. Her friend.

"So Bridgette didn't tell Kevin about the deal with Nicky…" Joey began.

Kevin and I barely spoke for days. A quick kiss here and there. Part of me just wanted to avoid him. It was easier than to lie to him. I knew just from how badly Tommy took the deal I didn't even want to imagine how Kevin would take it. He hated me being a part of this. I didn't want to be a part of this but I had to. To save myself and them. I knew Kevin wouldn't ever understand this.

Tommy was at the diner by the time I got to work. He looked tired and pissed off and I'm pretty sure he was fighting with Jenny. His hands were clenched on the counter and they were starting to turn white. Yeah, he was definitely fighting with Jenny.

"Jenny, stop." He was saying to her.

"No, I'm not going too. You just came home with blood on your clothes how am I supposed to react?" I looked around the diner to make sure no one heard that. Only old man Brannigan with the bad hearing was there this early. I sighed and threw my jacket underneath the counter. Strangely enough I used to be worried if any of the boys said anything about blood but now I was so used to it. And from the way Tommy looked I knew everything was fine. They still didn't acknowledge my presence.

"Good Morning." I said. Tommy and Jenny both glared at me than turned back to there fight. Tommy walked around the counter and walked towards Jenny.

"Get away from me Tommy. I told you from the beginning I don't approve of what you do but I love you so I'll turned my head but than you show up like that and…" I could hear her crying. It scared me every time she cried because she was the strongest of all of us. So when she cried it made us feel weaker. Tommy put his arms around her and she sobbed into his jacket. After a few seconds she pulled up and kissed him lightly while he petted her hair. I started to make some coffee and get ready for the morning. I heard the bell of the door chime. I turned and saw Frankie standing in front of the counter.

"Hey, Frankie. How have you been?" He smiled and sat in front of me. I hadn't seen Frankie since I left.

"I heard you were back. Sorry, I haven't gotten to see you. Being a cop is hard work." I smiled and I passed him a menu.

"Don't worry about it. My cousin never stops complaining." My cousin worked with Frankie for a while. He looked over to Jenny who was still in an embrace with Tommy. "You want to talk to Jenny or Tommy?"

"Jen." He said. I turned to look at them.

"Jen, can you come here for a sec." Jenny let go and walked towards us. She wiped the tears that still lingered on her cheeks.

"Hey, Frankie. You need something?" She said as strong as possible. He looked at me as if he wanted me to leave. I got the point and started to walk away but Jenny grabbed me. "You can say whatever you need to in front of her." I looked at Jenny. She seemed scared. She was definitely more fragile pregnant. I looked over at Tommy who came toward us too.

"Alright, I wanted to come here and tell you personally that the Samson murder case is closed. I can't get into details but I wanted you to know." He winked at Jenny. I looked over to her and she was smiling and so was Tommy.

"I think this calls for free pancakes for Frankie." Jenny nodded in agreement and I walked to the kitchen to start cooking. Tommy followed me in.

"You need to leave now." he asked. I turned slightly and looked at him.

"Not unless it is important." I turned back to the stove and he was silent. I turned back and he gave me a dead serious look. I grabbed my heart slightly feeling it pound a little bit heavier. "Who?" I said underneath my breath. He grabbed both my arms to relax me.

"Kevin fucked up." Like I haven't heard that before. "He went to Nicky about his debt and found out about our deal." Shit. Shit. Shit. "And he attacked Nicky." I already had my jacket in hand.

"Let's go."

We got to the Firecracker and the tension was unbelievable. Nicky was sitting in the booth while Kevin was sitting on the pool table and Joey was behind the bar. My eyes went straight to Kevin he looked horrible. He had another black eye (something I was getting accustomed too), a fat lip, and he looked as if he had been drinking. Tommy and I split apart. He went to sit in the booth with Nicky while I went to Kevin. I stood in front of him and I reached up to examine his eye but his arm clamped around my wrist pulling it away. His eyes were cold.

"Bridgette…" Nicky's voice called. I looked at Kevin but he looked away from me. I sighed and walked to the booth and sat next to Tommy.

"Is there a problem?" Tommy said.

"Your business seems weak. I'm assuming you didn't tell all of them about the deal." He was referring to Kevin. I looked over to Kevin but his eyes were down to the floor.

"Nicky, what do you need?" I said strongly.

"I want your boyfriend to not be involved in our affairs." He was talking about the deal between him and me. I looked back over at Kevin who was looking at me waiting for my answer.

"Fine." I said. I looked over at Tommy who nodded in agreement. I heard Kevin storm down the stairs. "Is this meeting done because I have to take care of a few things?"

"No, I want to know how the deal is going."

"I've left my brother messages. He and I are going to have a meeting tomorrow." He smiled.

"Good." He got up and walked out the door like nothing had happened. I slid out of the booth and grabbed the bottle he was drinking and threw it against the back wall.

"What the hell?" Tommy screamed.

"Joey, get me a shot of whisky now." I needed heavy alcohol to deal with Kevin right now. I got to the bar and Joey handed me the shot. I shot in down quickly and went to the top of the stairs.

"Kevin." I heard thrashing downstairs but than he appeared and started to walk up the stairs.

"What do you have another deal that you don't want to tell me about? Or you just gonna avoid me for another week?" He walked right past me.

"Kevin, come on." He rebounded very quickly.

"Bebe," He only called me Bebe when he was pissed off. "I expect that from Tommy but not from you." There was so much hurt in his eyes.

"I didn't mean to-" I walked closer to him to hold him but he backed away.

"Yeah, I can deal with my brothers letting me out of deals but you out of everyone hurt the most. Fuck you, Bebe. Go back to Ireland. It was so much easier without you." He went to touch me but stopped and turned. I don't think I ever seen him leave so fast but he did. I wanted to run after him but my legs wouldn't move. I didn't know what to say or how to excuse what I had done. I just got up and walked out making my way back to the diner. As soon as I did my cell blared. I knew whoever was calling me was important so I took a deep breath hoping it was Kevin. Normally my cell only rang for important phone calls so I took a deep breath and prayed it was Kevin to apologize. It was a restricted number so I couldn't even tell who it was. I just answered it.

"Hello?" I said.

"Bridgette? Please don't hang up." Said a smooth Irish accent. I knew it was Caleb wanting me back.

"What part of don't call me again. Don't you understand?" I screamed causing a few passer byers to turn and stare.

"I'm in New York." He said.

"You want me to throw you a party, you dumb fuck?" I clicked my phone shut. My phone rang again and I felt my blood boiling. I flipped it open. "I swear to fucking god you call me again I'll –"

"Someone bothering you? Cause you know I'll kick there ass." Jimmy's voice boomed.

"Jimmy?" I asked. I heard him laugh.

"I'm getting out. I'm clean and there letting me go. I need you to pick me up." He said.

"I get it Jimmy. I'll be there in a half an hour. I wanna speak to your doctor, too" Jimmy chuckled.

"Since when have you become my mother, sweetheart?" I smiled to myself remembering how much I missed Jimmy.

"Shut up. Go get ready I'll be there in half an hour." I closed my phone and walked to go get my car.

I called Jenny to tell her I couldn't come in until later. I felt really bad not being around her as much but this always seemed to happen. The Donnelly's always took up most of my life in one way or another. It's not there fault it's mine. I let my life get this way and so did Jenny. But I am worse than her. I get more involved than I should be. Now I was starting to pay the price but letting everything slipping through my fingers. I was safe in Ireland. I had a taste of real life outside of them and I let it go. I pulled the key out of ignition and looked at the building in front of me. I slide out of the car and made my way towards it. The door opened and I saw Jimmy sitting in the lobby talking to another man. His color was back and so was the light in his eyes. He looked happy. Happier than I have seen him in years. He looked like he did before the accident. I walked towards him and I saw that he noticed me. Another man came up from behind him. He was tall, scruffy grey beard with grey hair to match, and a nice dress shirt on with khakis. He must have been Jimmy's doctor. Jimmy literally leaped on me and held me close. He never was a really touchy feely person so it was shocking. He pulled away.

"It is so good to see you sweetheart." I smiled and looked to the man standing next to him. He held his hand out to me.

"Dr. Webber, you must be Bridgette. Jimmy said you would be the one person he could trust to take him home." I looked at Jimmy and smirked remembering all the times I would say that to him. I let go of the doctor's hand. "It's nice seeing someone so young taking initiative to help someone else." I nodded and looked back towards Jimmy.

"Is everything ready to go?" He nodded and I walked out to the car to allow Jimmy some time to say goodbye. When he came out he limped out to the car and looked down at it.

"Nice car, Bridge." I smiled not wanting to say how I got it. He jumped in and buckled up while I did the same. He looked over at me. "What you said helped me. I didn't want to get clean until I saw the pain in your eyes." I looked over and Jimmy. He was one of the greatest influences in my life. It was really great to see him look happy and healthy.

I walked into the bar arm and arm with Jimmy. All the boys were there including Kevin. There eyes were wide looking at the brother that they had no idea was getting out of rehab. Tommy was the first to glare at me but I shook it off and looked to Jimmy.

"I'll let have some time with your brothers." I went to go walk out of the bar but Jimmy caught my arm.

"I want my whole family here." He pulled me into him and kissed the top of my head. I

smiled and looked over to Kevin whose eyes were on the ground again. I sighed pulling

away from him and I pulled off my coat. Every boy came up one by one to embrace

their brother. The last was Kevin who looked over at me acknowledging my presence and

thanking me for helping his brother. They got out of their embrace and Jimmy looked

at me. I noticed he still had a grip on Kevin.

"What's going on with you two?" I looked at Kevin to answer but all he did was shrug.

He knew that what I did was for him but he was too stubborn to admit it. Jimmy raised his hand and smacked him in the head. "Stop acting like a jackass. She's the greatest thing that has happened to any of us." My jaw dropped. What the fuck did happen to Jimmy in rehab? I noticed all the boys look a bit shocked but nodded angrily. I smiled again knowing that they were also the greatest things to every happen to me. I watched Kevin become uneasy and walk out the door. This time I had the strength to follow. He was leaning against the wall looking out onto the traffic.

"Kevin…" I breathed. He turned his head slightly and my breath caught in my throat.

"You should have told me." He seemed very mature at this moment. I'm not saying that he isn't mature but there are moments he is very naïve. I moved myself so I was standing right in front of him.

"I wanted too but I knew that you would just get mad like you did today. The only reason I did it because I love you." I grabbed his hand and he didn't pull away.

"Bridgette, I expect that from Tommy but never from you." I felt like a scolded child. "You make it hard for me to be pissed at you." He smiled lightly and leaned down to kiss me. Our lips touched lightly than he pulled away. I smiled.

"How about for the next week we don't fight?" He chuckled and nodded. He threw his arm around my shoulder while my mine was wrapped around his waist. We both walked into the bar. Jimmy saw us and started cracking up. He threw both of us pool sticks.

"Kevin you're on my team. Bebe you're on Tommy's." I smirked at Tommy who I began to walk over to.

"Idiot." He said under his breath. I'm assuming that it slipped Jimmy's mind that I am amazing at playing pool. This is going to be fun.

We all were having fun the whole night. All the boys' girlfriends came to join us. Almost all of us were drinking(except Jimmy and Joanie) but Kevin was getting pretty drunk and he put his hands on my waist trying to make me miss a shot. Joey and I were facing off in pool. He had a bet going with Joey that he could make me lose. He would have to do better than that. The door swung open and a business man walked through. He was tall with his raven hair slicked back. Even the same color eyes. He was the twin of my father. Oh god, its Daniel my brother. He definitely didn't belong in here.

"Daniel, what the hell are you doing here?"

He gave me a look as I realized that Kevin still had his hands on my hips. I pushed him off and threw the pool stick down on the table.

"Do I need a reason to see my baby sister?"

"Judging on the fact you hate this place it is a little weird." I took a step towards him. "Is this about our meeting?" He shook his head.

"Someone wanted to see you." He said motioning towards the door.

The door swung open again and a tall Irishman walked in. Green eyes with blonde hair falling against his shoulder. No, this was not happening. Caleb(my ex-fiancée) can't be here. My body tensed and I began to walk to the basement to get away from it all.

"I don't get a hello?" he said in an Irish accent.

I turned around sharply. Everyone was watching me trying to figure out what was going on.

"Daniel, I swear to fucking God if you don't get yourself or him out of here I will shove that pool stick so far up your assess…"

"Stop putting up this fucking tough routine in front of them." Daniel said.

"Than stop being such a fucking prick. Did you really need to throw my past in my face? What did I ever do to you?" Kevin stepped closer to me and tried to grab my hand. I ripped my hand away. "Kevin, please not now."

"Do you want me to get rid of them?" Jimmy asked.

"Shut up, Jimmy you fucking gimp." Jimmy and my brother were the same age. They never got along. My brother never got along with any of the Donnelly's. Not until after he started dating Jenny.

Jimmy didn't even have time to react before I did. I leaped on my brother and punched him so hard he fell to the ground. I was on top of him continually beating the shit out of him. Tommy and Sean grabbed me and got me off of him. Jenny stepped in and got me on a bar stool.

"Bebe, relax now." I couldn't. My blood was boiling. I wanted anything to hit my brother on the head with a glass bottle. Tommy and Sean backed away and stood next to Kevin who looked as bad as I did. My brother was getting up. His lip was cut and he definitely was getting a black eye. I smiled to myself knowing that I caused him pain. I was never one to fight but he pushed me over the edge

"You bitch." He spat.

"You never talk to Jimmy or any of us like that again or I will kill you." I screamed.

"There all pathetic. There criminals. Everyone that loves them gets hurt. Look at their father or their mother."

That's it. I broke free of Jenny and went in for round two. This time no one tried to stop me. I kicked him so hard in the balls he almost started crying. I punched him in the face again and he threw me to the ground. His fist curled up and he punched me. I couldn't even feel the pain. He slapped me and I spit at him. All the boys came to my rescue as soon as he had me on the ground but he did get in a few good hits. Kevin grabbed him and pulled him off me. All the Donnelly's got in and started to beat him. The Irishman didn't know what to do so he backed away. I wiped my lip. I was bleeding now. I looked up and saw Kevin and Tommy punching him in the stomach.

"Don't you ever touch her again." Jenny, Joanie, and Nadine helped me up. We all ran to our men and pulled them off. My brother ran to the door like the coward he was. Caleb stayed behind. I turned to look at Kevin to make sure he wasn't about to kill him. I could tell he was angry but he threw his arms around me and pulled me into a hug. We stayed like that for minutes. I could feel how tense he was and I knew if I was to pull away first he was going to snap. I was calming his anger and he was calming mine. When he pushed me away I turned to Caleb.

"I don't understand why you're here." I said. It wasn't as if I wasn't clear when I said 'I don't want to marry or be with you anymore.'

"To win you back." Kevin tried to push past me to attack him but I pulled him back. Kevin was way too drunk for a fight. He would either get his ass kicked or Caleb would end up dead.

"Don't you understand I love Kevin?" I said.

"You're not the same girl I fell in love with in Ireland." He said.

"You know nothing about me. I was different in Ireland. This is how I really am." I noticed he shifted closer to me so he was inches away. I could feel the stares of everyone around us burning into my flesh. Don't get me wrong I did love Caleb but I knew I could never be with him. Kevin was the man I needed but it was hard to turn off my feelings for Caleb. He reached out his hand and brushed my cheek lightly. It sent a shiver down my spine but I pushed him off.

"Don't. You knew why I came back here. You knew I loved Kevin." I said almost on the verge of tears.

"But he didn't love you like I did. When I met you, you were so sad that all you did was cry yourself to sleep at night. I did all my best to help you. Than you come back here for two days and you want nothing more to do with me. Because of him. Now that you're with him I can see it in your eyes your still in pain because that's all he brings you." Kevin's anger rose higher than I seen it in a while. I saw it in his eyes. Caleb was as good as dead if he didn't get out of here. Tommy strode to my side. He was trying to create more distance between Kevin and Caleb. Tommy grabbed my hand and looked at me.

"Do you want me to get rid of him?" He said.

"I'm leaving for tonight but I don't care if it takes forever to get you back I'll do it." He said nobly.

"I swear if you go near her. I'll kill you." Kevin yelled breaking lose from his silence.

Caleb nodded and walked out the door. I turned around to face Kevin. He looked as if he wanted to kill Caleb. Than suddenly he grabbed my forearms and kissed me. It was a passionate kiss that was extremely tense. I knew it was proving to himself that I was his. It scared me because I knew with Kevin this meant he was going to fight. Fight in every way possible to keep me but he refused to realize I was always his.

"I need to go." He said pulling away from my lips.

"Kevin, please don't do something stupid." I said pulling at his shirt. He took my hands away from him and walked out the door. I looked at Tommy who gave me the same worried glance I had. He nodded knowing that I wanted him to follow Kevin and he walked out the door. Tommy would take care of him. Everyone was still staring at me. So much for not fighting with Kevin for a week.

"So are you going to tell us what that was all about?" I heard Sean say. I turned to him and shrugged.

"Jimmy can you get me a whisky?" Jimmy leaned over the bar and kissed my forehead. I chuckled to myself

"And by the way can someone please get me some ice?" I looked down at my bloodied knuckles and than at my bloodied face in the mirror behind the bar.

Nadine ran down the stairs and got some ice. Jenny tried to wipe some of the blood away while bandaging me. I bit on my already bleeding lips trying not to scream from the alcohol burning my flesh. Sean and Jimmy began to get a round of drinks and Joanie kept me from concentrating on the pain. They all helped me because they were all my family. No matter what would happen. Jimmy passed me my drink and I lifted it high in the air. Even though I may have fucked up my relationship with Kevin, any chance of being close with my brother ever again, and possibly fucked up my deal with Nicky. But maybe there was hope. Maybe the luck of the Irish will kick in.

"She seems like an optimist." Joey chuckled and Maureen handed him a piece of her sandwich. Joey looked up and saw another guard standing there. He cleared his throat and Maureen jumped.

"Ms. Perez, the warden needs to see you." Maureen nodded and got up. She waved to Joey than walked out of view of him. He sighed than laid down on his bed drifting into a deep sleep dreaming of her face.