A/N: caww I absolutely loved what you said so this goes out to you! Thanks for the review to everyone else. Sorry it took me so long again. I'll try to get back on track soon!

May 27, 2008

I don't own anything…

It was nice to know that my family was going to get along with the Cullens. Once Nathan seemed fine with them, Austin and Charlotte were going to be easy. I'm not quite sure what changed his mind, but he and Edward seemed to have a pleasant conversation after school today. Although I had no idea what they were talking about and Nathan would not tell me.

He just said, "I was civil and kind to him. I just complimented him on his 'dazzling' skills. He's not half bad, Edward I mean."

When we got home Nathan told me he wanted to go hunting with me and Alice. He thought he should get to know the other Cullens. When we were ready to go, Alice came to our house and we all set out together. We ended up at the clearing where I saw vampires play baseball for the first time and where Emmett found me after all these years of thinking I was dead. I wonder how that felt. . . This was a surprise.

"What are we doing here? I thought we were going to go hunting," I said to Alice when she stopped in the middle of the open field.

"Calm down Bella. We are, but first there is something you and your family needs to hear. We've been trying to hold it off, but they are becoming too impatient for us," she said crinkling her nose.

"Alice," Nathan said coming up behind us, "what do you mean by they?"

The wind started to pick up and I could smell them. A horrible smell, like a… dog. Oh no the werewolves had to talk to my family about the treaty. They must not have known it was me, who knew all about it. "Alice why didn't you tell me this earlier?" I hissed at her.

Before she could answer a reddish-brown wolf came out of the forest and so did three others behind it. I knew the first one before he even picked his great head up to look at us. Suddenly something icy cold hit my arm squeezing it gently; comforting almost.

"We didn't want you to worry or be upset," Edward's voice whispered in my ear. "Ever since you told us your story it looked like you were in pain whenever you mentioned him. They told us that they have to talk to you now or else. We tried telling them that you already knew, but they didn't trust us." He paused to look at the pack coming towards us. "He is now the head of the pack. He called for this meeting."

Jacob was now the head? No, that can't be. He told me he didn't want to because of the responsibility. Wait, did he even know it was me?

His eyes said it all. Once they hit my face he stopped head in his tracks. They didn't tell him it was me. He had no idea that my family was the new family that didn't 'know' the treaty.

The rest of the pack stopped and stared at him. "They are wondering why he stopped," Edward whispered to me. "He's wondering if he should change back to his human form or not. The pack doesn't trust us, they're telling him to stay as he is."

I saw Jacob nod his head as he continued forward to us. Nathan backed off because of the smell I think. Nathan barely could stand the other smell of vampires that he wasn't used to. Alice stood her ground, but she still looked so small to me. Edward stepped in front of me, shielding most of me with his body. I wanted to push him out of the way so I could see my friend, but I was too shocked to do anything.

"He's telling his pack that you already know the treaty. You've known it this whole time and that this meeting was a waste. Also he's telling them to leave. I think he wants to talk to you," Edward said reading their thoughts. "Alone."

Alone? Right, did he actually think that would happen? Edward definitely wouldn't leave me with him and Nathan would be too afraid that he was dangerous to leave me with him. Nathan didn't really understand werewolves. I never told my family about them.

"Take Nathan to the edge of the clearing. I'll be with you guys soon," I whispered softly in Edward's ear.

He shook his head. "One, I know Nathan won't leave you, and two you should know that I won't leave you with a… dog."

Jacob growled at him and ran off into the forest. "Look what you did Edward! Now he left," I hissed at him. Why did he have to be so mean to Jacob? Even with my change I still like him as a friend.

Edward sighed and turned around to me. "Don't worry Bella. He's coming back. He just wants to talk to you without me translating. He still wants to talk to you alone though."

"Edward, please let me talk to him alone. I need to talk to him. I haven't seen him or talked to him since this all happened," I said waving my hand up and down myself. "I need to talk to him. Please take Nathan and Alice to the edge of the forest. I'll meet you there soon. I promise."

Edward looked down defeated. My pleading worked. "Alright, but if anything happens, like he starts to go out of control, come and find me."

"I'm not going to lose control around her. Even if she is a vampire," a husky voice growled.

Edward turned around to look Jacob in the eye. He was now only five feet from us. He seemed to be bigger, if that was even possible. "I'm not saying you're going to. I just want to be careful."

Jacob nodded. "Take the other bloodsuckers and go, please. I need to speak to Bella."

"Jacob, don't talk to my brother like that! He's not a bloodsucker!" I yelled at him stepping forward. Edward, however, grabbed my arm and pulled me back beside him. "Edward I can't let him talk to my family like they are nothing!" I whispered for only him.

"I know, love, but you can't get him angry. That's how they phase most of the time. Please try to stay calm. For me," he pleaded.

"Bella, I'm sorry. I didn't know that you had a family! I thought that their clan got bigger. I had no idea," Jacob said coming closer to us. The smell didn't seem to bother him as much as it did for me.

Edward jerked me backwards with him. "Edward, please, I'm fine. I can out run him now."

Nathan snorted. "That's an understatement. She can out run anyone now. She's the fastest in our family."

Edward sighed and let go of my arm unwillingly. He walked over to Nathan and Alice and they all ran off to the edge of the forest. I stood in my place staring in the direction were they left.

"Bella, I am sorry about the whole bloodsucker thing. I didn't think that you could have a family of your own now. I'm sorry."

I sighed. This wasn't something I wasn't ready for. I knew he had feelings for me, but I was hoping he imprinted or something by now. It didn't seem like he did, or else he probably would have stopped being a werewolf to grow old with his love one. "Jacob, it's ok, really."

His body relaxed, but he still stayed his distance. Maybe he didn't trust himself after all. "Good. So you have a family? What are they like?"

"Great actually. Nathan is my best friend, Charlotte is like a mom to us all, and Austin is like my older brother who always looks out for me. What about you? Anyone special yet?"

"If there was I wouldn't be doing this anymore. Sam still helps out though, same with Embry. No one else though. They all moved on."

"Jacob, why did you call this meeting?" I asked. This was really going to bother me. Did he really not know that it was me, or did he just not want to believe that it was me?

He stepped forward, but I automatically stepped back. I could see the disappointment run through his face. "I don't know. I just didn't think it could actually be you again. I remember the day you left you said you would never come back to this place. You said it held to many memories that you already would have to live with for eternity. I never thought you would come back, also I didn't trust them."

"I never thought I would come back either. When I found my family it took them years to convince me to come back here to show them what it was like for me here. They just wanted to know more about me that I never let anyone know once I changed. Coming back here was probably the best thing I ever did, however. If I didn't I wouldn't have found the people I've been looking everywhere for, I just wouldn't admit it."

"I figured as much," he said under his breath. I don't think he realized how great my hearing was. "Well, we really don't need to explain everything to you. I know that you already know all of this stuff. It was nice to see you though. I missed you."

I smiled at him. "It was nice to see you again. And I promise I will explain everything to my family once two of them get back from their… um… their hiking trip," I stuttered. Oh, man that would have been bad.

I saw Jacob smile sadly at me as he turned to leave. "Jacob," I called out, "I missed you too." He nodded and then turned and ran to the forest. Before I even got a chance to turn around Alice, Edward and Nathan where right beside me.

Edward put his arm around my waist and pulled me closer to him. "It's okay Bella. I know how much you enjoyed his company, don't worry. Everything will be okay," he whispered in my ear.

I smiled at him weakly and buried my face in his chest. It hurt to see Jacob that way. He was my best friend when Edward left. He helped me stitch my heart back together when it fell apart. I, however, couldn't do anything for him considering we were sworn enemies. No matter how much I loved him like he was the brother I never had; I couldn't do anything about it. We could never be in the same room together without wanting to kill each other.

Edward stroked my hair. "Shh, it'll be okay Bella. Just breath, everything will be okay. I promise you."

Alice put her hand on Edward's shoulder. "Maybe we shouldn't go hunting. I told that dog that she didn't need to see them. Ugh, they make me so mad sometimes! You should take her home Edward. Nathan and I can go hunting if he wants too."

"No, I should go back too. Charlotte and Austin won't be back until tomorrow morning. She'll probably need someone there with her."

I picked my head up and shrugged out of Edward's arms. "No, Nathan, you haven't been hunting in such a long time. You're eyes are too dark for your own good. Go hunting, I'll be fine."

"I'll stay with you, Bella. You shouldn't be alone like this," Edward said putting his arm around my waist again.

It felt nice to know how much he cared about me. I didn't want to show him how good it felt, but all I wanted to do was have him hold me again. "Thank you Edward."

He nodded for Alice and Nathan to leave. Nathan seemed fine with the whole thing. I could just bet he was thinking, maybe you guys will start something when I'm gone… I almost groaned out loud when I saw him smile a mocking smile at me as he turned to leave with Alice.

Edward didn't seem to notice because he picked me up, just as if I were human again, and carried me back to my house. He finally let me stand when he reached my door.

I opened it and walked in not bothering to close it. I figured Edward would follow. I went straight to my couch and sat down pressing the play button on my CD player. Oh crap, I forgot his CD was still in there.

I looked around for him to see his expression, to see if he minded the music. I noticed he was leaning against the door frame of my room. "What are you doing?" I asked him.

"Do you want me to come in?" he asked still not moving.

"Well I thought you were going to considering you offered to come here with me so I wouldn't be so lonely."

"Well," he said walking over to me, "that was my plan, but I didn't know if you wanted some privacy at all. I just wanted to make sure I was welcomed."

I smiled at him and scooted over to make room for him. He sat down next to me, but continued to stare at me. "I'm glad you came," I whispered. "I really need someone like you today. Nathan's great and all, but he wouldn't have understood like you do."

He put his arm around me again, and I put my head on his shoulder feeling the electric shocks go between us; just as if I was human. "I'm glad I came too," he whispered back.

"What made you decide to come?"

He sighed. "When I heard Alice thinking about tonight I figured you might need someone to translate for you. But mostly because I knew how you felt about Jacob by reading your face when you talked about him. I knew it would be hard for you to do it by yourself. Although I knew, one way or another, you would talk to him by yourself."

I laughed softly. "You know me too well Edward Anthony Mason Cullen."

He laughed softly at me using his full name. "Yes I do Isabella Marie Swan."

I sat there silently while he held me. My head was still on his shoulder. I closed my eyes wishing I could go back all those years ago when I was human, before he left, and really enjoyed these moments. These were the moments in my life where my life actually meant something. These were the moments where I actually wanted to be a vampire. To be alive, well sort of. I never wanted to leave the comfort of his arms. I knew I would have too eventually, but I couldn't even think of that now. I just wanted to be with him. To know that he wanted me as much as I wanted him. To know he had always loved me. This is what made my life worth wild.

Suddenly his soft voice broke my train of thought, but he wasn't talking. He was humming softly. He was humming my lullaby to me. I felt like now I could actually fall asleep again. Even if I knew it was impossible, it felt possible this time. I felt human again. I felt like a real person. Someone who just went through really bad times, but finally found the comfort she has been looking for her whole life.

I wished this night would go on forever, even if I knew it wouldn't. I sat there with my eyes closed with my head on his shoulder listening to my song. I silently went through the hours in my mind. It was probably around 4 in the morning. Nathan was probably home, and Austin and Charlotte would be home in two hours. School was in three hours meaning Edward would have to leave in either one or two hours to go home to his family. Oh how I wanted to go with him and have it be our family. I knew though that I had to be here with my family. I couldn't leave them, but I don't know how they would feel with the Cullens.

"Bella, love," Edward's velvet voice whispered in my ear, "Nathan's home. I should go, shouldn't I?"

No! The voice in my head screamed. I need you hear with me! Stay please stay! Instead of listening to the voice in my head, I picked my head up off his shoulder. My head must have weighed a ton more when I picked it up. I really didn't want to. "Um, if you think you should."

Edward sighed nodding his head. It looked like he was hoping for another answer, or something. "I probably should. Nathan wants to talk to you about something before Austin and Charlotte get home."

I groaned. I really didn't want to talk to anyone but Edward right now. I was so caught up in the moment I don't think I can get out of it! "Oh, I guess I should go and find him then."

We started to walk towards the door at human pace. Neither of us wanted to open the door. We knew if we did it would mean that this moment was over. Everything that happened 

with us was over. This would just be another dream. I reached for the door, but Edward was faster and got it for me.

"Thank you, Edward. For everything. I don't think I could have gotten through with nice without you. It seems like sometimes you are the only one who truly gets me. Thank you, really," I said stepping out of my room as he followed.

"You're welcome, Bella. If you ever need anything again, please ask you. Whatever you want it's yours, I promise you that," he said as he started down the stairs.

I couldn't even answer him before he was at the door. My head screamed, 'I want you damnit! No one else but you, Edward!' "Thank you again. I'll take you up on that sometime."

"I hope you do," he said smiling his crocked smile at me. Then he walked out the door, out of the house, and out of my life for the night.

"Nathan! What do you want?" I yelled angrily.

Nathan was at my side in a moment's time. "There is something you should know about Charlotte and Austin before they come back."

"What is it?" I asked suddenly concerned about my brother and sister.

"Remember how I told you that I didn't know why they left this weekend?" I nodded. "I actually do. They told me I wasn't supposed to tell you, but I think after tonight you have a right to know. That way you can tell them they are wrong."

"Nathan, spit it out," I said growing impatient.

"Right, sorry. They have a feeling that if you and Edward get back together and everything that you would move into the Cullens house with him, or you guys would go off on your own. They are worried that we won't be in your life anymore."

I spun around quickly running my hands through my hair. How could they think this? I mean even I thought of it today, but I would never do it! Were they going to live me before I got the chance to leave them? That's something Austin was known for, once learning something about someone who was going to hurt you do it to them before they can do it to you. "Nathan, you know I would never leave you guys. You are my family! I pretty much created you guys! I could never, ever, leave you guys! It's impossible."

Nathan smile. "I know that, but it's nice to hear you say it."

"Wait, did you make all that up?" I asked wanting to slap him if he did. I didn't want my brothers and sister to think that I would leave them for a family who left me.

"No, I didn't. They actually did go away because they wanted to talk about what was happening with you and Edward. Don't worry; when they get home I'll talk to them about it then you can too."

I sighed in relief. At least Nathan understood me in this family. I don't know what I would do if he wasn't on my side this time. I might have actually left them so they didn't leave me first.

"The only bad part is Austin might be trying to convince Charlotte to do what he always does in these situations. Get out so you hurt them. I mean he might be telling that he knows that you are going to leave and try to convince her that they should leave so you know what it feels like to be let down. Even though you already do," he said softly.

I groaned. This sucks! "I can't believe Austin sometimes. I hate his stupid theory! Shouldn't he know that I couldn't do that to someone considering it was done to me so many years ago? I could never put someone through that much pain."

Nathan put his arm around me trying to comfort me. "I know, I know. Don't worry; I won't let them do that to you. Besides I don't think Charlotte could do that to anyone. No matter how much they hurt her. You know she can barely hunt because she hates killing animals."

I laughed at that. "It a wonder why she became a nurse. I mean she could accidentally kill someone then."

He laughed along with me. "I know! But then again I think she was all for the saving someone's life part. You know how she can get when she wins something."

I started to laugh even harder. "That's why I don't play her in anything I know she can win."

A rush of air came into the house when the door opened just then. Austin and Charlotte came in. Austin looked mad at something or someone and Charlotte looked indifferent.

Nathan and I looked at each other. That was not a good sign.

A/N: I hoped you liked it. I had to bring Jacob back for some part of this story. I may do it again, but I'm not sure. I was never a big fan of Jacob, especially with the whole kissing scenes. Anyways, tell me what you think!