I woke up the next morning , with the sun shining thorough the window

I woke up the next morning , with the sun shining thorough the window.

I looked at my phone , it was about 10:00 ..

Damn , i was hungry , yet again.

I quietly crept downstairs and went into the small Kitchen ..

I searched the cupboards..

Omg omg omg ..

They didn' have it !

I think I'm going to CRY !

They

Didn't

Have

CRUNCHY NUT CORNFLAKES !!

Grrrrr

Everyone back home knew that would be the only thing I ate for breakfast ..

Damn it .

I'm not very happy right now , Martha should of told them !!

Where the hell were they anyway ?

They then came in through the door straight away , they'd obviously been somewhere..

Renesmee , you're awake ! How're you this morning ?

They then both kissed me on the forehead.

I'm fine thanks !

Have you had any Breakfast ?

No !

Why??

Because .. you don't have the cereal i like ..

Well we've brought every Cereal known to man..

Not any British Cereals ..

Well sorry , they don't sell stuff like that in the Thriftway in Forks I'm afraid..

I just sat there for a minute , feeling very very sad..

Well .. you could have a alternative Breakfast..

OH HELL NOO ! I know where they're going with this .

I know what you're thinking and no I'm not going to , it's sick..

Well might as well , it's a part of you Renesmee , and by what Martha has told us ..

I then had a vivid flashback of what happened three years ago.

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Martha , Stuart and me were walking in the woods , near Grandmothers Mansion . ( she had a whole estate to herself . )

I went off on my own with my i-Pod and i suddenly began feeling hungry .

I then started to get burning like feeling in my throat .

Then all of a sudden , I switched on , I could hear this gorgeous smell , and I just had to follow it .

My instinct then took over , I began running fast , real fast . when I got near the smell I started to walk slowly and I went to hide in a bush .

I could see people , and the gorgeous smell came from them ..

I couldn't wait any longer , I wanted them soo much !

I then jumped out of the bush with lightening speed , and started circling them .

All of a sudden I went into a crouch as I got closer and then POUNCED .

They started screaming and pushed me away with their soft hands .

I started snarling and hissing at them.

I got really angry , and the fact that they wouldn't let me get to them was really starting to get on my nerves.

Stuart , damn it , we forgot to give her blood , quick get some out of my bag ! I'll distract her ..

What were the hell were they talking about ??

I was getting more and more hungry by the minute..

Then a splash of this red liquid hit my face , it had the exact same smell as the people had . The man then threw the container it was in a few feet away and I went straight for it..

I gulped all of it down , but I was still hungry..

And then , I saw a deer in the distance and ran after that aswell .

It tasted so nicee , like heaven..

After I finished that off the people came back and they had a small black thing in their hand . When they came closer I started hissing at them., they then put the thing on my leg and I started to get a stinging , painful sensation all over my body and then everything went black..

I'd been electrocuted .

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It still hurts now , the fact that I attacked Martha and Stuart . I've never gotten over it , and I'll never forgive myself for doing it !

Yes , well I don't know what came over me , and at the time I thought there was something wrong with me , that I had a mental problem or something..

Well now you know why that happened don't you ?

Yes ..But I still don't want to ..

Why ?

Because..

I'm afraid of hurting someone again ! I almost killed Martha and Stuart that day , and I don't want to hurt any of you.

Don't worry , you wont hurt us ! We're about 10 times stronger and faster than you !

I was defeated , so I gave in.

Go and put some sensible clothes on , and be down in 10 minutes.

Okaaay..

I dragged myself up the stairs .. I really didn't want to do this .

I can imagine someone asking me ..

What are you going to do today Renesmee ?

Well today I'm going HUNTING !

Ohh , with a gun ?

Noo , of course not ! With my teeth !

I could imagine the person asking if it was a joke , the realising I'm being serious and running away , completely freaked out.

Soo imagine how I feel right now..

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I came down stairs later in the most sensible clothes I could find.

They were both waiting for me near the door .

Let's get going !

They were actually enthusiastic about this..

Bleaaghh.

I mean how ? , well they are Vampires after all..

Soo I should feel the same right ?

God I'm so confused..

Part of me wants to and a part of me wants to vomit.

Alright , let's get this over with ..

We then stepped outside , it was quite cold and by the looks of the clouds , it was going to rain soon.

We kept on walking until we were deep into the forest , far enough from the house and the cottage.

Edward came over and put his hands on my shoulders to make me face him ..

I gulped..

Now Renesmee , I want you to let go of your human thoughts and emotions , and concentrate..

What the hell ? I can't just let go of being human ! IT'S NOT EASY Y'KNOW !!

Think about what happened three years , do you remember the taste ? That lovely taste ? Try smelling aswell , what do you smell ?

All I could smell was his cologne , he put way too much on , to impress Bella I bet.. and something else .. ewww probably deer crap o'r something ..

Then all of a sudden , it hit me , so fast , it was like a car had hit me , the smell was so overpowering..

I began to follow it straight away leaving Edward and Bella behind..