A/N: There should be more words. Sometimes there just aren't and it sucks. My night has sucked. And I wish I could use another word but really I don't have any. Huh, a writer without words. Ponder that.
Anyway, here's some Rose/Lysander
"I'm sorry."
:-:
"When we talk there's so much silence
So much silence. We have nothing
left to say"
:-:
"I'm sorry"
She whispers
chokes
gasps
"I'm so sorry"
and all she can think is that there aren't enough words
:-:
There's no word for
I majorly fucked this one up
no way of saying
this kills me too
nada for
I don't deserve you
and nothing that'll quietly murmur
It's for the best
:-:
They fell in a whirlwind love
of jagged edges and mismatched prints
with all the spirit of children
and the hearts of children as well
:-:
They stayed in that love
blissful
happy
and swore it was the best they'd ever felt
La-la-la-LOVE
:-:
And then it wasn't
something change y
and she didn't think of him every second of every day
but that was okay
because that was getting used to the relationship
that was allowing him to be a Normal part of her life
and she loved that he was a
Normal part of her life
:-:
And something changed
well, more like she slowly realized
that there weren't those butterflies anymore
and she wasn't laughing anymore
like she used to
:-:
She clung 'til her knuckles turned white
But how do you say that?
there's no way to tell anyone
I tried, I tried, I'm tired
:-:
And there was that silence
that oppressive silence
that all consuming pause in conversation because there was nothing
nothingnothingnothing left to say
(besides, she doubted she could've found the words)
And how in the world do you say that?
how do you say that your stomach is turning with guilt
And you don't want to lead him on
And you don't want to hurt him
And it's killing you
It's eating you from the inside out
but you can't do it anymore
:-:
"I'm so sorry"
And he nods because he knows her so well
because he's so wonderful
(and how do you say that? That you're amazing but-)
and he's always been so wonderful
and he knows that the silence
the silence is killing her
and she can't do it anymore
:-:
And then he's gone
And she's sososorry
but it feels ((okay))
She's going to be okay
eventually
and what are the words for that?
:-:
"Promise me you'll be okay
Maybe not now
but promise me you'll be okay
Please."
and he does
and she doesn't have the words
to thank him for that
because how do you say
I love you but I'm not in love with you
?
Well, you start by saying "I'm sorry"