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Here's chapter 10
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Chapter 10
" Jennifer...." she whispered.
" Yes it's me..." JJ couldn't stop the tears that came streaming down her face.
" You really scared me Em..." she continued.
Emily gently squeezed her hand and tried to say something but her throat was killing her, it was so dry. Garcia and the doctor returned.
" Hey you... I'm so glad to see you..." Garcia said and took Emily's other hand.
The doctor checked her blood pressure and pulse, everything looked stable.
" Good to see you care to join us Emily. How are you feeling?" The doctor asked. JJ listen intently.
Emily tried to clear her throat but it hurt.
" I feel like I swallowed the entire Sahara desert..." Emily managed to get out. Both JJ and Penelope couldn't help but laugh at what Emily said. JJ felt a rock leave her heart as she heard Emily speak. Now she knew she really was going to be okay.
" I'll send the nurse in later with some water" the doctor said and smiled.
" I'm just going to check the stitches to see that there's no infection" he continued and moved over to Emily's side.
JJ got up from the chair to give the doctor some room. She let go of Emily's hand and Emily instantly missed the contact. As the doctor removed the bandage JJ turned away. She didn't want to see the wound, she couldn't help but blame herself. She knew it was stupid to think like that, but she couldn't help it. Garcia saw the look JJ got on her face as she turned away. She wondered if JJ somehow felt guilty over what happened to Emily. She decided she should give the two agents some time to talk when the doctor had finished the examination.
" The wound seems to be healing fine, no sign of any infections" the doctor said as he put the bandage back. Emily nodded in return and tried to sit up some more but the pain made her flinch. JJ instantly reached for her hand again, Emily squeezed it hard.
" Are you okay Em?" She asked with a worried voice. It hurt her to see her friend in so much pain.
" I'm okay Jayj..." She answered not too convincing. The doctor also noticed Emily's obvious pain.
" Are you I that much pain?" He asked.
" I'm fine... it only hurts when I try to move...." Emily gasped.
" You are not okay Emily, I can see you're hurting..." JJ said.
" I'll tell the nurse to bring you some more pain medicine" the doctor said
" That wont be necessary...really... I'm" she didn't finish the sentence when she felt another wave of pain shoot through her body. She squeezed both her friends hands tightly and slowly the pain subsided.
" Oh my baby-girl stop being so darn stubborn and just take the painkillers already!" Garcia said firmly. JJ smiled at her blonde friend.
" Alright... I'll take the meds... but just one" Emily gave in.
" That's my girl" Garcia said and smiled.
" Okay, the nurse will be right in. Everything looks just fine, you'll be ready to go home in a couple of days. Bye for now." the doctor said and left.
A minute later a nurse came in with some water and something for the pain. Emily took the glass of water and brought it to her mouth. She emptied it in an instant. The nurse refilled her glass and gave her the pain medicine. She swallowed the pill and then drank another glass. Her throat felt so much better after the water. She gave the glass back to the nurse and turned her head to find JJ's eyes. After the nurse left Garcia looked at her two best friends who's eyes were locked on each other. She thought now would be a good moment to leave them alone so they could talk. She figured they would have a lot to talk about and today would probably not be enough but it was a start.
" Hey guys? I'm gonna go grab some coffee and then I need to stop by the office, will you get home alright Jayj?" Garcia said as she got up from the chair. Both Emily and JJ turned and looked at their friend.
" Yeah don't worry about it, I'm probably gonna stay here for a while. I'll just grab a cab or something later" JJ answered.
" Okay pumpkin, call me if you need anything. Promise?" Garcia said.
" Yes I promise, I'll call you later" JJ said. Garcia took a step closer to Emily and kissed her gently on her forehead.
" I'm so glad you're alright Em..I was so worried about you. You take care now you hear, I'll talk to you later sweetheart" Garcia said softly.
" I will... I'm really glad you came Penelope. Tell everybody at the office I said hi, will you?" Emily said and squeezed her hand lightly.
" Will do. See you guys later" Garcia let go of Emily's hand and left. Emily slowly turned her head and found JJ's eyes immediately. For a moment they just looked at each other, neither said anything. After a while JJ broke the silence.
" There are so many things I want to talk to you about...I don't even now where to start..." She said softly.
" First of all, how are you really feeling? And don't lie to me Prentiss" She demanded.
" Okay... right now it doesn't hurt too bad, but earlier, it hurt like hell...But I don't want to take the pain meds Jennifer, they are really strong and I'm afraid to..." she trailed off again and looked away.
" You think about what happened to Reid and worry the same thing will happen to you, don't you?" JJ asked softly. Emily slowly lifted her head and met JJ's eyes again.
" Yes...." she said meekly.
" It wont Emily. Reid was forced to take the drugs, Henkel injected him continuously so he would get addicted. It's completely different. You're hurting... and I hate to see you in pain Em..." JJ said sincerely.
" Promise me you'll take the meds when you're in pain" she continued as she looked deep in to Emily's eyes.
"Okay Jennifer... I promise..." Emily said softly.
" Thank you.." JJ replied.
Emily gently squeezed her hand.
" What happened to the unsub?" Emily continued.
" He's dead. Morgan shot him right before he was about to attack me" JJ answered.
" Oh...thank god..." Emily trailed off. She was so relieved the unsub didn't get the chance to hurt JJ.
Emily could see tears starting to fill up in JJ's eyes. JJ blinked hard, she didn't want to start crying again but when she thought about what happened last night she couldn't hold them in. Slowly they started to run down her cheeks. She lifted her hand to wipe away the tears. Emily looked at her with a concerned look on her face.
" Why did you do it Emily?" she asked so softly the words were barely audible.
" Why did you throw yourself between me and the unsub?" she continued.
" I.... he was...I couldn't.... you...." Emily couldn't bring herself to finish any sentence. She didn't know what to say. She looked down on the hand that JJ wasn't holding. She started to fiddle with the blanket that was covering her, trying to figure out what to say to JJ. Why did she trow herself between JJ and the unsub? She knew she couldn't stand the thought of the unsub hurting JJ, but was that all it was?
" Emily?..." JJ said softly and searched her eyes again. Emily tilted her head and met JJ's blue gaze.
" Just talk to me..." she said slowly.
" I couldn't let him hurt you... he was about to attack you and I.... I don't know.... I didn't think I just jumped forward and grabbed his arm... I didn't want you to get hurt Jennifer..." Emily trailed off.
JJ just looked at her, tears streaming down her face.
" But what about you? You got hurt Em... really hurt...you almost di..." she couldn't say that last word.
" I'm so sorry Emily... it should be me in this bed, not you..." she trailed off and looked away from Emily's face.
" Don't say that! What happened to me wasn't your fault and it should not be you lying here. I could never live with myself if it'd been you Jennifer. I … I just couldn't let him hurt you... so I jumped in front of you trying to get him to drop the knife... Then everything happened so fast, all I remember is a burning pain in my side and then I remember you talking to me but I can't recall what you said. The rest is just blurry..." Emily said. JJ slowly looked up and met Emily's eyes again, seeing the tears that had started to fill up those dark brown eyes.
" I've never been so scared in my entire life Em...." JJ said through her tears.
" I'm sorry.... this whole case got completely out of control, we shouldn't have..." Emily trailed off. She didn't know how she would finish that sentence. She knew exactly why she wasn't in control of the situation. She had known since the younger woman kissed her in the club. Of course it was just an act, she knew that, but the moment she felt JJ's lips on her own, she knew she couldn't pretend her feelings towards the blonde was strictly platonic anymore. There was something more, something deeper but she knew JJ didn't feel the same so she couldn't say anything. That would ruin their friendship and now, more that ever, Emily really needed her friend to get through this.
She started to feel really tired, both physically and mentally, and though they really needed to talk, she didn't have the strength.
" Are you alright?" JJ asked worried.
" Yeah, I just feel really tired... I know we have a lot to talk about, and I need to talk to you about what happened tonight, but it feels like all my energy just left me" Emily answered.
" It's okay, it's probably the pain meds kicking in. I'll let you rest and we can talk later. I really need to talk about it too..." JJ got up from her chair, still holding on to Emily's hand.
" Jennifer... do you mind sitting with me for a while?.." Emily asked gently, not ready to let her go.
" Of course not, I'll stay with you as long as you want..." JJ smiled and sat down on the chair again. I'll stay with you forever... she thought and squeezed Emily's hand. Emily smiled back before she closed her eyes and drifted off to sleep.
JJ watched her sleep. She looked so peaceful and she didn't seem to be in any pain. JJ gently stroked Emily's hand with her thumb. As she watched her sleeping friend the thoughts she had earlier started to come to surface again. I'm so confused Emily... I'm so confused over what I'm feeling that I can't think clearly... She studied Emily's face, her eyes lingered on Emily's lips, lips that were pressed against hers a couple of hours ago. She closed her eyes and let her thoughts wander back to the dance floor in the club. Remembering the way Emily had looked at her and the butterflies she'd felt in her stomach when Emily slowly kissed her. JJ could feel her heart starting to speed up when she thought about it. She opened her eyes again I know that it wasn't a real kiss Em... but I can't get it out of my head... I can't get you out of my head...
JJ got up from her chair, she didn't take her eyes of the woman in front of her. She slowly reached out her hand and gently stroked Emily's hair, careful not to wake her. She just looked at her, she was so beautiful. Slowly she leaned forward and kissed her cheek lightly and whispered.
" I have feelings for you Em... and I know it's wrong, I shouldn't be feeling this way... but I do..."