Authors note: Though you might think that a fantasy is perfect, but your dead wrong. Any dream, fantasy - whatever you fantasize about - there's always a flaw. just about everything has a flaw, and nothing is perfect. The only way to be okay with this is to remain optimistic, and remember that, though things might not be as perfect as you want them to be, you always have a reason to live your life the way you want to.

Chapter 10 Reliving a Fantasy

The rest of the school day went pretty good to say at the least. Paul was in my last hour and we all (Melody, Paul and me) met up in-between classes, so we could talk or just simply walk together.

It was nice to have Paul hold my hand again. And it felt even better to be able to talk to him like we used to and get back to being our old simple selves. Being boyfriend and girlfriend like old times - well, except for the fact that we had to keep it a secret from my family and friends in LaPush.

I asked him all sorts of things about his new life - just to catch up. I asked him about the Cullen's, his life in-general, and - the thing that had been driving me nuts - his eyes.

So from what I got out of it, was he was now apart of the Cullen's clan now, or family as they called it. And they only ate animals so their eyes became amber and honey colors instead of crimsons and reds. But like any normal vampire, they always were darker when hungry.

That's when I became even more confused about his eyes. I mean his eyes were originally gray, but he was a vampire now. Weren't the supposed to be red or like the Cullen's? "Contacts," he said with a amused look when I asked him.

"Contacts? That's all?" I asked shocked. It was such a simple answer and I wasn't really expecting it. "You mean your not some special vampire, that gets to keep his eye color and has all these cool powers that normal vamps can't do?" I asked sacristy and quietly.

Melody snorted. "The only thing special about him, is that he's going out with the newest and most wanted girl in the school." she said. The se turned sort of serious. "And can you please keep the 'V' word down to a minimum? We are in a public school."

I nodded in understanding.

Paul gave her a grateful look I really didn't understand. But I let it go - I was to happy at the moment to try to read between every line of our conversation.

But against my will - and my mind setting - my eyebrows frowned.

And my low self-esteem got to me once again.

Most wanted girl in the school… no she couldn't be right. That wasn't me.

I noticed I looked worried and I didn't want them to worry about me so I decided, to play it dumb and make it into a joke.

"Really?" I asked shocked and jokingly. "Your two-timing me?!" I acted.

This was a method I used regularly, being funny and sarcastic to take the attention off of myself.

Melody laughed.

Of coarse she did, it was apart of the plan.

I smirked. It always worked.

"We've only been together for a few hours and your already cheating!" I acted like I was yelling but I did it quietly so I didn't cause other people to stare - making the attention I was trying to lose in the first place, come back as double.

Paul squeezed my hand and looked down at me. A smile playing at his lips.

I felt butterflies in my stomach.

"I would never cheat on you," he said truthfully. "Plus, who would I want to cheat on you with?" he turned jokingly.

And I couldn't help but smile widely. He didn't want anyone else. He wanted me.

As hot-headed as that sounded. I liked it. It felt nice to be wanted by someone you thought you could never have.

"No one here is cute enough!" he said sweetly his eyes boring into mine.

And out of nowhere Melody gave him a angry look then hit him in the arm. Of coarse she wasn't jealous of me - she was mad at the fact that he'd basically just called her ugly.

He looked over to her, in total understanding of the situation.

"Melody, your taken. Plus you're my best friend. Not to mention Shelby's best friends with your boyfriend. And I don't think Timothy would be to happy if his ex-best friend was hitting on his now girlfriend." he said. Trying his best to dig himself out of the hole he'd just put himself in.

Melody though - not even thinking about his apology - heard the only thing in the sentence that she could talk about.

She smiled sadly as she began to converse. "You know he misses you. He talks about when you, Shelby, him and Andrew all used to hang out."

And that did it. It ruined the whole carefree state we were all in. Feeling sorry for everyone, was a weakness me and Paul shared.

Paul frowned. "I miss him too. But… its just not the same anymore. And were just not able to be friends anymore." he said sadly.

I rubbed his hand in my own. Trying to cheer him up.

The thing that was good about me and Paul's weakness though, was that we didn't dwell on or own sadness and pity for everyone. We tried our best to help the situation - even if we couldn't help ourselves, we always made time and tried our best to help theirs.

"Well, maybe you can be friends again, if they got over their differences it wouldn't be that hard. Your still the same Paul and their still them." I said without thinking.

I totally forgot that I wasn't supposed to know about the pack. And making it seem like I didn't know about them made it easier for me to keep my secret.

And I really hoped I didn't just ruin that.

Paul's eyes found mine with suspicion imbedded. "Shelby-"

"RING!!!!!" the bell rang. Cutting him off.

Saved by the bell.

I sighed a quick sigh of relief.

"Oh looks like I got to go." I said quickly. Faking sadness. "Bye!" I yelled as I headed off to class, hoping that they'd forgotten about our little conversation.

Well the class I'd sped off to, to preventing my secrets to be told, was to say at the least, uneventful. Most boring reading class ever.

Yes I no its stupid, but evidently Forks High School thought it was an important part of your curriculum to have a whole hour to just read. Which was okay. But it sucked when the school board picked out the books you were reading. Seriously, its almost like the members in the school board had people go around and pick the most boring books in the entire world.

I mean, me, a total book worm, actually hated a book. Me. The girl who took a opportunity to read just about anything (even the back of a cereal box) thought these books were horrible. This class was going to kill me.

It felt like it took forever for class to be over with - and I was already on chapter 24 of the book I was assigned(which was supposed to last me the month) - when the bell finally rang.

When the bell rang for the class to end I was so happy.

I sighed of relief (for probably the third or fourth time today) as I packed up my things and headed towards the door.

I was eager to see Paul again, so I wasn't really watching what I was doing as I rushed through the door and rammed into something really hard.

It felt just like when I rammed into Emmett this morning. And just like this morning cold arms wrapped around me and held me stably up so I wouldn't fall.

I looked up and felt my breath hitch.

It was Paul.

No matter how many times I could see is face it still had the same impression on me. Heart rate would speed, or just simply knock the breath right out of me.

I knew he could hear it, and for the first time I wasn't embarrassed.

"Hi," he chuckled.

His laugh was beautiful and charming. Almost made me go limp in his arms from the beauty itself.

I breathed deeply to try to catch my breath. "H-hey," I stuttered.

He chuckled again.

Oh gosh, if I thought that reading class was dangerous, I'd better think again. He was making me faint just by simply laughing and being here.

He pecked my cheek. "Lets go find Melody," he said and took his hand from around my waist and placed it in mine.

I was still breathless and in shock.

So as he let go of me I sort of wobbled.

He continued to smile but I could see the worry in his eyes. So he removed his hand and wrapped one stone cold arm staidly around my waist.

Then we headed off to find Mel.

* * * * *

After walking to our classes we - which finally started - we were now sitting in study hall. Unfortunately, we already had all our assignments that were assigned in class, done so it didn't take us long to get bored.

So we basically spent that whole hour texting Melody in her study hall - which was down only three doors away from ours.

It was surprisingly fun.

We chatted about teachers and we teased each other about random facts. It almost felt like we were normal teenager.

Almost.

When school was finally let out, Paul offered me a ride home.

Which of coarse, I sadly had to decline, due to my secrets.

I was starting to get a lot of them now… werewolves as family… me being a little bit of one myself… and now I had a vampire boyfriend - which I was not supposed to have due to old tribal law.

"I don't think I should." I began. "I want to but you know how Conner is." I said hoping he wouldn't end up driving me. Conner was a werewolf and Paul was a vampire. That's the simple reason, why it would not work if he drove me home.

He thought about it for a second - obviously realizing why I was declining.

Then sighed. "Fine…" he walked over and grabbed me around my waist affectionately. "Do you have to go?" he basically begged as he hugged me.

I giggled.

Once again - hot-headedly - loving the attention and cuteness.

I pulled away so I could look up at him. "I do." I said sadly. "Wish you could come with me."

He looked down at the ground and his arms tightened around me to pull me closer. "But I can't…"I could tell he was upset about him being what he was - more than me infact.

But now that I knew he still loved me I couldn't careless about what he was anymore.

I put my arms around his waist and hugged him back affectionately. "I'm sorry."

PPOV

"I'm sorry." she said sadly as her arms wove around my waist.

I wasn't sure but… I felt that Shelby already knew the real reason why Andrew, Timothy and me couldn't be friends anymore. Like… she already knew they were werewolves like Melody did.

I shook away the thought.

Alls I really wanted to do right now was stay with Shelby. I didn't want to let her go. I missed her so much and I didn't want the chance at losing her ever again. And I wasn't even sure if I could be away from her over night.

This morning when I thought she hated me I was going to do what Edward used to do to Bella. I was going to sneak into her house while she was sleeping(you could tell I really wasn't thinking straight - I mean I wasn't even thinking about Conner or any of the other pack members) and watch her while she slept.

At least that way I could keep an eye on her and make sure she was safe. And it would have been a way for me to be with her.

But the worss thing about everyone in LaPush being werewolves was the fact that you couldn't sneak in without someone smelling you - that's if you were me at least.

So it would be impossible for us to be together anywhere in or near LaPush.

"Its not your fault. I just wish I could be with you a little bit longer." I said as I buried my head into the crook of her neck. She'd put her hair in a ponytail so it made it easier to be closer to her. Though I did wish I could smell her hair once again. But instead alls I could smell was the unquie sent of her blood.

It wasn't as tempting as Bella's was to Edward but that's because Shelby didn't smell like food. She smelt like the most beautiful flowers. Perfectly put together to complement the others.

"Wish Conner and the guys would just go on a long vacation." she mumbled.

That set a few different emotions through me. Sadness that, that would be the only way we could be together at our home (well at my old home that is). Anger, that they were the ones keeping me and Shelby apart when they used to be my friends. And even more anger… because they were the only ones that could keep her safe. It made me feel useless, like I could never protect the one thing that ever mattered to me.

"Shelby? Do you need a ride home or did you already call someone?" Melody asked.

Ruining the mood. Again.

I loosened my arms so Shelby could look at Melody.

"I didn't call anyone yet. Do you live near LaPush?" she asked in a very Shelby way. "I'd hate to have you drive there and then have to drive all the way back here." she said considerately.

She sounded like Bella when she said that.

God. The Cullen's were right. Me and Edward are alike.

"Shelby, I live in LaPush." she said like it was obvious. "Born and raised there."

I rolled my eyes.

I didn't want her to be a jerk to Shelby.

Shelby shook her head and laughed. "Okay, I'll call Conner on the way there to tell him I got a ride."

"'Kay," Melody squeaked.

I bent down and peck Shelby on the lips. Then buried my head back into the crook of her neck.

"I'm gona miss you," I whispered in her ear.

She pulled back to look into my eyes. Then stepped on her toes so she could kiss me again.

I kissed back for a second. Kissing her gently but then she traced her tongue along the bottom of my lip.

It felt amazing. Sending a shiver of pleasure through my body.

And then she pulled back away. She had a large smile on her face.

Wow… she'd been practicing.

All of a sudden my happy erotic feeling was gone, and I was angry. I didn't expect to get angry or even jealous for that matter but I was. The thought of someone - no, anyone else for that matter kissing her… I just hated even the idea (I still do infact).

"Shelby!" Melody yelled by her small - and old - little black car. "Come on! Stop sucking Paul's face. We got to get going!" she yelled impatiently.

Shelby sighed.

I unwrapped my arms from around her.

She kissed my cheek and smiled sadly. "I'll miss you."

"Wait!" I grabbed her hand. I quickly (at vampire speed) pulled a pencil out of my notebook, a small piece of paper then wrote down my cell.

"Here," I held it out to her. "This is my cell phone number. You can call me anytime. The Cullen's don't mind. They're all usually 'busy' around that time anyways. Well Edward is usually with Bella - but still. You can call anytime you feel lonely." I explained.

She smiled widely and grabbed it. "To late."

I hugged her. "I'm just a call away." then pecked her cheek one last time (well for today) and let her go with Melody.

"Finally!" Melody said as Shelby came closer.

"Oh, shut up." Shelby murmured as she got in the car.

I waited until they left the parking lot - keeping my eyes on them - until I walked over to my car.

I was actually surprised when Carlisle offered to buy me a car. My adoptive parents hadn't even offered to do that, when I was human. I felt like I was already intruding but he and Esme said that it was no problem.

They were such nice people (vampires if you wana get technical). They were already making me feel like family. Which was more then my adoptive family did when I still had a pulse.

I smiled when I seen my car.

To me it wasn't just a car, but a reminder that I had a family once again (like when my real parents were alive). That I was apart of something.

The car was a 2008 Volvo. It didn't even look like a Volvo in fact it looked like a shiny black sports car.

But when me and Emmett picked out this car together Edward got all defensive and said that I was trying to copy him. Well lets just say everyone had a good laugh at that.

Even Esme and Bella laughed at him. Though now I did feel that I was in a lot of way copying him. Though I really had no intention of doing so.

I got in and started the car and headed home.

I really hoped that Shelby called me. I already missed her. And it was killing me that I couldn't be with her the way Edward could be with Bella.

It sort of irked me of how many ways me and Edward were alike. Both of our girlfriends are human, they both had a complication with the werewolves and we both have good taste in cars.

Of coarse there were a few things that I was jealous of Edward for. He got to be with Bella whenever he wanted. I knew one day he'd change her and they'd be together forever. But I'd never change Shelby. It was impossible. Not only because I wouldn't dare change her and take away her family and life, but because her brother and her cousin and all the rest of the pack. I didn't know if I would be with Shelby forever. Its not that I didn't want to, I just… I don't want her to be taken away from her family. I didn't want to take things from her - I wanted to give her things. And itt would crush her, if she left. And I wouldn't be able to see her in so much pain.

I really didn't care when I was changed but that's 'cause I didn't have a family. I was adopted. And that family didn't want me. They pitied me. They had six other kids to prove that fact.

The only family I really had was Shelby, Timothy and Andrew. My friends back then were my family. And when she left we all fell apart.

It's a weird way to explain me and Shelby's relationship but I loved her. Back then she was the glue to my whole world. And now she my forever. But we wouldn't be together forever. I mean she still meant the world to me. But we couldn't be together forever like Bella would one day be with Edward. Shelby was my meaning, my everything. So if I couldn't have a forever with her then… then I wouldn't be alive forever either. The day her life ended, so would mine. And hopefully we'd be together where ever it is we go.

That's when I changed my thoughts, as I pulled up into the driveway. Of my new home. The Cullen manor.

YAY! So things are finally going right for Shelby and Paul. Well just a little hint - its not going to last very long. Okay so is anyone wondering about the feeling Shelby was feeling? Well, she'll find out next chapter. And there's always the dangerous situation of the pack finding out about her and Paul. Please review.

~*~TJL