My Senior Problem.
Authors note:
I wrote this for all of you! You make this writing so much fun so I want to say THANK YOU!
I love Tony and Tim and would love them to be together.
I don't not own NCIS or any of the characters; I just like to make them do things in my stories for my own amusement.
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Chapter 10
Having to retell the story of my father from when I got out of the hospital was a pain in the ass but Vance demanded that I start from the beginning for his benefit. Gibbs. Ziva and Abby waited patiently until I reach the part where they came into it; which was when McGee left.
I go on to explain how I ran my own trace on the phone and then continued to the location alone, without informing anyone where I was actually going. Now that I was saying it all out loud I realised exactly how stupid my actions where.
The room falls silent and remains so for a couple of minutes, Vance begins to chew his bottom lip; his first sign that he's pissed off. Any moment now I'm going to get a right yelling at. Sure enough he stops and slams his hands onto the table leaning towards my face.
"So you're telling me Agent DiNozzo! That even when you recognised a piece of evidence that; in your opinion had been planted at a crime scene, you still decided to ignore all protocols and go on your own one man mission!"
I start telling myself that I need to stay calm because everyone falling apart now is not going to resolve any of this. Vance leans even more across the table now, leaning right into my face; so much so that I can feel his breath with each word hit my face.
"Never mind all the other policies that you have ignored such as breaking the chain evidence! You put your own life on the line for something an entire team should have been sent for!"
I can't control myself; my body begins to act on instant. I feel myself rise up, closing the couple of inches gap between myself and the director.
"This has nothing to do with you! Any of you! This is between me and my father…" I scream at him.
"And McGee." Ziva says roughly behind me placing her hands on my shoulders pushing me back down to the chair.
"Well…Yeah McGee too, but… Look I shouldn't have ignored protocols, but then I wouldn't have any chance of getting to my father would I?" I explain trying to bypass the whole Probie's involvement.
Gibbs gives me a stern look, his face seems to harden slightly but his eyes grow slightly softer.
"DiNozzo…It's true that 'you gotta do, what ya gotta do' but sometimes…" He lets out a small sigh.
This can't be the boss right now can it? He seems to be struggling with his words which is something considering his words are normally few in number and straight to the point. I take a quick glance around the room and see that all of the others wearing a face of slight confusion, it's obvious none of us have seen the boss like this before.
"Sometimes you can't…you just can't… because, if you don't look out for your friends, your true family that really care for you…the ones you love then…" He gives a shrug of his shoulders "It's gone and nothing will bring them back."
"But I'm not trying to push any of you away. I just want answers." I say quietly looking down at the desk.
"Yet you pushed Timmy away Tony." Abs speaks up.
"Practically ran him out of town." Ziva continues softly.
I shake my head at them both not really wanting to hear their words. Yes, they are speaking the truth but it hurts like hell.
"He left on his own. I was going to make it up to him after I…" I find my voice falling short not really knowing how to end my sentence.
"Exactly DiNozzo." Gibbs speaks back up with a tiny bit of sternness back in his voice. "How was this going to end?"
I remain silent not knowing how to answer him.
"What were you expecting to gain from seeing the man who stole McGee away and then almost killed you?" he fires another question at me.
"I…" again nothing I don't have answer.
"Would it have ended up with him in a cell? Or you?"
"I don't know, alright?" My voice comes out weak and defeated. "I don't know how it would have ended but I needed to know."
"Know what Tony?" Ziva asks softly.
"Why he took McGee. Why he played his sick little game with me." I reply.
"You're not telling us the whole truth." Gibbs says plainly.
"What! Of course I'm telling you the truth. Why would I lie to you guys?" I exclaim, part of me can't believe that the boss would accuse me of lying to him but at the same time I can't help but feel that he is right.
"There's another reason you want to see him isn't there Tony?" His voice sounds more pressing.
"No." my voice finally breaks.
"Come on Tony." Gibbs' voice returns to the stern fatherly lecturing voice.
"Gibbs maybe we should just let it be." Abs suggests quietly from the corner.
"No. I can see it and so can you Tony, but just won't admit it." He continues.
"I just want to know why?" I say with a bit more force behind my voice, clearly I'm getting my second wind.
"Why? Why? You keep saying that Tony but…"
"But nothing, I've told you the things I want to know…"
"But what about the things you don't!" He snaps.
Everyone in the room gives a small jump.
"I've done nothing to help you so far Tony, because I felt you needed to do this. But now, it's way over your head."
"No it's not." I snap back.
"Yes it is. Until you can face the questions you don't want to ask your father. Then you never will be ready to see him again." Gibbs shares a look with Vance before giving him a nod. "Do it." He says simply.
"I'm passing the cases from the past couple of weeks over to a new team. I'll overlook you being at that crime scene alone, for now DiNozzo, but I want a full report of what happened." He says in a stern business-like manner.
"And if I catch any one of you so much as trying to catch a sniff at the case, I'll have your asses so quick you won't know what happened. Are we clear?"
"Yes Director." I hear in unison from Abby and Ziva. Gibbs simply gives him a nod.
I can't help but glare at the director. He takes a couple of steps towards me leaning down again.
"I said. Are. We. Clear? Agent DiNozzo?"
For once I manage to hold my tongue, knowing that there is no way that I could argue this decision without getting into major shit and lose my job.
"Yes. Director." I reply each word hard and firm as I spoke.
"Good. Everyone back to work." He finally says.
As the team finally heads to the door I begin to stand up myself. Gibbs looks of his shoulder slightly at me.
"Not you DiNozzo. You have some thinking to do."
"Boss?"
"Plus McGee will be here within the hour. First place he's coming is here."
And with that the door to the interrogation room closes and I'm alone. No doubt boss will have Ziva watch over me while I'm in here to make sure I don't do something stupid. Sitting down all I can do is reflect on what has happened recently.
Everything would have been fine if I had just left well alone. Me and Tim would still be happy together, the team wouldn't be looking at me like they don't know me anymore. And I would have eventually got over that one question that keeps haunting me, the one question I haven't been able to say out loud yet.
Gibbs was right I haven't been telling them the whole truth. To be honest this whole thing about seeing my father again has been about one selfish question really.
"Why wasn't I good enough for you?" I whisper softly.
"Man I've really fucked things up big time." I say louder now letting my head fall onto the desk.
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