I hope all the spoby fans are happy. Because Im not. Caleb is out of town my ass.
Disclaimer: I don't own pretty little liars
Caleb walked Hanna to her car in the massive parking lot, while his was on the other side of the building being held until he picked it up.
"Go." Said Hanna while softly pushing him away as their lips separated. "The faster we get back the sooner we can be together again."
But he stepped close to her again picking up both her hands in his. "But we're together right now."
"But... We can't live in this parking lot."
"Why not?" He said smiling.
She smiled back. "Caleb..."
"Hanna." He said while leaning in and lightly kissing her.
"Get going." She said pushing him away. She hated the idea of leaving him for a whole hour to get back to his place, but one of them needed to be realistic.
"But I don't want to leave you." He complained.
Hanna couldn't believe he said that, of all things. She gave him a serious look and firmly said, "Then maybe you shouldn't have."
He sighed. "Seriously? Please don't do this."
"Do what? Talk about what you did? Too bad because we need to."
"Fine, not now though. I just want to be with you." He knew that the chance of their 'talk' turning into an argument was high, and he didn't want that. Not when he just returned. And not ever. But he was soon going to learn that wouldn't be the case.
She turned around and opened her car door to leave. "Fine, maybe the drive will give you some time to come up with some real answers. Now go get your car."
He picked up on the bitterness in her voice. "Hanna come on, are you seriously mad at me? Why does it have to be like this? Can't things just go back to normal?"
She slammed the door closed. She didn't necessarily want to do this then and there either, but she wasn't leaving his comment without a response. She turned around and gave him a shocked and annoyed look. "Normal? I barley even remember what normal is for us. How can you expect us to just happily go back to what we were after everything."
"So what you're saying is that your not happy with us being together anymore?" He didn't even want to ask in fear of it being true, but he wanted everything out in the opened so they could just move on from the conversation. Plus he had no idea what had happened in her life while he was gone, so anything was possible.
"No I'm not happy, I haven't been happy in months!"
He softly said, "Well what's wrong? I mean I'm back, isn't that what you wanted." He was confused by what she was feeling.
She felt all her emotions from the past months resurfacing. "I wanted you to come back when we talked on the phone! Before all the nights I cried myself to sleep, or just laid wake for hours telling myself you weren't coming back. Because fyi for a week straight I had myself convinced that you were dead. So all those nights were spent trying to figure out how I was going to get through the rest of my life without you. Although by now I should have it figured out, I mean first the lighthouse incident and now this? And who knows when the next time you plan on leaving me will be."
By this point she was feeling very emotional and had tears streaming down her cheeks, but continued yelling at him.
"And everyday that passed by and you didn't call, it just got worse and worse. I barely left my room during the day because I was too depressed. And the one night I did, it was a huge mistake and I got completely wasted-" She stopped herself not wanting to get into that topic. "I even considered going back to one of the three therapists that I went through in high school. And thats saying a lot because I hated doing that. But do you have any idea what all those feeling bundled up are like? Or to be hurt by the only person in your life that you thought would never disappoint you. Because it sucks, and it's all because of you. But for some reason... I just... I can't be mad at you, and I still love you, even after everything you put me through. And that just makes it even harder and more confusing. Because I don't know what to do with myself."
Caleb didn't see that coming so soon, and especially not all at once. He was speechless for a moment, staring at her hurt expression and teary eyes looking back at him, waiting for a response. He hated seeing her like that, and wanted to do something to comfort her, to let her know that everything was okay now.
"Hey, come here." He opened his arms and stepped towards her as she was unwillingly brought into a hug, with her arms curled up on his chest.
"A hug isn't going to fix this." She quietly said.
"Then what will? I need you to tell me what you want from me? Because there's nothing I want more than fix this. Fix us."
She looked up at him and sighed, "I don't know, I really don't."
"Do you just need time, or, like a break. Because... if that's what you need... then... I'm okay with that. Whatever will help." Truthfully he wasn't okay with that, at all, but if it was what she wanted...
She wrapped her arms around his waist. "No, I don't want that."
"Then what? Because I'm lost here."
"Caleb I don't know, I mean it's already done. I already feel like I can't trust you anymore, and unless you know how fix that, because I don't."
"Why?" He asked with concern.
"Why what?"
"Why don't you trust me?"
She looked at him and quietly said, "Are you serious? Caleb, do you not realize what you did. You left in the middle of the night without saying anything to me, even after I asked you multiple times if anything was going on. I mean every time you leave my side I'm going to be terrified that you're lying, and I won't see you for months."
"You have nothing to worry about. That won't happen, I promise." He said while kissing the top of her head.
"I'm sorry but I don't believe you." She stepped back from his hold with more tears filling her eyes.
Caleb was feeling desperate and hopeless because the situation wasn't getting any better. "Hanna please, I'm really trying here. What do you want me to do? At this point I'll do anything. I mean do you want me to transfer colleges so we'll be closer. That way I won't have to leave you as much. Just say so and I'll do it."
She didn't like having that much pressure on herself, and certainly didn't want to control his future. She exhaustedly said, "Look just do whatever you want."
"I want whatever you want."
"I don't know what I want!" She yelled being confused and overwhelmed by her emotions.
"Then how do you expect me to help? Please give me something here."
Hanna moaned. "I don't know. Why does this have to be so difficult?"
He widened his eyes at her and without thinking spat out, " You're the one making it difficult."
"What? I'm sorry I'm feeling a little confused right now Caleb okay." She icily said.
"I didn't mean it."
"But you still said it, so at one point you thought it."
He was getting really frustrated at how hard he was trying to fix this, and she was twisting around his words causing more problems.
He said, "Then if I thought it, it must be true."
"You're such a jerk." She turned around and got in her car. She was so over this conversation and just needed to get away from him. As ironic as it sounded, it was true.
But he was quick to come over and rip her keys from the ignition. He didn't want to leave this on bad terms.
She stood up and angrily yelled, "Give them back right now!"
"No, we're not done here."
"Well I'm done, I want to leave, and it's my car! So give them back!"
"Or else what?"
"What are you five? Just give them to me!"
He dropped them in his front pocket. "No."
"Yes!" She shot back.
"No!"
"Yes!"
"No!"
"Caleb! Quit acting like this, I'm really fed up with you right now and this isn't helping!"
"If I give them back you're going to leave, and that won't help anything either." He pointed out.
"It will help me!"
"Yeah to run away from your problems! I'm trying really hard here to fix this while you're only causing more problems! So stop acting like this is all my fault! No, ya know what, here!" He threw the keys at her. "If you don't care about us enough to try and fix this then go! Just go!"
She was taken back by his anger, and what sounded like an ultimatum. At first she wanted to leave, to prove to him how much he hurt her. But then reality set in and she realized that the result of it at the end of the day definitely wouldn't be what she wanted.
Him yelling at her brought tears to her eyes. She hated when he did that. She slowly bent down and picked up her keys not wanting to look at him. Because she knew he was angry with how she was acting.
She quietly said, "I'm sorry. It's just this whole situation, everything, it's been really hard. I want to fix it, I do." While wiping away her tears.
He knew he shouldn't have gotten so angry, and he also knew it was his fault she was crying again.
He closed his eyes and sighed. Then calmly said, "Hanna this whole thing is getting really stupid, I mean what are we even fighting about?" He stepped closer to her.
She shrugged. "Stuff we shouldn't be..."
He took another step near her. "Then can't we just stop, please. I've only been back for like half an hour and we have already spent half that time arguing. Look I'm sorry I yelled at you. I shouldn't have. And I shouldn't have left without telling you, or made an excuse for why I did it. Because it was wrong, and a mistake, and I'm so sorry."
She sniffled. "Do you mean it."
"Yes. As much as I mean it when I tell you I love you."
She gave him a small smile. "I love you too."
He tightly wrapped his arms around her holding the back of her head as it was buried in his shirt. That was one of the many things he loved about their relationship, as frustrated they could get with each other he could still hold her like nothing happened. And forget all their problems.
Done. I have never spent this much time on one chapter. Seriously you have no idea how hard this was, or how many things I deleted and started over. There's still some things I'm not happy with, so I know it's stupid how much their feelings change in such a short time but it tried, and... Once again it. Was. Hard.
Anyways, if there is anything else you want them to cover with each other (besides the Dominic thing which is coming) please let me know, I tried to get it all:) please follow too!