It'd been a few weeks since Kurt had enrolled Sebastian and Blaine at the McKinley sub section, and things were just starting to calm down. It'd been a rocky start, but the three of them had settled nicely into their new life. Sebastian still had nightmares and bad days were all he wanted was to be alone, but they were becoming few and far between as time passed by. He and Blaine still had weekly counseling sessions with Mrs. Pillsbury, which seemed to help a lot. They were growing more and more comfortable with being around Kurt and opening up, but they really needed to have someone they could talk to that they didn't feel the need to try and please 24/7. Kurt still wasn't sure about half the stuff they talked about, Mrs. Pillsbury was very good with keeping their sessions private, but he was just happy they were getting the help the needed from someone.
When he had first taken Blaine and Sebastian home with him, it was clear to him that Sebastian was going to need the most help. He'd clearly had a more traumatic past, if the conversation Kurt had had with his mother was anything to go on, and needed more emotional support than Blaine did most days. He'd been so focused on giving Sebastian what he needed, he hadn't even realized he might have been neglecting Blaine. It was Miles who had first pointed this out to him. Kurt recalled the conversation he had had with Miles the last time he was in town.
Miles, Ryan, and Justine had decided to move to Lima like Kurt had suggested. Ryan had gotten the new leading position at the McKinley sub division, but still planned on doing volunteer work at Dalton Academy. Not because he agreed with the school and its teachings, but because he wanted the subs there to know that at least someone within those walls supported them. As for Justine and Miles, they had both gotten positions at the safety home for abused and abandoned subs. Opening day wasn't for another month, but they still made frequent visits to Lima.
Whenever they were in town the six of them always made sure to meet up, usually at the Lima Bean. Kurt liked it when they visited. It was nice to interact with another three way soul bond, there weren't any in Lima. Miles was a good model for Kurt, he was such a strong and caring Dom and watching the way he interacted with Ryan and Justine made him smile. On this particular day, Miles and Kurt were sitting at a table in the semi-packed coffee joint while Justine, Ryan, Sebastian, and Blaine waited in line for their coffee orders. The conversation began lightly but soon enough, Miles took it upon himself to bring something to Kurt's conscious he hadn't really noticed before.
"You spend a lot of time with Sebastian," he hesitantly started off, "which is perfectly reasonable considering his past. He's had a hard life and he needs a lot of attention. But you have two subs and I've noticed that sometimes you don't pay as much attention to Blaine as you do Sebastian. I know," he added when Kurt opened his mouth, "you'd never intentionally freeze out Blaine, but it's happening. Not much, but I can still see it sometimes. I know it's hard, juggling the time you spend with them individually, but you have to be able to manage it. When I first found Justine, I did the same thing with Ryan. She needed a lot of my attention and I slowly started ignoring Ryan sometimes. Not intentionally, God I'd never do anything like that on purpose, but it still happened. Once I realized it, I made sure I split my time equally between them. It's not easy, but it's doable."
"I-" Kurt started, completely dumbstruck. He had had no intention of ignoring Blaine's needs, hadn't even realized he was doing it, but now that Miles mentioned it, he realized he was absolutely telling the truth. He had been so caught up in what Sebastian needed, that he forgot Blaine had been through hell as well. The kid may have grown up differently, and he certainly had a different relationship with his parents now, but he had denied his natural submissive behavior for almost a year while he was trying to take care of Sebastian. Blaine had to be aching for some sort of personal connection. Kurt was good at filling their need to be dominated with simple commands, but it was always something he did with the both of them. He had never just taken Blaine aside and spent time with only him. How horrible could he be? "I didn't even realize I was doing that. Oh God, what the fuck is wrong with me?"
"Don't beat yourself up," Miles said, making sure the other members of their group were still occupied with their orders. "It happens to most people in a three way bond, it's tough. You don't learn how to deal with this stuff in school. You're a good Dom Kurt, those boys couldn't have found someone better suited to their needs, you just need to manage your time a little more efficiently."
"I can't believe I've never noticed this. I'm-" Kurt was about to continue but then he noticed Justine, Ryan, Sebastian, and Blaine making their way over to them. He dropped the conversation as they sat down and Kurt smiled. Blaine sat down next to him and Kurt rested his hand mid-thigh, squeezing gently in greeting. Blaine smiled and rested his hand over Kurt's. Kurt linked their fingers, keeping their entwined hands on Blaine's leg. He hadn't realized what he had been doing, but now that he had, he was going to make it up to Blaine.
It had been a couple of days since Miles and Kurt had talked, and even though he definitely hadn't forgotten their conversation, he had only just found the time to enact on it. It was a Friday night and Blaine and Kurt were home alone. Kurt had convinced Nick to take Jeff and Sebastian to dinner and a movie, one that he knew Blaine wasn't interested in seeing, so the two of them could have time alone. The two of them had just gotten done eating, and Kurt was cleaning up after dinner. Kurt had told Blaine to go upstairs while he cleaned up.
Once he was done Kurt retreated up the stairs and into his bedroom. Blaine was already there, laying on the bed as he read a book. He put it aside the second Kurt walked into the room and smiled. "Hello, Sir."
Kurt smiled and ran a hand through his hair in greeting before he walked to the drawer where he kept the cream for Blaine's back. Though his wounds had healed nicely, the doctor Kurt had taken him to had prescribed this cream that Kurt rubbed on his back once a day to help his scars heal.
Blaine knew what was coming and took off his shirt before laying down on his stomach. Kurt hopped on the bed and straddled his back. He squirted some of the cream into his hand before rubbing them together to warm it up. It wasn't longer before Kurt was rubbing the cream into his back, being careful not to hurt his sub. There was nothing sexual about the contact, no matter how sexual it looked. Sebastian and Blaine had been hurt many time by cruel Doms, they were in no way ready for sex, and if Kurt was being honest with himself, neither was he.
"I wanted to talk to you about something," Kurt said, not really sure where he should start. "I've spent a lot of time with Sebastian, making sure that he got everything he needed, and I feel like I've been neglecting you."
"That's okay," Blaine said softly, relaxing completely under his Dom's touch. "Sebastian needs you more right now, I'm just content knowing that he's getting everything he needs, that's all I've ever wanted. I don't need that much attention honest, Sebastian deserves it."
Kurt laughed humorously, continuing to massage Blaine's back. "Oh hun, you both deserve it. I've been neglectful, and there's no excuse for that. I've been so focused on Sebastian and what he needs, I forgot what you've been through. You've been through hell, Blaine, and I don't want you to minimalize what you've been through because you think Sebastian deserves more attention, is that clear?"
Blaine tensed under Kurt's hands and he watched as the boy nodded. Kurt rolled off of Blaine and laid on his side, carefully pushing Blaine onto his side so he could see the boy clearly. There were unshed tears in his eyes and that just made him feel like shit. "You've been through so much, Blaine, don't ever minimalize what you're feeling because you think someone else is feeling worse. You've been denying your submissive side for so long because you needed to be strong for Sebastian. You've done whatever you possibly could to protect him, Blaine, you've been acting as his Dom. But you're not a Dom, babe. You're a sub. You think like a sub, feel like a sub, need like a sub; and that's perfectly okay. I should have seen this earlier, and I'm sorry I didn't. I'm so sorry, Blaine."
Tears slowly fell down Blaine's cheeks as Kurt talked, steadily getting heavier and heavier until Kurt was done and Blaine was nearly sobbing. It broke his heart, to think that Blaine had been suffering so much right under his nose. "Hey," Kurt said, pulling Blaine against his chest in a tight hug. "You're okay, Blaine, let it go. I'm so sorry, Blaine, so freaking sorry."
They laid like that for a while, Blaine crying against Kurt's shoulder as he rubbed up and down his back gently. Kurt was quiet, letting Blaine melt against his chest as he let out all of his emotions. Kurt wasn't sure how long they lay there, arms wrapped around each other as they made small talk. It was nice to just lay together and talk, something they haven't really done very much. Kurt liked the idea of spending alone time with just his sub, and decided he was going to do this every Friday. Next week he'd spend his time with Sebastian and the week after that he'd leave the two of them to have the night together, only to repeat the process with Blaine the next week. They were with each other all day most days, it would be nice to spend some one on one time with each other.
Not long after Blaine stopped crying they heard a car pull up outside, signaling Sebastian's return. It wasn't long before the door opened and Kurt heard Nick's obnoxious voice yelling, "Honey, I'm home." Nick had picked up a few movies from redbox and the five of them were going to have a movie marathon, despite the fact that Sebastian, Jeff, and Nick had just returned from the movies.
"Come on babe," Kurt said, pulling Blaine up from the bed. "If we don't hurry Nick's going to barrel in here demanding we make him popcorn."
Blaine just laughed and followed Kurt out the door, feeling lighter than he had in weeks.