Chapter 10: Giving In

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He closed the distance between us and now, I didn't back away. I want him close to me; to feel his touch, his soft lips, and every little part of him. I've denied myself of all of these and now I want to experience every little thing.

In a matter of seconds he was right in front of me, at for the first time, I saw in his eyes true happiness. Like a kid given his favorite gift on Christmas day. His happiness reached my heart and I couldn't help but beam a smile as well.

"I love you so much and thank you for finally letting me in…" his eyes were starting to glisten once more, but not from hurt, but from joy. Then he held me. Held me like he wasn't about to let me go. His embrace was too tight even for me, but I didn't want to complain. He can hold me like this for as long as he wants and I wouldn't want to let go.

He broke us off from the hug only to cradle my face with his hands. I opened my eyes to finally see his eyes, and this time not wanting to avoid his gaze like I normally would. Only now am I able to truly see them. Its color never seized to amaze me. It still has their natural green color, though his were more exquisite and refreshing than others. It held a somehow inviting and calming appeal to it. His eyes too were perfectly adorable right this moment. I know it might sound too cliché and cheesy but it sparkled; like the thought of first love… all over again.

He grinned, "Would it ruin the moment if I say I told you so?" he chuckled a bit.

"Nothing you can say would ruin this moment for me." I politely smiled at him because it was true. He would curse the hell out of this moment but the giddy feeling in my stomach would never cease. Well, it was also true. He told me so… and he got me…

"But I need to talk to you Edward. I'm really sorry for behaving the way I did before. I'm truly sorry for hurting you, for breaking your heart. I was stupid for not seeing it sooner. But…"

"Hush love, the past is past and let's try and focus on what's now. Please…"

"But I still need to talk to you. You deserve to know the truth about Robert, I need you to know. So you'd understand. I don't want to keep anything from you" I wanted to tell him so that he would know how broken I was; how afraid I am for doing this, and to let him know that I trust him. I want him to understand..

"If we're going to do this, we need to understand one another, trust each other. Is that okay?" my eyes pleading. I really want to make this work; I need this to work.

"Of course we can. But… uhmp… can I kiss you first? I've been dying to do that ever since." He looked down, as if he said something embarrassing. My breath got caught a bit to what he said. Kiss him?? I was nervous as hell too. I wanted to kiss him too, ever since, but the thought of his lips on mine sends chills through my spine, though not from fear but from excitement.

I didn't speak; I didn't trust my voice enough to answer. Instead, I took his chin upwards, smiled and nodded. His eyes sparkled with that and gave me a goofy grin which made me smile as well.

He took my face with both his hands. His thumb graced along my already flushed cheeks and my eyes voluntarily closed to his touch. His warmth passed a sense of calmness to radiate through me that my nervousness melted away.

"Open your eyes Bella." I couldn't refuse his request so I slowly opened my eyes and met with his green ones, with all the love I can muster. His eyes gave it all away.

"I love you so much and thank you for letting me love you back. You have no idea how much this makes me happy." With that, he slowly inched his face closer to mine until his lips touched mine.

The moment he placed his lips to mine, my breathing stopped. The feeling of his touch did not do justice to the feel of his kiss. His lips were soft, warm and inviting. If I could glue them with mine I would, just to feel his lips with mine forever.

At first, his lips were still, trying to feel my reaction. I felt stupid for just remaining frozen. I didn't want him to stop so I responded to the kiss.

Slowly, I took his bottom lip and gently sucked on it. God, he tastes so freaking good!! There are no words to describe his taste.

While I took his bottom lip, he slowly sucked on my upper lip, in sync with my movement. And with that, our lips were now moving rhythmically. Exchanging position as our breaths became more and more limited. There was no urgency. We savored each peck as if we had the time in the world.

But the kiss started to intensify with each moment. Gently, he placed his arms around my waist and slowly pulled me to his chest. I didn't complain. I wound my arms on his neck; wanting the feel of his touch to drown me even more.

As if I didn't have control over my actions anymore, my hand reached up to touch the back of his head, to his soft locks. It was so smooth and shiny.

That probably undid his control because as soon as I started massaging his scalp, a moan escaped from his lips, sending vibrations to our connecting lips. It made me excited as well. I did the same thing with his hair, only more intense.

His kisses started to deepen, as he tried to open my mouth with his. His tongue graced my upper lip and I knew what he wanted. Who am I to complain when his tongue tasted like that?

So without any hesitation, I opened my mouth and let his tongue enter mine. It was warm and sweet like his lips, but much more luscious. He started massaging my own. His tongue dominated my own and I have nothing to complain about. I want him to dominate. I couldn't ask for anything more.

He started to lift me off the ground as his arms grabbed my waist, just above my hips. With that, I moaned even louder it was embarrassing. But I didn't care. I was kissing Edward and I couldn't care about anything anymore.

Our tongues played with each other, keeping their motions in sync. I moaned when his hands gripped me tighter… if we keep on doing this, I don't think we will have the chance to even talk.

"AHH!! My virgin eyes!!!" why does he always seem to ruin a perfectly good moment??? Ggrr!!

Edward was stunned by Emmett's obnoxious comment but he didn't mind one bit. He continued to kiss me with the same passion he had before. But I was. Though I didn't want to, I slowly removed my arms from his neck and pulled away. My cheeks would have looked like someone slapped me silly from the kiss we just shared. My lips throbbed but not from pain…

I looked at his face which mirrored my own. His cheeks too were flared and his lips a little swollen, I rested my forehead to his and sighed, totally contented.

"Finally, you two decided to get over yourselves already… the sexual tension between you two oozed like mad when you're together…" Jasper said as he draped an arm over Alice's shoulder.

I was in such a daze that I didn't mind any of their comments. All I cared about was the man in front of me and his heavy breathing.

"Alice, Rosalie, please stay at Jasper's today." He breathed out, not removing his eyes off of me as if I would disappear if he did. I smiled at that, knowing that he was too caught up in our little moment as I am.

"But! I have…"

"Please…" Edward begged

"Oh fine! You owe me you two…" she said as she turned away grabbing Jasper by the arm.

"Enjoy yourselves…" Rosalie voiced out humor in her voice, followed by Emmett's booming laughter.

"We can talk now." Edward said releasing me from our embrace, but still keeping his hands in mine. I loved how his hands fit perfectly on mine. Only now that I get to recognize subtle things that proved how truly meant for me he really was. I suddenly thought of my past and how I thought I belonged to Robert for the rest of my life. I used to think that I was. But now, I had to laugh at that. How crazy I was…

We went inside the room and sat on the bed. I told him everything. Every little detail about my past, my life in Forks, my friends, and Robert. It was as if we were getting to know each other once more, though we were already friends. It amazes me how he knew so little about me, and I him.

He told me about his life… why he used to act the way he did. I admitted why I hated him before and why I fell in love with him. It was quiet funny actually, the way we were telling each other everything. We've known each other for quite some time now and it still caught us by surprise how little we knew about each other.,

We were open and honest when we talked. It's refreshing. I loved every moment of it. We spent the day just lying in my bed, talking and kissing… a lot.

We swore to be honest and open with each other from then on. We both need to learn how to make this work. But what's reassuring is that we are both willing to be the best person we want to be for the other. I loved him dearly and he loved me as well. Nothing can be better than this.

I'm scared as hell, yeah. There's no doubt about that. I'm still not 100 percent sure if I am going to be the best girlfriend for Edward, but just the thought of being away from him, and not sharing my life with this man, brings me pain.

A/N: im so sorry for not updating in like forever. Its just that I got too caught up in school, ojt and such… sorry!! Lol plus, ive been too engrossed on too amazing ffics that when I look at mine, I end up having no inspiration to continue knowing that mine would be crappy compared to the fantastic ones ive read and loved. Ill real really try and update more often… I just need something to boost me up… (maybe reviews?? Lol) this is not a really fun chapter.. I just need something to tie up this and the previous one…. I need a plot to make the story more interesting… any suggestions u guys??? Cheers!!