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Magnus POV
"Jace go rest. She'll be fine," I say trying to convince Jace.
Since we found Clary sleeping in front of her door, Jace hasn't left her side. Everyone is resting but Jace won't leave Clary's side. I don't blame him though. After what she's been through.
"No she's not fine and she won't be fine. I'm not ever leaving her side again. It's my fault all this happened, so I need to watch Clary," Jace says still pacing back and forth by the foot of Clary's bed.
"Jace this is not your fault. This is no ones fault but Sebastian's fault. Even though I do feel it's some part of my fault. But really it's no ones fault," I say.
Which is true. I do feel like it's my fault but we can't think like that. I've been alive to long to just now blame something on myself that's not my fault.
"But it really isn't your fault! It's mine," Jace says a little to loudly.
I sigh and put a hand on his shoulder.
"Jace please just rest. You need rest when Clary wakes. I'll be in here the whole entire time and then when she wakes, I'll come get you," I promise.
He waits for a moment and then asks, "Right when she wakes up?"
"Yes," I say and take my hand off his shoulder.
He nods and walks out Clary's door.
I find a chair across the room. I pull it in front of Clary's bed and sit down.
Clary's POV
[Sebastian drags me by my hair to the room. I scream and kick. When we're finally in the room, he takes off all my clothes. I kick and scream harder. He then takes off his clothes. He pins my hands above my head. "You're going to like this Clarissa," he whispers in my ear]
My eyes fly open. I look around and see I'm in my room.
Oh, it was just a dream.
I see Magnus sitting in my chair in front of me, slumped over asleep.
I go to sit up but pain rushes through my body.
"Ow," I cry out.
I see Magnus move then open his eyes. He immediately gets up and helps me sit up.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you," I say.
Why is he helping me? Shouldn't he feel disgusted and hate me, after what I've done?
"Oh please, I'm fine," he says and smiles.
"Oh I sewn some stitches in your back where the whip gashes were. And I checked your baby and it's fine. I also-," I interrupt him.
"Why are you doing this?"
He looks confused. "What do you mean?"
"I mean helping me. Acting like I never did what I did. Your being nice," I say.
"Clary... I will always help you. You did what you did to protect Isabelle, to protect all of us," he says.
I tried to find words but couldn't. So I just started crying.
I put my head in my hands. I feel someone holding me.
I flinch at the touch and look and see its Magnus.
"Thank you so much Magnus," I say through sobs.
He doesn't reply he just starts patting my head.
After a few minutes I stop crying.
"I promised Jace when you wake up, I would get him," Magnus says.
"I'm not ready Magnus. I'm not ready to see anyone," I say.
"Well you know he will still come in here whether u like it or not," he says.
He's right. If Jace really wants to see me, he will see me.
"Can you just give me fifteen minutes. I need to take a shower," I say and look down and see I'm still in the clothes Sebastian gave me.
I shiver.
He nods and says, "I'll tell Jace in fifteen minutes."
He walks out my door and I make my way to the bathroom.
I don't really walk, I limp over.
I turn on the shower and step out of the clothes Sebastian gave me.
I step into the cool water.
As soon the water flows over my back, I wince.
I bite my lip until I taste blood.
The pain starts to go away.
Ah, it feels so good to take a real shower.
I look down and see dirt and blood go down the drain.
I step out of the shower and place my feet on a white mat. I grab the tall on the rack and I catch my self looking into the mirror.
I look at my face. Bruises were all over my face and neck. My eyes were sunken in and pale green. I look down to my body and see cuts, gashes, yellow, blue, and purple bruises all over my body. My whole body was skinny except for the little bump on my stomach. Even for being pregnant I still was skinny. I don't dare to look at my back.
I wrap the towel around me and step into my room.
Jace's POV
"Jace"
"Jace," I hear someone say and moving my arm.
I open my eyes and see it Magnus.
"What?" I ask in a irritating tone.
Why is he walking me up at 7 in the morning. Unless...
"Clary's awake," he says.
I immediately stand up and walk to the door. Magnus grabs my arm.
"Clary said she needs fifteen minutes. She's taking a shower," he says.
"No ones watching her?" I ask a little angrily.
"Jace, she's taking a shower. She needs a little space," he says.
He's right. Clary's been through a lot. She needs some space.
"Okay," I say and sit back down.
"Perfect, I'll make breakfast," Magnus says, trying to make me happy.
I nod and follow him down the hall and into the kitchen.
I sit on the bar stool and Magnus goes into the kitchen and starts to cook.
Maryse bursts in and says, "The clave wrote back".
"What did they say?" I ask, afraid of the answer I'm going to get.
"They said they want to speak to all of you, especially Clary. They want to see you guys today but I told them everything you guys been through and you guys need time to recover. I know this isn't much time but they said no later than three days," she says.
Rage fills in me. Three days? That's all. Clary won't be able do stand in front of the whole clave and say everything.
"Three days?" I yell.
Maryse doesn't looks surprised by my reaction. She knows me to well, to be surprised. She just stands there waiting for me to finish.
"How can the clave only give us three days?" I yell louder.
I smash my hand down onto the marble island table and it cracked.
"JACE! That's my new counter and you already cracked it! I know your mad but you don't need to start breaking things. Especially my counter I pay for," Maryse says, giving me a mean glare.
She's mad over a cracked table?
"Are you serious? What do you expect me to do? The counter is betters than a face," I say loudly and angrily.
"Just take a breath," she says.
"Take a breath?" I laugh, getting mad.
"You think this is a joke don't-" I start yelling but Magnus interrupts.
"What Maryse means is... that Jace please calm down. This yelling isn't good for anyone. And besides its seven in the morning and everyone's sleeping," he says and then Alec, Jocelyn, and Luke walk in.
Everyone thought it was better if everyone stayed here for awhile, including Jocelyn and Luke.
"I mean Isabelle and Simon are sleeping," Magnus corrects himself.
Then Izzy and Simon bursts in.
"Well never mind me then. I guess everyone's awake. You can go back to yelling," I hear Magnus say. He turns around and goes back to cooking.
"I thought something happened. We heard yelling," Simon says.
"Is Clary okay?" Jocelyn asks.
"Why are you yelling?" Alec asks.
"Apparently in three days the clave says we have to explain everything. Just three days," I say rudely.
"Three days?" Jocelyn asks, getting mad.
"My daughter is not ready to tell a whole crowd or people what happen to her," she says louder.
"Speaking of Clary. She's awake. She's taking a shower," Magnus said, obviously trying to change the subject.
Everyone turned there attention to Magnus.
"Is she okay?" Izzy asks.
I hear Magnus talking but I get up and start to walk down the hall.
I can't handle this anymore. I need to make sure she's okay.
"Where are you going?" I hear Alec ask.
"I'm going to see Clary," I say and keep walking.
"No your not. I'm the first to see my own daughter," Jocelyn says.
I stop walking and turn around.
"We all can go together," Simon says.
"No! Clary doesn't want a crowd of people hovering over her. I want to see her to, but she needs space," Isabelle says.
Izzy's right.
Everyone was silent for a moment.
"What if Jace's goes and talks to Clary, then brings her out here. For like breakfast," Luke says.
"Fine," Jocelyn says.
Then I turn back around and walk to Clary's room.
Clary's POV
I lay on my side on my bed. When I lay on my back it hurts.
My wet hair lays sprawled on my pillow.
I can't believe I'm back in my bed. My own bed.
Even though I had to do something horrible.
My door opens and I jump.
What if it's Sebastian.
I look back, scared.
It's Jace.
No, I can't see Jace now. I'm not ready for him to yell at me and tell me to leave. But I guess... It's for the best. I do ruin everyone's life.
I turn away from Jace and lay back down on my side.
"Clary..." Jace says, but I don't answer him.
He sits on my bed.
I can't hear what he's about to say so I sit up and turn to him.
"Jace, I know why your here," I say.
"You do?" He says.
"Yes, I know you want me to leave-" I start to say but Jace's cuts me off immediately.
"What are you talking about? Clary I'm not..." He stops looking hurt.
"I'm not telling you to leave. Why would you think that?" He asks, looking right at my face.
I put my head down.
He doesn't want me to leave?
"Why wouldn't you?" I ask.
He takes a moment and says, "Because I love you Clary".
I look up at him. Tears start coming to my eyes.
How can he say that? How can he love me?
"Jace... How can you love a broken, pathetic, disgusting person?" I say, holding back my tears.
He puts his hand on my leg but I flinch and pull my leg out of his touch.
Hurt flashes across his face but it vanishes quickly.
"Clary your not broken, pathetic, or disgusting. Don't ever think that I don't love you. I will always love you no matter what," he says.
A tear slides down my cheek and I hurry up and wipe it.
"You don't realize what he did to me. You don't realize what I did," I whisper, ashamed.
"What you did Clary was very brave. You didn't do nothing wrong-" he says but I cut him off.
"I don't want to take about this."
Brave? That's what he thinks I am. I'm no were near brave. I'm pathetic.
"Clary I want you to know that I'll always be there for you. And most importantly I'll always love you," he says and reaches out to touch me but pulls his hand back when I inch away.
"I'll always love you to," I whisper.
"But aren't you mad at me because I'm pregnant?" I ask.
"Mad? Of course not!" He says.
"Jace I don't expect you to stay with me any longer. This baby will just get into your way," I say and look away
"It might not be the best time to have a kid right now but if that's what going to happen, then I love it. We may be to young but I will always be here for you. I want this baby. I just wish you would of told me before," he says.
"I'm sorry," I say shocked of what he just said.
"No need to be sorry," he says.
He smiles and I put my hand on top of his hand.
This is the first time we touched since Sebastian kidnapped us. I look up at him and see him watching me carefully.
I pulled my hand away but didn't look away from Jace's eyes.
It's like my eyes are glued in there place.
He's so beautiful.
We stay like this for a moment and then he clears his throat.
I quickly look down and put my hands in my lap.
"So why don't we go eat breakfast? Everyone wants to see you," Jace says.
"I don't want to see anyone," because they don't want to see my pathetic self.
"Besides I'm not hungry," I add.
"Clary everyone is waiting to see you. They were all just going to come in here but we thought you needed space and not to be crowded," Jace says.
"I don't want see anyone when I'm like this. I don't want to be weak around them," I say.
"You're not weak Clary. Everyone will just come up here if you don't go down there. Your mom wants to see you," Jace says.
My mom? That's the last person I want to see. She'll be the most disappointed in me.
But I can't stay up here forever. And I do need to eat for my baby.
But...
I hesitate and Jace noticed.
"Please, for me," he says.
"Fine," I say and get up.
He gets up and walks to my door.
I start to walk over to the door and I feel pain strike my body.
I wince and keep walking.
We walk down to the kitchen in silence. We get to the kitchen and I stop. I take a few deep breaths.
"Are you okay," I hear Jace ask.
No. "Yes. I'm just getting ready," for everyone to yell at me and put me down.
I take another deep breath and walk into the kitchen.
Everyone turned to me. When they saw it was me they all just stare for a few moments. Then everyone starts to rush to me.
In a moment everyone was around me, talking and hugging.
I cried out after someone pushed hard on my back were my cuts were.
Everyone stopped and backed away a little.
"By the angle, are you okay? Did someone hurt you?" Jace asks.
"Someone just hugged me to hard. I'm fine," I say.
Before anyone could say anything to me I walk over to the island table and sit on the bar stool.
My mom walks up to me and hugs me.
I try to move away and she backs away. She noticed. I wish I would explain. No one could understand.
I could tell everyone was trying not to jump up and run to me.
Alec, Izzy, and Simon sit on the black couch facing the tv.
My mom walked to Luke and sat beside him in the other black recliner chair.
Jace sits on the other bar stool beside me.
"Breakfast is ready," Magnus sings.
Food made me want to puke. Food was the last thing on my mind. I was not hungry at all.
Magnus puts a plate of food in font of Jace and me. He gives everyone a plate.
I look down and see he made Pancakes, bacon, hash browns, and scrambled eggs.
"Thanks," I say to Magnus as he walks back into the kitchen.
The silence was painful, uncomfortable, and awkward. I just wanted to yell at everyone and tell them to talk. The only sound in the room was the tv on low.
I looked at my food again and picked up my fork.
I took a bite of my scrambled eggs and felt like I was about to throw up.
But why? This never happened. Shouldn't I be hungry? I haven't ate a real meal in weeks.
A few moments past, of me moving my food on the plate, barely eating until Isabelle cleared hear throat and spoke,"So the clave said that we all have to see them in three days."
I could her people dropping there silverware on there plates.
"Isabelle," everyone yelled.
"What? She has a right to know," she says.
"Yes but not right now-," Jace started.
"Wait, we have to see the clave in three days? For what?," I turn around and ask.
Everyone gave each other looks and were quite for a minute.
I start biting inside my cheek.
"We have to explain everything that happened to us when Sebastian took us. There using the mortal sword of course ," finally Simon says.
"What! I'm not," I say and try to be calm.
How could they expect me to tell my whole ashamed pathetic story in front of a group of people I don't even know. I will not go.
"Clary you have to go. If you don't they'll just bring the mortal sword to you," Alec says.
"No I'm not. I'm not going to tell a crowd of people something that's not any of there business," I stand up and start to shout "and I don't care if they bring the mortal sword. I'm not going to tell them nothing. If they want me, there going to have to force me." I say and walk out of the room. How could they think I was really going to that.
If they want me they will have to come get me and force me.
Jace's POV
I watch Clary walk out from the room. As soon as she does I turn and look at Isabelle.
"Why the hell would you tell her that?" I yell. Rage starts building up in my chest. I can feel I'm about to explode.
Isabelle stands up and looks mad to.
"She has a right to know. She needed to know sooner or later and I think she would prefer soon," she shouts at me.
I take a step closer and say, "Yeah but right know?! You couldn't even let her have a whole day."
She walked up to me until me and her are a feet between us. Her face is red and she's breathing heavily.
"I don't care what you think but she deserved to know. Everything that happened to her I felt. Everything she's been through I've been through. And I don't want you sympathy. What a want is for you to be honest with her," she yells right in my face.
I step closer but realize she's right. But she still didn't have to tell Clary the minute they see each closer.
"Don't get in her face," Simon gets up and pushes me back a little.
Alec got up and stood in front on Simon.
"Don't touch him," Alec says to Simon.
"Or what? What are you going to do?" Simon mocks.
"He's just trying to help. Back off Alec," Isabelle says.
"No Simon needs to back off. Alec is trying to help," I say and step closer.
"Everybody stop fighting!" We all turn and see Magnus in font of us.
"Is this really what you want? All of us fighting? We need to do the opposite and stay together. This is what Sebastian wants," Magnus says.
"Yeah I also know what Sebastian wants," Izzy says and pushes past us to the door.
Before she leaves, she turns around and says," And I'm also not seeing the clave. Me and Clary stick together. So if they want me then they have to come get me".
She turns and walks out the door.