DOUBLE DIGIT CHAPTER BABY! WE MADE IT!
This is it, Redcliff. This was hard for me to write, I cried as I wrote this and I hope you do too. I felt that the emotions of seeing everyone she cared for, especially Solas, get brutally murdered wasn't as emotional as it should have been. It would have broken me to see the people i loved die but what would be worse was that I would be taken to a place where that never happened and they would never understand. It would break me.
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I steered clear from Solas the moment I left the Fade, I got up extremely early so I wouldn't have to talk to him when I woke up and fell asleep before he did. I know it was childish but I was trying to get rid of my feelings for him so I would never hurt him. It was not working but I wasn't giving up, I was doing this for him.
I travelled with Dorian and Bull for the entire trip, for enemies they never strayed too far from each other. I think they might have some attraction to each other, I'd hope so because everyone deserves a bit of love in this dangerous time.
I felt a little disappointed that Solas didn't even try to talk to me, maybe the kiss was a mistake and happened because I was the only woman he talks to casually. That thought hurt but if it helped me lose my feelings for him then I'm going to keeping thinking it happened like that.
Redcliff couldn't come fast enough, I was scared shitless but I wanted to stop with this awkward travelling. Leliana took Dorian and her gaggle of spies to a secret tunnel under the windmill that lead right into the castle. The Arl of Redcliff had died 2 years ago and it was Bann Teagan's job to be acting Arl until Connor, the son of the last Arl, was old enough to take over. He wasn't here right now and Conner was being 'taken care of' by the mages after his caretaker mysteriously got an illness and died. Now Teagan was being refused entry and has asked for the aid of the Inquisition to make sure that they save Connor whilst stopping the Tevinter mages from spoiling the Hinterlands with their vile magic. Redcliff suffered from a demon attack 10 years ago that nearly wiped out the entire village, they did not want a repeat.
With my four intimidating warriors behind me, I confidently strode into the castle. I was going to stop these mages at all cost.
A boring little man strode up and stood beside a Venatori guard. I mustered up a vicious glare and growled "Announce us."
"The invitation was for Mistress Fey only. The rest of you must wait out here" if this scrawny ass man thought he could tell us what to do then he was seriously wrong.
"If they wait out here then my Qunari will separate your head from your shoulders" I've never been so threatening before but I needed these mages out of Ferelden before they destroyed it. I have enough problems on my hands, I don't need some small dick mages thinking they are bigger than they are.
I watched the man look at The Iron Bull and shiver, he looked back to me and nodded before turning around and hurrying away. I stopped myself from snorting at his frightened steps and kept that intimidating expression on my face, this was just the beginning. "My Lord Magister, the agents of the Inquisitions have arrived" the scrawny man announced.
A flash of irritation crossed Alexius' face but it was quickly replaced by a fake friendly smile "My friend! It's so good to see you again" His eyes roamed the other four behind me "and your associates, of course" his tone tried not to sound displeased but a little bit of it slipped through "I'm sure we can work out some arrangement that is equitable to all parties."
Fiona glared at the Magister and walked closer to him "are we mages to have no voice in deciding our fate?"
Alexius looked over at the Grande Enchanter with annoyance "Fiona, you would not have turned your followers over to my care if you did not trust me with their lives."
I rolled my eyes and spoke up "stop acting like you want us to be the best of buddies, Let's get down to business shall we?" I cocked a brow and waited.
"It's refreshing to meet someone so goal-oriented" he complimented me but it was too easy to tell he was lying, why does he keep going when he doesn't even try to act like he wasn't trying to destroy the world. The Magister walked back to his throne and sat down, a power play that was supposed to show that he had the power in this talk "The Inquisition needs mages to close the Breach, and I have them. So, what shall you offer in exchange?"
I glared at the man "cut the crap, tell me about the Venatori" I demanded.
I could see his body tense but his face remained calm "now, where could you have heard that name?"
"I told her" Felix said suddenly, his father looked up at him in shock and disappointment.
"Felix, what have you done?"
"Tell me why you really wanted me here, it's not about the mages at all."
The Magister turned his vicious glare back to me "do you know what you are?"
"A deliciously sexy elf?" I supplied sarcastically but that made him angrier.
He stood from his chair and strode closer to me "you walk into my stronghold with your stolen Mark – a gift you don't even understand – and think you're in control? You're nothing but a mistake" The others behind me went to strike at him ferociously but I held my arm out, signalling them not to. Dorian wasn't here yet, I needed to buy him more time.
"If I'm a mistake, what exactly was the Breach supposed to accomplish other than being an eyesore?" I asked him, hoping that I could gather a little information before all hell broke loose.
"It was to be a triumphant moment for the Elder One, for this world!" he shot back angrily.
Felix frowned and stepped towards the Magister "father, listen to yourself! Do you know what you sound like?"
"He sounds exactly like the sort of villainous cliché everyone expects us to be" I smiled when Dorian suddenly appeared, Alexius looked frazzled at his old apprentice appearing.
"Dorian. I gave you a chance to be a part of this. You turned me down" his glare intensified "The Elder One has power you would not believe. He will raise the Imperium from its own ashes."
I groaned loudly "Blah, Blah 'my cult is better than yours.' I've heard it a thousand times."
"Well, you know. It's a chance for the Imperium to really one-up that whole 'starting the Blight' thing" Dorian shot back, joining in on my teasing. It was a tactic to make our enemies see we are not intimidated or frazzled by them.
"Anything to make you all sleep better" Dorian chuckled but was interrupted by Alexius.
"He will make the world bow once more. We will rule from the Boeric Ocean to the Frozen Seas."
"You can't involve my people in this!" Fiona shouted angrily.
Dorian shook his head and stepped forward, bringing the attention to him "Alexius. This is exactly what you and I talked about never wanting to happen! Why would you support this?" the gracious mage had told me of how Alexius once hated that his people created the Blight. He wanted the Imperium to be great once again, and not the horrible place of destruction and evil it was now. What has changed, I wondered.
"Stop it, father. Give up the Venatori. Let the southern mages fight the Breach, let's go home" Felix pleaded one last time, he hoped his father would change his mind. He was not this malicious man he was acting as.
Alexius turned to his son with a heartbroken expression "no! It's the only way, Felix. He can save you!"
Felix looked at Alexius in confusion "Save me?"
"There is a way. The Elder One promised. If I undo the mistake at the temple…" Alexius trailed off.
"I'm going to die. You need to accept that" Felix said bluntly, it was harsh but necessary. Unfortunately, it seemed that Felix's harsh words made something snap in Alexius.
"Seize them, Venatori! The Elder One demands this elf's life!" I looked at Alexius smugly as the spies and Leliana murdered his guards.
"Checkmate Alexius, give up now" I said smugly yet my voice was commanding. Before I came to Thedas I would have never acted so strong and powerful, I preferred to avoid conflict but now I have no choice but to come out on top.
Alexius looked livid "you…are a mistake! You never should have existed!" he seethed, I tensed when an amulet rose from his hand and sparked with green lightening.
Dorian instantly knew what the amulet was and shouted 'No!' as he threw a spell at the Magister, this caused him to become unfocused and throw the spell to the left of me and Dorian. I screamed as I was pulled into a swirling vortex. I screamed one last thing before everything around me turned black.
"HELP ME!"
"DANICA!"
Gone, Danica was gone. Solas had no idea what happened, Alexius was charging up a spell and Dorian interrupted it, what the interruption did made both he and Danica get completely destroyed. There was nothing left of them, just a blackened spot where they once stood.
The immortal elf stared at the spot his beautiful Herald had been before, he said he was going to protect her. He failed "you will all perish to the might of The Elder One!" Alexius screamed triumphantly, Solas snapped to attention and pulled out his staff. Without the Anchor they would all be destroyed, he had no way of creating another Anchor, his power had not been fully restored and he did not have the foci to do so.
They had not been able to escape Redcliff, they were all captured and placed in the dungeons where they were subjected to red lyrium. Much happened in the year they were captured, The Elder Once killed Empress Celene of Orlais and took control of the Eluvians. Demons roamed Thedas without abandon and destroyed everything in their path.
Solas felt disappointed and heartbroken, every day he would think about Danica and how he could have changed how everything went. It was only after she died that he realised he loved her, fully and unconditionally. He wanted her in his arms, longed for it more than he longed to return the Elvhen. He wanted to kiss her passionately, taste her sweet lips one last time. He wanted to make love to her, become one with her for all eternity. He even wanted to create a family with her, she would have made a wonderful mother, and he would have loved to have seen to her swollen with his child.
She should have never of been brought to Thedas, she did not deserve her horrible fate. He wanted her back! If there was a higher power then please, PLEASE, bring her back to him.
I opened my eyes and noticed I was sitting in knee deep water, I had no idea where I was or how I got there but I had no time to think on it as two Venatori guards came rushing in, staffs drawn and ready to attack "Danica get up!" I heard Dorian shout to my left, I forced myself to snap out of my confusion and jumped to my feet. I was ready to beat these mage bastards.
This was my element, I was surrounded by water! And I taught myself to be a mother fucking water bender! I used the skills and feelings I had when I first tried and brought up tentacles around me, whilst Dorian attacked them with fire spells I used my tentacles to whip them and stab them when I turned the tips to ice. As there were only two mages so we made quick work.
of them.
Whilst I dropped the tentacles back into the water I heard Dorian muttering "Displacement? Interesting!" I turned to him and waited for him to continue "it's probably not what Alexius intended. The rift must have moved us…to what? The closest confluence of Arcane energy?"
"The last thing I remember was that we were in the castle hall" I tried to remember if I was dragged down here or just appeared but I found it difficult.
"Let's see. If we're still in the castle, it isn't…! Of course! It's not simply where – it's when!" I gasped in surprise, I saw the time rifts but I never thought they could send people in time! "Alexius used the amulet as a focus. It moved us through time!"
"Fuck me! How far or back are we? We need to back, now."
Dorian shook his head "I'm not certain it'll be a matter of snapping our fingers. But yes, I quite agree. Let's look around, see where the rift took us. Then we can figure out how to get back…if we can."
"We will, I'm not letting Thedas get overrun by demons."
I turned around and marched out of where we appeared just as Dorian said, "I'm hoping your determination will help, at any rate, I'm right behind you" It looked like we were in a dungeon but whose dungeon I had no clue, all I knew was that we were getting out of it.
Dorian and I walked up a flight of stairs and heared someone stomping around in a cage, when we turned to it we saw The Iron Bull. He was glowing red and had some bits of lyrium sticking out of him. When he turned to us he looked like he was in pain along with the surprise he felt from seeing us "You're not dead? You're supposed to be dead. There was a burn on the ground and everything" he sounded almost angry with his strange echo voice but I wouldn't blame him, he was suffering and we looked fine. Seeing him broke my heart, I wish I was there to help him. Where the others alive? Was Solas alive?
"Alexius didn't kill us. His spell sent us through time. This is our future." Dorian said bluntly.
"Well, it's my present. And in my past, I definitely saw you both die" he wasn't believing that it was us, I had to make him believe.
"Bull, pull your horns out of your ass and bring that sexy ass with us cause we're killing Alexius" I snapped at him, hoping that would work.
I was right because his eyes widened and he said "fuck, it is you" he stepped out of his cage once we opened it and turned back to us "what are you going to do once you kill him?"
"If we find him, we might be able to get back to our time and stop all this before it all happens. Exciting, yes?"
Bull shook his head at the Tevinter mage "Alexius isn't the one you need to worry about. It's his 'Elder one.' He killed the Empress of Orlais and used the confusion to launch an invasion on the south. The army was all demons. You ever fought a demon army, I don't recommend it."
"I'm gonna tear him in half for all he's done" I couldn't stand looking at Bull's constant pain filled eyes. This Elder One will pay!
"Let's move. No time like the present. Come, Blackwall is in the cells in the other room" we nodded and followed him.
When we came upon the Grey Warden my frowned deepened, the proud and intense man I fought alongside with was now a skittish and thin man. When he saw us he looked horrified and heartbroken just like I was "Andraste have Mercy! You shouldn't be here. The dead should rest in peace" his voice was filled with sorrow that should never be there.
"We're not dead Blackwall, we were pulled through time and are trying to get back. I promise" I wasn't going the same aggressive way I did with Bull, the Qunari could tell it was me because I was always headstrong around him but with Blackwall I was always kind and soft as he didn't like loudness "please come with us, we need your help to destroy Alexius."
He shook his head feverishly "Forward in time? I don't understand."
"Do you remember the time rifts?" I asked.
"We still have them" Bull chimed in.
"Well you know that Alexius created those rifts, he also knows magic that could send people through time. Please believe us, I want to stop him before all this happens and the only way to do that is to get that amulet off him in this time."
"Maybe I've just gone mad. If what you say is true…" he trailed off as he walked out of the cage, hesitantly walking towards us "then this…everything I've been through, everything about this nightmare, is a mistake?"
I shook my head "no, it's not a mistake but if I can prevent it from happening then I will."
"If we make Alexius pay for his crimes, that's enough for me."
I thanked him and asked, "where is Cassandra and Solas?"
"Solas is in the cell in the other room whilst Cassandra was placed in the ones closer to where the guards stay, she caused a lot of trouble." I nodded to Bull and headed out, determined to see what Solas was like. I was hurrying faster than I did with the others, it was selfish I know but I just needed to see if he was ok. We walked into the next cell block and over to the end one.
He was just like the others, covered in red lyrium. It was horrible. When he turned around and saw Dorian and I he jerked back in surprise "you're alive" he whispered in disbelieve, he was in so much pain. I could barely handle it "we saw you die?"
Dorian shook his head, annoyed that he had to repeat this. He had to do this with Cassandra aswell when they found her "the spell Alexius cast displaced us in time. We just got here, so to speak" he replied as he opened the cage.
Solas stepped out and kept his eyes trained on me, even as he was speaking to Dorian "can you reverse the process? You could return and obviate the events of the last year. It may not be too late…"
"I'm glad you understand what he said and believed us, I had to convince the others" I smiled at him gratefully, just glad to see him alive.
He gave me a smile "you would never need to convince me it's you, I can feel it" His eyes suddenly turned sad "you know nothing of this world. It is far worse than you understand. Alexius served a Master. The Elder One. He reigns now, unchallenged."
"The Iron Bull filled us in when we freed him."
He nodded and said, "after you stop Alexius, you must be prepared."
"We can't do this without you, can you help us?" I hoped he would come with us, I didn't want to him to leave my side. Back in the past he was the one protecting me but now…after seeing him in this state, I felt the strong need to protect him.
"If there is any hope, any way to save them…my life is yours" he said those last words in such a way that had more meaning to them than what it sounded like "this world is an abomination. It must never come to pass."
"Thank you Solas" he nodded to me silently "we need to get to Cassandra" once again, they all nodded and followed me through the dungeons.
I noticed that out of all the others, including Dorian, Solas stood as close to me as possible. As if standing so close kept me there for him, like if he moved away I would disappear. I have no idea what he has gone through but I will be there for him for as long as I am in this time. He's still my Solas, even if he is his future self. I kept sending him reassuring smiles after battles and at random moments when walking. When fighting the first thing he did was throw a barrier around me instantly. I brought my water around me and him and attacked all who tried to hurt us. I felt responsible for all the hurt I put them all through but as my feelings for Solas have not disappeared I felt the most guilt and failure towards him.
We had spoken to Fiona on the way to the seeker, she was the worst out of everyone. All but her torso and head were covered in lyrium. She was being mined for the things growing out of her and I felt revolted. She told us that Leliana was still alive and was being tortured. I may have disliked the spymaster's guiltless tact but no one deserved to be tortured. After we got Cassandra we would go and save Leliana. Fiona had told us to leave her, she was too weak to help and she could feel she was going to die before we got to Alexius, I felt terrible about leaving her but there was nothing I could do.
Nothing.
We made it to Cassandra who was sitting on the floor, muttering to herself. The moment I stopped, Solas moved to my side whilst Dorian went to the other. I grabbed the elf's hand and held onto it tightly so I could help calm him down, he wasn't the polite, calm man he was before. He was skittish, angry and very clingy when it came to me. I didn't mind, if it helped him then I would let him do what he needed.
When Cassandra saw Dorian and I she stood up from the floor and walked closer to the bars "you've returned to us. Can it be? Had Andraste given us another chance?" she was rushing out her words and it was clear she was close to hyperventilating "Maker forgive me. I failed you. I failed everyone. The end must truly be upon us if the dead return to life" I noticed the bruises and open wounds littering her bodies, instead of just blood she was also leaking red lyrium aswell.
"You look wounded. Maybe we can help."
She looked so hopeless, far from the strong woman I looked up to "nothing you do can help me now. I'll be with the Maker soon."
"Alexius sent us forward in time. If we find him, we may be able to return to the present" Dorian said as he opened the cage door.
When Cassandra heard about the time travel she rushed out the gate, causing us all to step back. The others remained silent, which was surprising for Bull. Things must truly be terrible in this time.
"Go back in time? Then…can you make it so that none of this ever took place?" she asked us in a hopeful tone.
I nodded, hoping my words would sooth her "if Dorian is right and can actually reverse the spell, then yes."
"Alexius' Master…after you died, we could not stop the Elder One from rising. I'm sure the others have told you of the events that have taken place since your disappearance" my guilt was rising. This should never have happened.
"I should have been there to help you" I said despairingly, I felt Solas tighten his hold on my hand and I squeezed back. I should have been the one comforting him yet it was the other way around. I could barely handle the emotions coursing through me. It was just too much.
"You're here now" the seeker had noticed my despair and wanted to sooth me. None of them should be doing this, they've suffered whilst I haven't. They don't deserve this and I don't deserve their kindness. I abandoned them.
Once again, we fought our way through the Venatori. Cassandra had also taken up the role of protector. Her thoughts on failing me had driven her to never stray too far from my side like Solas had. I was fine with her doing this, she wasn't as close to me as Solas was but she became like my shadow, standing behind me and watching for anything threat.
We found Leliana with a Venatori holding a knife to her throat, I shouted at him and got his attention away from the spymaster. She took this opportunity to wrap her legs around his neck and snap it. As soon as he was dead I rushed to his dead body and grabbed the keys, I quickly unlocked her chains and watched as she landed. She looked old, her hair was dull in colour and her eyes were even duller. Her skin was drawn out and wrinkly, she was the worst out of all of them. She was always a hard assed person but now she was a ruthless and merciless killer. She acted as is she hated us, accusing us of thinking this was a game or make believe. I had to be held back by both Cassandra and Solas as I was close to punching the bitch.
I did not think this was a game or a dream, this was real and I let this happen. I let them all suffer and I let the whole world die. I wanted this to never happen and if she didn't want to help well she could just go jump off a fucking cliff. I was not going to stand there and let her treat me like that, I get she was tortured and saw everyone she cared for die but it did not mean she could be as vile as the Elder One herself.
After cussing her out I told her to either shut the fuck up and help us kill Alexius so we could return to our time or go sit in a fucking corner. I was not having any more shit. She eventually agreed and joined us in our fight.
As we went up in levels the Rifts became more frequent, they were also much more powerful than the ones in my time. Instead of there being only a few demons wanting to get out of one rift, the demons were endless. I had to close the rift as quickly as possible instead of waiting for the demons to stop coming. It was exhausting but the others had faced this before and helped me close it. I was overjoyed at the relieved expressions they all had from finally being able to close a rift.
Alexius was locked away in the throne room but we were unable to get to him as there was a strong magical door that required three red lyrium shards to enter. Once that was done and all the Venatori in the castle were viciously killed we entered the throne room to face the one man I wanted to kill even more than the Elder One. He was the real cause of this, not his Master "it's over Alexius" I hissed viciously, my hatred burned brighter than a sun.
"So it is" he said in a plain tone, he did not turn to face me "I knew you would appear again. Not that it would be now. But I knew I hadn't destroyed you. My final failure."
Dorian was looking just as livid as I was as he hissed to his former teacher, "was it worth it? Everything you did to the world? To yourself?"
The Magister didn't react as we thought he would, he was lifeless "it doesn't matter now. All we can do is wait for the end."
"I will undo this, and when I get back I will make sure you eat your own entrails" I surprised myself at my evil and vile words but I did not regret them, he had caused an anger and darkness in me that I wanted to take out on him. Preferably by destroying him slowly, painfully.
"How many times have I tried? The past cannot be undone" he ignored my threat instead of taunting me back "all that I fought for, all that I betrayed, and what have I wrought? Ruin and death. There is nothing else. The Elder One comes, for me, for you, for us all" We heard a cry of alarm and looked to the side to see Leliana holding a knife to Felix's throat. He looked terrifying, was he even alive, or just a shell of the man he once was. Alexius did this to his own son, the man was truly vile "Felix!"
Dorian gasped "that's Felix? Maker's breath, Alexius, what have you done?" he was becoming as angry at this man as I was.
"He would have died, Dorian! I saved him!" he tried to defend his actions but I could not believe he could do that to his own son. It was selfish to let him suffer like that, he did not save his son for his son, he saved him for himself. He saved him because he could not bear to lose his son but he forgot that he was torturing his own son by keeping him alive "please, don't hurt my son. I'll do anything you ask."
"Leliana get away from Felix" I ordered her, she looked at me with seething rage "If you kill him then Dorian and I will never get back to our time. If you kill that boy you will be no better than The Elder One himself" being compared to the Elder One must have triggered something inside the Spymaster. Her face showed revulsion and disgust as she pushed the boy away. Just as Alexius caught his son she threw the knife as hard as she could at the Magister and embedded it right in the centre of his skull. It killed him instantly "I suppose that was the better choice" I wanted to be the one that killed him but it would do for now. I could do what was needed when I returned to my time.
Dorian walked up to his former teacher and leaned down, looking at him sadly "he wanted to die, didn't he? All those lies he told himself, the justifications…He lost Felix long ago and didn't even notice. Oh, Alexius…" I felt no remorse or sadness for Alexius, he deserved his fate. I felt sorry for Dorian as he was fond of Felix and was now staring at the lifeless boy.
"I'm sorry Dorian but we must mourn later, we need to reverse the spell" I tried to be as empathetic as possible but my urgency shined through.
He nodded and stood from the floor, holding an amulet "this is the amulet he used before. I think it's the same one we made in Minrathous. That's a relief" he began to move off to the side as he said "give me an hour to work out the spell he used and I should be able to reopen the rift."
Leliana stormed up to us and growled, "an hour? That's impossible! You must go now!"
"If you know magic so well then be my guest! You send us back!" I really did not like this version of Leliana.
Suddenly, the castle began rumbling and an incredibly loud roar surrounded us. Fear shot through me and I clutched onto Solas who had become rigid and tense "The Elder One" Leliana said darkly.
"There's a reason they won" said Blackwall after a moment of silence, though he didn't elaborate further. He looked at The Iron Bull, Cassandra and Solas, as if having a silent conversation.
"We'll head out front. Keep them off your tail" Bull added, though I could hear a tremble in his voice.
"No! I won't let you die!" I cried out in shock. I could not let this happen to them. They've already gone through so much.
"Look at us! We're already dead" Leliana shot back, urgency laced her voice "the only way we live is if this day never comes" tears were streaming down my face, I could not believe this was happening. Please god, don't let them die!
"But…" my voice was trembling.
"Cast your spell. You have as much time as I have arrows" and with that she followed the others to the door.
Solas remained by my side, staring at me with that intense look he's always had, yet this look was saddened "I have dreamt of seeing you again every day since you disappeared."
"Solas-" I went to speak but he placed a finger over my lips.
"I never should never have let you go, Vhenan" he was crying now, this was the first time he had displayed such emotions and the only time he was doing so was when he was going to die "I wanted to marry you, raise children with you and live together forever" his voice was trembling as he spoke between sobs "I love you" with that he smashed his lips on mine and kissed me as desperately as he could, knowing that he would never be able to experience such an intoxicating thing ever again "I love you so much" he stroked my face one last time before he ran off to defend us with Leliana.
"No Solas please! Don't!" I screamed at him but he ignored me, he stood before the closed door. Staff at the ready, magic pulsing around him. I forced myself to stay still but all I wanted to do was run to his side and stand by him "Solas! Solas please don't do this! I can't let you die!"
The demons slammed the door open. Cassandra, Bull and Blackwall's dead bodies were thrown unceremoniously onto the floor. Fresh tears raced down my cheeks as I saw them. Leliana fired as many arrows as she could and Solas tried to destroy everything that tried to get past them.
"NO!" I screamed when Solas was pierced through the chest by a terror demon, he turned to me and gave me the sweetest smile he could. Blood dribbled out and down from his mouth as he mouthed the words 'I love you' one last time before collapsing to the floor. Something broke in me at seeing him dying "SOLAS!"
Dorian grabbed me when I went to run to the elf's side "you move, and we all die!" he struggled to pull me into the rift he created, just as we disappeared I watched Leliana get ruthlessly murdered.
I felt the world rush by me and suddenly we were back to our time. Everything was back to normal...all except me. I turned around and saw Alexius, staring at us in shock. The moment I stared at him the faces of my dead friends and…. Solas, rushed straight through my mind.
"You'll have to do better than that" Dorian said smugly, acting as if nothing happened to us.
"You are DEAD!" I screamed and let my entire body become engulfed in raw magic, my control on my rage was gone. He caused everyone to be tortured and murdered. He caused everyone to die!
I stalked towards him, my face showing my murderous intent. The walls began to quake and groan as my magic reflected my emotions. I wanted Alexius to die, I wanted him to bleed for all eternity, I wanted to inflict the worse kind of torture imaginable upon him. He deserved everything I could think of and more.
Dorian raced past me and stood between me and the terror-struck Magister. I stopped but my anger did not dissipate "stop Danica!" he yelled.
"Get out of the way Dorian!" my voice as dark and livid.
"Turn around! Everyone is alive, Solas is alive!" hearing him say that made me freeze, I turned around and saw the others staring at me in shock and fear.
I saw Solas staring at me, worry and confusion was all I could see. But he was alive!
My magic calmed disappeared and my murderous look disappeared. Instead the tears returned and I collapsed to my knees. They were alive! He was alive!
The Fade expert saw me collapse and rushed to my side, he scooped me into his arms and held onto me tightly. He had no idea what transpired since she disappeared mere seconds ago, it could have been a lifetime for her. All he knew was that she had seen things that were destroying her.
I cried loudly, I was screaming and sobbing at the same time. My hands were grabbing Solas' tunic as tight as I could, my knuckles had turned white and the bones were creaking in protest. My emotions spilled out of me like an endless waterfall. I saw horrible things, I saw Solas get ruthlessly murdered and yet here he was. Holding me like nothing happened. All the others were doing the same, they looked at me with worry and sympathy but they could never begin to understand the horrors I had to endure "Danica please, stop…please" Solas was whispering in my ear, he was shaking and I thought I felt some tears dripping onto my back but I couldn't stop, it was all too much for me.
Please make it stop! I can't take this anymore!
How was that.
This is only the beginning of the breaking of Danica.