A/N: Okay, this is actually shorter than I thought it was. Sorry for the long update, my dissertation is in, but I've got three exams in the next two weeks and then I'm free and will finish this. I've written about eight chapters ahead...but I HATE it and am deciding what to do about it...I keep changing it, and trying to get back into the emotion study this story was about...I'm trying to make too much happen.

This chapter is quite emotional (I wrote it with the aim still in mind) It's quite explosive, and I'm ashamed to say there's quite a lot of my own anger spilling out (anger about people in my life, not the characters) I don't know whether I've expressed this much but I HATE the Bella from the books...but I really identify with this one...so...yeah, just expect an anger chapter...it was a while ago I wrote this one and I don't know WHAT I was on...(not drugs – just say no). Crazy juice or something though.

Aw, heck, you don't care about this stuff. Thanks for the reviews, I got excited over everyone, and I promise from now on I'll reply to each one.

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight.

Chapter Ten

Bella came out a while later, getting into her car without looking at her ex best friend sitting in the passenger seat.

"Got your aggression out?" Alice asked pleasantly. "I liked that song you sang, it was very telling."

Bella didn't say anything to her, just pulling calmly out of the car park and headed out to their next mystery destination.

"Why won't you just admit that you miss us?" Alice asked her, annoyed. "I know you miss us, I missed you everyday."

"Right." Bella nodded her head, her face unreadable. "Shall we sort this out now shall we? Let me guess, you probably live in one of those big houses out in the woods, right?"

"Yeah." Alice said, confused. "You want to go to my house?"

"Sure, why not?" Bella turned to her with an in genuine smile. "If we're having a girl day I'm guessing you want to do a makeover? You want me to come round?"

"S-Sure." Alice was caught off guard, worried now, because Bella was in an odd mood, her thoughts were of Edward, and whether he was home, or whether he'd gone on that extended hunting trip that Emmett and Jasper were talking about taking him on. The future was confused, blurry. She examined Bella, and just couldn't imagine her best friend doing anything that would hurt Edward too much, because, at the end of everything, they were still in love with each other, right?

Right?

She had no choice, though. She'd wanted a day with Bella, doing what Bella wanted to do. That was part of the deal, and she couldn't afford to go back on her deal, not if it cost her Bella.

"Right. Direct me." Bella told her.

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"Jasper!" Bella stormed into the Cullen house, furious. Alice was in tow as she had been all day, but Bella ignored her requests to know what was going on. Alice had given her directions, and seemed to think that this was a good thing, although dubiously, not that Bella cared all that much, she had her plan to make them go away and what did she care about some hurt feelings? Didn't they hurt her so much more than she could ever hurt them? At least they all had each other to try to cry at with their stupid freak tearless golden eyes. She'd checked in the mirror before she left the car that her contacts were decidedly blood coloured, she was completely on Team Rob, she'd pick him over any of these pretentious animal sucking bastards.

"Jasper Hale get your dead ass down here." She shouted again, sighing at the pretentious house that they lived in. Always the same, glass everywhere – the one place they never had to hide – fuck it all. Where was her sanctuary? Even being here was just making her angry, she was going to have to finish that coke tonight and the thought calmed her. She could get more off Mitch, he was always happy to share, especially since Rob was out of town and that meant that their extended fuck sessions in the changing room could go uninterrupted.

"Bella." Carlisle walked out of the living room and spoke in a pleasantly surprised tone. Edward was two steps behind him, although he hung back and watched her through pained eyes. Oh for fucks sake, what was this, a family reunion? (She couldn't help but notice the tortured expression, the rumpled clothes and the more than usually messed up hair, but took that as par for the course for the stupid self flagellating self important virgin freak undead bastard.) The stupid human has got herself into trouble so they've all turned up to try and get her out of it? Was Emmett here? Was Rosalie? Oh…she really wanted to see Rosalie right now, that would be amazing, she'd smack that self satisfied smile off that bitch's face, what would they all do then? Kill her? No…she was too far fucking precious wasn't she? She couldn't even handle a make out session with a vampire, apparently, she just needed to be mollycoddled like she was the freak. Had it occurred to any of them that she, in fact, was one of the few of them that managed to make it into her mid twenties whilst still being alive? Never really occurred to them that they fucked up and died as humans way before she did.

"Uh huh." Bella said distractedly, focusing on her fury for this family and everything they had done, she needed to, right then, because otherwise she was going to go insane. "Carlisle, nice to see you, oh wait, maybe not because I hate you and your entire family, and even though I have EVERY RIGHT to hate your guts it seems that I have to prove it to your, I'm starting to think RETARDED children, who won't leave me alone! JASPER HALE IF YOU DO NOT COME DOWN HERE RIGHT NOW I AM GOING TO FUCKING EXPOSE EVERYONE OF YOUR "RELATIVES" FOR THE BLOODSUCKING FREAKS YOU REALLY ARE ON NATIONAL TELEVISION!!!!" Bella screamed.

"So nice to see you again." A cold voice. Bella sneered. Rosalie was glaring daggers at her. "I was right about you, I don't even know what my brother ever saw in you." Oh the satisfaction of seeing that blonde haired bimbo.

"Fuck off Rosalie." Bella said to her, rolling her eyes. "You know, it's funny because I always hated you, you self serving little vain bitch." She rolled her eyes at Rosalie's growl, in full flow of venom. Human venom could do so much more damage than vampire venom and Bella had just realised that with a huge surge of satisfaction. What were they really going to do to her? Kill her? Turn her? It made no difference now, nothing would. "You know you're all so fucking pathetic, thinking you could actually fit in with humans but at the same time thinking you're above us. I saw you all at lunch the first time I was at school back in that hell hole. You were so…superior to everyone else, snobbish, why the fuck do any of you even bother pretending that you're not monsters? You all think you're so perfect, frozen in the prime of your life with perfect looks and so strong and noble, and once I thought that too." There were tears, but they were tears of anger, she hated herself for crying when she was angry, she knew they were going to interpret it wrong. "I would have given anything to be like you, be with you." Her eyes rested on Edward. "But I was a stupid little naïve Virgin Mary who didn't realise, didn't see how sick that was." She paused for effect. "You are freaks, hiding what you are from everyone. I literally didn't move for months after you left me, I physically thought I was going to die, but now I look back on that day you all fucked off as the best day of my life. I never want to be like you pathetic little freaks, if I ever ended up like you sad little people I would kill myself."

"Don't you dare." Alice got in between Rosalie and Bella, pre-empting the blonde. Emmett made a very quick appearance and held Rosalie back. Bella rolled her eyes, wondering just what she needed to do to convince them that she didn't care anymore.

"Oh please, like any of you would dare to kill a human." She spat at them. "Especially not precious little Bella, your little pet human who you all just invited over to play with her emotions and dump her. Just let her in on the secret and fuck off, because what is she really? Just a meat sack, nothing to you bunch of monsters."

"Bella…it wasn't…" Edward tried to choke out, the first thing he'd said. Rosalie cut him off quickly.

"You want to talk monsters, Bella, let's talk about your fuck buddy." She snarled. "Real nice choice, I've heard he's a real piece of work."

"At least he knows what he is." Bella told her. "At least he accepts that he's a leech on humanity and revels in it. He doesn't pretend like there is a higher purpose to his life or something. He doesn't exist like you do – he actually lives. It's funny because you're all always talking about keeping control, always having to keep control around the humans, not even being able to see a human topless without having to kill her, so worried you are about your precious control." Bella looked squarely at Edward, who looked like he was about to put a hole in something, either the wall or his head, it didn't seem to matter. GOOD. "But Rob doesn't seem to have that problem. I've seen him go on rampages, killing maybe ten people all at once, and then pick me up carry me off and fuck me hard." She bit her lip at the memory. "And only give me bruises because he knows I like it." She grinned in satisfaction of the memory, mostly for Edward's torment.

"What is it?" Jasper came walking down the stairs quickly, probably sensing that it was all about to kick off, even Emmett was throwing murderous glances at Bella, his grip on Rosalie slowly becoming looser. He was followed by Esme who was looking distinctly upset. Bella realised that Esme was probably calming him down enough to walk into what was probably not a nice experience for precious little Jazzy, but couldn't summon up enough energy to care.

"Finally." Bella sighed in relief at his presence; she just wanted to be out of there. "Good. You are all here, so maybe now we can settle this once and for all." She shut her eyes and centred herself. "Sorry, I'm just trying to calm myself at the second so that there can be no confusion on this. I want to make this very clear for all of you." She looked up at Jasper, and he nodded. She then walked straight up to Edward, standing very close to him, and stared right into his eyes.

He froze in shock, but she didn't move. She just stood there, almost close enough and for a very confused second everyone thought she was going to kiss him.

She didn't, but after a minute she looked back up at Jasper. "Got it?" Jasper nodded, not trusting himself to speak. "Good. I want to see none of you again." She practically ran out of the door. Alice went to follow her, unwilling to let it phase her, unwilling to ever give up on Bella, but Jasper was at her side in a second and took her arm to stop her.

"Don't Alice, she's telling the truth. She doesn't love him." He told her. "The hatred she has for us is very intense, and she does have every right to have it. You're not going to change anything, you're just hurting her even trying."