JJ stared at that text the entire flight back home. Three simple words- words he wished he had heard, not read. He smiled at them and couldn't stop reading them over and over, even as his plane landed and he was able to turn his wireless back on.
He sent a text to Georgi saying he had landed and he would call him soon. He debated on what to text back after those three words Georgi had sent him- he decided he would wait to address it all.
His parents were thrilled to see him, and it was weird being back home. His father already had a tight schedule planned for him and had taken him out to dinner. JJ wished he could have kept his mind on everything they were saying, but his mind raced to Georgi- wondering what he was doing, what he had for dinner, how practice went.
He missed Georgi already.
Finally situated back at his quiet apartment, JJ sighed and just left his bags in his living room. Getting his laptop out, he went and immediately Skyped Georgi.
"I hope it is not too late," JJ said as Georgi appeared on his screen.
"I napped a little this evening, just in case," Georgi replied.
"I can't believe I was just there this morning, and now I am already an ocean away."
JJ hated this more than he thought he would. He had figured seeing Georgi on the screen would be enough, but it wasn't. He could not hold him, lay against him, kiss him- nothing.
"It does all seem surreal, doesn't it?" Georgi asked.
"Yeah," JJ was pouting now.
"How is Canada?" Georgi asked.
JJ shrugged, "Hasn't changed… mom and dad are good. They have a tight schedule for me starting first thing tomorrow morning."
Georgi laughed, "Yeah, Yakov has me in some training with Mila and Yuri."
JJ groaned, "Yeah, this is going to be tough. How bad did Yakov yell at you?"
"Oddly, he didn't. He told me to get my ass on the ice and get to work and left it at that."
JJ laughed, "Well that is good then!"
"But he still pushed me really hard."
"If I was there, I would shower with you and give you a massage," JJ said with a wink.
"I definitely would not turn that down," Georgi said.
JJ had to adjust himself as he sat there, feeling himself getting turned on, "Maybe I would even be naked as I rubbed you down."
Georgi groaned and JJ saw him shift.
"Don't tease," Georgi said.
"You were the one that answered topless," JJ said with a smirk.
"Was getting ready for bed."
"And I thought you were only topless for me," JJ pouted.
"Maybe I was," Georgi said.
"How long till Rostelecom?"
"Six weeks," Georgi said.
"Ugh!" JJ groaned, "Too long!"
"I know, baby," Georgi said, "But we will work hard and the time will fly by."
JJ groaned, "I highly doubt this…"
Georgi chuckled, JJ missed those little things. The way Georgi would laugh, the glimmer in his eye as he did it, having him within arm's reach.
"No it will," Georgi said, "We will polish off our routines and work hard at them, and then I will come out to see you in Moscow."
They talked for what JJ felt like mere minutes. JJ didn't want to let the call go, but he knew Georgi needed to sleep. Neither of them bringing up the text from earlier. JJ wanted too, he wanted to say something, but he did not know how to.
Once the screen went dark, JJ got his phone out and looked at the text again. He knew he felt deeply for Georgi, hell- it could have been love for all he knew. When he was looking at Georgi through his computer screen, it pulled at him not being able to be there and curl up next to him like he had been doing every day.
His bed was lonely and cold. JJ went to his suitcase, smiling at the old tshirt that Georgi had given him before he left. Pulling it on, it smelled like Georgi as he got ready for bed.
He could do this. They could do this.
Getting back to the routine at home was an adjustment. He had worked hard Russia, but he had played a lot too. It was time to put all that behind him and dig deep.
JJ found his days went faster this way. Even if he was just skating and working out. It all helped to keep his mind off the break up with Isabella and the fact he missed Georgi.
Breaks were spent going through Snapchat pictures and text. JJ found he could take mid afternoon breaks to go home and rest a bit- which ended up being perfect timing for calling Georgi and talking to him.
He was excited to hear that Georgi was given the 'okay' to go to Moscow for the Rostelecom Cup. JJ had gotten to marking big black 'X's on his calendar and a big red circle around when he would see Georgi again.
He felt like giddy when he thought about it. Being able to hug him and feel him laugh (not just hear it).
It was about two weeks into being gone, JJ was missing Georgi terrible. He was coming back home from a late night skate and got to browsing online- looking at flowers. He found another bouquet of reds and whites and sent them with a card.
Missing you more than you can know! King JJIt was mid morning break when he got a SnapChat from Georgi. It was the flowers he had sent.
Missing my King.JJ smiled and landed all of his jumps that morning. He was fueled by all of this to do his best. His skating almost evolving around him. He was no longers skating to prove himself- to prove his 'JJ Style'- no it had gone beyond this. He was skating to prove that he was a good person, a person worthy of someone as amazing as Georgi.
He was skating for love.
JJ had thought it was so corny when Katsuki had announced his theme that year. Saying the power of love was moving him, making him better.
JJ understood all of that now.
When he was getting his music together, he had it changed up. Talking to the band how to make it more represent 'love'. He wanted to do his skate for Georgi, he wanted Georgi to feel his love as he skated. He may not have said the words, but he felt them.
This would all be for Georgi.
Sure JJ had loved Isabella, and told her all the time he was winning gold for her. This was different. JJ wanted gold, but he wanted Georgi to watch him perform this piece to his maximum ability. Let Georgi see how strong he has made him.
Let Georgi see just how his love has changed him.
His parents saw the difference in his skating- dialing back some of the massive amount of quads he had, but adding in more spins and footwork- JJ had a message he needed to tell. He spent his nights at home, going over all of Georgi's old routines. Seeing how Georgi always poured his heart and soul into them. JJ wanted that. He wanted to embody the emotion that Georgi always had.
He wanted to make Georgi proud.
JJ was not used to making his routine as lyrical as he had, he needed the musicality to match his message- his spins hitting at the right moment, his jumps landing on the down crescendo- it had to be perfect . JJ pushed and kept moving things around his routine. He knew he was cutting things close, but it needed to be done.
I'll show what I am afraid to say.
His parents saw the change, they didn't know what it was about. JJ did not talk about Georgi, nor did he talk much about his trip to Russia. They knew he went there to practice and to get away, but when he came back, there was something different about JJ- better .
"So, you are still firm on the no Skype sex?" JJ said with a smirk.
Georgi rolled his eyes. He was already in bed and laying against his pillow.
"Jay, I told you, I am not doing that," Georgi said with a chuckle.
"Well how about I do it and you just lay there and watch?"
"Jay…."
"Fine, fine! So how was your practice?"
"Fell hard on my hip today," Georgi said.
"Yeah, you sent me the picture. That is gonna bruise bad, you ice it?" JJ asked.
"Da, yeah, blade hit wrong on the ice," Georgi said.
"But you are landing consistently still, right?"
"Da, this was just a dumb mistake."
"I'd kiss it if I were there," JJ said with a smirk.
"Uh huh, I am still not jerking off over Skype," Georgi laughed out.
JJ groaned. Was worth a try.
"So Yuri brought up something today," Georgi said.
"Oh? It wasn't his usual bitching and hating the world?"
Georgi laughed, "Well that was still happening, but he asked when we were going to start telling people about our relationship."
JJ sat back and shrugged, "It is not like we are hiding anything."
Georgi nodded, "Exactly."
They enjoyed having this to themselves. JJ remembers all the articles and reports over Yuuri and Victor, then the media craze when Yuri and Otabek got together. Always speculations of how the relationship would work, or wouldn't work. Backgrounds being dug up with past lovers and flings.
Neither were ready for all this. It was still new to them- before jumping in the fire, JJ wanted to be sure.
He thought he was sure about Isabella.
But Georgi is different. Maybe it was because he was older, been through the heartache a few times, more experienced- but everything about this was nothing like it had been with Isabella. There was a bond JJ and Georgi had neither could explain or put their finger on, but it worked. They did not share a lot in common, but they always met each other halfway. The compromise was too easy, and JJ always love to compromise with Georgi.
"I told you Moscow would come fast," Georgi said.
"Yeah, I have been bleeding on the ice trying to get this all ready," JJ said.
"You always do amazing, you are so powerful on the ice," Georgi said.
"I know, I want more than power though this year… I changed a few things up," JJ admitted.
"You changed your routine from what you were working on here?" Georgi asked.
"No, not changed… enhanced... added more 'JJ Style' to it," JJ said with a smile and his JJ fingers.
Georgi laughed, "I miss that JJ Style."
JJ signed. He missed Georgi so much.
"I miss you too," JJ said as he leaned in and kissed his computer monitor.
Georgi chuckled, "This is why I love you."