CHAPTER 10
"Lord Sesshomaru," called Jaken shakily as he knock on the door softly
"What do you want toad," came a chilly reply
"I know you busy…"
"Get on with it!" His patience is thin and he's irritated.
"Today is the best day for a fitting for the ball my Lord," bowed Jaken lowly
"Leave"
"But…My lord-" Jaken started
"LEAVE!" he yelled with a booming voice causing Jaken to quickly shut the door and run. Sesshomaru couldn't understand his raging emotions especially when he didn't know he had any. `All I think of is taking that human into my home and make her mine but I am NOT MY FATHER' he thought as his frowned deepened.
`YOU will mate the woman of my chosen' growled his youkai `did you forget? You haven't chosen yet' state Sesshomaru ` little one-.' `I'm NOT a child' said Sesshomaru ` Young one, have you ever wonder why you only think of the miko that is currently in your brother's pack?" asked his youkai `they're merely just thoughts' "no…I make you think of her, I make you want her, I want her, I choose her, and I want you to mark her, I WANT her as OUR mate,' it said calmly `absolutely not, such thoughts should not even be coming from you,' growled Sesshomaru `why is that?' it asked a little amused `she is a HUMAN, and we DON'T want to make the same mistake my father did' stated Sesshomaru calmly `so ignorant, it matters not what they are, it depends what the youkai wants, you father married your mother but was not happy because it was not meant to be, then your father's youkai choose that mate that he wanted and it was the human women, they lived well' I will NOT mate her!' said Sesshomaru stubbornly `we'll just have to see… neh?" And just like that it went quiet.
Sesshomaru sat in the darkness of his study room a little longer and then decided to do a little scouting in his lands.
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"Kagome? Where are you going?" asked Sango watching her friend humming and moving around the hut.
"Hm? Oh, going for a run," she smiled while bending to tie her shoes
"Dress like that?" asked Sango pointing her index finger looking aghast
Kagome had on a black sports bra and black baggy sweats which stops just pass her knees and some high black knee socks and all black running shoes. "Yes, why?" asked Kagome confusedly
"Because you're not dressed!" said Sango practically yelling
"Relax, that's what people usually wears in my time when they going for a jog or work out" Kagome giggled at Sango's shocked face, " tell the others I'll be back later," smiled Kagome already jogging"
"Okay, but don't go too far!" yelled Sango hoping she had heard
'I said I'm going to scout my lands and I end up next to Inuyasha's little village' thought Sesshomaru 'why am I here' he thought 'You know why...You came to watch the miko' said his youkai 'You speak of non-sense. I merely walk to clear my head and I just walk a little too far" said Sesshomaru trying to convince himself 'Little one, I am you, who are you trying to lie to, me or yourself?' it asked 'I speak of truth 'You speak of everything but the truth young lord'' You speak of lies' 'I don't have the patience, you, Lord Sesshomaru must act quick, you might lose her' said his youkai and it went quiet in his head
"Finally" he breath out and just then, a shiny light went past his eyes 'what was that?' he thought and then the shiny light shined directly in his eyes this time, causing him to rub the blackness out of them 'what is this!' he thought getting a little annoyed. Sesshomaru then noticed the shiny light was coming from a human girl and decided to let her know of his displeasure.
Kagome stopped in her track 'I feel a youkai coming' she thought "I'm so stupid, I forgot to bring my bow and arrows" she half laughed and her laugh died out when she saw Sesshomaru towering over her not looking please 'It's Inuyasha's wench' he thought 'well smells like her' he almost smile at how beautiful she looked at the moment, 'The one who's been keeping my head busy' he breath and then grabbed Kagome by the neck and attempt to kill her 'maybe if I succeed this time, I won't have to think of her so much anymore' he continue to tighten his grip ignoring her human nails digging into his flesh 'there's one problem wrong with this miko, I can't bring myself to kill her' growled Sesshomaru letting Kagome fall slightly on the ground and growled out loud, showing his frustration
He then scoffed at himself and stood and started to walk away. "Wait!" Kagome yelled and Sesshomaru stop but didn't turn around "why did you try to kill me My Lord, where you going back on your words?" asked Kagome sternly
"My words?"
"You promise to train me, in exactly 3 months from today" said Kagome a little annoyed
"Hn" he reply
"What brings you here?" asked Kagome nervously
"..."
"You attacked me looking like you didn't know it was me for a while," continued Kagome
"You look different miko," he stated bluntly
"I know"
"Why?"
"I want to show the real me," said Kagome
'Why am I still talking to her' he asked himself "what is this shiny object in your belly?" asked Sesshomaru curiously Kagome looked down at her belly and giggled
"It's called a belly button ring, it's like a regular earring, except made for your belly button" explained Kagome
"Aren't earrings made for your ears?"
"Yes, but soon, it won't only be used for your ears." Smiled Kagome
"Hn" he said before disappearing into the forest in a blink of an eye Kagome felt a couple of her veins popping on the corner of her head.
"He ask questions, start a conversation, and then disappears" she growled and then let out a breath she didn't know she was holding and then looked up at the sky, `it looks like it's about 2 in the afternoon, I should head back, I've been gone since this morning' said Kagome jogging back to Kaede's.
"I can't believe I didn't kill her! I can't kill her! What's wrong with me" growled the Lord Demon as he fly in a really fast rate to his castle 'You can't harm our mate' said his Youkai 'She is not our mate' Sesshomaru growled 'Then why you couldn't kill her like you do to other humans?' asked his youkai 'Because I made a promise of training her, I can't go back on my words as a lord' he replied 'Last time I check, you didn't remember until she reminded you, and you lost control of your emotions in front of her' gloated his Youkai 'Hn, and it won't happen again' said Sesshomaru going back into his mind
"Are you okay Kagome?" asked Sango suspiciously
"Yea, why?" asked Kagome with a wide smile
"Because you've had that wide smile plastered on your face since you came from your run this afternoon" stated Sango
"Oh really, I didn't notice" smile Kagome
"So, what's on your mind?" asked Miroku
Kagome turned around and faced him and then she let out a burst of giggles like she's been holding them for ages.
"Is there something on my face?" asked Miroku confusedly
"N...no" breathed Kagome between laughter "I'm just happy at moment" said Kagome panting
"May I ask why?" asked Miroku
"No worries" said Kagome
Inuyasha step into the hut and looked at Kagome. 'Why is he looking at me like that' she thought as she squirm against his intense stare 'worst, why am I getting butterflies' she asked herself again coming up with no answers
"Kagome? May I talk to you?" asked Inuyasha quietly
Kagome felt so nervous at the moment that she didn't trust herself to stand up "su...Sure" she replied shakily as she forced her legs to cooperate.
"Okay, follow me" he said, too softly for the Inuyasha she knew
"Kagome, let me know if anything happens" whispered Sango quietly
"Mhm" she smiled as she headed out of the hut after Inuyasha
"What do you think Inuyasha want with Kagome?" asked Shippou quietly
"Who knows, let's just hope that son of a bitch don't lay a finger on her" said Sango calmly
"Now, Now Sango, don't use such words around Shippou, Kagome would not be please, why don't we start on dinner" smiled Miroku
"Okay" mumbled Sango
"So why am I here Inuyasha?" asked Kagome softly
"We got to talk" he replied softly
Kagome felt anger spiked a little "now you want to talk?" she asked and then let out a laugh, a bitter laugh "why ever now?" she asked
"Kagome, I feel like me and you should not end this way" Inuyasha took a deep breath
"And how should it end Inuyasha? How long have you been planning another moment to hurt me?" asked Kagome
"I'm not trying to hurt you Kagome, I want you to live your life, and I don't want you here anymore"
Kagome felt a whole new type of pain in her heart "what-what?" asked Kagome tears already in place ready to pour out
"I don't want you anywhere near me, I want you to go, I want you to leave, your no longer needed in this group, we have Kikyo now, we don't need you" said Inuyasha looking at the ground the whole time
"Why..." cracked Kagome's voice, tears were already flowing freely down her cheeks "why Inuyasha?" she asked again
"Kagome, I don't know how else to say it, I don't want you anymore, I did once, but not anymore, why don't you just make it easier for everyone and just...Just LEAVE OKAY!" yelled Inuyasha finally looking into her eyes
'His eyes show that he's furious, he's not sorry, he means it, he always meant it, but why I never left? For Sango? Miroku? Shippou? The jewel shards? Why did I stay to get rejected more than once? What's wrong with me? Is it cause I really love him?' asked Kagome to herself "but Inuyasha, I love you! I accepted for who you are all of you! Why you just throwing me away like this?" asked Kagome furiously
"Well I don't feel the same" growled Inuyasha, just go back grab your stuff and go back to your time and leave" said Inuyasha walking away
Kagome who felt her legs can no longer hold her up crashed on her knees, head down and started crying, she cried full force and had no shoulder to cry on 'why is this happening to me? What did I do to deserve this?' thought Kagome ' You know damn well you search for this' said something inside her 'who are you' asked Kagome 'I'm not here to chit chat, you better pull it together and live your life like Inuyasha said, stop being a baby about this situation, you don't love Inuyasha, it was merely just a crush, now shut up and never cry again unless it's worth it, you making me sick" after that, the voice disappeared completely. Kagome smiled bitterly and her tears no longer flowed, she pulled her knees toward her chest and took a Newport out of her half-finished packed. She lit it up and took a long drag. 'STOP this shit!' growled the same voice from before 'Turn it off! And never allow this into your system! You need to learn how to cope with your problems on your own! You must feel the pain and use it; I don't ever want to tell you that again!' Kagome's hands immediately turned a dark red and the Newport and the rest of the pack turned into ashes. `How I did I do that?' she asked herself 'it doesn't matter, I'm a mess, I told Taki I would not cry over things like this and now here I am going back on my words. I told them I would change, and I start now' said Kagome.
Kagome headed back to the hut looking real calm and showed no evidence that she was crying, she had a smooth mask on, just like Taki thought her to do, and she calmly walked into the hut and smile sincerely at her friends.
"I take it, it went well Kagome?" asked Miroku with a smile
"Yes, we settle it out" said Kagome 'if only you know the pain I'm feeling right now' thought Kagome as she took a seat next to Sango
"Well dinner tonight is the thing you called "noodles" and fish" smiled Sango and she handed everyone their food
"Nice" smiled Kagome quietly as she took her food
"Are you okay Kagome?" asked Sango
"I'm swell" smiled Kagome 'I'm leaving' she thought with a smile
A/N: Sorry readers that I take too long to update...Having no computer sucks! I have to type it on my phone and then send it to my email! Gosh! Soon...REAL SOON! And this story will be a little better!
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