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Sorry for forgetting my stories. Unfortunately I have only six weeks of school and then finals so my teachers are packing me with so much homework. I am packed for the weekend with homework.
EPOV
Now Bella and I were in my room in silence gathering our thoughts when I finally spoke. I noticed that Bella was looking at every other place except me. I could tell by her posture that she didn't want to in here with me. It broke my heart to see that she hated me so much that she couldn't even stand to be in the same room as me. She didn't even want to look at me. I hurt her so much when I left and I can now see what I have done. I made my Bella hate me because of my actions. I got her turned into a vampire, I made her depressed that she needed help being happy again, I did this and now I can see that I was an idiot to leave her. I then spoke.
"Bella can you please look at me?" I asked pleading. She was now currently looking out the window. She just shook her head in respond saying no. My heart sank even deeper when she did this.
"Please Bella," I asked again. Then she finally spoke.
"No, Edward now tell me what you needed to say before I just walk out of here." she said in an angry tone.
"Bella please listen I want to apologize about everything. I am sorry I left you. I am sorry I left you depressed and upset. I am sorry for every ounce of pain I have caused you. I left so you could have a normal human life. I wanted you to grow up, have a career, get married, and more. When I was with you I put your whole life in danger. Even when it was just you and me. When Jasper lost control I realize that no matter how many times I would saved you from danger you would still be in danger. I never wanted to leave but I took myself out of your life so you could be safe. And then when I told I no longer loved you I was telling you lies. I lied to protect you. I really do love you Bella. You are my heart, my soul. I always loved you no matter what." I said. I was in so much pain in that moment as I finished talking. Bella didn't say anything she just kept staring out the window.
"Bella please speak to me," I said. She then started shaking her head.
"No I don't believe you Edward. I don't believe anything you said. I don't believe that you actually loved me. Besides you left me hurt and upset. And now you come back into my life acting as if nothing happened. Edward I can't trust you at all. You made the decision to leave me even though I didn't want you to. I was so happy being who we were. I didn't care that I was always in danger, as long as I was with you everything was okay with me. Even though you say you are sorry Edward I don't believe you at all. I don't know if I can forgive you. I have been through a lot of pain physically and mentally. But nothing else hurt so much like your leaving did. I don't ever know if I can forgive you. But know that I loved you and right now I feel only hatred towards you after everything you have done to me. You messed with my emotions for too long Edward. And I can't handle this at all," she said quickly turning around and heading towards the door.
"Bella wait please wait," I asked her. She was at the door now with her hand at the handle. She then looked towards me and I saw tears running down her face.
"Edward…just leave me alone I need to think," she said opening the door and exited.
I felt like I deserved to die for making Bella feel so much pain. I broke her heart when I shouldn't have. I am a monster for breaking the heart of a sweet angel.
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