Any anguish I feel...he makes it go away. Even Naruto, Sakura, and Kakashi couldn't do that. It's like a special brand of magic only he preforms. My brother, Uchiha Itachi, the magician. I wonder if he'll teach me. But I don't think he realizes he's doing it.
He doesn't need to make love to me...I don't require the sexual gratification (however enjoyable it is). He doesn't need to kiss me, tell me he loves me (although that makes me happier than I can ever remember being). Just being here, being him is enough.
His voice, his smell, his presence. It's like intensive care for the soul. He's better than any medic I've ever been to. I look back on how is was years ago, before Orochimaru, before Naruto and Sakura dragged me back here, before all the bullshit.
I was miserable, tired and alone. I had no hope for anything, not even my future, only the grim determination to keep going to my goal. That was not living, that was existing, merely being to fulfill an unwanted command. 'Run, run and cling to life.'
I think I finally realize what he was saying, in his twisted, Itachi-like way. 'Run, run and live because I have done so much to ensure that you do.'
But, I'm afraid, even after that realization, I can't forgive what he's done, no matter how much I love him. That would go against everything I believe in. He may love me, but I can't let him warp me any way he wants.
No, my brother will have to earn back my trust of him, and earn his reason to live, when so many have died.
"Itachi..."
"Yes?"
"I have to tell you something..."
"Hn?"
To be continued...Oops.
No, this is actually the end of Prevarication. Book 1 (Remedy) was about the brothers realizing their affections. Prevarication was based on their difficulties in the relationship and the new story, Convergency will be centered on the idea of atoning and redemption, not because it's required, but because it's requested.
Shiroi