Months passed. We haven't had a blue since the last time. Shaun's still the same. He drinks a lot, I'm starting to manage though and I am trying to help, he hasn't done heroin for a week and a half now. Let's hope he keeps this up. I walked into my house to find all the blinds closed and the lights dimmed, I put my keys down slowly, walking into the lounge, there was a nice dinner with lit candles and Shaun getting up, walking to me with two glasses of wine, I smiled at him as he passed me the glass.
"what's all this for?" I asked
"it's our six month Andy, I just thought I'd do something special" he said, I smiled and kissed him softly.
"well this is all so amazing, thank you"
"anything for you" He grabbed my free hand, pulling me to the couch, I smiles and sat down, putting my glass down, Shaun grabbed his knife and fork.
"I hope you like the lasagna, I made it myself"
"It's looks good babe" I smiled and grabbed my knife and fork, starting to eat. He was the best cook. He's so perfect.
After dinner Shaun brought out some chocolate covered strawberries and two glasses of champagne. I smiled at him and grabbed my glass, having a sip.
"this is lovely Shaun, thank you"
"no problem beautiful, what movie would you like to watch?"
"well, since you've done so much for me tonight, let's watch your favourite movie. The Nightmare Before Christmas" I said, Shaun's face lit up, he loved that movie so much.
"yay" he smiled large and giggled, putting it on, I laughed and grabbed one of the strawberries, sitting back on the couch as I ate one, Shaun pressed play and sat next to me, having a sip of his drink and grabbing a strawberry, eating it, I looked up at his beautiful face. He watched the movie so happily, I played with his hair softly, smiling. He looked down at me and smiled.
"what you doing?" he asked.
"just admiring how gorgeous you are" I said, I saw his cheeks go slightly red. I smiled, Shaun placed his hand on my cheek and leaned in slowly, resting his head on mine whispering.
"Te quiero mucho mi amor" he smirked slightly, I smiled, I felt so overwhelmed when he spoke to me in Spanish in that tone, even though I don't know what he's saying.
"stop speaking to me in Spanish Shaun I never paid attention in school" I whispered, giggling softly, looking up into his eyes.
"I said; I love you so much, my love" he smiled, stroking my cheek softly with the back of his hand, I bit my lip slowly then leaned our lips closer.
"well guess what?" I whispered "I love you more…" I touched our lips softly, we started to kiss soft and slow, breathing deeply. He ran his fingers through my hair, our kiss slowly getting more passionate but still slow, Shaun's tongue sneakily made its way around mine, I smirked slightly and battled with his tongue slowly. I placed my drink on the table then grabbed Shaun's, also putting it on the table, I pushed Shaun down slowly, he smiled and giggled under his breath as I pressed our lips together again, I ran my hand up his arm to his hand, linking our fingers as we kissed, Shaun pulled away slowly and went to my neck. He knows how much I loved it when he kissed me there. He sucked on the spot softly, massaging the spot with his tongue, I bit my lip and exhaled, kissing his shoulder, Shaun continued to make out with my neck, he slid his hand down to my ass, pushing my crotch down onto his, running his finger over where my crack his, I bit my lip and smirked, moaning softly. I moved my lips back to his, we made out so passionate yet slow it felt great. It wasn't like a 'I need you now' type of thing, it was romantic. Shaun slid his leg up my thigh, wrapping his leg around my waist as our crotches rubbed slowly against each other, he moaned and pulled away slowly.
"I want to love you Andy…" Shaun said softly. I looked down at him, he sat up slowly, me moving with him, he grabbed my hand, pulling me up, we walked down the hall to my room, he massaged my back as we walked, I smiled and planted a soft kiss on his neck. He opened the door, I walked backwards, looking at him, biting my lip I laid back on the bed. He closed the door and got on top of me, we kissed slowly, he ran his fingers to my crotch, cupping me as he kissed to my neck, I moaned and pulled his shirt up slowly, pulling it off him. He pulled my shirt off as well, our lips smashed back together immediately, he rubbed my crotch up and down. I couldn't contain my moans. I ran my hands down to his hips and slid his pants down slightly, running a hand into his pants and grabbing his length through his underwear. He exhaled a moan and rested his head to mine, biting his lip. He pulled my pants down, I laid more up on the bed, he pulled his own pants and underwear down, getting on top of me, placing his hand on my cheek.
"you're so fucking beautiful Andy" He whispered in my ear, kissing my shoulder softly as he reached into the side table drawer, pulling out a condom. I grabbed it from him and opened it with my teeth, he looked at me, biting his lip as I slid it onto his length, I exhaled and spread my legs a bit, closing my eyes as I knew what was to come. He kissed my neck slowly with his tongue, pushing into me. I grabbed onto his back and let out a loud moan, whispering his name. He sped up the pace within minutes. His sweaty body was on mine, we rocked back and forth so slow and in such a motion that was just pleasurable. I rested my head on his shoulder and bit my finger to stop myself from crying out, Shaun was panting and breathing heavily in my ear. He thrusted harder, I threw my head back and cried out loudly. I felt so close. Shaun got faster and faster, I groaned and felt myself sweat more as my orgasm started. Shaun grabbed my length and pumped me as I orgasmed, I cried out and panted as he started to moan loudly, riding out his own orgasm.
"oh Andy…"
"m-mhm Shaun" I moaned after the shock of the orgasm ran through me, I came on his hand, he looked at me and smirked pulling out and going to the bathroom. I bit my lip and got under the covers, snuggling up as I waited for the love of my life to return. He came back in and got under the cover, pulling me close. His arms wrapped around me. I smiled and kissed his chest softly.
"I love you so much Shaun" I whispered, closing my eyes.
"I love you too beautiful, so, so much" he kissed my head softly as I slowly fell asleep in his warm and strong arms.

I woke up to Shaun, admiring me. His smile instantly appeared on his face. I looked up at him, smiling.
"morning beautiful" I said softly, he kissed my head softly and played with my hair softly.
"good morning"
"how long have you been awake for?"
"not too long."
"that's good then" I smiled and snuggled into him, sighing contently.
"I love you so much Andy"
"I love you too baby, so much" I ran my finger over his chest slowly, smiling at his soft pure skin. He ran his hand up my back.
"you are so amazing Andy" Shaun whispered. I looked up into his beautiful bright eyes.
"and you're just perfect" I smiled
"I doubt that."
"well don't, because you are fucking perfect to me." I said, he looked into my eyes so amazingly, I bit my lip as he leaned in, we kissed soft and slow, I closed my eyes and put my hand on his cheek. He smiled under the kiss, I heard a vibrate. Shaun immediately pulled away and grabbed his phone. Reading a text he got, I went to read it. But he locked his phone.
"I have to go okay?"
"w-where are you going?" I asked as he got up, putting his pants on.
"Just have to do a few things okay? I love you" he leaned down to me and kissed me. I kissed him back softly, he pulled away and started putting his shirt on. I felt kind of restless. I got up and started to put my clothes on.
"Andy what are you doing"
"I'm coming with you"
"no!...no, you can't Andy"
I put my hoodie on then turned to him "and why's that?"
"you'll find out sooner or later, but you aren't coming with me"
"Shaun…"
"no Andy, I'm not letting you go. I have to go. Bye" He came up to me again and kissed me slowly, I closed my eyes and kissed him back, clenching my eyes shut, he pulled away and grabbed his phone and wallet, running out of the house.
"I LOVE YOU!" He shouted, then the door closed, I sat down on the bed slowly, my thoughts overlapping on what could be happening. "I love you too…" I murmured softly to myself, looking down at my hands, I sighed and got up, sitting at my desk, looking through my drawers. I pulled out an old photo album that was in there. I flicked through it, smiling slightly at the memories that were frozen in time. So many of me and Shaun, my step brother, step dad. Everyone I had considered family. I smiled and grabbed a red sharpie that was on my desk. I wrote 'I love you' on the notepad, that was all that was on my mind, love, Shaun. I drew a love heart next to it and coloured it in, then I pulled up my sleeve and wrote a small 'Shaun' with a heart next to it on my wrist. How could I be so in love?
Time passed. I started to worry about Shaun. I grabbed my keys and made my way out of the house, getting in the car and driving down to the corner store. I need to take my mind of things. I walked down the empty street when I heard fierce chatter as I approached the corner of the street that led to an alleyway. I stopped and listened to the voices.
"You said the first load of coke would be free" A familiar voice said. Shaun. I looked down and felt my eyes glaze over as I covered my mouth from shock.
"But this is your second load. You have to pay up a thousand bucks. I'm not giving you coke, marijuana and heroin for 100 bucks" the sort of boggany voice said.
"but that's all I have please, please, I beg of you." I heard rustling. I think Shaun grabbed the drugs.
"no one grabs my drugs without paying!" he said fiercely, Shaun screamed. I gasped and looked around the corner to see the drug dealer holding up a knife. I felt my gut drop.
"Please don't kill me!" Shaun cried, I jumped around the corner.
"DON'T YOU FUCKING DAR-" and then I felt a sharp pain to my stomach three times over, I looked down and started to shake as I saw his knife in my stomach. I slowly looked up into the mans dark, almost black brown eyes.
"ANDY!" I heard Shaun cry. He pulled the knife out and ran, taking the drug with him. I groaned and fell to the ground. I felt light headed so suddenly. Shaun ran to my side, my breathing started to get weaker as he held me in his arms.
"Andy, Andy baby" Shaun sobbed softly, putting his hand on my cheek, I looked up at him. I felt myself black in and out of sleep and reality.
"I-I love you so much Shaun" I said with all the voice I had left, a tear running down the side of my face.
"I-I love you too Andy, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry" he rocked me back and forth, sobbing as he pulled out his phone, dialling a number. I felt myself grow colder.
"C-Can I please get an ambulance, m-my boyfriend is dying…s-stab wound…thank you so much, b-bye" he hung up the phone and put it on the ground, caressing me in his arms. He placed his hand over my wound hard, I groaned and closed my eyes, I felt too weak to open them.
"A-Andy stay strong please baby, please. I love you so much you can't leave me. I need you" I looked up at him to see him crying heavily, the tears of pain and heart ache cascaded down my skin. I knew this was the end for me.
"S-Shaun, you're gonna g-get far okay? P-Promise me you'll f-find love, get married and h-have cute little babies with them. P-Promise me you'll be happy without me…"
"no! Andy please, please. I can't live alone. I-I can't live without you. I need you Andy! I love you!" he sobbed softly. I breathed shakily and put my hand on his cheek, leaning up with all the strength I had to plant one last kiss on his sweet lips. He kissed me back softly, I pulled away quickly collapsing in his arms from the pain, I looked up at him, I heard sirens, but my hearing was starting to fade.
"I-I love you s-so m-much Shaun, n-never, ever, f-forget…that" I said with my few last breathes I could hold onto, I looked at him and then I saw nothing. Felt nothing. Became nothing