A/N: This chapter will be the last chapter where we follow Lily. The next chapters, we'll be following James around.

DISCLAIMERS: I do not own anything except a few OC's. The rest are J.K.'s.

CHAPTER TEN: Christmas Depression
by: Phaedra Delamire

Lily sat in the living room, pretty much alone. She liked that. She wanted to be alone for the whole week. It was nearing twelve midnight in Christmas Eve and Lily was sitting there, carrying a glass of pumpkin juice and her cat Momo hunched up on her lap.

Lily knew she should be at the hospital with her parents but she was confused. She was holding a silver photo frame with a black and white picture of herself and James donning their Heads badge and practically bickering at the eve of the Graduation. The image-Lily was waving up at real-life-Lily furiously while the image-James was trying to enchant image-Lily's Head Girl badge. Lily watched the affection in James' eyes as his eyes fell on image-Lily, and she wondered if this reflected the real James.

She watched the image of James sadly. Was she in love? Did she love him? Lily didn't know as she watched tears splatter on the glass.

"I know I'm supposed to be worrying about mum," Lily told the picture even if it didn't hear anything, "I know I'm supposed to be at the hospital right now but I'm confused. I swear, I don't love you. But, just after that kiss, I feel so… weird. I know I am overreacting. And I know if anyone would see me right now, they'd think I'm crazy but I'm confused."

Lily looked down at her cat that was snoozing on her lap. She picked her up and set her down in the basket in front of the fireplace which had a crackling fire. Lily turned to the kitchen; she was feeling a bit hungry. She summoned a bowl, a spoon, a milk carton, and a box of cereal. She sat down and poured the cereal and milk into her bowl. She started spooning them slowly into her mouth.

She's been acting like that ever since that night. Like a zombie. Mrs. Evans didn't notice any of this, Lily made sure of that. She was already sick; she didn't need any more things to worry about. Pauline Trevett had noticed. Lily was always preoccupied in work hours and she resorted to continually spending time in the Experimentation Room, looking like she was trying to kill herself by how many times she tried to experiment. At that thought, Lily shivered.

(flashback)

Lily was inside the Experimentation Room, very much alone and continually casting the spell she was working on with various wands at the dummy. Her nose was bleeding and her head felt like it was about to burst. She ignored all of this of course. She was too preoccupied in other things. She only stopped shooting the spell when Pauline went in.

"Hullo, Pauline," said Lily in a deadpan tone which was how she talked these days. Pauline smiled.

"Hello, Lily,"

"What are you doing here?" asked Lily.

"I've noticed you're rather… preoccupied this week," said Pauline. "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, Pauline,"

"Oh," said Pauline. Something in Lily's tone told her to leave her alone. "Okay." She left, leaving Lily still in her confused state.

"Vindictavia," Lily shot the spell at the dummy.

(end of flashback)

Lily looked down to her bowl, it was empty already. She sighed and went back to the living room. She sat back on the sofa and continued staring at the picture. After a few minutes, the grandfather clock at the side of the living room chimed the hour of twelve o' clock. Lily stared at the Christmas tree sadly then turned to the picture.

"Happy Christmas, Lily," she whispered. She stood up and Apparated into her room. She set the photo frame down on her bedside table and Apparated back into the living room. She placed all the gifts of her friends in a sack and Transfigured her outfit to have red and white colors. She Apparated to Rachel and Sirius' flat and placed the two gifts on the coffee table with a flourish and Disapparated.

Next was Remus and Maggie, she was surprised to see a little Christmas tree in the living room and placed the gifts underneath it. She twirled and arrived in Marlene's house; she hurried into the living room and placed the gifts along with the other ones under the tree and Disapparated again. Lily arrived inside the MacDonald household and smiled as she remembered the numerous Easter holidays she spent there. She placed the gift under the tree again and Apparated out. She arrived inside the Longbottom living room, where Alice and Frank were staying. Lily placed the presents under the tree hurriedly before Apparating out.

Lily gulped. She arrived outside the Potter household. It was a simple house with a wrought iron gate and flowers in the front lawn. The house was made of grey stone and the roof was made of red tiles. Lily chose not to Apparate inside, it would be too much for her. So she merely walked through the gate, and placed the present on the door mat.

"Happy Christmas, Potter," Lily whispered and pointed her wand at the sack before saying "Evanesco". Little did she know, someone was running down the steps hurriedly, trying to catch her before she goes away. The persons hand touched the door handle and opened the door to only glimpse a woman with dark red hair and pearly white skin, glowing in the moonlight before she disappeared into thin air.

A/N: I know this is short but this is the chapter where we meet zombie depressed Lily. The next chapter will be all James. This is the end of Part 1 of Nothing. Next will be Part 2.

Tell me what you think guys. Review! You get a treacle tart, an oreo, a muffin, or a butterbeer if you do.

With love,
Phaedra Delamire

Lily Evans, James Potter, Marlene McKinnon, Mary MacDonald, Sirius Black, Alice and Frank Longbottom, Head Girl and Boy badge, spells © J.K. Rowling

Vindictavia © mine

Vindictavia - Latin vindicta means revenge