How to be human.

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"I've always wanted to try and do a backflip, do you think I can do it now?"
"No, R, oh my god no." She held her stomach as she laughed.
He had been jumping up and down in a spare tracksuit bottoms and top for the past twenty minutes.
He looked like a kid at christmas.
"Lie down next to me, come here." She patted his hospital bed.
"There's just so much I can do now, think about it Jules. I'm happy now." He freely expressed his emotions with his hands, he was so ... different now.
"Where you not happy before?" Her eyebrows furrowed and smile dropped.
"I .. I was." R didn't meet eye contact. How could he have been happy before? He wasn't human, he had the special school thing to attend like he was an outcast, people watched him. Now he was no different to them.
"R, you were perfect before, you're perfect now."
He sighed, blowing off her comment then climbed into the bed next to her.
She missed his presence, she drowned in every inch of his 6 foot body and he wrapped himself around her.
"I missed you, y'know that right." She whispered as she put his hand over his.
"I did know that." He laughed into her ear, he missed her more than she missed him.
On those long nights that he spent awake he needed her touch, her smile and cute laugh.
"What do you want in life?." Her words were quiet and he barely heard her.
"The future you mean?"
"Yep."
"You."

R POV.

Julie had gone downstairs to the vending machine to get drinks and food.
I had planned to make this night romantic-ish.
As romantic as you could make a small hospital room.
I took some blankets from the cupboard and layered the bed sheets.
It was partially comfy.
It was ... ok.
The light switch wasn't the same as the one in our house.
It had a little twisty thing which turned on it.
I played with it for a bit, trying my best not to break it.
Took me a while but I figured it out, it's a dimmer.
If I say so myself the room looks more romantic now.
No candles or music to play in the background but thats ok.
This could work.

Julie POV.
I'm starving. My stomach ache's and I need food.
The vending machine has a good supply, couple of chocolate bars and crisp.
I got an orange juice and a packet of crisp, R's still on special hospital meals.
I banged on the vending machine, it was taking ages for my food to drop.
"Hey maybe you shouldn't hit it."
The voice was quick and smooth, the tickle of someone's breath against the back of my neck.
I jumped in response and turned around.
"Oh for fuck sake are you stalking me?" I rolled my eyes and turned back around.
That stupid Darren guy was back again.
"It's the only vending machine in the hospital that works, what was it ... Julie?" I didn't have to turn around to know he was smiling.
"Yes. My name is Julie, anything else you want to know about me?"
My food dropped out the machine and I collected my change and meal.
"How's your boyfriend?"
"I told you I was visiting a family member." I turned around to face him, fidgeting with the cap of the drink.
"I figured it was a boyfriend, you look flushed." He grinned at me.
He had one of the smiles where you just had to smile back.
I couldn't help myself and bit down on my lip.
"He's fine anyway. How's your ... mum?" I tilted my head to the side a little.
Was it his mum he mentioned in the lift?
"All good, she just broke a bone." He nodded his head, flipping the coins in his hand.
"I'll let you get your food now." I smiled a little and headed back in the direction of the lift.
"Wait for me lift buddy." He shouted out, pushing coins in the machine.
"Yeah right." I laughed and pressed the button for the lift to come.

R POV
She walked into the room with a smile on her face but froze when she closed the door behind her,
"What's this?" She licked her bottom lip.
That little beat thing in my chest went all crazy.
I could hear it in my goddamn ears.
How could people learn to do stuff with this annoying beating every second.
"It's for you." I stuttered.
Oh is that all you can do R.
Point out the fucking obvious, jesus.
"I thought we could, initiate something."
I wanted to slam myself into a brick wall, how corny of me.
"Initiate something?" She squeezed her eyebrows together confused.
I walked over to her, closing the distance between us.
Go on R, whoop whoop you can do this.
I imagined a tiny cheerleading team in my head celebrating.

I kissed her, taking her by surprise and pushing her against me.
"Ohh initiate." She murmured between kisses.
I could feel her smiling as she wrapped her arms around my neck.
"Hold on." I whispered to her, lifting her up by her legs as she latched onto me.
I carried her over to the bed and set her down.
Thank the Lord I did not trip, or fall and movement was quite easy.
I didn't break the kiss, climbing onto the bed and hovering above her.
She hummed into my mouth, pulling me down against her.
I could imagine M laughing in the background.
I was getting some action tonight.
God, why did I even think that.
Don't panic R, don't panic.
"I love you, so much." She pulled away from me.
Allowing me access to kiss down her jaw line and neck.
She moaned quietly, who knew that such a simple sound could be so sexy.
I unbuttoned the flannel t-shirt she wore, kissing down by her collarbone and chest.
This has to be perfect.

It wasn't long before we were both undressed and under the layers of blankets.
Her legs wrapped around my waist.
She was beautiful, so ... her.
If that even makes sense.
"What do you want me to do?" I was nervous, I didn't want to mess this up.
"Whatever feels right." She smiled.
I tensed up, sucking in a deep breath and 'exhaling'.
I had it all pictured in my head, I just couldn't bring myself to .. do it.
"R, you alright? She looked up at me, her hand running against my arm.
No, it was not alright Julie.
I have expectations to live up to,
You've slept with other guys and who knows if they were good or not.
I kept my mouth closed and nodded at her.
"Here look, lemme help."
Using her hands she guided me to her entrance, and pushed upwards against my hips.
I could feel her.
God knows I tried my best to not panic or ruin the moment.
Just her face and the feel of her alone almost killed me,
I understood why all men talked about sex now.
Just that simple connection of bodies.
Heart beat to heart beat.
Sweat and heat pouring off each other.
A sexual act performed by warm bodies.

Oh god, was it ok? I'm trying to touch the T Rated side of life. I'm hiding under the tables cause I really had no confidence with this chapter, but the next one's I will. Promise :)

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