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Our bed we live, our bed we sleep
making love and I become you
flesh is warm with naked feet
stabbing thorns and you become me
Oh, I'd beg for you. Oh, you know I'll beg for you.
Pick a song and sing a yellow nectarine
Take a bath, I'll drink the water that you leave
If you should die before me ask if you can bring a friend
pick a flower, hold your breath
and drift away...
"Still Remains" - Stone Temple Pilots
She was going to make it.
Bella was going to make it.
No matter how many times I said it aloud I still couldn't believe it.
Somehow, through all of the chaos and insanity that had been the last 24 hours, Bella had kept her heart beating. Part of me wondered if she was keeping it pumping out of sheer stubbornness and nothing else, only to prove that she could.
I had never loved her stubbornness more.
Unlike any of the other transformations I had witnessed, Bella laid completely still. No screams. No shaking. No sign of life other than the slow, thick pumping of her changing heart. At first I panicked, convinced that I had done something wrong, but Carlisle repeatedly assured me that no two changes were the same and as long as we could see her progress then I should do my best to stay calm.
Yeah. Sure. That's easy.
I hadn't left the room yet, choosing instead to stay by her side and try to give her any support that I could. I had no idea if she even knew I was there, but my presence had always helped to calm her in the past and I was damn sure not taking it away from her now. I stroked her hair and held her hand. I sang to her softly. I spoke of our future and what she would have waiting for her when she woke up. I prayed repeatedly that she did not suffer too greatly.
All in vain, I'm sure, but it helped me to stay focused.
Once I had finally gotten Bella stabilized and her heart continued to pump on its own, I took a step back and looked at her. She had been covered in blood. So much blood. Blood from the birth, blood from the vomit, even a tiny amount of blood from my bites. The room looked like a grisly murder scene and I was certain that it wasn't something she would enjoy waking up to. Plus, I couldn't handle having my Bella looking like that. It was torture enough imagining the scorching agony that she was enduring silently; I didn't need a visual reminder of her pain every time I looked at her.
As soon as I could tell that her body was beginning to heal itself I went to summon Alice. Before I could even reach the door she was entering the room with a large bowl of hot water and many towels.
"Let's get her all cleaned up!" She whirled through the room like a dervish, making fast work of the mess. As I joined her on the other side of Bella's body to help, I was transfixed at the sight of Bella's luminous skin that was revealed as Alice quickly washed her face. "Oh! Just look, Edward! She's already so much better!" Her enthusiasm was genuine and a salve to my aching doubts.
She quickly soaked a second towel in the water and drained it, reaching across Bella's torso to hand it to me. Instead of just taking it from her, I grabbed her hand and held tight. She stopped her frenzied activity abruptly and looked at me, a hummingbird with its wing snared. Only then did she meet my eyes.
"Alice..." I whispered hoarsely.
"You don't have to say it, Edward. I know. I would have been here to help you no matter what happened. I love her, too, you know."
"For that especially... thank you." She paused for a moment and looked away, but not before I saw her blinking rapidly against her stinging eyes. By the time she looked back at me a fraction of a second later, the clouds had passed from her vision.
"Oh! I just can't wait to dress her in the new gown I bought!" And just like that, she was Good Old Alice again. We worked together diligently to clean away every single drop of blood from Bella's skin. Alice chattered away as we worked, telling Bella about all of the wonderful places they would go to find the finest clothes after she woke up. I didn't think she could hear her, but I knew from experience that it was more for Alice's benefit than Bella's.
I wiped away the splatters of blood on Bella's abdomen, pleased to see that the incision was completely healed. No bruises. No marks. I also noticed that her skin was beginning to feel firmer, less fragile to me. Alice helped me wash her hair, something I had done many times on the island but never like this. The color was the same... but different. It seemed richer, deeper. A warm mahogany waterfall.
When we were finished, I let Alice dress her in the gown she'd been speaking of earlier. Ice blue satin. The color on Bella was breathtaking, but I couldn't hide my smirk at the design of the gown.
"What?" Alice huffed.
"Nothing, Alice. It's a beautiful dress."
"But?" She put her hands on her hips and huffed again loudly.
"Well... it's just that... isn't it rather... formal? It's just so... not Bella." That was the only way I could describe it. She looked amazing in it, but my bet would be that she wouldn't go near that dress with a ten foot pole under any other circumstance.
"Edward, don't you dare ruin this! She deserves to look her best, this should be a celebration." She looked down at her thoughtfully before turning back to me. "Can you believe how beautiful she is now?"
"She was always beautiful!" I growled.
"Yes, yes. I know. I agree. Don't get grouchy on me, now." She paused for a moment and spun on her heels, heading towards the door. "I know what you need to cheer you up." Her voice trailed behind her as she left the room.
"Don't you listen to her, Bella. You have always been so beautiful that it made my heart hurt." I stroked her hair away from her face and leaned down, kissing her softly on the cheek. Somewhere downstairs I could hear a scuffle brewing.
"He's already seen her twice today. If he can't be bothered to come down here to see her then I don't see why we need to keep taking her up there." Rosalie. Figures.
"Oh, stop being a bitch. You two have hogged her all day. You know he can't leave Bella when she's like this. If this makes him happy and lets him stop worrying for even five minutes, it's worth it. It's the only times I've seen him smile in days." Thanks, Alice.
"I'm still not sure this is safe." A roomful of groans followed. "What? She could wake up when you least expect it. How is it safe to have her up there?" Fucking mongrel.
"Oh, for Heaven's sake!" Frustration evident in her voice now. "Would you lighten up, Jacob?! We will all know when it's time, and we will all do our part to keep her safe. Now give her to me." You tell him, Alice!
A few moments later I heard the familiar light thrumming sound that I had come to know so well already. The closer it got to me, the better I felt. I turned to face the door just as Alice reappeared, a tiny bundle cradled lovingly in her arms.
"Yes, that's right! It's time to see Daddy again!" Alice patted the little hand that touched her neck. She looked down at her briefly, interpreting the next images she was receiving. "No. Jacob doesn't need to be here right now. You can play with him later." Almost a cold tone. Not that I blamed her one bit. Fucking mongrel.
I went to them with my arms out, unable to keep the smile from my face. As soon as the warm little package was delivered to me my world seemed almost right again. Alice left quietly, giving us our privacy. I spent nearly 30 seconds just gazing at her, noting all of the small changes that had already taken place since earlier that afternoon. Her hair was slightly longer, with a bit more curl. Her features seemed more developed, sharper. And damn if she hadn't gotten more beautiful. There was so much of me in her features now, but nothing could dim the rich brown of Bella's eyes that looked up at me.
For all the time that I spent studying her, she did the same. She looked as if she were memorizing everything about me with her too-wise eyes. She must have decided that she liked what she saw, since an enormous smile broke out on her face that matched my own. I leaned over her gently and placed a soft kiss on her forehead, inhaling deeply as I pulled away. Her scent was like nothing I'd ever known and everything I'd ever loved all wrapped up in one.
"Hello baby girl," I whispered. "I've missed you." I cuddled her closely for a while in silence until Renesmee lifted her tiny, plump fingers towards my face. "Alright, little one. Tell me about your day." I leaned forward until she could reach my cheek. The moment her palm touched my skin the images started flooding into my mind.
We had discovered fairly early on that Renesmee was highly gifted, aside from her rapid growth. She didn't speak yet, but she had her own way of communicating by touch. The moment she touched anyone she could send images from her mind to theirs. I didn't need the contact with my ability, I could already see what she was thinking, but it was still rather staggering to experience for the first time. While her mother was a brick wall that I couldn't break through, she literally threw her thoughts at me.
I slowly walked around the room, absorbing pictures from earlier that day. Rosalie rocking her in a chair. Alice playing peek-a-boo. Jasper watching and smiling. Carlisle trying once again to feed her formula. Esme successfully feeding her blood. Emmett blowing raspberries on her cheeks. And of course... Jacob. I tried not to roll my eyes at these images. Jacob rocking her to sleep. Jacob laughing at her biting him. Jacob making silly faces at her. Jacob, Jacob, Jacob.
Barf.
We were also shocked to discover that Jacob had finally imprinted. On my daughter. My tiny, newborn daughter. And Renesmee was just as taken with him. I understood how the process worked; I knew that it wasn't something inappropriate, but that didn't make me any happier about it. I felt like I'd only had seconds with her before she already "belonged" to someone else.
I couldn't even imagine how furious Bella was going to be.
I was pulled from my thoughts of wolficide by a sudden image of Bella. Poor Bella, so bloody and exhausted. I noticed that Renesmee was trying to look in her direction. She was remembering the first time she'd seen her again. It was an image that she showed me rather frequently.
"Let's go see Mommy." I carried her over to Bella's bedside and turned her so that she could see her face clearly. "See? She's alright. Much better than before. She's only sleeping right now. She's going to be so happy to see you again, Renesmee." She smiled again, brighter than the sunshine, and I swear that my heart did a flip.
I walked around the room a bit more, stopping at the window to point at different things and tell her what they were. This was one of her favorite things to do so far, she soaked up information like a sponge. As she listened to my voice longer she looked back at my face, raising up her tiny hand again. This time when I lowered my cheek to her I was shown an image that I hadn't seen before.
Everything was very dark, but I could hear muffled noises, as if through water. I began hearing my own voice, a bit warbled through the fluid, but I was singing. I listened closely, suddenly remembering this moment. It was when I was singing Bella to sleep.
While she was still pregnant.
This was a memory from inside the womb.
After all of the crazy new things she was experiencing, she still remembered my singing that she had only heard briefly while waiting to be born.
My God. Will I ever stop being amazed by this little thing?
"That's right," I said, clearing my throat, trying not to choke on a happy sob. "That was me. Did you like that? Do you like it when Daddy sings to you?" I was granted another spectacular smile. I started humming as I walked her around, rocking her slowly in my arms to the beat. I decided to stick with The Beatles, something sweet and simple.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life...
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
I watched as her heavy lids slowly closed, finally giving in to her busy day. I trailed off the song to a quiet hum again, watching as her little eyes moved in her sleep and her breathing became more steady.
There were still moments when all I could think about was my attitude towards Bella's pregnancy. The horrible way I had thought and acted. When I looked at the precious gift sleeping in my arms it was impossible to reconcile. I quickly quashed any feelings of guilt that tried to rise. I knew that I couldn't change the past now, I could only focus on the future.
This baby was going to have a happy life. My baby. Our baby.
Sensing that Renesmee had fallen asleep, Alice returned to the room. I carefully handed her over, but not before leaving another gentle kiss on her cheek.
"Sleep tight, baby girl," I whispered softly. "I love you."
I watched as Alice carried her away, back to the den of hungry baby worshipers. I missed her already, but I knew that I would see her again in a few hours. I walked back to Bella, returning to my bedside vigil. I listened to the sluggish rhythm of her heart, knowing that before too long it would start racing for the final time. I took her hand in mine and raised it to my lips, kissing her fingers.
"Please come back to me soon, love. It doesn't feel right, having this time with our daughter without you. We should be together as a family." I looked at her face, so deceptively peaceful. What Hell was she going through? Would she remember me at all? Would she regret?
I sat down, still holding her hand, and laid my head on her stomach.
"I miss you. So very much."
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She came back to me the next day.
We had all heard her heart; had all recognized the signs. We were there to greet her, ready for any possibility.
Or so we thought.
Emmett and Jasper had been ready to hold her back, to keep her from attacking anyone in her confusion. But they weren't needed. She kept herself in check instantaneously with merely a thought. None of us knew how to react to a newborn that had so much control.
And I had no idea how to react to the sight of her.
Breathtaking was putting it mildly. It was still her, only intensified. Sharpened. Flawless. Even her blood red eyes did nothing to detract from her beauty.
I had been so worried that she wouldn't know me, that she would need to re-learn our past, but I couldn't have been more wrong.
When I saw the look of recognition spark on her face at seeing me, I was so relieved. I had slowly walked towards her, taking it easy, ready to defend myself if I had to. As she watched me, her expression changed. So many emotions played across her face in the blink of an eye. Surprise. Relief. Happiness. Desire?
She lunged at me, but rather than fighting me she wrapped her arms around me and squeezed. Hard. It hurt. I broke her hold and reminded her to be careful, that she was the one who could hurt me now. That was definitely going to take some getting used to, but I'd much rather be the one having some mild discomfort instead of her risking serious injury every time we were together.
She stared at me so hard I thought something was wrong, until I realized that she was trying to remember something. So slowly that it had to have been maddening to her, she raised her hand and gently stroked my cheek with her fingertips. I immediately felt that electric current that flowed between us, only now it was even stronger.
Staring deep into my eyes, she said the one thing that I needed to hear more than anything at that moment.
"I love you."
I couldn't have held back my answering smile if my life had depended on it. My beautiful wife was back... and she remembered me. Not only did she remember me... she loved me. I felt like I was floating away, drifting on giddy clouds of happiness.
"As I love you."
I slowly reached out and cupped her face in my hands. I simply had to kiss her. I had never felt so compelled. Even if it was just a tiny peck, I had to feel her lips again. I leaned in, closing the distance, taking in everything around us. I gently brushed my lips against hers, showing her my love. The electricity returned as soon as our flesh met. I deepened the kiss a bit more, seeking out her spark, breathing her in.
So luscious so delicious so amazing so MINE!
Her rich scent shifted as I kissed her, revealing the powerful smell of her passion and lust. There was no smell of blood clouding up my senses now, just pure unadulterated lust. The electric current shot fire through my veins, making my body leap to attention.
I deepened the kiss further still, forgetting myself. I wanted to spend eternity forgetting myself with her, starting right now. I slid my hands to the back of her head and pulled her further into me, and for the very first time while kissing her, I opened my mouth. My tongue slid out and licked at her lips, seeking entrance. She parted them eagerly and moaned, a sound that was quite welcome to my lust-addled brain. My tongue swept inside her hungry mouth, slipping and sliding against hers until I was mimicking what I wanted to do with other parts of my body to hers. The other parts of my body that were standing up and applauding this very delicious kiss.
Bella melted into me, wrapping her leg around my hip as her arms carefully stroked along my back. I was so turned on that I began kissing her even more fiercely, almost rough against her lips as I stabbed at her with my tongue. She swallowed my kisses, sucking my tongue in deeper as we both panted frantically, inhaling each other, tasting what had always been forbidden.
Her tongue tastes almost as sweet as her pussy. I can't wait until I can-
"A-hem!" Emmett cleared his throat, bringing us both back to the here and now. Bella looked down and saw how entangled we'd become and quickly removed herself, a look of sheer embarrassment on her face. I couldn't resist a chuckle as we both turned to face our patient family, but Bella kept staring at me with a look of wonderment. I couldn't keep from feeling more than a bit smug at her reaction.
Just wait. There's more where that came from, baby.
"You've been holding out on me!" she whispered.
I couldn't help it. I laughed. I laughed loud and hard, letting the much needed relief wash over me.
"It was sort of necessary at the time," I chuckled. "Now it's your turn to not break me." I laughed again, feeling high on my happiness.
Carlisle grilled Bella on her transformation and what she remembered, trying to get a better idea of what to do in the future should the need ever arise again. Her grasp on her surroundings was unprecedented. He was not the only one fascinated by her answers and reactions. As I looked around the room I noticed nothing but slack-jawed faces and astonishment.
Before long Carlisle pointed out that she must be quite thirsty and I felt horrible at not thinking of it sooner. My only defense was that I had been absolutely hypnotized by her, and our fiery kiss had only sent my thoughts so far into the gutter that I wasn't focusing on the essentials.
Bella badly wanted to see Renesmee, needing solid proof that she hadn't only dreamed of meeting a tiny angel before her change, but we all thought that she should hunt first. We had no idea how she would react to her scent and the last thing she needed right now was to attack her own child. It took some convincing on my part, but I finally got her to agree to go hunting with me. I had to admit that it was a slight bruise to my ego; she had always longed to be allowed to see me hunt.
We went out the window and headed into the woods, racing each other to test out her new abilities. I was still slightly faster, but not by much. I let her win the first race but she quickly called me on it. I couldn't find it in myself to feel bad about it, though. I was too excited by this feeling of truly having a partner.
An ungodly sexy partner at that.
At some point she had ripped open her gown, slitting the sides all the way up to her hips so that she could jump easier. I couldn't stop sneaking glances at her shapely legs, all tightly toned muscle and sinew.
I blame those sexy legs for my lack of forethought.
I had made a nearly tragic error by not scanning the woods properly for humans. I had assumed that for the time of year and as far out as we were, there wouldn't be any nearby. I was wrong.
I was wrong, and I blame those fucking sexy legs for distracting me.
She had taken off like a shot the second she caught their scent on the breeze. I tore after her, praying that I could stop her before the carnage was so bad that she would never forgive herself.
Fucking idiot! You stupid, horny idiot! This is all your fault!
But being Bella, she managed to completely shock me again. She just... stopped. Once her concentration had been broken when she sensed I was following her, she made a conscious effort to just... stop. I couldn't fathom it. This was not normal newborn behavior and I couldn't figure out how she was doing it. I wanted nothing more than to be able to see into her mind at that moment, to make sense of her thoughts and emotions. It was beyond frustrating.
Have I mentioned that I hate being frustrated?
Once we were a safe distance away I tried asking her how she did it. She couldn't answer me. She had no idea, herself. Her thoughts and emotions were so easily distractible that she couldn't focus long enough to think about it.
The only thing that she did seem to be able to focus on was not helping me be a gentleman. I had been lusting after her from the moment she woke up and trying my hardest to keep it to myself. Our kiss had been a total slip of my control, but I had been so overwhelmed that I couldn't stop. Normally sex was very low on a newborn's list of priorities and that was one of the only reasons that Bella had finally been willing to think about putting off her change. For some it could take years to feel even remotely human again, with any need other than feeding. Because of this I had planned to keep a respectful distance and never pressure her. I would be waiting when she was ready.
Which is why I was completely dumbfounded at her next words.
She had slowly reached up and traced my lips with her fingertips, staring at my mouth with a hungry look in her eyes. I fought back my urge to pounce on her, letting her explore with what I assumed was her basic curiosity.
"I thought I wouldn't feel this way for a long time?" She sounded as confused as I felt. "But I still want you."
Oh holy fuck.
There was no misinterpreting that.
"How can you even concentrate on that?! Aren't you unbearably thirsty?" Part of me couldn't believe that I wasn't already dragging her to the ground and ravishing her, but my shock had won out.
My reminder of her thirst set us off to finish our hunt. I held myself in check as I watched Bella try to figure out her first kill. She had taken down a mountain lion, and while the rational part of my brain knew that she would be fine, it was hard to make the emotional side understand that she didn't need my protection. With great effort I stayed put, leaning back on a tree, ready to jump in at the first sign of trouble.
After a few seconds of wrestling with the beast Bella quickly got her feel for it, making my anxiety completely futile. As I watched her sink her teeth into the animal's neck I was surprised to find myself becoming aroused again. Her mouth was very unskilled yet and working on instinct alone, but the sight of her succulent lips overflowing with fresh blood was doing a number on my body. When she had finally drained the lion of its life she stood up and turned to face me, making me grip the tree behind me so hard that I gouged deep claw marks into the bark.
Her hair was a wild, tangled mess with leaves sticking out here and there. She had dirt streaks across her body. The lion had clawed at her in their fight, leaving her dress in tatters. And she was covered in blood.
She looked more erotic than I had ever fantasized, like a wild wood nymph sent to lure me to my death.
I tried to make small talk, to compliment her first attempt, but I couldn't keep my eyes from wandering down her body. They kept lingering on the numerous exposed bits of creamy white flesh that were streaked with blood. She looked delicious, and I was becoming more ravenous by the second.
She was Sin personified, and I wanted to be a very sinful boy.
In an attempt to distract myself from my wicked thoughts I suggested that we continue our hunt. We fell on a group of deer and drank our fill, Bella stopping after a while to admire my technique. When I was finished I went to her, making sure that she was full and had no desire to continue. As we spoke I saw her emotions flicker and change, leaving a look of sadness on her face.
"I want to see Renesmee," she sighed. Yes, it was time. She had been kept from her long enough, and to be perfectly honest I was missing her, too.
I smiled and held out my hand to her, thrilling at the feel of our skin touching when she took it. I saw her expression quickly change again when she felt my hand with her own. She looked from our joined hands up to my face, studying me closely and slowly taking in all of the changes made by our hunt. She reached out and stroked my cheek once, then again. Her touch was as light as a feather, but it left flames behind in its wake.
"You are so warm now. So soft," she marveled.
And getting hotter by the second, my dear.
Bella closed the distance between us, and with visible concentration she slowly stretched up onto her tiptoes and gently wrapped her arms around my neck. This brought her body flush against the front of mine, crushing her lush, half-exposed breasts into my chest. She lowered her nose to the side of my neck and inhaled deeply, making a noise deep in her throat that could only be described as half growling, half purring.
Keep it together, keep it together, don't attack her, she needs time
"Oh Edward... you smell... so wonderful." Every few words were separated by her taking another deep sniff. "There's something... different. I can't place it, but it wasn't there earlier. Not like this." Another long drag. "Oh God, what is it? It's so... delicious!"
Could it be? Could Bella actually be smelling my lust?
"Well," I gulped, "I can only guess, but I think you might be smelling my... my arousal."
My body was starting to tremble from all of the effort it was taking to hold back. She purred even deeper, which vibrated through her chest and into mine. Stretching up even further against me, she ran her nose from my collarbone up to my ear, only pulling away far enough to whisper.
"Mmm... I just want to eat you up." And with that she slipped her velvety tongue between her lips and flicked it against my earlobe, bringing her razor sharp teeth down quickly and nipping me lightly, breaking the skin and causing a familiar sting. But it was a sting that had never felt so good.
Alright, that's it! Fuck control!
My body had taken over, unable to take any more torture. My arms acted on their own, grabbing Bella around the waist and yanking her even closer against me. My lips came crashing down on hers roughly, kissing her with all of the violent passion that I had been bottling up inside of me.
Our tongues began a battle for dominance, forcing their way into each other's mouths. I swallowed her moans deep inside of me and gave her mine in return. Bella reached up and sank her hands into my hair, pulling me deeper into her mouth. It was rough. It was hungry. It was animal. It was perfect.
I pulled away slightly, trailing my tongue around her mouth, licking the blood from her skin. She arched her neck back and pulled me with her until I was following the rivulets of blood along her jawline and further down her throat, licking and sucking her alabaster skin clean.
Bite her. Now. Show her who is in control.
What? Where had that come from? Why would I still want to bite her?
I raised my mouth back to hers, away from her throat and sudden unexpected temptations. Our lips locked in another fiery kiss just as Bella leaned forward with too much force, sending us toppling to the ground. She landed on top of me, straddling my hips and my now very prominent erection.
"Oops!" she giggled. "I didn't mean to tackle you like that. Are you okay?"
I looked down at the position we were in and then back up to her. Here was this woman, this goddess, this sultry sex-kitten with her glowing skin and tattered dress, perched on top of my rock hard cock and asking if I was okay.
I reached up one hand and cupped her cheek, reaching my thumb over and stroking her lips. My other hand that had still been around her waist slid down to cup her bottom and pull her onto me more firmly. "Slightly better than okay." I answered, grinding myself against her wet heat that I could feel through her thin dress.
She froze and we locked eyes, almost daring each other to make the next move. Bella caved first, her newborn patience nothing compared to mine. She grabbed hold of both sides of my shirt and ripped it wide open, sending buttons flying to all corners of the forest, the sounds of them landing in the leaves echoing in my ears. She gazed down at my naked chest, her eyes pure fire. Leaning over quickly, she circled first one firm nipple, then the other with her tongue, clamping down on them firmly with her mouth and suckling hard. I felt my eyes roll back in my head at the new sensation and growled loudly, bucking my hips in response.
Bella sat up and arched her back, letting out a loud moan as she grabbed my hands and placed them on her breasts, making me squeeze them so hard that it hurt my hands. I sat up and buried my face in her tits, continuing to grope them roughly as she wrapped her legs around my waist. I tore at the flimsy remains of satin that covered her chest, revealing first one, then another hardened peak. I sought them out with my hungry mouth, feeling her hands rake through my hair again and grab large handfuls, anchoring me against her savagely as I feasted on the turgid flesh.
Yes! Mine mine mine mine MINE!
I could feel the ends of Bella's long mahogany locks flicking against my thighs as she arched even further back at an impossible angle, rolling her hips into mine repeatedly as I continued to devour her.
"So... good... Edward... oh yes!"
I could tell from her responses that I could make her climax from nothing more than sucking on her nipples if I wanted to, but I couldn't resist sliding my hands back down to her ass and pulling her against my erection until she was angled perfectly for the best friction possible. We rocked into each other, grinding and moaning, feeling each other so perfectly that it was as if there were no barriers between us.
"Edward... I want you so badly! Will you take me now? Here?"
I wanted nothing more, but something was nagging at me. I knew that we had to stop. I knew that we had been away for much too long and they would start to get worried if we did not return, fearing the worst. My brain knew this, but my body was not ready to listen.
Bullshit! Throw her down and fuck her! Now! Bury yourself inside her and sate your lust!
No... we won't be able to stop... we need to get back... Renesmee is waiting.
Renesmee.
That final thought finally pierced through my mind, bringing me back to reality. We had all of eternity to do this. We only had once to meet our daughter together as a family. I knew this was going to be difficult to stop, but once Bella was thinking more clearly I knew she would agree.
I looked back at her, writhing in my lap and moaning, ready to come at any moment. I knew that I could stop right now without taking her if I forced myself, but did I really want to deprive her of all pleasure? No. We needed this quick release... but I could not enter her body like I wanted so badly to do, or else we would never leave.
I slid my hand between our bodies and under her skirt, bringing it back to right above where we were rocking together. I felt the moisture at her thighs and suppressed a shudder, knowing that this was going to be an extreme test of my will. I slipped my thumb between her wet folds, settling on the tight bundle of nerves that would be her undoing.
"Bella," I gasped as she ground even harder into me, "Come for me, baby. I want to make you come before we have to go back."
"Not without you," she panted, already starting to make small circles with her hips that caused her swollen clit to rub against my thumb in just the right way. I added more pressure and began sliding my thumb up and down, eliciting louder moans from her gorgeous mouth.
"Believe me, Bella... this already feels so fucking good... seeing you come will send me over the edge." Something in my face must have made her believe me, or else she was so close that she just couldn't care anymore, but she began rocking into me furiously, grinding her wet pussy against me until my toes wanted to curl. I could feel her so well... I was so close...
Don't stop don't stop for fuck's sake don't stop!
I applied even more pressure with my thumb and thrust harder, stimulating her in multiple places at once. She started twitching and shaking above me and I knew it would be any moment now.
"Come on baby... come for me Bella. Ride my cock and come for me now!" I growled the last at her, sending her over the edge. She threw her head back and screamed, spasming against my body as she found her release.
"Oh God, Edward. Yes!"
As soon as I saw her face and smelled her climax begin, my own started. I held her hips and thrust against her, so close... so fucking close...
Bella grabbed my hand from between her thighs, riding out the last waves of her orgasm and desperate to share it with me. She shoved my thumb between my lips roughly, which forced me to suck her juices from my skin.
Oh holy fuck, that did it! Yes yes yes yes yes so fucking good!
"Ungh!" I groaned around my thumb, which she was still holding in place until I was done. She leaned over and sucked on my neck, stopping to scream into my skin as we both rode out the final wave.
I held her like that for what could have been hours but I hoped was only a few minutes. The world had stopped around us. It was much to easy to forget that anything else even existed. We were together in each other's arms again and reluctant to let anything else intrude.
There was only one thing that was important enough to break through our little bubble of happiness. I looked at Bella and smiled.
"Renesmee?"
"Renesmee," she answered.
She stood up in one fluid motion and pulled me with her. We ran back towards the house, a new purpose fueling our excitement.
I couldn't wait to get Bella alone later and finish what we had started out there in the woods, but for now I was happy focusing on my new goal.
I was going to properly introduce my wife to our daughter.
We were about to become a family.
A/N: So? What did you think? Please let me know! My reviews (or lack thereof) really frustrate me on here, because I have so many people who favorite or alert this fic, but the reviews are nowhere near that number. Over on Twilighted I have so many more for the very same story, and I love it so much because I can hear what everyone's thoughts were and what they liked or didn't like. Please let me know what you thought about this!
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