Chapter 10

Hey guys, here's another one. Am trying to be quick with these updates before i have a mind to abandon the story. Keep on shipping and drop a review when ever you can.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up."- Quote by I don't know who, but it's nice.

Louise feels dreadful. He has been such a coward not going to see Donna in prison all this while. Now she's going to be married to Harvey and be transferred to another prison facility tomorrow. All in a day's time. He won't be able to see her again properly outside of prison if he doesn't see her now. He hates prisons and seeing Donna in one will not be too good for him. That's why he had been avoiding going to visit her all this while. He never visited Mike while he was in prison. It wasn't because he blamed him for the trouble he caused the Firm or any such thing contrary to what most had assumed was his reason for not visiting. It was simply because he hates prisons. He has an unhealthy phobia of prisons and he would just die if he were to be in one ever. For a lawyer that wasn't very proper and he was truly ashamed of himself. He could not stand seeing someone he loved so much in prison and he has to see her and try and explain himself to her. He makes his way to Harvey's apartment praying that she will find it in her heart to forgive him. He finds a government issued SUV parked outside Harvey's apartment building with two guys in suits keeping watch .Typical, he snorts, where do they think she's going to go? She's with Harvey for goodness's sake. They can't even give her a moment to peace. He has a mind to go tell them to take a hike. He walks into the building, its sometime after 7. It's an appropriate time right, it's not like late or anything. He talks to the security at the entrance and he is led to sit in the lobby while they make the call. He hopes Harvey will just be kind enough to let him see Donna just this once. The wedding announcement had come as a shock, granted Harvey does love Donna, given his panic attacks and all the tell tell signs. Louise ain't clueless. But a wedding? Harvey Specter's wedding; he never thought he'd live long enough to see the day. The security guard comes back to inform him that there is no response from Mr Specter's apartment.

"Well maybe he's busy or something, it won't take long. I just need a few minutes." He says

"I am sorry, we've been given specific instructions..." the guard starts

"I am sorry my ass. Do you remember the last time I was here what I promised to do to you if you didn't let me through?" Louise threatened. "Well I am promising it again right now. In fact I would do the absolute worst that you would wish you had never won the green card that got you out of Siberia to this God given country." Louise barks.

The guard just backs off and lets him through.

He takes the elevator up to Harvey's floor, walks through the lobby towards his door. His phone rings at that moment. He looks at the caller ID and shit, its Jessica. He still could almost shit in his pants when she calls, even now when she's no longer his boss.

"Jessica is everything alright?"

"Everything is fine Louise. Where are you right now?"

"I am ...I ... I am at Harvey's. I just got here actually, I wanted to say hi to Donna." he stummerd

"Louse get the hell out of there right now, give the two some privacy. What the hell's wrong with you? Can't you take a hint?" she yells at him.

"Jessica I ... I won't be able to see her after tomorrow and..."

"Louise get out of there right now. Who let you up anyway?"

"I am not even there yet, I am in the lobby. The guard let me up."

"Did Harvey say you should go up?" she asks not believing him

"Well no, Harvey didn't even answer his phone. He..."

"Then how the hell did you get up there?"

"The guard... he..."

"Louise I don't want to hear it, just get out of there now."

"Why Jessica?" I just..."

She sighed through the phone, exasperated. "Do you really want me to spell it out for you? They are probably having sex right now. They are not to be disturbed."

"Jessica..." he is in full defiant mode but then what Jessica said finally registers. "They're... what? EEwww Jessica ..." he stammers

"Thats right, now get out of there." She says

"Right, absolutely. Eewww Jessica the picture you just painted in my head." He says walking back to the elevator. "I am gonna need a day."

...

"Ok now calm down, i have a plan."

"What plan Harvey? What the hell is going on here?" she asks

"Donna go change right now I have some clothes for you in my bedroom." He all but hustles her into the bedroom. There's a pair of jeans,a coat and a t shirt on his bed; her clothes. He must have gone through her closet. She puts the clothes on hastily, judging by his all hustly mood she's going to have to be quick. She hears him knocking on the bedroom door. "Donna are you done?" he asks

She steps out of the room all dressed up and ready. She notices that he had already changed out of his suit into a pair of jeans , a shirt and jacket.

"There's another exit in this building that goes straight to the garage down stairs." He says hustling her out the door into the hall way. "Everything is all packed, we're leaving." He says. He had packed three bags for her, Donna had plenty of stuff and what he got was no where near enough but that was the best he could do. His own stuff could only fit in one bag, the necessary stuff.

"Harvey wait. What?" she asks incredulously

"Donna not now, we don't have much time. Just trust me ok.' He says leading her down the stair to the garage. He helps her into the car and drives off. The goons that Cahill had posted will be keeping watch on the front door. That should buy them sometime till the morning. They drive off in silence. He is so lost in his own mind, adrenaline pumping. He has everything in place and the people he cares about have plausible deniability.

"Harvey what are we doing?"She asks again sternly this time.

"Were leaving Donna what does it look like?"He says curtly

She reels from that tone. He seems so wound up, so apprehensive. He would be wouldn't he? He's running away with her. He is breaking the law for her. He's literary signing up to be a fugitive. And if they get caught, he'll spend the rest of his life in prison. And now what good will that do? God what was he thinking? All of this is going through her mind as they drive on in a tense silence. They had driven for miles now to God only knows where. She can't. She just can't let him throw his life away like that, even for her.

"Stop the car." she says quetly. He doesn't stir, so lost in his own thoughts

"Stop the car Harvey right now." She yells this time and he just looks at her driving.

"Donna what are you doing?"He asks puzzled

"I said stop the goddamn car Harvey. Right the hell now!"

He slows down to the road side and then stops. He looks at her askance. "What is it." He asks

She just opens the door and starts walking backwards in the direction they were coming from. The cold air hitting her face but she doesn't care. What the hell did he just got himself into? She will hitch hike but on this road and at this time of the night, it seemed impossible. She will turn herself to Cahill and proceed with the transfer and Harvey will still have his life back.

He pulls her hand from behind her and she turns around to look at him. "Donna stops."

"What the hell Harvey. What do you think you are doing? I am not going anywhere with you." she tells at him

"Donna look, I know I have taken you by surprise and ..."

"Surprise? That's one hell of an understatement Harvey. Surprise is you showing up at my door step with a bunch of flowers in your hands. This is ..." she can't finish as she is just lost for words.

"Donna..."
"Harvey, we can't do this. Ok? You will be leaving your life here. Leaving everything, becoming a fugitive. I can't let you do that. Look we still have time, we can still go back. Keep whatever deal you made with Cahill cause I doubt it had anything to do with you running away with me." She says

"Donna I can't have you in jail, not for one more second." He says

"So what, you're just going to throw your life away? I can't have you do that."

"Donna..."

"No Harvey. You're the one who always says that people who love other people would not put them in a position to break the law. I can't let you do this."

"I admit I have said that and it's true. But there is a greater truth. That people who love other people will break every goddamned law in the book for them."

"Harvey you are leaving everything. Everything, your life here the law for goodness's sake, you are managing partner now. This was your dream. Don't throw it away." She pleads with him, looking into his eyes. Hers already smarting with tears.

He takes a step towards her and cradles her cheek in his hand. "Donna when are you going to start to realize that you are everything to me. Nothing else matters if I don't have you."

"You won't be able to practice the law if you become a fugitive. You love the law."

"I love you more. "He says. "Donna take a good look at me." he says , arms spread out in demonstration. "This is all of me, everything. I don't want to live without you. I am a total mess." His heart is breaking and he can't seem breath all that well anymore. "I love you Donna." The words are come out small and strangled from his throat, like they are trying to find their way through a rusty pipe line. He should use those words more. It shouldn't hurt so much to say them. But it hurts because he means them. And it makes him want to cry because now, before this amazing woman is he completely weak. He is vulnerable and exposed, and its not a good feeling. It hurts like hell.

Her breath catches at his declaration of love. She won't ask him how or why this time. He's shown her how. Its in his eyes,in the way that he is right now. And Harvey doesn't do any fancy words. It doesn't get any better than this with Harvey. His heart is in his eyes and her heart hurts from the magnitude of the love she feels for him. It's overwhelming. "Oh my baby." She whispers, her hand on his face and tears streaming down her face. He loves her. He truly loves her. It was beyond what she had ever dreamed of or hoped for. She never thought she could ever be loved so completely.

He leans down and kisses, her slowly at first, then the heat takes over ,passionately. Savoring every feeling, every taste of her. This is the second time he is kissing her for that day, after ten years. And he doesn't know how he was able to live without this for ten years.