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Chapter 9 – The oldest story in the world
I was looking out the window as rain was falling hard on the ground. Weather was always gloomy in the English countryside but this was the rainiest summer that the whole country had ever seen in the past fifty years, according always to Dumbledore.
It had been a difficult summer. I had lost a master and I had found some friends. I had lost my faith in love but now I was starting to believe again…
I really had no other option… The sight of Lily and James along with their little son was formidable. Lily was glowing from happiness, James seemed more relaxed now and little Harry…
Little Harry….
Never in my immortal life I thought I could ever feel this dedication and love towards another creature like little Harry. But I did. I loved that kid with every ounce of my existence and that said a lot considering how long I could exist…
He was perfect and I was in an emotional state that I swore I would never be in again. Dazzled. Absolutely and irrevocably dazzled by that little man!
I would die willingly for him. I would always protect him. I would do anything for him….
Had I gone crazy??
Possibly…
Did I care?
Not at all….
Remus, Sirius and Hagrid were in a better state than I was. They were going crazy all over Harry too but not as much as I did…
I had delivered him into this world and that had created a bond between us that I had no way to break. So, I fully intended to live with it…
Dumbledore was very happy with the way things evolved. He was happy for Lily and James, he was hopeful for me and he was completely in love with Harry just like the rest of us!!!
Currently, the little miracle was sleeping peacefully and we were all relaxing in the living room. James and Lily were cuddling in the sofa while Remus and Sirius were playing wizard's chess. Needless to say, Remus was winning; again!
"So, what's the news?" Lily asked
"Two deatheaters attacks. Voldemort is nowhere to be seen" answered James silently
"He's around here somewhere!! I mean where else could the scumbug be?" Sirius answered
"He doesn't necessarily stays in one place" I said
"What do you mean?" James asked
"Well, he travels… He never says when and where but he does" I replied
"How often?" Remus asked seriously
"Two maybe three times a year. But he stays away for some time." I said to him
"Where could he be?" Lily said
"Honestly, Lily, I have no idea!!! For all I know he could be anywhere!!!"
"But how do you know that he goes out of country when he's not there?" Remus asked curiously
"Well, I know cause I kind of met him in one of those trips" I replied quietly
"What do you mean? Where?" Lily asked stunned
"In Canada"
"Huh?" Sirius said
"I met him in Canada and he forced me to go with him when he figured he couldn't use legilimensy on me" I told them quickly
They were all looking at me with wide eyes.
"I'm not lying" I told them
"Of course not!" Lily said reassuringly
"But why on earth was he there?" Remus asked stunned
"I don't know. I don't remember much; just the pain" I answered
"So what were you doing there?" Sirius asked
"My old home was close by" I told them sadly
"You know, Izzie, now that you can control yourself you could go back" said Remus
"I could but I don't want to" I declared firmly
Lily sighed and James rubbed her back soothingly
"What?" I asked
"Well, Iz it's just that you never told us anything about your past!" Sirius answered my question
The others looked at him angrily
"What?" he said
"Oh, pady!!! You are tactless!!!" Lily said desperately and I smiled
"It's true" I said
"I haven't told you anything about my past because for the past two years I've been trying hard not to think about it!!!"
"So, there was something wrong!!!" Sirius shouted again and the others sighed
"Yes, there was!!" I answered
"So will you tell us??" Sirius asked eagerly
Lily slapped him on his arm
"What now??" he asked confused
"Maybe she doesn't want to tell us, mate!!!" answered Remus exasperated
"No, but maybe she should" said James silently
"James Potter!!!" Lily said angrily
"Izzie, I owe you, I really do!!!" he said looking only at me
"We are friends I think?" he continued
"Yes" I answered immediately
"You know our stories" he said again
"Yes" I answered
"I want to know your story now!" he told me silently
I looked at the others; they were all very silent.
This was important. They had helped me, I had heard their stories and saved their lives but I had never trusted them with my biggest secret; my past. They knew this; the next words that would come out of my mouth would define what kind of relationship we would have….
"Alright" I said
They all smiled reassuringly. I went and took a seat in the armchair across the sofa.
"When I was a human I lived in Phoenix" I said
"But that's not close to Canada" Sirius told me. This time both Lily and Remus slapped him on his arms
"What?" he said
"Shut up!!!" Remus, James and Lily told him
I smiled and continued
"My parents were divorced. When I turned seventeen my mother remarried. Phil was a nice guy and she was happy with him except the fact that he travelled a lot. My mum couldn't go with him…"
"Because you were still in school" Remus guessed and I nodded
"I decided I was a burden and that I needed to spend some quality time with my father before going to college. So, I moved in with him in Forks, Washington."
"You left?" Lily asked stunned and I nodded again
"And your mother accepted it?" she asked again
"It was my decision. She really couldn't do anything. And she was never the type of mother that really knew how to take care of her child." I answered and she sighed
"So you moved in with your father." Remus said
"Yes and I enrolled in the local high school. I guess you can say that was when the downfall started."
"What do you mean?" James asked
"I'll explain myself. The first day I got to the school everyone's attention was on me. I wasn't happy at all…" I answered
"Yeah, we figured that ourselves!" Sirius said chuckling
I smiled and continued
"I was being drugged in every class by a possible admirer. Even in lunch there was a crowd around me."
Sirius guffawed at this and Remus smiled
"That was when I met them." I said my good mood suddenly gone
"Met who?" James asked seriously
"The… The Cullens" I stuttered
"Who are the Cullens?" Sirius asked curiously
"Let me go on with the story and you'll understand" I replied quietly
"Alright" they said all together
"They were sitting in a table across the hall with trays with untouched food inside them. They were pale and they all had golden eyes."
At this everyone tensed
"They were the foster kids of Doctor Carlisle and Mrs. Esme Cullen; Jasper and Rosalie Hale, Emmet Cullen, A… Alice Cullen and…."
"And?" Lily asked
"And Edward Cullen" I answered quickly
"So what happened?" Sirius asked carefully
"He and I had biology together. He acted as if he hated me although he never knew me. When the class was over he tried to switch classes but he couldn't so he run away."
"What do you mean?" James asked
"He didn't show up in school for a respectful amount of days"
"But he came back" Lily said; it was not a question
"Yes, he came back. There was an accident." I told them
"What kind of accident?" Remus said
"A van almost crashed me in the parking lot. He knocked me out of the way."
"So what was the problem?" Lily asked and I was surprised again with how well she knew me
"He stopped the van with his hand" I replied quietly
"Wonderful!" said Sirius sarcastically
"Yeah, well I figured there was something wrong but he just wouldn't talk to me anymore."
"Until?" Lily asked
"Until one day he told me he shouldn't be my friend but he just couldn't stay away." I told her and James hissed
"Anyway, we started hanging out together"
"You must have been crazy!!!" Remus told me angrily
"I didn't know what he was!" I stated simply
"You knew he was dangerous!!!" he told me again
"Remus!" Lily told him "Go on, Izzie!!"
"I had a friend in the La Push reservation. Jacob Black. His tribe was supposed to be descended from wolves." I said and Remus looked taken aback
"He told me what the Cullens were."
"And?" Sirius asked
"And I decided I didn't care!"
"What?" Remus said and James sighed; he seemed to understand what I was talking about
"We got together"
"You got together with a vampire!! Izzie, you were human you were supposed to be normal!!!" Remus shouted
"You know you sound just like him!!!" I answered angrily
I'm no good for you, Bella….
"Of course he does!!! He always had low self esteem…" Sirius said and then he asked me
"Did he tell you why he acted like that when he first met you?"
"Yes, it was my scent. It was stronger for him than any other human's!" I answered
"Jesus Christ!!!!" said Remus furiously
"Go on" James told me seriously
"We went to play baseball with his family and…"
"How did his family took it?" Lily asked
"His parents Carlisle and Esme were happy for him. Emmet and Alice liked me; we became friends. Jasper… Well, he was the latest add in their diet so he kept his distance from me. And Rosalie…. She was reasonable, I guess. She wasn't happy at all with my presence; she thought I didn't belong there. I couldn't appreciate her opinion until now, really." I told them
"Why…" Sirius asked but Lily cut him
"Go on"
"We went to play baseball. Three other vampires found us. James, Laurent and Victoria; needless to say they weren't vegetarians. James was their leader, ironic isn't it? He decided to kill me just to disturb Edward." I said
"What happened?" James asked
"A chase began with me as a prize. Anyway, the thing is that he almost killed me but the Cullens got to me the last minute and they killed James. He had bitten me however."
"So that's how you became a vampire?" Sirius asked curiously
"No" I answered
"But he bit you" Remus said
"Yes, and he, Edward sucked the venom out!"
"Oh, my God!!! But you were his singer, Izzie!!" Lily shouted amazed
"Yeah, I know…"
"So what went wrong?" James asked
"Everything" I answered
"What do you mean?" Remus asked
"There had been about three months since that fight. It was my birthday."
"Shouldn't that be a festive occasion?" Sirius asked
"It was at first. I was in their house opening my presents."
"And?" they all asked
"And I slid my hand with the paper" I replied simply
"Oh, crap!!" Sirius shouted
"What happened?" Remus asked worried
"Jasper attacked me"
Lily gasped
"Edward protected me. But I fell and cut my arm. Anyway, Carlisle tended me and sent me home."
"So no harm done, right?" Sirius asked again
"No harm done? She could have died!!!" Remus said
"I wish I had" I told them silently
"Don't say that, Izzie!" Lily said with wide eyes
"Go on" James asked
"A few days after that he asked to go for a walk."
"And?" Remus asked me as if knowing what he would hear
"And he told me that he was leaving."
Bella, we're leaving.
When you say we…?
I mean my family and I….
"He could have waited until you finished school!" Lily observed quietly and I looked at her surprised
"No, he couldn't. I wasn't supposed to go with them." I told her
"What Do You Mean?" she said anger evident in her voice
"I mean that he and his family were leaving!" I answered
"Without you?" Sirius asked me stunned and I nodded
"What exactly did he say to you?" he asked
"He said that he was tired of pretending to be a human because he was not and that he didn't want me to go with him."
You don't want me?
No.
"Are you sure you understood correctly?" Sirius asked incredulity lacing in his voice
It will be as if I never existed.
"Yes" I answered
"What about the others?" James asked
"They were already gone." I answered
"Without saying goodbye?" Sirius asked wide eyed; I nodded and then the explosion happened
"How dare they??? How dare he???? After everything you went through to be with him???? How dare he leave you like this????" Lily was on her feet her red hair going to all directions shouting to the top of her lungs!!
"Hush, Lily you'll wake the baby!!" I said
"No, I won't hush!!! Wait until I get him in my hands!!!!!!!" she screamed
"Lily calm down!!! It was three years ago!!!!" I told her
"I don't care!!! He deserves to be tortured until the next century!!!!"
"Lily" James said quietly "Calm down!! Izzie hasn't told us yet how she became a vampire!" he told her hugging her from the back and placing her on his lap
I sighed and continued
"For four months I was depressed. My parents were in the verge of locking me in an asylum."
"But you came around?" Remus asked
"Yes, I did. Jacob was a good friend he helped through it. Of course he had no idea that the legend he once told me in the beach about the Cold Ones was true. He just thought I was recovering from a bad break up." I told them sadly
"So what lead to this?" asked Sirius pointing at me
"For a reason I couldn't comprehend back then Jacob suddenly stopped talking to me. At the time we were searching for a meadow that Edward and I used to go. Of course Jacob didn't know that. I wasn't talking about Edward Cullen to anyone; I was broken beyond repair…"
"So Jacob stopped talking to you before you found the meadow?" James asked
"Yes, but I didn't quit. I was determined to find it." I replied
"Let me guess!!! You found it in the end!!" Remus stated
"Yes, I did. I stepped in and I knew I couldn't take another step so I turned around to leave."
"But you didn't" Lily said
"No. I met someone."
"Who? Edward? The Cullens?" Sirius asked smiling
"Laurent" I answered quietly and everyone gasped
"Oh, my God!!! What did he want, Izzie???" Lily asked scared
"He was looking for me as a favor to Victoria. You see, James was her mate and Edward killed him so she decided it was more fair if she killed me."
"How is that possible?" Sirius asked completely stunned
"Isn't it obvious, padfoot? A mate for a mate…" James replied
"Yes, that was what she thought too. What she didn't count was that Laurent was very thirsty when he found me in the woods."
"He attacked you" Remus said
"Yes"
"You could have died" Lily whispered
"She should have died!!" Remus told her
"What happened?" James asked
"Remember the tribe's legend I told you about?" I asked and they all nodded
"Well, it was true"
"You mean your friend Jacob was a werewolf?" Remus asked
"Not exactly Remus. You see he could transform in the middle of the day which makes me assume he was more of a shape shifter than a real werewolf."
"Well, Dumbledore would be interested!!!" he said
"I bet!" I answered
"So what happened?" James asked
"They killed Laurent but it was too late for me, I was already bitten!"
I sighed
"They sat in a circle around me for three days waiting for the transformation to complete. They believed they had an obligation towards my father. When I woke up after three days of burning they told me that I was banned forthwith from Forks for eternity. I was not allowed to go anywhere near my father again even if I learned how to control myself. In their opinion and especially Jacob's, I brought this all on myself because I just couldn't be normal!"
I looked at the empty fire place
"So, I left. You know the rest."
Silence was reigning in the room. No one was talking. Lily was crying silently in James's chest. Both James and Sirius looked angry and disappointed. Remus was sad.
"Izzie, have you ever thought that maybe he left because he wanted you to have a normal life?" Remus asked suddenly
"What?" I asked stunned
"Maybe he felt guilty about taking away from you all your connections with the human world. Maybe the incident at the party reminded him how difficult things were for you two and that he was putting you in constant danger."
"Remus..." I said while Sirius was saying "And he run away? Very mature!!!"
"But think about it!! It makes sense" Remus insisted
"No, it doesn't!!!" I snapped
"I had made my choice. I would leave everything behind willingly because HE was the very best part of my life!!!"
"Nothing went as it was supposed to go…" James sighed sadly
"Izzie, being bitten doesn't necessarily show he didn't care for her!! Possibly he didn't consider the aspect of Laurent and Victoria coming back!!" Remus shouted
"Why are you siding up with him??" I asked angrily
"Because in a situation like the one you just described, Izzie, he would do exactly the same!" Sirius said
"Of course I would!!!" he snapped angrily
"No, human deserves a monster!!!"
Lily got up quickly and went over to him
"You are not a monster and neither is Izzie!!!! You are both good people who deserve to be happy!! As for Edward Cullen and his family they better not get anywhere near you again!!!!" she said furiously
I sighed
"I'm sorry to upset you, Izzie" said Remus
"That's ok!" I answered
"Tell us about you life with the deatheaters" he said
I explained them how things have been with Dark Lord and the other deatheaters. I explained them that me being bad was only for my survival and not because I shared the vision of a world conquered by my old master.
By the end of the conversation it was almost morning. Harry would wake up soon.
"You should go to bed!! You need your rest" I told Lily and James
Lily smiled and she looked at James; he nodded
"You know, Izzie, I've been meaning to ask you something for the past days!" she said exited
"Shoot" I told her
"Well, Harry is growing up!!" she started
Did she think I was blind?
"Obviously!" I answered
"And he needs people to take care of him!" she continued
"More than they already do?" I asked curiously
Weren't we enough? I mean he was only a baby after all!!!
"Yes!! I mean no!!!" she said
"What Lily is trying to ask you for the past century…" James intervened mockingly and she huffed
"…Is that if you want to be our son's godmother!!" he continued
What???????
"Huh??" was the only thing I said
"Oh, Izzie!!! You delivered him!!!! You love him!!! Please you are perfect for the job!!!!!" Lily said anxiously
"I'm also a vampire in case you two haven't noticed!!!" I told them
"Since when did that stopped them??" Remus asked sarcastically
"Oh, come on, Izzie!!! Sirius already said yes!!!!" Lily begged
"You're going to be the godfather?" I asked
"Yeap!!! Someone's got to teach that kid a couple of useful things to know!!!" he answered with a goofy grin and I narrowed my eyes at him
Honestly, Sirius??? Couldn't they find someone quiter??? He would turn little Harry into a gangster!!!!!
"Alright!!!" I said "Someone's got to teach the kid some manners!!!" I complied and Lily shrieked crashing me into a hug
"Didn't I just said that, Swan?" Sirius asked me
"Didn't you mean me by that, Black?" I teased back and Lily giggled
"Oh, great!!! Now they won't stop fighting!!!" James whined and we all laughed
I was happy. After three depressing years I was happy; maybe not whole but definitely happy!!!
I looked at the faces of my family as they stood there laughing and I knew I was home….
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