Sorry it's been a while! March has sucked for me so far. It consists of psych evaluations, nail polish remover pouring onto my computer, and ending a friendship that meant a lot to me. This story seems to be the only thing I have anymore, so I will try not to disappoint. Anyways, I hope you enjoy this chapter! Enjoy :)
Emily and JJ both startled awake when they heard the loud knock on their door. It was Morgan, "Wake up, ladies! Wheels up in ten!" they heard his footsteps walking down the hallway, back to his own room. Emily groaned and pinched the bridge of her nose. "Ten minutes? Is that a joke? They should know by now that women take longer to get ready," Emily chuckled as JJ flopped back down onto the bed. Emily looked back at JJ and brushed some hair out of her face, "You don't need anything to look beautiful," Emily said, hushed. An almost-shocked look developed on JJ's face as she looked up at Emily. "E-Emily..." Emily smiled and squeezed JJ's hand, "Come on. Let's get dressed." Emily scooted herself off of the bed and made her way to the bathroom. JJ laid in bed and watched Emily weave in and out of the rooms, grabbing her stuff and putting it away in her bag. Emily stopped and looked at JJ, "Is everything ok?" JJ got out of bed and walked over to Emily, standing right in front of her. She looked up into Emily's eyes, "Yes I just..." JJ broke eye contact as she gathered her thoughts. Emily tilted her head slightly before she moved her hand slowly to JJ's face. She softly ran her fingers on JJ's smooth cheek before she slipped her hand under JJ's chin, tilting her head upward, "What is it, Jennifer?" "No one's ever treated me like you do. I just don't understand why you're so-" Emily cut JJ off, laying a small kiss on her lips. She waited for JJ to return the kiss before she pulled away. Emily smiled and cupped JJ's face in her hands, and JJ bit her lower lip. "You have to start realizing how amazing you are, Jayje. I wish you could see in yourself all that I see in you." Emily kissed JJ's forehead, JJ closing her eyes as she leaned herself into it. "We've only got about seven minutes so we need to hurry and finish packing ok?" JJ nodded and the two of them quickly danced around the room, picking up their stuff. Emily pulled pants, a purple long-sleeve shirt and a blazer from her bag, quickly changing. JJ groaned, "I really don't want to wear a suit," she whined. Emily chuckled and grabbed her suitcase. "I'll be waiting for you in the hall ok?" JJ turned and smiled at Emily, "I'll be out in a minute." Emily smiled back and slung her go-bag over her shoulder, quietly exiting the room.
Emily leaned against the wall a few feet away from the room door. She heard footsteps coming down the hall, and she smiled as she saw a friend approaching. "Hey there, pretty lady!" Morgan smiled widely. "Hey, Derek." Morgan leaned against the wall next to Emily, "Where's little Miss Pennsylvania Petite?" Emily chuckled and shook her head, "Jennifer is getting changed. She'll be out in a minute." "So how are things going between you two?" Emily's thoughts wandered and a small smile crossed her face, "She's amazing, Derek." Derek looked down and gave a soft smile, "I'm happy for you two. You deserve each other." Emily looked up at her friend and said, "Thank you."
The door of the hotel room opened and JJ stepped out, carrying her go-bag by the straps. While everyone else was wearing suits, JJ wore thick grey sweats and a dark blue tank top. Emily swallowed hard when she looked over JJ, noticing the little details about her outfit: how her tank top rode up so it was just under her belly button, her defined hip bones clearly visible, and how her purple laced panties settled just above the top of her sweats in the front. Emily opened her mouth as if to say something, but she hesitantly closed it again, at a loss for words. Morgan looked JJ over and smiled, "Damn girl!" He put his hand in the air, and JJ gave him the high-five he was looking for. JJ turned her attention back to Emily, "Too much?" JJ asked. "N-No. Not at all," Emily struggled to take her eyes off of JJ. JJ giggled when she noticed Emily becoming slightly red. Emily crossed her arms over her chest and looked away, "This is going to be a tough plane ride," she mumbled, biting her lip. "Uh oh. Here comes the big man," Morgan said as he saw Hotch coming out of his room. The three of them became eerily silent as Hotch made his way down the hall. He stopped next to the trio and looked JJ up and down. After a moment of silence he said, "Let's go," and continued walking. Emily and Morgan looked at JJ, eyes wide with shock. JJ smiled and shrugged walking between the two of them and continuing down the hall. "She's... something," Morgan said, raising his eyebrows. "She's mine," Emily smiled happily before running down the hallway after JJ.
The team all took their seats on the plane, Morgan tuning out with his music, Rossi and Hotch taking a nap, Reid nose-deep into a thick novel, and Emily and JJ texting each other. You can't do that to me. Emily pressed send and waited for JJ to respond. Do what?
Dress like that. You don't know what that does to me :P
Well why don't you show me when we get home? ;) ;) ;)
Emily's face flushed a deep red. Emily felt so confused with JJ. She'd always been dominate in past relationships, and she wanted to be dominate with JJ, but JJ seemed to be taking control, which was surprising to Emily. She thought that, if anything, JJ would be quiet and reserved and submissive. Emily thought about what JJ had said before, about having walls that will be near impossible to break down. Maybe that's what this was: her walls.
May I ask you something?
Sure :)
You promise you won't be mad?
As long as you don't ask for my opinion on our break-up ;)
This is weird to ask, and please don't feel like you have to answer. You don't strike me as the dominant type. Yet, during our relationship, that's what you've been fighting for. Have I just... misread you or is there something else?
This time, Jennifer was the one to blush. JJ gnawed at her cheek as she pondered what to say.
Like I said, please don't feel pressured to answer. I just want to understand you, J.
JJ peeked up from her phone screen, peering at Emily from behind her hair. She smiled at Emily and held up a finger; Give me just a minute. JJ sat and stared at her phone screen for a while, while she thought about her answer. As she fell deeper and deeper into her thoughts, she began to realize that there were so many reasons, and that this would be a long text. JJ began to type quickly on her phone, not stopping because her thoughts moved straight from her mind to her thumbs. Emily began to tense up as she realized what a lengthy message this was, not nervous about having to read it, but being able to read it and understand.
I hope you are ok with hearing about mine and Will's relationship, because that's where a lot of this comes from: You know that when I was ten, my sister took her own life. You also know that for a majority of my life, I blamed myself for not being good enough for her. After my sister died, I started to build up these walls because I didn't want to hurt any more people. When people got too close, I pushed them away, not because I wanted to, but because I felt I had to. Pushing people away became habit, one that I still struggle with. Meeting you and Penelope and the rest of the team helped me, but not by much. I see so much hurt and tragedy every day, I just couldn't take being the cause of any more. When I was in relationships, they were terrible. I could never open up and commit, and I was very dominate over the other person because they did whatever I wanted so they would get my attention. Then, when Will came, it was different. He had walls too. This time, he was dominate, and he wouldn't take no for an answer. When I didn't want to do something, he forced me to. It was a struggle to get to work every day. Every time I left on a trip, he thought I was leaving because I was having an affair. I was living under a microscope. Even after joining the team, my walls built back up again. I didn't argue anymore, didn't fight. And now that Will is gone, I am just afraid to get hurt again. I know you won't hurt me, Emily, and I'm trying to get over this, I swear, but it's hard for me.
JJ hit send and sighed. She heard Emily's phone buzz and watched as her eyes scanned from side to side on he screen. She felt a flutter of relief when Emily nodded her head as she neared the end of the text. Then, her heart filled with warmth when she saw the small caring smile that was on Emily's face as she typed.
You're right JJ, I am not going to hurt you, but I understand that 20 years worth of walls will not be easy to overcome. I really appreciate that you're trying, sand I know it is a hard thing to do, but just know that I will be there every step of the way to support you. And if there is something you're struggling with, I'm here to help. I just want to make you feel safe.
JJ lifted her arm and wiped the tears from her face. As she caught a glimpse of the sympathetic smile of Emily's face, she laughed. JJ had never felt more at home with anyone in a long time. JJ felt safe and warm and loved unconditionally by Emily. She knew that she wanted to feel this way for the rest of her life, and she felt that was possible with Emily. JJ stood from her seat, "Want some coffee?" Emily smiled, "Please." JJ returned the smile and made her way back to the coffee pot in the back of the jet. Emily's phone buzzed in her hand. She unlocked the phone and read the text: Hello, Lauren. Thought you could fool me? Think again. Emily's eyes widened in shock as she saw that the sender was a blocked number. When JJ came back, she could immediately tell that somethign was wrong. "Em?" She asked, sitting down and placing the second cup in front of Emily. Emily swallowed hard before she turned to JJ. Her face was pale and her eyes were wide with fear. JJ set her own cup down, nervous. "Emily, what is it?" Emily took a deep breath, her breath staggered, "I need to tell you something." JJ nodded. "I need to tell you about Ian Doyle."
:O bu bu baaaaaaaaah! I even startled myself when I typed his name! Hopefully, this will bring a lot more exciting things to the table for Emily and JJ, their relationship will deepen, and they will have to get through a very difficult situation together. So excited! I hope you liked it: please leave a comment below if you liked it, didn't like it, want to see something else, etc.