Gabriellas POV

December 30

I would love to say my new year resolution is to tell everyone especially Troy what is going on. Josh came to visit on the 10th and 18th but I haven't heard from him since. Hopefully he's had his fun and is done. Things have gotten really distant between the Wildcats and I, I say hi but I don't talk to any of them and I feel bad for not telling them. I'm just scared Jason Chad Zeke and even Ryan are like my brothers and when they hear I don't know how they'll react I really sadly don't. I too scared to go to sleep happy or even with a smile on my face I mean I have to freaking cry myself to sleep every night and, and I hate it. I know I'll regret not telling them sooner, I mean the longer you wait the more they will hate. Im freaking out right? I mean they would be there for me right? Well I have thought of running away, but im too much of a wimp to do that. Sports start soon well track at least, everything like starts a season early here since it's always so nice. I could use that as a way to escape.

I lost about 10 pounds in the past month and now i'm telling my thoughts until it is officially a new year. I of course am scared the count down to getting my cast off is starting in 15 minutes. I get this rachet thing off on the 5. I so could wait but I've e-mailed the doctor and already told her that I haven't told ANYONE. She was disappointed but said she knew I was most liekly really scared. I'm glad someone understands, Im just going to start getting gray hairs one day from all this stressing out.

January 5 (the big day omg)

Today is the worst day of my life I can already tell. I have asked everyone who means anything to come today. Mom, dad, Tony, Lizzie, Coach and Mrs. Bolton, Troy, Tessa, Chad, Taylor, Sharpay, Zeke, Jason, Kelsi, Ryan. I really think I'll just ditch and wish Dr. Greene the best of luck. I know my brother will be overprotective even if he's gone. The guys will constantly question any guy I talk to, and Taylor, Sharpay, and Kelsi will bne at my hip. And Troy well i don't know exactly how Troy will react, even though I've known him forever I know he's not predictable. I wish he was though then I'd know what to exspect. I don't know what my parents will do, they most likely will try to be home more and we all know that won't happen. I feel bad for not telling anyone. I've writin so many songs about this situation I got myself in just because of one name. Troy.

Hospital

"Alright Gabriella we can see your arm again! It looks fine go clean it a little and then we'll go tell your friends why they're all here." Dr. Greene was so sweet I gave hera big hug.

"Thank you so much, for everything." Then I went to wash my arms a little. When I was walking back I walked really slow like I was a bride walking down the aisle except I wasn't happy and I didn't have a prince waiting for me.

"Are you sure you want to do this Gabriella?" Once she said this everyone looked immediatly worried. they looked at me and all I did was nod my head. I decided to lighten the mood a little.

"You guys aren't here to see my arm since you could have seen it later." everyone chuckled a little but I knew I couldn't joke about the next part. I started to tear up and tears fell down my cheek and I looked at Dr. Greene. And almost as though she could read my mind she started to tell a story. But the story of the past two months.

"Well everyone we are here to talk about Gabriella and what she's been through the past two months." I looked up and then heard a thunder strike. I jumped slightly everyone knew I hated thunder and was scared to death of storms. Maybe it was a sign, a sign I should be scared of whats coming next.

"What do you mean what she's been through? What has she been throgh?" Taylor was crying already and she didn't know what was going on. I didn't have the heart to look at her, I was already crying hard enough.

"Now have any of you been in a situation where you were abused in any way?" No one said anything everyone just looked from me to Dr. Greene.

"Well unfortunately Gabriella has," I could hear all the other women especially my mom lisa and Taylor crying and everyone just looking shocked.

"Now when Mrs. Bolton brought Gabriella to the hospital I noticed tons of scarpes and bruises on her left side. I took notice and asked her about it but she wanted to tell you herself. But she was afraid that since she hadn't told you in the first place that you would be mad. I'm not sure who the young man is that was abusing her but when she came back for her checkup mid December i noticed that things had gotten worse." she paused and took a deep breath so everyone could take in what she had said. I started to panic I could hear some of the guys breathing really hard like if they saw him they'd pound him. Then Dr. Greene squeezed my hand as if to tell me things would be alright then she continued.

"When she came on the 19th she had very serious kick marks on her stomache. She told me how she was taking her medication and all but she kept throwing up because of the pain in her stomache. I told her to exercise her stomache muscles and strenghthin them and she tells me thatit worked. I just thought you all would like to know what she has been going through. Then she left the room. I felt all of their eyes on me I felt like I was going tto pass out.

"RRrrooaarrrrrrrrr!!!" (idk what does thunder sound liek? oh well keep going) I jumped at the sound of the thunder. And decided to look up and for some reason even though everyones eyes were on me which might i add I hate. But the only eyes I saw were Troy's, he was crying and i could tell but I couldn't read his face like I usually could. See what I'm saying this guy is so unpredictable. He started crying harder then left the room, as if everyone planned i or something they started firering questions at me. I mean didn't they hear a word that came out of her mouth? I have just gone through something and you all were giving the responce I was scared of the most. But I didn't care I just wanted to be alone, I just wanted to cry, but not just anywhere. I want to cry in the rain because even though i hate it no one can notice my tears.

"Troy," I said to myself but for some strange reason taylor heard me. She knelt by me and as if no one noticed since they kept asking questions.

"Go, go talk to him. Run as fast as you can and get him because I know you love him and he loves you with his heart. But we all know Troy he has trouble with emotions. Just go but be careful." She squeezed my hand and whipped my tears but it didn't do any good since they kept coming. I smiled the first time at her and I got up took a breathe and ran. I ran through the hallways and didn't even bother the elevator and took the stairs. I knew Troy and I knew where he was and what he was doing. He was outside and was tkaing a walk even though it was raining shoes and credit cards outside.

As soon as I opened the front doors of the hospital i was soaked and I didn't care that all I was wearing was a jacket and tank. I loved this guy and if things got weird I don't think I'd ever forgive myself. I thought about it for a while where is the closest park? Troy and I had a thing for going to parks so we could think. something about them just attracted both of us. I have no idea what it was but it was just lovingat parks I guess. I know I must have looked crazy running in the rain for a guy I loved since I was like 4.

Then I found him. He was sitting on a bench looking off into space. I didnt know what to do really but I had an idea. I had to sing.(Ashlee Simpson Catch me when I fall)

I hide behind a big tree near him take a deep breathe and sing.

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
That when the lights are off
something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done and everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall

Troy is looking for me but I'm hiding behind a tree I know im smart but I must face him some time.

When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
Who will be the one to save me from myself

I come around the tree and see him looking for me then our eyes meet and I don't care about the rain I'm crying either way.

Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
That sometimes loneliness is just a part of me

Troy gets up and starts walking over to me with tears in his eyes. I bet he's think thatnk god for the rain.

Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall

I look in those blue eyes I love and hate so much.

"why didn't you tell me? I mean if I would have know I would have-"

"You wouldn't have done anything you would have let me handle it."

"Getting hurt for nothing isnt handling it! Why did who ever this jackass is do this to you? What did you ever do?"

"I called him a name when we were walking through the park it was our first date and our last. He said it was a beautiful night and then I called him a name." I was scared contemplating weather to kiss him or not. No out of the question we're just friends should I tell him the name I called the guy was troy.

"What did you call him a wimp?" I couldn't help but laugh but then i remembered our rule but I still had crying to do.

"No, something else,"

"Well what?"

"I, I called him Troy." I looked down and then at him. He had this big smile on his face. I was going to ask him why he was smileing after everthing but then he started to talk.

"Listen I'm here for you and Ill beat any guy up for you. Because i love you and I'd hate for anything to happen to you Gabriella."

"Well thanks Troy, I love you too." We just stood there and stared at him both of us soaked from head to toe. I really couldn't tell what he was thinking sbout but I'm glad that I got that off my chest. For some reason I felt like none of the abuse had even happend. Like it was all bad dream. I'm glad to say it wasn't. I knew I'd be sick tomarrow since one I haven't taken my meds yet and I havent eaten. Also because I'm standing in the rain in a jacket with a tank top on. Yea im so sick tommarrow. On the other hand Troy was dressed in a jacket and it was waterproof yes I'm jealous but no I don't want his coat I'm fine right were I am.

"Troy?"

"Yea" he answered in that voice that makes me weak.

"Will you please kiss me already?" He smiled and leaned down and I swear I heard bells. Yes I know this is a cheesy thing to sya but I felt his passion as he deepend the kiss. Now I can't say we kissed as friends because even Id be ling to myself. But I don't want a boyfriend just yet I want us to ease into this so everything is just perfect. We broke the kiss and had the biggest smiles on our faces. we turned back to the hospital and wlked hand in hand with smiles on our faces still. When we got to the door though I got warm chill up my back so i knew I was now and officially sick good thing tommarrows just Friday but it won't be that bad. I hope. :) sorry guys but heads up everyone gets sick

"Ahhhhhhh-Chooo!" I sneezed when we walked passed the front desk to the elevator.

"I see Dr. Troy will be visiting his favorite patient very soon." Then he put both arms around my waist and his head on my shoulder and we walked upstairs ready for alot of talking mostly to me though.

Wow took me like 2 hours to get perfect lol. please oh please review i love you all. Thanks :)