353 days before
"Tris, I would hang out but I promised my little sister that I would take her to the pier. I know you understand, right?" I sit cross legged on my bed, talking to Christina on the phone. "Anyways, I have to go. See you later."
"Bye," I say quietly. I guess I could go buy more paint since I'm almost out of several colors. Or maybe I could—
My phone rings. "I am bored," Tobias says the second I pick up. "Shauna's stuck babysitting her little brother, Zeke has to work, and Uriah and Marlene have planned to spend the day with each other." He sighs, and I smirk. The feeling of boredom is universal between us.
"Well, I was only planning on getting more paint and then binge watching a bunch of Studio Ghibli films, but we can do something," I suggest.
There is a moment of silence between us. "Come over here and we can think of something," I say to him, wanting to break the silence.
He thinks about this on the other line and says, "Okay. Wait, right now?"
"Yes now!"
…
"I am very bored. Like, it should be illegal to be this bored," I whine, playing with Tobias' hair. We sit on the couch watching some documentary about octopus reproduction on Animal Planet.
"I know exactly how you feel, Tris," he mumbles. "Though octopus reproduction is so interesting, I'd rather we do something else." I find myself blushing at his words and I don't know why. Maybe it's because his sarcasm is so cute…
"Tris what are you thinking about?" Crap! He saw me. I stop playing in his hair and scoot away from him to prevent kissing him again. We haven't even known each other that long and even if we did, I don't think I would be ready for a boyfriend anyway.
I have never been in a relationship. I remember in high school when Christina dated almost every boy in the tenth grade. Every time Chris got a new boyfriend, she would run off and leave Uriah, Marlene, and I. I liked seeing Christina happy, but I sometimes envied her. I wanted to know what it was like to have someone be beyond your friend. I wanted to know what if felt like to kiss someone you think you love but deep down inside, you know it won't last longer than a month.
Tobias smirks at me. "I think you already know this—it's kinda obvious—but I think I might be in love with you." I raise my eyebrows at him.
"No you don't," I say, shaking my head. "You can't love someone you've known for about two weeks."
"Says who?" He raised his eyebrows at me. "The love police? Oh wait, they don't exist." His sarcasm doesn't seem cute anymore.
"I-I don't know if I'm ready to be in a relationship with you," I say, lowering my voice. "I mean, I think I love you too, but we shouldn't base a relationship on a thought, right? If we ever want to date each other—I don't know why you'd want someone like me in the first place—we should take our time now. I really enjoy hanging out with you and I don't want to mess it up just because we rushed things."
He stares at me for a moment, then smiles. "You're absolutely right. So, we should hold off on kissing?" He blushes. I can't resist him and I hate myself for that. I move closer to him ad peck his lips. It's barely a kiss anyway, but he touches the back of my neck and pulls me in a for a deeper one. Damn you for having this affect on me, Tobias.
I wrap my arms around his waist in an attempt to be closer to him, but there's a limit to everything, I guess. I feel his hand loosen the already loose bun on my head while the other hand is on my hip. Stop right now. Pull away before things get out of hand.
When I finally break the kiss, I get lost in the deep blue of his eyes. They're like an ocean, pulling me in to where I can't breathe. Only releasing me when they choose to. Yes, I hate this affect on me. Maybe I hate it because it's a new experience for me, as I've never fallen in love with anyone before.
I sigh and look away. I have to distract myself or I'll end up making some decisions I'll regret. "Let's make brownies," I say, getting up and walking towards the kitchen. I had to get off that couch.
"Awesome," he says hopping up and following me.
…
Thirty minutes later, the brownies are in the oven ans Tobias and I are covered in batter. Halfway through mixing the batter, Tobias wiped a dab of batter on my nose and it went downhill from there.
Tobias notices the dirty paintbrushes in the sink. "You paint?" His face lights up when he asks this question. I nod and he smiles a smile so big that it goes to his eyes. "I wanna see something you've done!"
I blush a little. "I uh, don't really like showing people my paintings." I scratch the back of my head. "I'm not the best…"
"You're still talented," he says, still staring at the paintbrushes. "I can't draw for crap. My talent is music, I guess."
I sigh, take his hand, and lead him into my room. In here are a few paintings, my easel, and paintbrushes scattered all over the paint covered carpet. His eyes dart immediately to the painting of the stars. "When'd you paint that, Tris?"
"I'm not proud of that one."
"Why? It looks amazing. I'd never be able to do that," he crosses his arms.
"I could teach you," I suggest. "And you could teach me an instrument. And we can bond," I take a step closer to him. "We can get to know each other," I take another step closer and wrap my arms around his waist. He leans his so our noses touch. "And maybe something beautiful can happen."
His lips crash into mine as soon as the last word leaves my mouth. This is what it feels like to be in love. I liked him from the moment I met him, but today I realized that I am in love. I don't care if we've known each other for a short period of time. Time doesn't wait on anyone, so why should we? Sometimes one day is all it can take for someone to fall in love.
The beeping of the oven timer is the only thing that gets us to pull away from that kiss. Yes, I am in love with him, if this is love. What defines love anyway? How long you've known someone, your interests? No, I think fate and love go hand in hand. Some people are meant to spend their lives alone. And some people find the person they were meant to be with from the start. Is Tobias the boy I was meant to be with? Am I his girl?
…
After we built a fortress out of blankets and pillows and watched numerous Disney movies for nostalgic purposes, we fell asleep next to each other. His hand around my waist, my arms around his neck and my head in his shoulder. He woke up around midnight and took me to bed before heading back to his apartment. But I found myself not able to sleep.
I grabbed some paints—three different shades of blue—and a canvas. I began to smear the blue paint all over the blank surface. I took a smaller paintbrush and dipped it in black paint and began to sketch the outline of a girl lost in the sea of blue.
I am the girl lost in the sea of blue.
This picture will represent Tobias and I's relationship.
I am an awful updater. I'm not even gonna say I got busy, because I didn't (except for Tuesday. I just got braces. They're blue). But whatever, sorry for the shorter chapter.
I was thinking about posting a three part story sometime next week. A Christmas gift from me to my loyal readers (sorry if you don't celebrate Christmas). It will be based off the song Adventure Of A Lifetime by Coldplay and have the same title. I'm off from school for two weeks so that's great.
This will probably be the last One Day chapter of 2015. Man has this year flown by.
In other news, I will be 14 in about 3 months. (B-day March 4th. Hehe. 4.)
Well, I'll update again in January. I'm going to spend this time off to enjoy my family. Hope you enjoy the holidays, no matter what you believe in.