I'm not in love with her. Sure, she's the prettiest thing in the whole world. And yeah, I cannot look into her eyes without smiling(unless there are tears in them because then I'm getting ready to kick the ass of whoever made her cry). And so what if I can't stop thnking about her. But I'm not in love with her. Finn's an asshole for hurting her like he did. And him kissing Quinn? Just brought up his douche level from Bag-o-douche to Lord of the Douches. He was a shitty boyfriend to her anyways! He never stood up for her(like I did) and he never treated her like a princess(like I still do) and he never cared(like I always will). I didn't stop kissing her because for Finn-I stopped kissing her because I knew she would regret it. If it weren't for that, I could have kissed her for hours. And I was the who held her as she cried her beautiful, brown eyes out after Finn 'offically' dumped her in the tree lot. We somehow always push each other. I push her to act more like a normal high school and she pushes me to do better in school. And I was scared for her during that football game, and I planned to kick whosever ass touched her just to score a fucking touchdown. She gave me advice on how to get Lauren to like me(which didn't work) and I helped her realize she didn't need Finn to be happy. I was the one who helped her when she heard about Quinn and Finn. I didn't just sing Need You Now with her because I wanted to make Finn jealous(okay half the reason)-I wanted to hear how our voices mixed together and it sounded amazing. And, yeah, I am her best friend. I am the one who gave her the chance to be who she was while everyone just laughed at her. I hated my self for not standing up and saying I agreed with her when she suggested original song ideas. I always told her how she was my princess, and how pretty she was but she always told me to shut up like I was joking even when I wasn't. Her smile can simply just melt my heart away with just a single glance at it and every time I hear her laugh my heart beats just a little is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen but I would never admit that to anyone, not even her. Every day I just want to die for all the things I did to her when we weren't friends. And I keep dreaming about the sweet kisses we shared when we were dating or when we kissed while she dated Finn. All I really want is to be the one who gets to kiss her and hold her and be the only she thinks about. But I'm not in love her. I swear I'm not! Just...just...shut up.